Finally getting around to writing one of these.... Here goes nothing!
So many years spent in "vanilla" relationships, and hiding the many deep, dark fantasies had left me feeling not quite complete. Although living in a small country town probably didn't really help.
So I kept myself mainly to the online, the occasional message in places such as this, and (amongst other sites that have now joined the digital scrapheap), making minor connections before things finally died a silent death.
That all changed with a move to the city and the friendship of a youngster who seemed to be a bundle of teenage energy... Finally after many months of chatting, we decided to catch up for coffee, and eventually, we realised that our online friendship could develop into much more in the real world. Finally someone I am comfortable revealing all to - no more secrets and hiding the dark thoughts in the back of my mind. I have met my "e". We have now been together for more than 7 years.
We are in an open relationship (although the women that I inform of this are far less convinced of this than the women and men that she tells!!)
This is partly due to the fact that while we both switch, we are also both far more comfortable in the submissive role. Ideally, I am seeking someone who simply wishes to use me on an ongoing casual basis, however the nature of our relationship is polyamorous, so future possibilities are endless!!
Now to describe me:
I am still somewhat of a singular juxtaposition.
*Despite my desire to explore this world more, I am scared as hell to meet other people within it *I'd rather be judged on my inactions than my actions *I'm an introverted extroverted introvert. *I'm happy being a "shadow" to those I do not know,and I hate to stand out, unless it is known and expected that I should be standing out or recognised, then I am happy to. *Likewise, I am not a natural leader, but have no qualms with such leadership when the followers are aware who they should be following. *I LOVE a good argument/discussion, but I hate confrontation.
Thankfully my sense of humour will mostly see me through.. for all the darkness, I see light very easily - sometimes even too easily for those around me to adjust so quickly (think "back, water, duck" hehe)
3/18/2011 10:43:22 PM
Just booked my stay at the Crown in Melbourne for late April... All that room and just little ol' me in there :(
3/4/2011 3:49:42 AM
Damn,
Seems that there is a mass exodus of Dommes from Melbourne in April... just when i will be there and looking for some interaction and to serve one or more of them! :(
