DestinyKatiana

Hello everyone.It has been awhile but I thought I would go ahead and jot down my thoughts while they are fresh in my mind.I was contacted today by my first and most wonderful master of whom I miss so very much.Seems thing have changed in his household and he wants me to start serving him again,and I am so excited over this aspect,mainly because of our connection and how we reacted to each other.As I have said numerous times I miss him very very very much.

Hello everyone.It has been awhile since I wrote in my journal,but have been busy with work and school.In June of this year my slave suffered a stroke and so things have really changed in our household.Plus in April of this I started going through the change and lets just say it thoroughly threw me for a loop and still is.

I miss my previous master alot and wish things were back to where they were but we cant go back in the past,even as much as i wish we could.Just sitting here writing this and thinking about the past with him and now brings tears to my eyes and makes me wish......

It has been awhile since I made a entry in my journal.I have been battling sickness this year that has left me kinda drained.Also earlier this year,my 24/7 slave and I got married and are now in a poly relationship,plus I am back in a relationship with my first master.My littlest brother has also moved in with us and we are trying to help him get established in the bdsm community here,as he is a gay male dominate.Our household is complete and not so stressful now.

On another note now.....seems I have a full time slave and a sub I see 2 days a week,and he isnt sure how long that is going to last due to a new job he is starting.So I am going to be looking for another slave.Please be REAL,and also willing to meet.Once we meet then after the meet we will decide on whether you wish to continue.I am looking for a slave who wants to be a 24/7....and once decided to become my slave a slave contract will be signed.

I always swore that I would never put anything like this on my profile,but when your drove to it,then  what do you do.I have been in contact with a slave from Oklahoma,who was in fact going to relocate here to PA to serve me.Committed to me and everything.When I contacted him today about this to make sure he was still coming,as today was the day he was supposed to leave to come here,I get informed he had found a domme there.Last I knew,when you commit yourself to a Dom,be them male or female,you dont talk to other Dom's without their permission.I find that this slave isnt as sincere as he says he is,and I pitty anyone he serves,because he will more than likely do it to you also.So,if you get a slave from Broken Arrow,OK......watch out.

Well,seems that the slave I was considering that I had had a initial meeting with and was fixing to move on to the next step and begin training him and having sessions with,decided to be a coward and back out on it.This is getting to be really monotonous and ridiculous.I am so tired of these fakes on here.They messege you and tell you something and when you agree to it,after the initial meeting then nothing.....and if anyone wants to know who I am talking about please feel free to messege me and I will gladly tell you.

Well the couple I was going to be a slave to,have decided to work on their family life before becoming poly,so I began searching for a new master again.I found a very nice master on here,and also in the same time found a very delicious sub/slave.Had a first session with him last night,and he has a very wonderful ass to be spanked and I made it very red last night.Will be putting him in permenant chastity very soon.Thinking of using my bullwhip on him next time i see him.Cant wait for Master to meet him and see what he thinks.

I am making this entry as in all reality it needs to be said,and my profile is going to follow also.I am owned by a wonderful couple in maine,and will hopefully soon be there with them.we talk everyday via skype and we are very much serious about our relationship.My Mistress and Master are very thoughtful and also caring and I am allowed to play,but I wont be playing with Dom's as it disrespects my Master,so I will only be playing with subs or slaves...and maybe,we can incorporate you into our lives also.Please respect my wishes in this!

Its a very sad day for me.I went to my old Masters profile,only to find that it now says this profile no longer in use.This bothers me tremendously,as I cant see him leaving the lifestyle,its in his blood and he needs it to survive.This bothered me so much that I literally cried,because I feel that I had a hand in him leaving and getting out of the lifestyle....I hope he does log in again and happens to see this entry....so he knows that I do still care,and always will...

I just wish he would do this as he is one of the best Dom's there is.....you will always be in my heart Sir.....and I pray you do come back to us and the lifestyle.

Its amazing that out of everyone I have talked to on CM,so many are fake.I have only met two Dom's on here who are real.The one that turned me onto CM and the one who was my Dom for almost 2 and a half months.Even the subs who say they are sincere,have turned out to be fakes.Don't think I will find anyone who are real like the 2 Dom's were.If I find another Dom or even a sub who is real,it will be a miracle!

It is amazing that when something bad is going to happen to you,and you tell your "supposed"Master about it,that he doesn't give a flying care of what happens to you.So now I am back to not being owed,but also back to having restricted time as I am going to be moving in with my family here...so no time to myself and no free space as i have now.