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ductape4evr

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It's been a few years, but I am back again. As is my norm, my interest in BDSM comes and goes every few years. But as usual, my innate need to please gets the better of me and I come back wanting to serve again. As I am no young spring chicken anymore, my wants and needs have changed a bit from the last time I was here. I want to please and to serve a true Dom. I thrive on making people happy. But I don't want to slip into my 30s just "playing" with people. I want to find a long term partner who has a solidly dominant personality, but that is willing and interested in being romantic and loving as a partner as well. I am sassy and strong and need to be able to let that shine, not constantly under the lock and key of some overbearing master. So if you don't have the confidence to handle that, best look elsewhere. I used to be into pain, breast torture, spanking, but my pain tolerance is just not there anymore, nor is the desire to be beaten like a rug. To quote a lady who knows what she is talking about, "Too much pain will spoil the pleasure." I enjoy bondage and the pain that comes with tight knots, and I really like rope burn/marks. I can see myself being into piercing play and dry tattoos and possibly branding. I'm not sure why, but I still find those types of pain to be incredibly erotic. I also like choking play, fisting (vaginal only) and what I call passionate biting. But as far as pain is concerned, that is about it. In answering the commonly asked question, "What are you looking for in a Dom?" my answers are usually a work in progress, with regular additions and subtractions. But here is what I have at the moment: What I really really want is a Dom who is truly turned on by being called Sir, and who gets off as much by just knowing that I want to please him as I do by actually pleasing him. Beyond that, I LOVE LOVE LOVE eye contact play/restrictions. It was beaten into me (literally) when I was first starting out, that eye contact is a no no. So once I feel you walking around freely inside my head, I simply cannot look you in the eye. Period. But being the good little mental masochist that I am, (mental torture is a fucking BEAUTIFUL thing) being physically forced to look into your eyes is one of the single most pleasurable, exhilarating and impossible things you can make me do. (And as for the "physically" bit, I find either putting your hand over my nose and mouth until I can't breathe, or wrenching my head upwards by the hair until I have no choice but to do it are about the best things ever, EVER.) Regarding HARD limits, I'll say this: Kids. Period. That's it. It actually pains me to tell a Dom no, so I won't to anything but that. Again, as far as hard, not now not ever, no matter how much discussion happens, no matter what conditions are involved, play involving people under the age of 18 is all I'll say. Anything else is at MINIMUM open to discussion. Being the eternal optimist, I prefer to leave wiggle room to say that anything has the possibility of happening under the right circumstances. My interest depends on the Dom's interests: the more he is turned on by something, the more I will be as well. To save us both some time, let me say this: I am heavyset, very tomboyish, and I have a rough time with my back. I do not see myself as property. This isn't 1850. If any of those things give you a problem, move on to someone else. I can't change who I am. But if you like what you have read, contact me. I am loyal, dedicated, and have lots to give...to the right Dom. You WILL be pleased by just how hard I'll challenge myself and how far I'll push myself to please you. If you have questions, ask them. I am open and honest. Happy hunting!

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9/12/2013 7:32:07 PM

**DISCLAIMER**

 

What I am about to say is NOT an invitation to sexually assault me randomly just because you recognize me on the street.  This is NOT consent for sexual activity of any kind.  Period.  I don't care what else it says on my profile about interests or curiosities.  What follows is merely my attempts at stepping out of my comfort zone and trying something new.  If you have questions about what's ok and what's not, ask me.

 

That being said, here is what I have to say:

 

I added a picture today of me in my highly recognizable car.  People know who I am the moment they see my car.  It really is one of a kind.  So.  Why should you care? 

 

I've always had issues with anxiety, particularly in social situations and with new people.  Yet there is something oddly appealing about knowing I could be out in public and that someone from this site would recognize me but I wouldn't know who they were or that they were on CM.  It would be a stretch for me, of course.  But I am banking on the theory that there's something about not being in control and the asymmetry of information in that situation that I would enjoy.  And let's be honest, if you are a Dom worth your salt, you'd enjoy it too.

 

So, what is all this?  Simple.  This is an invitation to say hello.  If you see me and recognize my car, in public, a parking lot, on the street, go ahead and say hi.  I don't want anyone belting out loud in public details about what's in my profile.  But if you want to introduce yourself and maybe mess with me a little, I encourage you to.  Just remember, enigmatic is good!  I want to be left guessing.  Have fun with it.  Just be smart about your discretion. 

 

Cheers,

 

E


8/22/2013 12:50:28 AM

I want my mind to be your jungle-gym


8/19/2013 12:38:00 PM

Random act of succinct description during a conversation with a Dom on here, just expanded upon to help paint a picture of what it is I seek:

 

I want to feel controlled, like you are a puppet master that is buried so far inside my head that you don't even need to touch the strings to move me.  You are controlling me from the inside out, not with physical force or threat of punishment, but because you are Dominant over me, mind and body.  You will me to move, to act, to speak or not to, to cry and to cease crying, to cum or not to, and to be filled with satisfaction and ecstasy I get from pleasing you, and I do it.  You will it and I am, I do, because you know what you are, and you make me what I am


8/16/2013 3:08:47 PM

Is it a bad sign that my submissive urges are getting so out of hand that I just caught myself day dreaming about getting dominated by Scar from Disney's The Lion King while driving past the Oakland Zoo?

 

On an unrelated note, I'm wondering if there's anyone out there willing to explore something a bit like a date rape scene, but that involves chemical restraint.  I'm certainly not interested in being slipped a roofie or anything, but between a little booze or a little something to smoke and some LEGAL prescription meds I have, I'm really turned on by the idea of being restrained and dominated mentally, physically, and chemically so as to be fully vulnerable and taken advantage of.  If you are open to the idea, and willing to have a lengthy conversation about safety first, I'd love to hear from you.


7/15/2012 3:22:30 PM

After talking to some people on here, and refining both my thoughts and my words, I figured I would give another go at really putting on paper (electronic paper, perhaps) what it is I crave.  It is still a work in progress, so I hope it makes sense.  So here goes...

 I seek to serve and to please.  Yes, that is a given.  But it goes beyond that.  I want to serve, please, satisfy a Dom until he himself is so pleased, his own pleasure becomes torture.  I want to use my body, and likewise let him use it, however he wants, in whatever way will please him.  I want his use of me to cause his arousal to be so intense that even he, as the Dom, as the one in control, must check his own self control.  As he takes me to the edge of pleasure, of pain, of nirvana, I want to take him there as well.  I want to please him so severely that even if for just a split second, he loses track of himself in me. 

 I realize there are many "I want's..." in there, but what I want, I want for him, for his pleasure, always.


7/5/2012 10:37:25 PM

I've been having a personal crisis for the past few months.  It's actually what's got me back on CM to begin with.  I went back to school this past January, confident as ever, never thinking I'd be confronted with this life at school.  But on the first day of class, I walked into His classroom and knew within 30 minutes that He was a Dom...a damn good one at that.  The following semester was hell.  I've tried as much as my courage would let me to hint to him that I'd give anything to serve Him.  Part of me thinks He knows; hell, part of me thinks He has been toying with me, when He could without risk of being heard by prying ears.  But I keep stepping back to that insecure little child that is hiding inside, doubting if He does know.  Then a wise man told me:

 "if you can see the Dom on him, I'm sure he can see the Sub on you."

 A thought that truly made me shudder...


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PlayfulJest
 
 Age: 47
 MANITOBA, Canada