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  I'm not really sure what to put here since I'm not even sure I really belong here in the first place.  In my mind, I'm not really into BDSM per se so much as spanking and discipline.  Though I'm thoroughly modern and fairly liberal with regard to most things.  I'm hopelessly old fashioned in my ideas about relationships.  I believe in submitting to my partner as head of household, and giving him both the power and the responsibilty to protect and guide.  That's what it's really about for me.

Yes, spanking is sexy and I'm open to it as erotic play, including roleplay and possibly light bondage, but it's the context of the relationship that matters.  I'm not into one night stands or casual hookups.  And It's NOT about Pain for me.  There's nothing wrong with that, it's just not what does it for me.

I'm a teacher and have a Master's degree and can hold an intellectual conversation any day of the week.  However, I'm also a country girl at heart.  I love animals and kids and can hold my own anywhere from a dirt track raceway to a neighbor's fishpond.

I'll be honest and say straight out that I have cerebral palsy and use a wheelchair.  It's the reality of my life, but it doesn't effect my brain or my needs.  I'm not embarassed by it nor do I mind talking about it so if you want to know ask.  There's no such thing as a stupid question, but there are plenty of stupid assumptions, especially when it comes to sexuality and disability.

Due to working with teenagers in a public school, I'm not comfortable putting up a photo here, but I'm perfectly willing to send one privately once we get to know one another.


9/28/2009 5:47:17 PM
As with anything in life, as we learn and explore, we grow and change.  We redefine our needs, or maybe more accurately in my case, more clearly define what we needed in the first place.

Some time ago, a friend I met here asked me if thought possibly deep down I might be looking for a Daddy Dom.    My first reaction was no because my only association with the term was age play and AB play.  And while I have no problem with either and can even see a certain attraction to some elements of age play, I knew that wasn't all I needed.  However, the notion intrigued me enough to make me do some research on the term, and the more I read about the more general meaning of the term, as caregiver, protector, leader, and disciplinarian, the more I'm convinced that is indeed what I want and need.

However, I've also discovered I have a bratty side.  There are moments, especially when I'm stressed, that I deliberately push limits.  Some have said that means I'm just playing games or that I'm not really submissive, but I disagree.  To me, it simply means I need the reassurance of knowing the boundaries and the consequences of breaking them are still there.  It's not an act or a game, it's just who I am.  If that's not something you understand or can handle, then move on.
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 Age: 32
 Akron, Ohio