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By my reckoning, this 'lifestyle' should be fun, even if there are serious moments and hurty bits
Update......... been a bit o a change of photos.......NOT my idea LOL Talk about 'under orders'... jeeez
Wee new addition .......
Sadly 'maid' position ended now with the sale of Violate, but will leave the paragraph up for a wee while as a nice memory
Absolutely loved my 'position' as Maid at Violate under the direction & control of Mistress Lilith and Argenta. Adored 'serving' there, despite not actually being 'into' service...... or crossdressing as it happens, and loved being the source of some amusement for the (mainly) lovely Clubbers that attend. Sadly came to an end. Mistress Argenta had 'known' me too well, and how to have 'fun' at my expense, to amuse clubbers on ma rounds, or when things were slow.
Probably should mention something about 'Control' which i have been thinking about of late (and in the past). There is something about control that is fascinating for me. It's not a question of getting permission (or not) to do something, it's the fact of having to ask in whatever way, and the fact that even when you get the answer that you desire, that decision can then be changed before you can act, and that you know you've lost control to the whim of a Lady. Not that I would suggest the Ladies may change they're minds a lot..... heaven forbid such a suggestion!!
For me.... compelling and fascinating.
Carry on
Time for a revamp as situation has changed. i am a Scottish submissive male who has been into BDSM since teens. In the past i have had a keyholder to my CB. My Lady was a Sadist which fitted well with my 'character' and she greatly enjoyed 'practicing' bondage on her hapless property. She did so want to be a 'rope' expert, She hated the fact that all the books/clips on 'tuition' are by males....downside is She moaned that her guinea pig had no boobs to show off some of the 'clever' bondage She did .....i would have gone through anything for her...except probably growing boobs.....what's not to like about being a guinea pig?
I'm pleased that i seem to have aquired a new Mistress, albeit on-line...... watch this space!
Kinky me
Sense of humour and can be cheeky if not controlled....tis just me, can't really help it. i may not be the super dooper Uber sub that some consider 'proper' subs should be. Have had a few Dommes in my life. Interests in CBT, bondage, oral servitude, bondage, nipple torture, bondage, needles, bondage, floggers and slight interest in bondage. Have been 'introduced' to needles and suturing.... Yum and ouch. Willing to try most legal adventures. Also interested in chastity, orgasm control and denial (own & wear CB2000 or new CB6000S), AND, now up to 5 devices, wi another on the high seas as we speak, rubber and leather. Another interest is in humiliation, and it is a growing 'interest, and starting to wonder how far it/i may go. So many possibilities and avenues for 'private' and more public, an endless stream so to speak. Perhaps i have not made enough of the bondage angle LOL. Anything that keeps me still, and with growing suffering, is all good. If it can have locks, all the better. I'm a wee bugger fer escaping if i can....... locks kinda make that harder.
I also tend to think nothing beats (sic) a good hair pulling, ear twisting or best of all, a few good slaps, thumps or kicks. Have a few 'toys' (and it grows bigger all the damn time). Kinda think there is (or should be) a hell of a lot more to being a Domme than just using cane or crop..... there has to be lots of more fun ways of inflicting growing pain/discomfort/torment & suffering.
Everyday boring me
If ye agree with the heading here, i may be most un-sub like and fall out with ye...
Crap taste in music & know virtually no bands, stars, what's hot/fashionable or 'in'....on saying that, i like Country, Classical, (dated) pop, just little or no idea of who's performing...and don't really care, as long as i enjoy it. Star sign Virgo (the innocent).....
The Submissive Virgo: This is the zodiac's most naturally submissive sign. They love to serve, are hardworking and make versatile, quick-minded slaves who are easily controlled and love to be set tasks. They can be shy and modest making them very susceptible to public humiliation. They can also run themselves down and lack confidence so dominants – you must remember to praise and reward them when praise is due. They need security and permanence and so will attach themselves firmly and unquestionable to their Master or Mistress. They are utterly dependable and sincere submissives.
Aye right. Want to know anything or chat just ask (will answer even the seemingly daft or serious questions)......... Promise reply.... you may not like the reply but you will get one all the same, although on saying that i love all Women, whatever age, shape, size etc. Attitude to me is far more important, especially if being realistic.
Deeply loyal and genuinely love to help, please & amuse.
That will do for now..... don't want to bore you more than i already have (God i can be good at sounding sub sometimes).
Friendship and even just to exchange ideas and interest would be welcome although always female lead.
Meeting & chatting to some lovely people. Life ain't (too) bad.
Even getting to munches.... again, great bunch of folk
slave d aka. once known as Gobshite at Violate....... and a variety o different names..........bloody Women
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Been pottering away down in ma cell(ar) wi ma wee project, so a content but knackered wee soul. However, its getting there, but as there is 'limited' room on here fer pics, they (a few) are on another 'black site'. Eeven there, i don't want te overload it lol
Dinner then bath me thinks.......... and a wee Dram o course
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A wee 'project' i have been working on (ma new 'proflile' pic), in ma cell(ar). The things we do to occupy our minds, and amuse ourselves. I need te put a shelf in fer ma Dram, one can't be doing without ones luxuries! |
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Poignant words from a friends who lost her battle with Mental ill health on Tuesday.
' Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain'.
A clever but troubled lady who is now at rest.
God (of which ever sort or none that you believe in) Bless xx |
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Colluding Dommes......... canny be fair!
Now Mistress Valeri several months ago had me acquire female (fake) ID (bloody dreadful looking photo but cards very good/real looking), and they have sat peacefully in my card wallet since they arrived, and with little thought by me, except when they flashed by now and then.
The last week an 'innocent' remark from Mistress about 'expect' some interest if your new ID, and sure enough the next day a very good Lady friend of mine (of the Domme persaution) pops along in our daily chat, and decided to amuse herself greatly at my expense.
Yes, dear Mistress had had a chat with her & the two had colluded to upset my poor innocent self.
Poor me, why me? wanders aff crying ma heart out. |
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A Lowly pink week
And so we reach the end of the working week, and still i languish in my pink new bed/cage, and it gets no easier.
As mentioned previously, Mistress had been 'kind' enough to 'suggest' (ye have no idea the meaning of her suggestions) that i should add a Lilo to 'aid my comfort'...... i think not! It has resulted in a smaller internal space, and a much narrower 'floor' area to lie on, or perhaps more accurately to fall/slip from, and end up near wedged against the bars/wires of ma 'bed'.
What is perhaps the most galling is there is no longer a jump into/out of bed, it is a hands and knees job, and even then 'duck' to get in and out. A simple wee turn over in 'bed' is no longer 'simple', and at times near impossible! No more stretching out, no more bedside cabinet (or at least one i can reach), and no more unrestricted view of things, everything is now through a pink hue of wire.
When i enter ma room, there it is on the floor, and you know you just have to get down and crawl, and whilst entirely doable, ye just know the night ahead is no longer going to be filled with 'comforts' normally associated with 'bed'.
As the saying goes, and someone 'kindly' pointed out, 'ye makes yer bed and then lie in it' If only life was so simple!!
My bed is gone, no longer in ma room or available to me. I did have a 'habit' of going at times for a liedown of an afternoon or evening, now i have nowhere to 'liedown' apart from ma pink prison.
My trips to London may provide my only 'beds' from here on in
Women! Jeez (don't ye just love 'em) |
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Episode 2, night 2
My 2nd night in ma new 'bed' i had new 'comforts'. Mistress had decided that a matress (in the form of a Lilo) should give slave more comfort, at least that's what she said!
It was a most kind gesture, if ye can manage to ignore the fact that the 'matress' reduces the inside space for sleeping. The height wasn't especially an 'issue', but it has reduced the inside length by about 4cm at the top, and nearer 6cm where ye actually lie.
Now i know size isn't everything, but thats a lot of space lost considering!
To make matters worse, the viewing angle of TV isn't great from effectively the floor, nor is the fact of pink bars/wires getting in the way.......... in more than viewing terms.
My efforts to 'stretch out' on waking this morning proved a wee problem, but it was a sily 'habit' to have it appears. And ma waking and just lying there (stretching included) seems to have been curbed, and it tended to make me just want to jump out of 'bed'....... except i had te just crawl out arse first.
And my very kind Mistress said a) She had not realised the space would be cut, and b) on her way out to meet a friend She did kindly say i could have an early night if i wanted!
I could go off these Lady type things! |
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From behind Pink Bars
Some time ago my dear Mistress thought the idea of her slave having such comforts as a bed was too much 'privelege', and so on learning that said slave had an old large dog cage (bigger than the small 'Home of Masturbation) she instructed for it to be 'done up' which involved lots of wire brushing, and then painting.
Now Mistress being Mistress, and my 'other' cage being black, she decided on her slave having to use a brush to paint wire cage (a long, mind numbing & tedious job), AND, it was to be pink.
And so slave went about his task, and managed to get it done well enough to be brought into use just as the weather broke and the heavens opened. Slave was therefor within his new 'bed' for the first time last night. A room with a view of pink bars. There is now no bed in slaves room, just two cages for different purposes, and some 'art' on the walls (along with a few other items, and a room with little male clothing left in it too boot. Pictures 6 & 10 show ma new 'boudoir' furniture.
Slave is a tad stiff this morning! Wonder whit the rest of the weekend will bring.
I should run away now lol |
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Ma male pants are gone.................. sobs
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UL4qM0n0Yco&feature=youtu.be |
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Help save my pants
It seems that to 'celebrate' the longest day it has been 'suggested' that my comfy supportive male pants are to be sacrificed on a bonfire tomorrow.........................
unless i can garner support(?) to have them saved. So i need your help. There is a picture of the said pants, the likes of those needing saving, below. It's not like Ladies burning there bras for 'freedom', in fact its quite the opposite, and designed to enforce less freedom, hence this appeal.
I am most deserving of ma pants. Let me have 'support' please.
slave d |
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At the 'suggestion' of a certain Lady, a new photo has been added to 'amuse' certain potential possible viewers to see the 'Chastity set up'. I would hasten to add that the padlocks are still at this stage mine, though the use of any key is determined by the above mentioned Lady. At some stage Her own, and more 'high tech/secure' locks are to replace mine!!
Do please excuse the 'Cock shot'............ not normally sommat i would 'put up'
In best Northern accent "O eck" |
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Age & Innocence
It could only happen to an old fool, and for those that know me, and the slight tendancy to turn bright red at the slightest cause, an old very red faced fool at that.
I was off on one of my all to frequent visits to London, but as i has a guest with me, and there was a meeting that i had to attend prior to another event to which i could take a guest, i decided in my wisdon to leae my small over night case in left luggage at Euston! Oh dear.
Off i toddled from the overnight sleeper to the lounge for my shower (and free tea/coffee & fruit etc, as a Scot i can't turrn down a freebie), and then the idea of dumping luggage in seemd ideal for the day. Now, as a rather frequent traveller on the sleeper, and due to a certain Lady of my aquaint, my luggage at times can hold some rather unlikely clothes and items that the above Lady has 'suggested' i take, and to be used at different times. I believe its sommat to do with female humour!
Anyway, to try and cut a long story short (not something i'm renowned for), i arrived to leave my luggage with not a care in the world, until the dear Female behind the desk scanned ma bag, and then i began te wonder a bit! With a charming smile She asked what the electrical items were in the bag. In my innocence. i still had no worries, until i delved into my bag, and came across a small tin containing a bullet virbrator (etc). The dear Lady enquired what it was, and i had to open it, and ezplain (rather quietly) it was a mini 'massager'. Things were bad, i had forgotten it was in there from a previous journey. The Lady, with i'm sure all innocence and acompanying smile, then asked whit the other larger second electrical item she had seem was, and as i rummaged about in wonder, my hand came across a somewhat larger colourful light purple vibrator. After some reaslisation, and some (extreme) leaning over my bag to try and hide from anyone elses view, i showed the dear Lady the item, and again siad another 'massager'. By this time, that corner of Euston Station had a distinct red glow emitting!
Now, call me suspicious or whatever, but i am quite sure that the minute the 'items' came up on Her screen, she would instantly have recognised and known what the items were...... and so the subsqequent 6-8 mins was a Lady trying to brighten her day!! Had the same staff been there when i went to collect my luggage, fear there would still be a grey overnight bag within left luggae, or one red dead Scotsman found lieing on a corner of Euston............ |
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Mmmmm, isn't it nice te 'surprise' yer Mistress. I'm not quite sure how one would do such a thing!!! As if she would approve such a thing |
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Respite?? or Torment?
Now there was me planning as restful time as I could manage whilst my wife was being cared for elsewhere. And yes, I knew that I would be having the new windows and doors fitted, and so on that front things could be a wee bit stressful, but a certain Lady of my acquaint decided it may amuse her to cause me some ‘stress’, but of the ‘fun’ kind………. Well, fun for Her anyway.
And with all that was going on with the fitters, that was not as simple as it would appear…………. But the wee sweet old Lady ( I mean my On-line Mistress) managed to spring a few surprises, liven up Her Grand National ‘Race’, manage to scare the hell outta me (a bit….. just a tiny bit), and having noticed one of my interests on was ‘Being fooled into compromising positions’, managed to slip that in as well.
On top of which She amused herself with a ‘Slutty Saturday’ (the one after the Grand National), and Ebay Sunday which involves Her sending link for items she ‘suggests’ I have. Of late, these have mainly been of the PVC Female variety clothes, and She knows I’m not into the crossdressing thing apart from the humiliation of it, despite her now referring to this handsome masculine chap being ‘Sissy’ in way too many messages.
She has also made my sleeper journeys to London kind of interesting, and one of these times I’m not gonna wake in time to ‘change’ from Her stipulated nightwear, which doesn’t just consist of Female garments, but some metal as well.
And She even thinks She is being kind by allowing me to have a bit of a play now & then to get relief….She does keep me locked in (a variety) of CB devices, and has had me looking into piercing options, but that’s another story. Except on every occasion the attached ‘Conditions of Play’ have ensured that said relief has not been forthcoming so to speak.
Now on one of these so kind events, I DID actually manage to achieve relief, but again, needless to say it wasn’t just as simple as that. The deal was I could have a ‘play’ in comfort, and with any ‘aids’ to help along the way (ma bits don’t work very well at the best of times), but then it had to be followed 30mins later by another attempt, but in somewhat less comfortable surroundings……. Namely a smallish dog cage, with a pink sign on it stating ‘Masturbation Zone’!! This was to be followed 30mins later by back to comfort, and then 30mins later back in ‘Zone’……… and on until I could stand it no more. And the problem is, despite knowing my limitations (she knows ‘em even better), I was foolish enough to keep trying to achieve more than one relief!!! Jeeez, at best of times I’m lucky if I can manage every few days (before She so kindly took charge of the Chastity ‘delight’, She does have a wee thing…… not me, pay attention, for Chastity). Ye would think I should know better, but She knows me better than I do, and She knew that I would be foolish enough to damn well keep trying.
And I keep falling for the ‘offers/attempts’…….. apart from this weekend where the conditions were so limiting, and involving back in Zone, but with 16oz balls weights….. and a large tube of Deep Heat Extra. And yet I STILL dithered until She gave me a time by which I had to accept (or refuse) the ‘challenge’. In the end, I decided ‘nope’, but that decision was 3mins!! Late. Results, still Deep Heat Extra, but straight after application, locked into spiked silicone CB, oh, and the mere mention that that was ‘it’ until July 4th…… I’m assuming this year is what was meant. Now I’m not even clear if that is locked til July 4th, or just no more relief until then, and I’m not sure I want to clarify that, as the ‘kinder option for me may be to just be locked away until then. But as always, She kindly offered one way out…………….. the piercing(s)!!
Now another thing that I seem to be going through a lot of is nail varnish, and unfortunately the remover as well. And She knew I needed to buy more of both, as my supply was rather old. Except, I forgot to buy the remover, and so when instructed last night to apply two coats to ma finger nails, I pointed out I had run out of remover. No problem I was assured, she would offer a wee Female ‘tip’ in that if I soaked said nails wi perfume, it would eventually come off. And so who do you think this morning drove down to Tesco with bright red nails, and then did my ‘required’ shopping with a pair o bloody marigolds on to hide the nails………….
Her added excitement to The Grand National is written about already on my page, and in Her journal elsewhere, so I will leave that for folk to find should they be so interested.
There is more as well, but as ye can see, ma respite has been somewhat tiring, and as it comes to an end tonight, further instalments shall have to wait for now…………… I NEED A REST!!!
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Had a ressurection of gobshite the maid Friday past for a charity night in aid of a great cancer charity. Was nice to be doing ma old job as a one off.
Fun times, and money raised. |
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Off to London once again tonight, but with a bit of a 'mission' after meeting tomorrow to wander around to try and find piercer to do one/two possible piercings in sensitive areas
Poroabl wont have time to get anything done, but locating a suitable (Lady) piercer will be large step forward to completing a task that would gretly please my keyholder.
Will be around/exploring Camden High St area the morra evening.........
Help, i may be mad LOL |
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Changes changes. It now seems that a simple name is not god enough, and so i have had to change my name of my profile. I think its what is called Domme humour, and so i now go by the name Ayrshire_Adonis on there. The 'suggestion' was made on the assumption of those that know me will see great humour in this......... and there was a reference to ma 'bits' within that.
Ha bloody ha. Don't the Ladies have a strange sense of 'humour'? |
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Have been 'under orders' changing, or at least trying to, photos. Showing at my end when i view that new photos are there, but NOT when looking otherwise. Mmm, most curious |
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As I dared to DEMAND a new slave name for Christmas, I have now been given an alternative name to use.
From now on, I shall be known as "C*ntweasle" as it suits me perfectly! |
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As I consider myself to be "super doug" I will dress as "super doug", complete with ladies panties over tights, vest with the letters "SD" on the front and cape. I will then send the pictures to Mistress Cristal, for Her to do with whatever She desires! |
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I will be forced to eat my words for recklessly and disrespectfully bragging that Dommes are "eating out of my hand". In fact, I will remember my place, and that is on my knees, humbly and lowly - unless I wish to lose all control of my collar me account to Mistress Cristal! |
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Everything happening at the same time. Was strapped to a Fetters bench yesterday and was then given a tattoo in pubic area 'Property of the Mistress'.............. is that what passes as Domme humour??? |
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HELP.
I think i'm in the shit. Colluding Dommes. Gonna hide & think & open nowt!!!
Oh bugger |
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Mistress Cristal has changed my profile picture for something much more appropriate - a reflection on my pathetic self. I am NOT to remove it under any circumstances. Failure to obey will result in a severely humiliating punishment! |
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I notice that Whiny C*nt changed his profile picture without his Mistress' permission. Of course, this has now been rectified - and he will be duly punished! |
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Seems i'm losing control. My Mistress Cristal has some control on my CM account as ye may gather by a couple of the entries and in addition she has now 'joined forces' with my r/l Mistress and key holder..... could be 'fun' times ahead. Although, according to my Mistress i'm 'Dooooomed'.
Being a superhero and male (sometimes foolish) i will prevail
I will find ways round any 'wee problems'... |
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Slave dougie or Whiny C*nt as he is also known is not permitted to make any changes to his profile pictures. In fact, his profile pictures remain the property of Mistress Cristal! |
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I am wondering if perhaps somebody would like to take Me on a girly shopping trip? After all, I think I deserve to be humiliated in such ways...
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From Mistress Cristal: This slave has been given a nightmare homework task, which he will complete in it's ENTIRETY, with NO COMPLAINING, NO WHINING AND NO EXCUSES. Should he fail, then very embarrassing photographs will be posted all over the internet for all to see. He will also be heavily ridiculed by anybody who sees fit.
M.C. |
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Most remiss of me. Had a new Mistress since Tuesday 28th March (officially) who, needless to say, has the bloody key to my CB. Looking forward to new adventures and learning how She likes to do things..........GULP |
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Yesterday.......where do i start. i arrived early, which may have been a mistake (but She just said to report to Her). My Lady had 'stuff' to do & it seems i was not going to get in her way of doing them..... except, being my Lady........instead of being sent away... or waiting somewhere, she decided i should wait Her way..........so, bedroom floor, one very tight hogtie, gagged & hooded so i would not distract her........and left for over an hour while She finished what She had to do.......VERY leisurely.
When She was ready for me......it seems i was be the outlet to her frustrations about busy bodies interfering & questioning Her lyfestyle (afterwards, She even said She imagined at one stage that i was the offending idiots......and may, just may, have put a little extra 'effort' into the flogging). We had a couple of new 'toys'......one hellish leather hood which was tight, let absolutely no light in at all, badly affected my hearing & made breathing very possible..with a little bit of effort (& 3 padlocks.. just to make sure???. She also tried out our new neck to wrist restraint...which, like the hood was lockable......so no escaping from that either. And so She took out her frustrations on poor little me.
BUT, as per usual, She saved the best/worst for her 'finale'.......Her bloody game which She seems to delight in more & more..........& if i'm honest..i'm still not 100% sure what happened. It was not 'ruined' as She has done several times, but it was way beyond 'tease & denial'. Brought to that terrible state 4 or 5 times (maybe more....i was not exactly counting by this stage) for over hald an hour, then She finished the game while waiting for me to 'fit' back into the cage......in a very bad state. 3 or 4 hrs suffering.....and She cruelly ends it like that. She was in her wonderfully Sadistic natural mood..........and, i'm tempted to (nearly) thank the busy bodies for questioning her motives & lifestyle. Now all i need is for to make a mistake in her bloody game. |
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A new Journal entry from a poor little sub who can barely move his poor little arms (& back).
More info tomorrow ( assuming my arms work ). Spent several hours in first (very tight hogtie) & when i though i had had enough was gagged n other items added so further my education/training. Then single arm glove while mistress got on with'other' things...total, over 3 & 1/2 hours of arm locked back. Other 'horrors' followed including 'play' but not to my relief (as it were).
Mistress just becomes cruel the more She gets to 'knows' you...poor us little subs More info tomorrow...........if my arms are still working ( and she does not see this and 'ban' freedom of thought.
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Where do i start. Probably with the strong warning to others not to upset other Dommes (even teasingly/politely). Twas my Birthday visit to my Lady yesterday & what a few hours. After a while in bondage position (as in photo) while She prepared things i was then hooded (with very limited vision) & taken downstairs. i have previously failed (twice) in a 'corner time' task for another Lady & so my Lady decided she would correct this. A board was laid ready covered in rice & i was told i would have to stand there on it for 30 mins then kneel on it for 1 hr under the watchful eyes of my Lady & her daughter Miss Petra. Did the standing (so boring & seems sooo long) but after 34 Mins of the kneeling my old knees gave out. Swift punishment (& target practice for both on any 'dangley' bit's they could find) then set another half hour standing which actually ended up being more that half an hour. Because i had 'fiddled' with my bondage, thumb cuffs were added along with blindfold & clover clamps. Thanks a bunch MC
Then my Lady decided to have her 'fun'. Was taken back upstairs and secured by collar and wrist cuffs to the ceiling and given my Birthday 'bumps' my Lady's way....55 strikes all over body with heavy flogger (with subsequent bruising) followed by her exploring my body & bits with a pair of vampire gloves. Was that the end....NO. i was then laid on the floor on my back and found my arms and legs spread and hauled up. Felt lube being applied and then, to put it bluntly, was impaled. This was my surprise from another Lady that i chat to on IC & who has chatted to my Lady. i had inadvertently, a while ago called this Lady a girl, as in, 'go on girl' (touchy little creatures some Dommes). The two of them had then hatched their little plan behind my back (no pun intended) Thanks DF!!!!!!!
Then released for my Lady's (becoming favourite) pass time. Kneeling before Her & having to play her stop start game. AND SHE DID IT FOR A THIRD TIME....after 62 days with no relief.............another ruined orgasm.
It ended well with my Lady's final present of being free from chastity for the next 3 days & not having to do my Wednesday night task this week (info of that on IC thread).
Morale of the story. With a Sadistic Mistress watch carefully what you say to who if they are all in contact with each other........may never use the internet again. |
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Wooohooo. Meeting my Lady tomorrow, in just over 26 hrs time (not that i'm counting or anything). My 'ordeal/her experiment' will hopefully be over (61 days in chastity up to today). Also my birthday on 15th so maybe an early 'present'.
Will update tomorrow (or Tuesday if my poor wee brain is too addled tomorrow) |
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Visited my Lady yesterday. It's taken me this long to get my head together & write this journal. New i would have a few hours with my precious Mistress & did indeed along with a few hours released from my CB. What i did not know (but should have done) is just how Sadistic She can be.
As some will know, have been locked in chastity for 42 days & before that only had two chances of relief (both ruined) in the previous few weeks.
Got to be a bondage experiment subject. Even on arrival, after taking shopping into her kitchen then ordered upstairs & strip was put in thumbcuffs while she (leisurely) decided what she wanted to experiment with. After (much) time she tried several 'new' types of rope bondage (far too many now rely on simple cuffs to secure victims) . My Mistress, a
'striving' expert, relished the chance to try new things (and break in her new rope on the hapless me).
Once 'entertained' by that she went on to enjoy her 'plaesures' then thought it a good idea to take some (hellish for me) photos for posterity (a couple of which are now on profile.
Then the killer blow. On knees, with pinned parachute & weights, ordered to 'play'. Just when i was getting 'into it' she delightfully calls a halt to proceedings & orders lock up in CB (which you can imagine took a while in my 'state'. Then kicked out.
So, the count continues, 42 & counting & no sign of relief.
Why do we go through with this..............because we love/hate it. Til next time
273-797-178 When i hope to have better news |
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My Cruel Cruel Lady Syn, following another visit yesterday still continues my ordeal in chastity. Now on day 33 & while my Lady played about yesterday i was desperate but not only did she deny me relief, i was not even released. She tied then 'toyed' about with hitty things, had some fun with electrics (on a LONG programme). She still likes to blindfold me as she knows it drives me nuts not being able to see what she is going to get up to or when she will strike. Sometimes She does not want to hear from me so i am gagged, other time, like yesterday, she enjoys chatting away while i suffer & struggle to hold a conversation. It amuses her.......Hoo Hum.
No apparent end in site for release/relief. She does enjoy setting records |
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Now 25 days in CB & counting. Had my visit to Lady Syn yesterday& had thought/expected i would be released & with any luck maybe relief. Not to be.
Reported at 8:00am as instructed & after usual 'rituals' found myself kneeling for ages while she got some stuff sorted. When she was & Miss Petra ( My Ladies daughter)had appeared, ready i had to carry stuff out to my car & take the stuff to where it was to go ( Miss Petras), drop it off then take them shopping.
One back at Hers had to strip but stop before taking of nappy i had been instructed to wear. Further adult baby stuff added & i that was not humiliating enough she then took photos & while Miss Petra took a video. They then tried some new bondage & i was left in a couple of painful positions while Mistress again got on with things she needed to do & Miss Petra kept an eye on me (i think as i was bloody blindforded so could not see what was going on & by whom). After much effort i managed to escape the bondage (Mistress must have been having on off day) & it was Miss Petra that found me in the last stages of escaping so called & informed Lady Syn & my reward for my cleverness of escaping........60 with the cane....... half way through which i discovered that Miss Petra was again filming it. Then kept in same kneeling position while she played with her electrics attached to various 'bits' of mine until she got bored at which point she handed the controls to Miss Petra who, for the next 30mins played up & down the scale & from buttocks to balls
Anyone in need of a sometimes cruel Mistress. Might take some of the pressure of little old me....................OK, actually, i love it. God bless Lady Syn & her wee pal Miss Petra. |
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For some reason very nervous about upcoming summons to Lady Syn for tomorrow morning. Just seems very decadent to be summoned for 8:00am despite the fact she has several times summoned me for 9:00am & She appears in a very playful mood just now (worrying for me) because She has been having fun times of late & is pleased.
At least so far She has not summoned me in the middle of the night when she would hopefully 'need' me. Some have already commented about rampant sex at that time in the morning being hot (she has never yet summoned me in the middle of the night but suspect/ hope at some stage she will, although know it will not be for my benefit), & envying the fact of what we may be doing while others are having to head into work............. They don't know Lady Syn!!!. While she will have fun & i may get 'used', abused, tied & even release from CB (after 24 long days), relief (last twice 'ruined', nice of her ehh), there is NO chance of 'rampant' sex. She is a Sadist, does is sound likely that she would want to 'lower' herself to rampant sex with her slave however desperate he may be???? i just know She will have fun & with luck i will get the crumbs to pick up/satisfy me.
Will 'report back tomorrow....watch this space
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Another visit to My Lady & a second ruined orgasm on the trot, now many weeks since i got real relief. i was feeling playful so escaped from her bondage. Should not have done that as i ended up in worse 'predicament' bondage for God knows how long & it may have been my escaping that prompted her to to go for 'ruined' again, although i doubt it, she is a Sadist & just does it because she can & she enjoys it & loves seeing my reaction while it's 'happening'. |
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Another summons/visit to Lady Syn. Have been waiting/hoping for relief for some time & got it (after a considerable time in chastity, hint hint if She is reading this)............with a ruined orgasm........bloody hell.
As seems to becoming the 'norm' i was painfully restrained while more 'important' things in My Mistresses life went on & she was very relaxed while i suffered & served. And, after that she wished to have her Sadistic fun..........ouch (& threats of worse to come re. her fun & my 'relief').
She tried out a few 'new' things & she is now developing/proving she has too many 'skills'. And each visit she has the skills to seem to make each one worse???? but more exciting...............we subs are weird...........she seems to relish it.
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Bloody Sadistic Women. After another visit to my Mistress/Owner Lady Syn & i left with no new bruising (a change) but more frustrated than ever. After being released from my chastity device (She holds the key) i had to provide 'pampering' & all that entails with no touching of my bits (and she watched closely..... too bloody closely) & to really frustrate more i was hooded with limited vision/blindfolded (both). The rest of my time (a lot of it) was spent in frustrating bondage where it was impossible to 'touch' while she laughed & chatted (how the hell can you hold a normal conversation while naked/bound & frustrated). When i first met her she stated she was a Sadist, She bloody well is. Have been 'summoned' next week & fear things may get even worse (for me), along with setting a new record by then (assuming/hoping/praying for relief on that visit) for my time in chastity & time between getting relief. Any suggestions as to making 'things' easier for me Welcome'. |
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Another hugely enjoyable but painful & humiliating few hours visit to my, still fairly new, Owner/Mistress Lady Syn. Mind games, physical & sexual torments & extended bondage (while she got on with more 'important' things) seemed the order of the day. And worryingly she took photos along the way (for her & Mistrette's (another story) amusement & further mind games) of who she may share them with. i went into this (very) willingly but worry i may have bitten off more than i can chew which is very scary/exciting.
Happy (maybe apart from her holding/controlling the key to my chastity) slave
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Back from another visit by command & to Lady Syn (my owner) KNOWN as AyrshireDomme on here 4 odd hours of restriction, service and pain. Every visit I have to compile a list of any errors/mistakes or cheek for which I get a certain number of strokes of CP (which I hate, especially the cane) so very effective as a punishment and i'm a bit of a smart arse sometimes so can't help getting into trouble. Today, with only 8 items on the list I received 96 strokes with her new cane and have the stripes to prove it. For the first 2 hrs I was subjected to 2 different bondage positions which she wished to try & were very effective and tormented with floggers, cane & vampire gloves while cruelly locked & straining in my CB (to which she holds the key). Then had to cook her lunch while naked apart from a ball gag most of the time and eat my burnt scraps from a dog bowl (for teasing her once about burning her breakfast). More service followed after this adding to my frustration. Who said the life of slave was easy.........try Lady Syn if you think so and are brave enough. |
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Now back from a terrific visit to Lady Syn. Very exciting time, not the usual flogging but some housework then stringent bondage & then a long bout of humiliation (not saying how). Also a good enjoyable chat (with drawback of me having to remain naked) which i think relaxed us both (though i suspect her more than me), how is anyone supposed to hold a sensible chat and be totally relaxed when it's CFNM. After 3 odd hrs, locked up again and sent on my (happy) way.
Also now registered as her owned property on slave register Reg. No. 273-797-178. Hope i can do her proud.....THANKS Mistress |
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Visiting Lady S-- again today. Really excited to learn/experience what she has in store for me today. The only thing i know for sure is that when i leave........i have to leave the key to my CB with her and am scared/excited by this.......will update when i get back. |
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Second visit to Lady S-n yesterday, have heavy bruising to my male bits, stripes on the front of my thighs and a bruised arse........lovely stuff. NO relief though, bugger. i was hoping to be honoured by oral servitude but someone else was present so i was not commanded so. |
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Had a really exciting day when i got to meet in person Lady S-n. Wonderful 'session' then even better chat afterwards. So randy but not allowed to do anything about it. Then had to do report about it which just made things worse..........i need help |
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Yeeeh. i've got my first admirer........... from New York..........that's handy |
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