dkstine

I wonder if any other submissive person ever have tried to find out why they want it, why they do it? Strangely Im submissive at home but never at work. Every where else but at the workplace.

Humiliation is to me a "state of mind" where I sink into some kind of dependency towards the person who humiliate me. I empty my head, and get to concentrate on the person who control me. All depending on the level of humiliation - and the one who preform it, it can get in to a higher level, where you live for a person, and forget about your self. If you are submissive the best you can hope for is a person who never ask - but know how to push your limits beyond the horizon. 

I don't have many hard limits left, and with the right person, I'm even willing to give them up too. 

Im getting a bit strange :) can't help it - I like eating at least one meal on the floor from a bowl. Just mixing bread and water (today only water). It feels good to kneel in front of the bowl and start eating. Self inflicted humiliation .... huff huff. Finland is really a place where there are no dominant people - Im getting frustrated. 

When i want servitude very badly, when i expect humiliation and don't get it, I start to inflict it on my self. Sounds strange when writing it ..... 

Just finished up washing the floor and toilet crawling around on all four. I never inflict pain on my self though - not good at that. That need to come from some one else.