"You Dont Need A Man. You Need A Champion." -Eat, Pray, Love-

Tired of seeing "Doms" say they are tired of all the fakes on this site. They say all the women are not real on here. Yet all their profile says is something along the lines of they are seeking a slut/fucktoy who will serve them and anyone else they tell them too (all of their friends). So if we aren't open to being ONLY a slut/fucktoy or being pimped out, we are not real? Um OK. I guess i am not real if that is all their criteria consists of. (Shaking my head in awe of the shallow ignorance.)

Had a nice time at the munch. I was paid a compliment, i was told i had the potential to be a great slave (slave not sub). Im flattered and honored to be seen in such a manner. Thank you.

I'm so tired of watching tv shows & movies and seeing couple so in love they cant live without each other.  I think its part jealousy.  Some day i want to find what all these other people found! That one person whose voice makes my heart skip a beat, his touch sends chills down my spine, the feel of his breath on my cheek takes my breath away.

I love stormy nights.  I hate lonely stormy nights.

The man takes the lead and it is the womans CHOICE to follow.  To follow takes as much strength as to lead.     Antonio Banderas  (excerpt from the movie:  Take the lead)

If a woman is a GOOD woman at 130 pounds & she gains 100 pounds, is she not still that same good woman? If a woman is a bitch at 250 pounds, is she no longer that same bitch just because she lost 100 pounds? Just wondering how the male mind works.

Arrogance is NOT a sign of Dominance.  If anything most subs are turned-off by it. (Just a thought)

WHY, Why, why ..... why is it so frikkin hard to find a REAL Dom, a real black Dom, a real attractive black Dom, a real attractive black Dom that isnt all about sex, kink, bbc, building a stable, pimpin?  (yes, sex and kink are important and fun and can be AMAZING, but there is sooo much more to the D/s dynamic than JUST that)  Can Y/you tell i am quite frustrated?  Beginning to wonder if dreamz really do ever some true.

I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss of her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it (city of angels)

***Just one of those lil pet peeves***

"I am a male Dominate".. AWW come on now, at least check the form of the word you are using if you are going to use it as a "title".  Or.. one might could question if the "Dominate" knows the difference between the 2 words (dominate/dominant). Minor issue, yes, but still annoying nonetheless.

I still wonder how/why anyone can call anyone else "fake" simply because they do not have the same interests or ideas on how the lifestyle should be lived.  IT IS ALL ABOUT PREFERNECE AND WHAT WORKS FOR THAT PARTICULAR INDIVIDUAL.  This lifestyle constantly preaches on acceptance because we are all so judged by society, yet we are so quick to judge within our own community.  (No i am not aiming this at any particular person, i just see people using the word "fake" on 3/4 of the profiles i see where they have had bad experience and because they werent compatible they call someone fake.)

The man takes the lead and it is the womans CHOICE to follow.  To follow takes as much strength as to lead.     Antonio Banderas  (excerpt from the movie:  Take the lead)

Honestly...  Can broken hearts, cold hearts, jaded hearts, scared hearts, bricked in hearts ever TRULY be mended, melted, comforted, relieved or released from the emotional confines???  Thank God for music, songs so well tell so many stories of pain, happiness or whatever your mood is.

As subs, we are often asked, "What do we offer?"  Why is it all Doms say, if asked what they offer is, "My Dominance."  Isnt there more to a man than his JUST his control?  Shouldnt there be more to a potential relationship than just that?

I hurt myself today 
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything
what have I become?
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
the feelings disappear  
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

(snips from a song of Johnny Cash)

A Life Upside Down

As she lay in her room, her pillow stained with black smudges from a combination of tears and mascara, her head pounding, she cries so hard she feels as tho her head will surely explode.  No, wait, that would be relief, she couldn’t be so lucky.  She lies there her heart and mind in turmoil and torment with no hope of relief to be seen.  She tries to clear her mind, at least enuff to sort her thoughts so that she might try to find a way to make it at least bearable.  So much going on, so much not happening, too much of this and this and this and not enuff of that or that or that.  It isn’t working, she cant even concentrate.  She feels as if she were a towel, used up and thrown in the drier; her life is going around and around and tossing her here and there and upside down and karma is playing evil games with her. If it is not karma, maybe it is God, but if it is God, when does he realize she is at the edge of insanity, and cannot take any more.  When will she find relief, when will she be granted some release from this bond of torment and torture.  It seems nothing is going right in her life, no end in sight, it is like her torment is linked to the evil pink energizer bunny and keeps going and going and going.  If only she could just escape, just get out and run away from it all.  Would that help?  Would that make it worse?  Home is supposed to be her refuge, yet all she wants is to get out, He is supposed to make it all better, yet all she does is cry because He will not speak to her in her time of need, her family could help- no- they will only make matters worse, her friends could help her- no- she has none.  She has to keep it all bottled up til she feels like a soda that’s been shaken vigorously and ready to explode.  But she tries with what little self control she has left within her not to, she knows once she explodes there is no turning back, there is too much at stake for such actions.  She knows if she explodes she will hurt herself more than anyone, then again would anyone even notice, would anyone even really care.  She knew deep down inside that it would happen.  She had been going through a few weeks where it seemed everything was actually going to be ok in her life, that feeling is rare for her, but as always is never very long lasting, and is followed by the cyclone she is fighting her way thru again.  She will get thru it, she is tough, she is tough isn’t she?  Is she tough enuff?  Yes she is.  Then again everyone, even the strongest toughest of men have their breaking points.  She is a survivor, or so she has been told.  Yes she will get thru this, she has done it before and will do it again.  She looks at the things she had laid out when she was frantic, shoves everything into the drawer, tells herself, she is tough, she is a survivor, she will overcome these obstacles and will be a better woman for it, yes, she will indeed.  As she smiles at the momentary relief she has found and drifts off to sleep, a restless yet greatly needed sleep after the week she has had.  She reminds herself, its just the blues, and blue aint her color, snap out of it girl, and wipes her eyes one last time and nods off to attempt to rest her weary mind and heavy heart.

(stay tuned for part 2)

You scored as a Masochism

The Submissive Type Test
Your Score:  Slave
You Scored:  76% Submissiveness, 67% Service, 61% Pain, 13% Humiliation 

You're the slave, you scored high in both submissiveness and service, you probably want to be owned by someone, you feel the need to relinquish your power over to someone else and to service him. You are the ideal partner for 24/7 Owner/slave relationships, whether you like or dislike pain is a matter of taste, hence with humiliation, but I would bet that the chances are you enjoy them sometimes but the most important thing is whether your Dom will enjoy doing those things to you. Good luck in finding your best relationship :)

Okcupid! The submissive Type Test

**  i dont want a man i can merely live with, i want the One i cant live without!  **