Life moves slowly for those wanting and looking for something specific. I have actually been dating quite a bit lately and feel like it is such a waste of time. Going on first date after first date with vanilla guys that don't understand kink and what Im all about. I'm not the kind of person that lies about who I am. I just wish I could find someone in the lifestyle who is actually looking for a relationship. Its harder then finding a Unicorn..ROFL. I have play partners who arnt looking for relationships...I have vanilla guys who don't understand kink... WHERE do the two meet?

I have been having fun at play party's and munches but I still don't see the real person out there that I am looking for. I have had a few conversations here that have just died off. Is it so hard to meet in a public place? WTF seriously. I have plenty of friends in the lifestyle and don't have any trouble making new friends. I am real, I don't play games..unless its 'play time'. Why is this so difficult?

People really do not read profiles. It clearly states in my profile that I do not play online. Is it so hard to understand that the internet is a gateway to face to face REAL time interaction and not to be constantly droning on in the fantasy. Step up, get real, come out and meet me face to face and stop wasting my time. I am a real woman with real desires and if you want to get into my head then you need to look into my eyes and SHOW me what kind of man (or woman) you are. If you want to hide behind your computer screen and can't face up to a real living breathing woman then you have my pity but never my submission.

To be quite honest my motivations for joining this web site initially were to prove to myself how many asshats are really out in the world. I belong to another site that has a newsgroup that makes fun of dingbats here on CM. I was curious as to how many would gravitate in my direction. And so far only one has really been rude and obnoxious and all I did was ask a question. I couldn't retort to his hideous email because HE blocked ME. He couldn't handle the fact that I actually have a brain and know how to use it.

I say that I am new to the life style. But Im not a babe in the woods. I have been in three relationships that were D/s in nature. I have always been looking for that man who could get inside my mind and know what I was thinking and feeling. I am divorced, I have kids. My ex husband, while not a bad person, doesn't have a dominant bone in his body and I still bulldoze over him even 8 yrs since our divorce. I really don't like being the one in charge of anything. I'm a mother so I'm always in charge of my children that's different. I have never thought that the Feminist movement got it right. Mentally men and woman should be equals. I'm all for equal pay for equal work. But the feminist movement fucked up relationships. Men have a reason for being the stronger sex. As woman have a reason for being the way that we are.

I don't believe there is ONE true DOM for me. Just like I don't believe there is ONE True partner for me. There are infinite number of possibility for happiness in this life. I'm just looking for my sliver of happiness. And I know he is lurking out there close by...somewhere just around the corner waiting to find me.