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| I do not typically reach out to others or see who has been viewing my profile, so if you want to talk with me you will have to make the first move. Don't get me wrong sometimes I am amused by someones profile and will pop a quick message. I am looking only for real time and local.
Seeking someone to submit to, but will continue on being a Mistress to those that choose to serve me.
I have mostly been a Mistress for over 30 years and would sub on few occassions. Never found anyone that actually was able to cause me to want to submit. I have been in and out of the lifestyle for many years now. However, even when out of lifestyle, still very much wanting to be a part of it. Of course, life has a way of getting in the way. Strong need to be very discreet in this, but really am seeking to find someone again that I can enjoy the lifestyle with again.
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Once again, I have not written for awhile and really not been on this site much as I have been pretty much disappointed again by the lack of sincerity and people say they are looking for a sub or Mistress, however, they are married and have to sneak or they are always living with other people and can never go to their place. Don't get me wrong, I understand for some that it is out of their control as in with me, I now have my son, a friend of his and my brother all living with me which puts quite the damper on my play.
I started a new job a few months ago that has been taking a large portion of my time, but at least it seems to be going well and I plan to leave everyone behind in my house and get my own place again where hopefully I can get back into the lifestyle on a regular basis again. Of course it will be a few months still, but it is something to look forward to :)
So, I wish you all good luck in your searches and hopefully all will work out in the future.
BTW, from my last post, once again a Dom has failed me majorly. Never even got to actually play, just hung out quite a bit and enjoyed time together. So, maybe he wasn't even all he said either, who knows and I guess I don't care anymore. A person can only take so much before they are like just forget it. |
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I haven't written in awhile as life always tends to get in the way. But also due to not fully trusting where my thoughts are and where they should be. On Feb. 10th of this year I figured just for the hell of it to look at what appeared to be another crazy guys profile on here strictly for the entertainment of it. As a rule, I never really read the profiles that pretty much appear to be guys with an "I will be your Master and I will destroy you" complex. Every once in awhile I decide to just look at a couple just to make myself laugh. Like do people seriously fall for this act of theirs. In my beliefs, they are typically actually just abusers.
All that being said, I have been amazed to find one of the most genuine, thoughtful, sincere and honest Dom's that I have ever known. Not to mention that for an old man I see him as hot. Although he is deviant in a lot of ways and his mind often goes to the kinky twisted places, he is balanced and controlled. Meeting me has seemed to somewhat ground him in ways as he has always shown me the utmost respect and adoration while still considering me as his slut. I realize he is as confused as I am now. If a guy ever called me a slut before, I would pretty much haul off and slap him, but with him it just feels right as with him it is a term of endearment in his way. I know I have thrown him off his game as well as a lot of his feelings seem somewhat new to him. He isn't used to a strong woman who will stand her ground when she feels it is necessary while at other times is willing to give up all control and trust to him. He has the utmost respect for me and I for him.
We have all had things from our past cause us to become guarded, but sometimes you just have to find the strength and belief that it is worth it this time with this special person to start tearing down some of those blocks we have put on ourselves and trust that it won't destroy us. We only have one life on this earth and we have to make the choice to continue to just pass thru it with guarded hearts and trying to avoid ever being hurt again or let down, OR we need to allow the chance of our hearts to be destroyed again to ever find a true happiness on this earth. I have had my heart and soul guarded for many years now, however, with every time I have opened my heart up some and had it torn apart again, it has only made me a stronger person. Many people who truly know me often comment on how amazed they are that I can still be so strong with all the things that I have endured over the years. I truly belief in that saying "What doesn't destroy us only makes us stronger". Don't get me wrong, I have been guarded with a lot of people and honestly can say the last time I truly opened myself up to someone was 25 years ago. That is not saying that I haven't loved others over the years since I have, but I never truly let go and completely opened up to them. That being said, if things continue the way I hope they will, I am prepared to open up completely to this new person in my life and hope that he will get to where he is able to do the same. Honestly, who cares what other people think? We have to do what we feel is right and stand up for that. |
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OK, most men lie thru their teeth. Don't get me wrong, I'm sure a lot of women too. I can assure you I'm not one of them. I tell it like it is. I don't lie and I don't use someone or mislead them. (You get my point, I use a sub in ways, but that is what we agreed on)
Life is a series of challenges. Sometimes you move around them, sometimes go thru them and other times just back the hell up and go the other way. I have had more than my fair share of them and I'm sure will continue to do so. |
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As the world turns again. Does anyone else out there think I can't make up my mind or something with all the ups and downs?
I decided to give someone on here a chance. We actually met today and I had a great time and really like him. If nothing becomes of it, I am happy to remain friends. Luckily he is open to my continuing to switch from time to time within reason. Distance and other obligations might hold us back, but I guess it is something we will decide whether it is worth the effort. If not, like I said, I know I have a great friend in the lifestyle. |
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I will continue to be myself and be the Mistress I know I am with most. I can be quite cruel with my subs depending on my feelings towards them and each of our goals in the relationship. |
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Ok, my mind has been changed again. Most men suck big time. I will continue to search for that special Dom, but the rest of you can take a hike. I need someone who truly is searching for a sub and is not a total a**. |
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I just joined this site and must say that I am certainly happy I did. It seems that even if most are not what they appear, some are even better than they appear. I met someone who I really seem to enjoy even if we only remain online friends. I believe he can be a bear when he wants as well as a soft teddy bear when I need it. I will have to follow-up later to let you know how it plays out. |
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| Age: 32 |
| Atlanta,
Georgia |
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