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We hold a once a month round table/ play party in the Kalamazoo area of Michigan. It is the 3rd Friday of every month. Please send a message to faith@red-moon-rising.com for information.
We are a Married MaleDom/fem sub couple. Looking for friends, not really playmates, we've had a few poly relationships but not actively looking for one. My Sir isn't online very often, so basically the profile is for me to explore. I have the love of my life in my Sir. I love talking with people though and sharing experiences and learning from others. I do not require permission to speak with others, my Sir knows about my profile and is encouraging when it comes to me talking to others, and possibly learning something new. I have in the past shared my sir with another sub, as well as been shared as a submissive with a female Dominant. I will NOT sub full time for another male.
We spend quite a bit of time in Michigan as well, we manage a swing club there, which is very fetish friendly.
So drop me a line if you'd like to chat.
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Someone who used to be a friend of mine said trust is the key to any relationship. It just so happens that I think she meant that very one sided. She expects to be able to trust the people she's with, but it's okay for her to do what ever the f she pleases. I have come to realize this person whom I was very much in love with is no different than the one she claimed to be so unlike. Actually she is way different she was so much worse, I didn't love the other one. I did love her.
I really hope the sex was worth it, you just threw away a person for it, so hope it was incredible.
I have come to a point and time in my life where I completely believe all women are a pain in the ass, I really never want another relationship with one again. At least with men you know where you stand. You understand where they're coming from. Women manipulate and get you to believe them, then when you least expect it, slap you upside the head with something so totally unexpected. Women play way to many games.
I don't know how anyone in a true triad relationship with 2 women makes it work. I thought really at one point we had found the key. We were best of friends, I stupidly thought our relationship was a primary one. I stupidly thought I mattered to her too. I spent my time and energy to pick her up, life her spirits and I got kicked in the face for doing so. As much love as I once had for her, in one final straw has become hate.
I hate the fact she made me feel that way too. I hate the fact that I will never again trust another female in my life. I hate that I let her get the best of me. I hate that I gave up so much for her for over a year and a half, for her to do this crap to me. I hate that I ever loved her.
The only thing I get to come away with this from is she's the one who screwed up, and she's the one who looses out. She had the love of 2 people unconditionally, people who would have done anything for her. Now I have no love for her, and she at the very least looses me. What a pathetic end to what once was what I thought was a beautiful relationship.
I really hope that was some awesome incredible sex, worth throwing someone you said you cared about away for.
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Thought for the Day:
People who snoop suck!
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Time....Time really sucks, it usually goes by way to fast and there's never enough of it no matter how much sleep you miss. We as people spend way to much time on the things that are necessary yet meaningless, such as work. Yes we get a pay check out of it, and we all need money to survive, but it takes that precious time away from those whom we love and want to spend more time with.
Having said that....i'm feeling a real lack of Master's time lately, he's always working and when he's not he's so tired, there just isn't time for much else other than sleep. I am finding it very hard to be a slave without a master to serve. I feel like at times I am going crazy and i'm not always sure what to do with myself. It's not Master's fault and I'm not placing blame, just venting. Work and mone are necessary evil's, I just wish they didn't interfere so much with our happiness.
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I haven't posted in awhile, only because I feel it's pointless to take up space when you really have nothing important or exciting to say.
I was talking to a few subbie friends of mine though and we got on the subject of mental stimulation.
For me as a sub I enjoy a lot of mental stimulation , sometimes more than the physical. I can have a mental orgasm and actually feel the physical results. It's not hypnosis, but the right dom can put me in the right frame of mind to feel exactly what they tell me to feel, even when they are doing something completely different. This also works with calming my fears over something (like a shot) and making me feel completely safe. My Dom has this ability, I'm not sure why, maybe it's just a lot of trust but he can mentally put me in the mood for just about anything just by the way he talks with me. He can give me an orgasm or deny them through speech, he can make the same thing feel good or bad dependant on how he tells me it feels.
I felt this only one other time and it wasn't as complete as with my Dom, but it did make the demo we were doing at the time that much easier to do, by being able to block out almost everyone else around us.
As us subs talked I realized the difference for me between a good scene and a bad one, the lack of mental stimulation before hand. That calming tone my Dom uses as he speaks always gets me in that right frame of mind to enjoy the scene and let go. A few of the other subs identified and understood what I meant and some didn't so we explored this topic for quite awhile.
It was interesting to hear the different perspectives on what each of us required to make a scene feel complete for us, and what sent us flying. We we're all very similar in nature with simple differences. Aftercare seemed to be where everyone differed a bit. For me aftercare is a big thing, I need to be able to feel my Dom right there next to me and usually have some time at his feet with my head in his lap afterwrds. The intensity of the scene usually determines just what I need afterwards, and I am so comfortable enough with my Dom that I can tell him when I've had enough or if I need more, for us that works well. He's great about letting me have all the time I need in his lap afterwards and it's just a really peaceful place for me.
Some didn't require the mental stimulation, but prefered it, and those who never really had it or didn't understand it thought it would be interesting to try. Mostly because they liked the idea of being able to come on command, or with a hand gesture. Being able to turn physical pain into absolute pleasure can be a lot of fun.
So I guess my point to this whole thing was I learned a little bit about myself through talking with others. I really never realized how much just his speach meant to me until we started pointing out more and more about that mental stimulation. Through his words I usually find what I thought was impossible not only possible but also very enjoyable for me.
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When the BDSM crowd is as the club we seem to draw many questions from curious vanillas. We had a few people there over the weekend who wanted to take that plunge to the dark side but just weren't sure how to start out or what things they actually wanted to try. I've come to realize I am really good at explaining what this whole thing is about. I'm not bragging really, I'm just surprised with myself. I never thought at anytime in my life, I would be helping others develop their kink. I have found a love for talking about and sharing the lifestyle though.
We did a flogging and bondage demo at our club awhile back. I volunteered to be the sub flogged. I got a lot of questions back then, and found I didn't at all mind answering them. We even had a few people then ask about trying out a few things. It feels good to be able to help others explore their fantasies and desires. We're fortunate to have quite a few experienced members of this community apart of our swing club community.
I also tried my hand at woodworking, I created 2 paddles for my Sir. It was very cool when he proudly showed them off and even loaned them out. I guess I had done a good job. I even got asked to make one for one of the newer couples in the lifestyle. I think I am going to make Sir one more for father's day. I love to surprise him and it was fun learning a new craft. Sir even bought me a router to play with, so I am enjoying the practice.
Guess that's it for now, I'm looking forward to a quiet weekend after the busy holiday weekend last week.
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Had a really nice weekend, and a fantastic conversation on Friday night. It is just so cool talking to someone else that totally gets it, and understands completely. That was really awesome to describe someone what sub space felt like and listen to their version and know that they were very similar. We also discussed a bit the time involved in sub space and about how deep we go. It was really just a well formed conversation between a friend subbie of mine and I loved every minute of it.
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I had another pretty good weekend, well Friday at least was pretty interesting. I was lucky enough to get to try something new, Pony Play. Thank you Satyrix!
I have to say it was something I was curious about, and the sensation was really something different especially since it wasn't my Sir with the reigns. Satyrix though is someone my Sir and I trust, so that was the easy part. The hard part was trying to remember everything pertaining to movement while not having your sight at the same time. Okay that and the fact I can't nay or whinny (ROFL). It was kind of cool though to feel remmoved from everything else and feel almost like someone else. The only thing I think that would have made the experience better was to have those watching be a little less noisy allowing me more ability to concentrate.
It's something I would try again, I love bondage and sort of saw this as movable bondage. It was quite enjoyable for me, so thank you once again Satyrix for being my Jockey <BEG> |
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Sir and I got to attend our first public event in Grand Rapids on Saturday. We had never gone before because we were always afraid we wouldn't fit in and time unfortunately is an issue for us.
This time though we made time and some friends of ours were going so we decided it would be easier to go with them for a first event rather than go alone.
I have to say I felt very comfortable, my fears walking in I guess stemmed from years of BDSM chat rooms with strict rules on how Doms and Subs should behave.
The event has rules too but it's ok to just be yourself and chat and mingle too. I met some really awesome people and I had a blast. I was sad we couldn't stay for the play party after the seminar part, but we have a swing club to run too and it's our first obligation.
I left feeling much more confident in my lifestyle choices. It was really great to hear people say things I have always thought. I've met so many Dom/subs online but it's a totally different thing when you get a chance to talk to them in person. Online your never really sure if they're real of phoney, you get more of a sense of the personalities when your face to face.
Sir even said he learned a thing or 2, he also really had fun with the vendors. I even got a really excellent collar out of the deal, it's absolutely beautiful.
We will in the future try and make more time for events in the BDSM world and still try to keep our club members happy at the same time. I have to say I really love how our club has evolved over the past 2 years, not only are the swingers comfortable there but the BDSM lifestylers, transgenders, and every other lifestyle person out there. We have a very diverse group, have even managed to convert a few over to try other things through our own demos and seminars. I want our place to be somewhere anyone can come to and feel comfortable and I think we have finally accomplished that.
Ok guess I am done now, I was just so excited over my wonderful weekend I just had to post today. All you people from the GR munch group if you read this, thank you for making this sub and her Sir feel very welcome.
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Well it seems it's been a long time since I wrote anything here, so I figured I would add something. Most of my journaling I keep in a note book, Daddy has better access to it that way. I tend to journal just about everyday, even if it's something small.
Daddy and I have been working more lately on the mental aspects of control rather than physical. This journey has been rather cool for me, I am surprised daily on what a focal point he has become in my life. He can turn waves of pain into waves of pleasure just by getting me to focus, it's been a very cool learning experience and really helped when I had surgery last month.
We've also been enjoying a great deal the other BDSM people who have been frequenting our club. There seems to be more and more people either coming out of the closet, or just learning that they can be themselves there and not feel weird about mixing the 2 lifestyles and joining in on the parties. Recently we've had a few different Doms with their submissives do different types of bondage demonstrations, they tend to draw a lot of attention from the vanilla people. That's a good thing though because along the way many of our vanilla members have learned acceptance and many have even wanted to try certain aspects.
We're fortunate to have BDSM people attending parties who don't mind being in the spot light and answering questions. Daddy has even brought out his floggers here and there, and had some fun with them. He has been very careful though to make sure that it is understood that no one else may touch me in that manner. Which was originally one of our biggest fears, other guys thinking just because I submit to Daddy, that I would submit to them, not the case unless it's something Daddy asks me to do.
So it's been a fairly exciting few months for me, and I am really enjoying having other submissives around to talk to and share with. Daddy and I even got to help out another Dom/sub couple who we are friends with. He is fairly new in the lifestyle and actually made a huge mistake with his sub, almost ruining their relationship, through talking with him and letting him see though me exactly how he made his sub feel, I am happy to say they are now back together and better then ever. That was probably my highlight of 2007. I love it when things just go right and I get to help make them that way. 
I guess that's it for now, I am looking forward to a very exciting 2008, enjoying the company of good friends, new and old, and having more great experiences in the months to come.
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Well I figured I'd write something here since I haven't done anything yet. Maybe a little about us. We've been married over 17 years now, living 24/7 as Master/slave for about 13 of those. Our relationship has evolved much over those years as we learned more about what we both wanted and needed. I call my Master, Daddy just because it works better for us, it's an endearing term and not quite so formal. We just aren't the absolutely formal type. We're a lot about ritual and traditions, and through it all we love to have a good time. We aren't out to our community around us, we keep that part of our lives pretty much to ourselves. We are also swingers and the 2 lifestyles generally don't mix, so the majority of our play partners also do not know. Especially since we manage a club, we felt it wouldn't be good for others who don't understand the lifestyle to know what my role is and think it's ok for anyone to try and control me. We're not about that, I answer to Daddy and Daddy only. So it makes it hard sometimes to just be ourselves amongst those in the club.
We did a few weeks ago hook up with another wonderful BDSM couple. They knew about our lifestyle already and it made it really cool for us because we could be ourselves and not worry about anything else. It was a really great experience for me, I know Daddy had fun but I try and not speak for him.
So I guess that's about it. I apologize if your sending me e-mail and I am not responding right away. Daddy and my schedule conflicts a lot so somtimes I just forget to talk to him about message here and then in turn don't get to answer them.
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| Age: 30 |
| Melbourne,
Australia |
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