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I am owned, happily so. We are married and live together, and my Master is on collar space as well.

I am only interested in talking with others with friendship as the sole outcome.

I would like to make friends though. {#emotions_dlg.cool}

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2/26/2015 5:28:02 PM
Not sure why slave makes everything so difficult, but she's learning.

1/1/2015 5:47:27 AM
Warm wishes for a very happy 2015! May you do what needs to be done to reach attainable goals! Make your own "dreams" come true!

12/19/2014 3:19:44 PM
Why do Dominent men think slaves or subs want to see pictures of other slaves or subs on their profile? I don't get it. Show us what is erotic about YOU, not what you find erotic about women. Very few of us will ever sate the visual desires you express through showing these visually "perfect" images. Master days it's because men don't really give a damn about what women want to see or font want to see.

9/20/2014 10:52:11 PM
We went out today, and had a wonderful time! Master indulged slave's inexperienced enthusiasm for going on a dolphin cruise and went with her on her first one. It was so much fun! We had the chance to talk, both separately and together, with a young woman who needed to interact with us in the ways it happened. It was serendipitous to say the least. It affected each of us, and we have been fortunate enough to have a very enlightening conversation about it. To have someone who shares his heart with slave as Master does is amazingly gratifying, to say the least! To know that slave is significant enough in his life that he would understand her as best he can, accept her where she is, and trust her intuition enough to examine himself as well as her actions, is humbling to slave. She's never been that important to anyone before. She's never been wanted before, only "needed" in that desperate, smothering way that slave has finally learned speaks volumes about the other person. Being wanted...sincerely, wholeheartedly wanted so that he will do things slave has only dreamed of - like letting her make her own decision about staying or going, while having no desire to let her go - is so new that slave unfortunately still needs some typical reinforcement of his desire to have slave in his life. She's getting much better at seeing, accepting, trusting.... Master truly is a good man, and so very good to slave in so many ways! Thank you, thank you, thank you, Master.

9/18/2014 3:35:55 AM
Happy in spite of.... No. Just happy.

9/1/2014 5:41:57 AM
So slave is becoming more settled in who she is and in who Master is. She's always accepted him for who he is, but never believed that - because she is so totally different from him and even different from most of the women he has been in relationships with - he would truly be willing to live with her as his slave.

So slave was wrong, again - lol.

slave is coming to understand that she doesn't need anyone. That's quite liberating, but it is also difficult to come to terms with because she doesn't *want* to not need anyone. But it is in the coming to terms wherein she is finding contentment.


8/23/2014 1:51:26 PM
slave has grown so much the past months. She is becoming someone she doesn't even recognize - herself. It is so ... right.

Master is incredibly patient with her as she grows and struggles against change and now and then takes her resistance to the changes that come so quickly and so furiously out on him. He is hurt at times, and slave regrets that. He welcomes her repentance and her sorrow each time she "flips out".

Those times are becoming less and less frequent, thank goodness. slave is learning, growing, settling into herself. She is so glad. It's taken long enough.

slave has been fortunate, so lucky, already this weekend. She has been able to serve her Master's cock, lick his asshole, press her face into his balls, beg for his cock in her ass, beg to taste her own asshole from his cock, and has actually been allowed to cum several times while serving her Owner.

Yes, this slave is undeniably lucky to be free to embrace her needs and live as fully herself, knowing how accepted she is to the only one whose opinion matters to her.

8/21/2014 4:07:40 PM
slave loves being home....her face in Master's crotch, his hand on her head, stroking and holding her...reminding her, freeing her, appreciating her...

7/3/2014 6:09:36 PM
slave is tired of changes, and she is tired of hearing "life is change". Change is stressful, and slave's life is changing in almost every area.

She's so tired.

That is all.

6/21/2014 3:29:48 PM
slave gets what she deserves. Master is quite good at ensuring this, frankly.

There are times when slave doesn't fully understand why Master does what he does when he relates to her. There are times when slave doesn't fully appreciate it.

But she does indeed get what she deserves.

She deserves his respect, admiration, and love. She deserves to feel comfortable in her skin, and in her place and station as slave. She deserves to be affirmed in her new confidence and newly recognized strength.

And Master assures that she gets all she deserves.

She doesn't feel as if she returns that favor as well as she should, at times. She doesn't express the unmitigated gratitude that is a constant in her heart and in her mind for this man.  

She gives her Master all she is, but sometimes the expression of gratitude is neglected.

Master doesn't get what he deserves from his slave, but since he sees her as he does it is good for him. He gets what he wants from her.

And heck, if slave didn't have something to work on, she'd be imagining things to worry about, so maybe it's a good thing!

Thank you, Master, for explicit words. Thank you for supporting, encouraging, and believing in your slave in ways that she often has difficulty accepting and understanding. Thank you, Master, for allowing her to experience the man you are to the degree you do. She is honored.

And so grateful that you give her what she deserves.


6/6/2014 8:23:05 AM

slave woke up this morning in Master's arms, and shifted because the dance of incredible intimacy during the night left her needful of turning. Master's arm moved, and his hand came to rest on her pillow. The sun illuminated this hand, and slave's thoughts turned as her body had moments before.

 

She began to ponder her Master's hands.

 

The sun was playful as the blind shifted, blown about by the breeze from the ceiling fan. slave's emotions, already tender from some very dramatic "discussion" last night, overflowed once more as she pondered the hand so vividly and unconsciously displayed.

 

Master's hands.

 

His hands paint and draw in the incredibly expressive art which he calls dancing. slave doesn't often have the opportunity to watch him dance in this manner, but his hands always capture her attention when she does. His art is evocative and narrative. His painting is not as evocative and narrative as his *art*, which he will understand if no one else does.

 

His hands bring pain, of course, as most Master's hands can do. He whips slave, beats slave, until she is a muddled mess of tears and begging for mercy while her ass and legs are beaten and the attempt is made to stripe her flesh.

 

His hands in her hair, on her face as she kneels beside him....on her body as she lies in his arms....tenderness....pleasure....His gestures as he talks, as he sings, as he plays...slave watches his hands even then, as much as she listens to his words. He teaches her, teaches most everyone he meets in one way or another, but he teaches his slave what it means to have a "normal" relationship. He doesn't allow her to remain codependent, to be "victim" as she has learned historically and repeatedly learned to be when in a relationship. She is not easy for him, though she yearns to be....

 

He holds her, he holds onto her even when she would run away. He helps her to see him, to see what she cannot always see herself because she sometimes tends to see people, anyone and everyone, through the filter of her past. Since it is a rather ugly past, sometimes she doesn't see him as he is. She sometimes cannot seem to understand or accept that this man, who is so different than anyone she has ever met, holds onto her so tightly because she sometimes can't hold onto him anymore. As she grows, as she changes, his hands holding onto her keep her focused, refocus her when necessary, and never, ever, let her forget that he is *for* her. He is on her side. He believes in his slave even when she is too emotionally drained to believe in herself any longer. He holds onto her, though it drains him as well and slave sometimes forgets that too, but he keeps her from ruining this for us both....he keeps her safe.

 

Figuratively and literally, so capable and strong, his hands are the bringers of joy, pain, tenderness, pleasure, art, communication, education, help, support, encouragement, safety.

 

slave needs Master too much, she realizes that. Too much for what, she cannot answer, but this incredible vulnerability makes her defensive. She should not be. She is safe in Master's hands.

 

Thank you, Master, for things only you can know. Thank you for holding onto her, most of all.


5/31/2014 12:30:40 PM
slave is a very lucky woman. She has an opportunity that many do not, because she is free of material encumbrance. slave is changing, being reshaped simply into who she is. Master is not doing it; indeed he is careful to not interfere with this process. Since slave is who she is, with her experiences having affected her so deeply for so long, she is sometimes frustrated that Master is so careful to keep this slave's transformation into herself, But frankly, she finally understands that it is when she is herself that she is most desirable to him, not when she morphs into who *he* might want her to be. Even when who she is doesn't behave well, or expresses herself in annoying and frustrating ways...it is gratifying to Master that she is being herself. She's never really done this before, and it's terrifying at times. But it is also contentful, peaceful, calm, joyful, stressful, painful, anxiety-ridden.....in a word, exhilarating. She could not do it alone. She never would have begun, had it not been for Master's influence. He, as slave told him on the phone earlier, was the impetus...the instigator. Once the process had begun, there was no stopping it, of course. Master did not do the hard stuff, is not doing it...but he is working hard to support, encourage, reassure his slave that all is well. Anyway, the internal changes, along with some fairly dramatic and traumatic situational changes, have made slave reevaluate her situation. She's job hunting, broke, changing serious relationships, stressed and worried. But she's happy. She has come to understand just how little material possessions mean to her. That is true freedom. slave's world is wide open in terms of possibilities. With her abilities, education and experience, she quite literally has world-wide prospects. This is a new idea to slave. She likes it. She could literally pack everything she cares about owning, in terms of material things, in a box or two. Add some clothes and a few books and she is on her way to her future! Freedom. She could not have become free without first knowing herself. She is slave, owned and loved by an incredible man, freed by herself into herself.

4/26/2014 2:36:15 AM
The only consistent thing in life is change. Except Master. When almost everything else in slave's life is churning, he remains the steadfast, faithful man that he is. Even when he changes, his commitment to those he loves is steadfast and true. It is nice to have such an anchor. Thank you, Master, for opening yourself and allowing your slave to draw on your strength when hers has failed miserably as it has recently.

4/7/2014 7:38:19 PM
As verbose as slave typically is, sometimes she has no ability to articulate. The gratitude she feels for her Master simply overtakes her at times, and she must stop in her tracks and simply feel. That's a relatively new thing for slave; she had stopped feeling much at all for years. But it is just plain good. He accepts her as she is, but encourages her in the changes she chooses to make. He knows the highlights, and many of the details, of her past...and he sees her differently than she has been able to see herself. She has worked so hard to stop being a victim, that she forgot that, as a very young child, she could be nothing but victim. Innocent. Truly, purely, innocent. And that's ok. Releasing all responsibility for that sexual abuse, releasing the guilt, accepting her five year old self as innocent, blameless, victim...it truly is ok. That's what slave was as a 5 year old. Master understands this, and explained it to slave with a very apt metaphor on more than one level. slave no longer has to merely trust his judgment in this matter. What an amazing, significant thing!

4/7/2014 10:06:09 AM
slave wants what she doesn't want to want, indeed that which she doesn't want at all.

4/6/2014 11:55:36 AM
When slave looks back to who she was all those months ago when she met Master, it is like seeing a different person altogether. She likes who she is becoming, though it is creating unforeseen (by slave) stresses. She's not used to being independently dependent, or dependent by choice. It takes getting used to. Sometimes she forgets that her slavery must be the same, whether by compulsion or by choice. Master, as usual, is absolutely incredible. He is letting slave know that he wants more and more of her, and also taking more as well. His fingers in her ass while he was buttfucking her....the first time he has done that, and it opened her...so well. She hopes it isn't the last. Then his fingers in her mouth, feeding her the taste of her own ass... Taking care of business, discussing personal, professional, intellectual matters...laughing and staying up all night...cooking, cleaning, mending for Master...being the butt of his jokes, and getting a dig in now and then....discovering that Master is cognitively ticklish.....slave playing, pleading, pleasing.... A very nice weekend indeed. Oh yes.....Master lost a bet to slave....but his credit's good with her!

4/4/2014 10:26:54 AM
Such a grateful slave.

3/30/2014 8:58:43 AM
Coming to terms is actually rather beneficial. It will be even more so as time passes. She does have a wonderful Master who loves her and wants her to be the best she can be. She is also learning that she *can* and *should* do what is right for *her*, because it is only when she is psychologically and emotionally at ease that she will be able to give Master what he wants from her. Her best. He deserves no less. And she deserves no less than the ability to give that to him. Yes, slave is gaining confidence and applying what she has learned. This is rather a breakthrough for her, actually. She is finally internalizing what it means to make choices that benefit her, even while being Master's slave. It's confusing, for one such as slave. But she's getting there!

3/28/2014 6:15:43 AM
So slave's dumbassery wasn't all due to herself.

3/23/2014 8:03:02 PM
Being loved is absolutely incredible. Being wanted *and* loved even better. Being RimMe's loved, wanted slave - indescribable.

3/23/2014 11:37:52 AM
If slave can ever stop being a dumbass long enough, she might make some progress. Lying here while Master naps, thoughts swirling wildly through her already dizzy brain, slave finds herself pondering the calm that settles then flees with stunning abruptness. The more comprehensively she is owned, the more her almost innate fears and insecurities ebb and flow, typically without warning. She must say, the ebb is pretty sweet. And she is getting better about handling the flow, though she is exceedingly and thoroughly tired of living with them. She sometimes wonders, given her history and rather impressive abilities to mentally "put things away" rather than actually deal with them, if she will ever be able to deal with her fears and insecurities in a healthy manner. She admits, she feels sorry for Master sometimes. She thinks he didn't quite realize just what he was "signing up for" when he agreed to accept control over her life almost 9 months ago. He has such faith in her ability to handle these things in ways that are less disruptive to us. To him. All she can say is that she is trying, she has a long way to go, and that though the struggle often overwhelms her (like today), she is making conscious efforts to handle being overwhelmed better than she has historically. slave did so today, at least. One victory at a time. She is glad.

3/18/2014 4:45:09 PM

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slave has been corrected, and still had a "moment" after correction. It wasn't as bad, because she did bring it to Master's attention before she took it with her and let it fester, but she had to learn a hard (for her) lesson regarding his ownership of his slave, her station, and that she is wanted. 

 

Yes, Master, for her to have such a big brain, your slave really is a dumbass.


3/16/2014 1:21:59 PM

slave has been running amok, to use Master's phrase, and it's been quite a rough few days, for her at least. It was her own fault, though she was reacting to some circumstances that would have been a challenge for her even had she had better mental capacity to deal with them.

 

For slave, this must be a record. She has been Master's slave for 8 months now, and this is the first really traumatic thing that her emotional issues has created. If Master weren't as wonderful as he is, even when she was giving him hell for whatever she was giving him hell about, slave would still be in the bad place she had allowed herself to get into. She truly has no idea what her mindset would be now if it weren't for him.

 

Now, for the record, she has to say that he is no saint. He has his faults, and slave pushed a button or two (unconsciously, he knows that too. How could she know them? We hadn't had an issue like this before). He reacted as any man...well, as any Master....well as any atypical Master would. Though she has to admit that some of the things he wrote to her via email pushed some really negative buttons of her own....

 

But those buttons were mostly due to her history, and she *finally* began to recognize them as such *before* she reacted to them. (finally she was in a place to see her behaviors a bit more impersonally again). So today, after several days, her replies finally became calmer, more appropriate for slave to her Master. He wants her to be open with him, but he expects her to be appropriate with how she does so.

 

She won't go into details about the trouble itself, unless Master wants her to and she doesn't think he will. But she can honestly say that she is incredibly fortunate to be this man's slave. She is a different person now...a better person now....from having known him and being in a relationship with him such as she has been. She has a lot to learn, some very difficult things to begin to practice in order to make herself less susceptible to the things that created the problems for her this time.

 

She is leaning on Master's perspective for now, until she can begin to internalize some of the things she needs to internalize about herself. She is learning, but she is not going to be in a hurry. She is also trusting Master's patience, and his faith in her ability to work through these things.

 

Some concepts that slave learned from her Bible are correct, one of which is that we often come through a fire more refined and pure (read better if the word pure bothers you....if you could read past the word "Bible" - lol) than we were before. Troubles, if we don't give in to the temptation to run from them (no comment), will refine us into better people....*if* we choose to learn from them.

 

And so, this is another "grateful for Master" post, but slave doesn't mind them. For all this man is doing for her, she would be an idiot if she weren't grateful to him, for him. Expressing that gratitude comes naturally to slave, and Master deserves every show of gratitude she can express. Thank you, Master.


3/10/2014 6:15:29 AM
Another quick, unexpected time with Master. It was really more about the simple pleasure of spending time together except the bj with extras - lol. We had spent quite a bit of time together on the phone the night before. It was intimate, powerful...the dynamic was affirmed, reinforced, strengthened....none of those words, even in combination, can give more than a pale reflection of the intensity of that middle of the night interaction. So when slave could go to him the next day, she did not hesitate to do so. Master was again not feeling well when slave arrived, which is very unusual for him. We ended up snuggled together under blankets, after he took medicine, and had a nap. slave has never known anyone who is so incredibly still when he sleeps. It's really kind of fascinating, to her - lol. Anyway, when he woke up, he wanted slave's mouth on his balls, so she began to lick and suck them, moving to his taint, his cock. He was simply enjoying her service, the expression of her adoration, devotion, worship... She is learning what he enjoys in terms of having his cock sucked, which is a good thing for a slave to do - lol! She tries to take him into her throat, she takes him as deep as she can...she fucks his cock with her mouth, gagging herself, and has finally learned not to stop even then, but to move her mouth back to his balls so that he is constantly stimulated, constantly served. Eventually, though, he simply grabbed her head and began to fuck her face. She doesn't know if Master knows this or not, but he's the only man who has ever done that to her. She had no idea how to breathe or anything. But she learned, with practice... She sucked his cock, moved to rim him, licked and sucked his balls, had her face fucked....it was a nice long time at his cock, and yes, slave was honored with his cum for a reward. slave did look, as Master said, like the cat who ate the canary afterwards - lol. She rather felt that way too, frankly. We spent the rest of our time together snuggling a bit with slave kneeling beside Master, talking and watching tv. We had pizza, another conversation that may have surprised Master just a bit (not too much), and then it was suddenly time to go. slave hates that time.

3/8/2014 7:28:28 PM

slave got a message from Master saying "I think I'll use slave visually today". slave, though she sent back a questioning "visually?", knew what he meant. She spent the rest of her drive to him on figurative pins and needles.

 

When she got there, her nerves caused her to not be as comfortable as she has come to expect to be when with her Master. 

 

slave had bound her tits once more, and had plugged her ass (though once more had to remove the plug 5 minutes from his home). He had her remove her top to expose her tits. She had bound them more tightly, so they were more purple than the last time -  more painful as well. She was wearing her choke chain collar, and he had her keep her skirt on and display her tits so he could take photos of her. slave struggles with her body image, really very seriously, and typically does all she can to avoid being on the "wrong" side of the camera lens. 

 

She was so uncomfortable at first. It was SO difficult for her. The difficulties were not easy to identify and that is one reason slave had to wait before typing here. The most obvious is the body image issue slave has, and while she's gotten a bit more comfortable with it while serving Master sexually, or even just being around him, it was a total shock to present herself simply for Master's visual perusal, especially with camera in hand. 

 

More difficulties....this was the first time that slave had gone to Master and the service had been solely about Master's desires and nothing more. That is a good thing, but it was quite unusual. It was a different mindset for slave, and one she had never been in with Master before, so she wasn't totally sure .... well, she was playing "catch up" mentally in ways. It wasn't bad, just difficult, different. 

 

She also had never, ever done anything like this at all, in ANY way. We had discussed, a long time ago, what Master looked for in a model. Those words were resounding mentally....express her desires....her need....her enslavement....

 

And without direction from Master, she would have frozen with the word HOW???? hovering over her head in a huge cartoon bubble and a classic deer in the headlights look on her face!

 

Thankfully, Master chose to direct her. She showed her tits, dropped to her knees and let her bound tits hang when he told her to...and she did suggest clamps, which was her offering of the session. He got clamps with weights on them, she clamped her nipples, and they HURT!!! (go figure). Soon she clamped her inner labia - or one at least. She couldn't get the clamp to stay on the right one for some reason. She'd never clamped her inner labia before, so maybe that is why, who knows? She stood to let it sway, then bent so he could photo from behind while the weight swayed beneath her. Finally she was able to unbind and unclamp, and he had her use her hands to open her asshole and expose herself that way. Her body is not small, her arms are not long, and she struggled to obey that one physically.

 

The hardest part of all was that there was absolutely no physical touch involved. She caused the pain to herself as Master took photos or watched (he was using her visually). She displayed, exposed. She clamped, unclamped, unbound. She was not used to that at all. She needed it, she knows, but it really was very, very difficult. 

 

Difficult is not always bad. slave craves difficult, even if she hesitates...even if she doesn't act as if she wants it. 

 

She was finally able to touch him, to thank him, to worship his feet...finally, finally to have her face at his feet where it belongs. She wishes she were there now.

 

But overall she was grateful for humiliation, debasement, that came from Master. He might not have meant it to be as debasing as it was, but slave has a feeling he knew it would be at least somewhat so. 

 

And then he didn't even have her suck his cock or fuck her ass! *sigh* She had to go through the photos and choose the ones to go on her profile here, and upload them! That truly was difficult. She wants to look better for her Master, and for herself as well, and she doesn't like to see how she looks now. 

 

Later on she was called to him, to suck his cock. She sucked and learned, and licked his ass and was fucked in the ass, and sucked even more and learned even more, until her jaws hurt so much she had to stop. She did hate asking to stop....she did ask, didn't she? :( She doesn't remember now....rude if she didn't, that was. 

 

That was a long session, longer with her mouth at his cock than usual, and she learned a lot about his preferences. She still had a lot to learn though....and later that night, after slave begged to be close to Master, she was able to serve him once more with her mouth, and did a bit better she thinks....she was able to practice some of what she had learned. 

 

This trip, likely because of the difficulties and the differences, and because slave is such an emotional, intellectual, and analytical slave, she had a subspace experience...and actually likely a bit of subdrop if one had to label it. It was a time of seriousness, of emotions but she could not name, thoughts she could not express. Master had not seen his slave so quiet EVER, she thinks, maybe even when he restricts her speech (that she needs work on. She forgets she's not supposed to talk!) 

 

So it was a very interesting time together. This slave has a lot to learn, a lot to think about, a lot to put into practice, and a lot to actually practice. But most of all, she simply has to be his, the most difficult, easy, gratifying thing she has ever done. 

 


3/8/2014 11:20:12 AM
slave was used in different ways by Master. She will write about that soon. She has some thinking and questioning to do. Nothing dire, just more learning. She's smiling, actually. And yes, her new pics are from the use. Debasement.....not self debasement yet, that will come. For now, from Masterr. Yes. God yes, slave needed it, though she couldn't take all she yearns to. That is something she's thinking about and questioning. And so, slave has much to think on, to write about, to plan, to implement. The plans and implementation she cannot say here but it still needs to be done. She is confronting herself, and at times it is excruciatingly painful. At times, however, it is nothing less than joyous.

3/4/2014 11:05:15 AM
slave is happy. She had an "ah-ha" moment this morning that is part of her ongoing process of becoming herself. She discovered just how much better it is to be wanted than it is to be needed. Yes, she is slow sometimes. That is all. :)

3/2/2014 6:02:47 PM

slave just got to spend the weekend with her Master. It was incredible. It had been too long because of the illness that just won't go away.

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But on ?Friday Master was feeling much better and slave was finally able to go to him.?

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She was so glad. She needed it as much as he did, though she kind of dropped the ball a little bit later in the weekend in some ways. She thinks it's alright, she thinks he wasn't terribly disappointed - though he did comment a couple of times about her not asking for his piss. She will, though. She's getting used to her new self, her new confidence, and being slave while feeling this newfound strength. It's a very unusual feeling, frankly, but it is not a bad feeling at all. It just....well, slave has some thinking to do, and yes of course she's smiling a bit at the irony of that statement - lol.

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slave had filled her ass before she left home. She had given herself an enema on Thursday night, and shaved well. She had asked permission to bind her tits before she got to her Master on Friday. She stopped at a convenience store and did so, took a photo and then drove on.?

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The drive seemed interminable.

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She had gotten out to go to the bathroom, as usual, when she got to the town Master lives in, and had to remove the plug (it doesn't like to stay in slave's ass for some reason!), but she had worn it for a good while so she knew her ass was ready for her Master's use.

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When she entered his home, she walked in and lifted her dress....removed it and her tank top....exposing her nude body, except the ropes that were binding her now throbbing tits.?

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He gave her a padlock which she had asked to have, to connect the rings on her cunt. She locked her cunt closed, and if she didn't smile physically, she was smiling inside.

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She hooked the leash to her collar and gave it to Master....crawled to where he indicated....and moaned as he began to torment her engorged, sensitive nipples. It wasn't long before she was nuzzling at his cock, whimpering and moaning softly....Master used the leash to whip her....then ?his belt....she was begging, but could ?not form the words to express the needed of her begging....she needed more of the belt...more of him....simply more of him....

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Shortly, she was allowed to feast on his cock....oh the taste of him after so long was perfect! She took him as deeply as possible, over and over as he teased and tormented her nipples....her moans and cries as his fingers pinched and pulled sent some apparently very nice sensations through his shaft.

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And yes, her mouth soon found its home at his ass. She licked his asshole, which he had left unwiped for her to clean for him. She cleaned him as she should, it is slave's honor to serve her Owner in this way. She never imagined that she would crave her tongue in ?his ass, but she has learned that it is such an impactful way to show her devotion, her adoration, her subservience, her utter debasement.....for his exaltation, which is what this man deserves and nothing less....that she craves it, literally.

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She licked, lapped, kissed, cleaned. She pressed her face into his crack to get to his hole better. His hand found her head, his gentle touch revealing his appreciation for her subservience, for her service, for all that it means which is almost incapable of verbalizing (for slave at least).

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Soon he was behind slave, his cock sliding easily into her prepared hole. He was surprised, pleasantly so, and commented on how easily his cock slid into her hole. It is as it should be. He should be able to enter her ass as if it were a cunt.?

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He fucked her, then slave cleaned her ass's juices from his cock, sucking and gagging as she cleaned him. He fucked more, she cleaned more. Her cunt was locked together,?but her ass was totally, easily opened to him....always, only to him. She ended up lying on the floor, on her bound tits, and they hurt....Master asked if it hurt...slave said her tits did....he was pleased....

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slave eventually resumed her rimming of her Master. God, it was as if she was hungry for all she could get of him. Finally, she was rewarded with Master's cum shooting deep into her mouth....mmmmmmmm.......

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The rest of the weekend was filled with intellectual discourse, business plans, movies, an all-nighter, laughter, a bit of snuggling, chores (yes, Master, slave will vacuum next time she's there), and a little bit of just hanging out.?

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What an incredible weekend. slave is very, very glad we had this time together, and is already looking forward to next time! (as usual!)


2/27/2014 8:40:38 AM
slave is thinking of serving her Master. She is thinking of bound tits, collar and leash, silence. Thoughts abound of foot worship, the scent and taste of his ass, his cock filling hers. Ready...eager...hungering to lower herself before the one who has shown himself worthy beyond measure of all she can give. Soon is not soon enough for this yearning slave.

2/24/2014 5:56:40 PM

slave gave Master a gift last time she was there - poor Master is sick now! Well, she actually gave it to him the time before....he just got sick last week. It's hard not being able to do things for him, but she understands that it is best to leave him alone and let him grouse in peace!?

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So she's kind of been at loose ends in ways for a few days, which was good for her. She isn't the type to panic or get unwound or ... whatever the wording is to describe the loss of ability to cope as slave that some women get when their Masters are not as attentive as they usually are for whatever reason. slave simply does what she does and waits for Master to return to his normal self. :)

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Of course, one thing that slave does is think. Go figure.

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She is not an analytical creature, not at all. Whatever gave you THAT idea????

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She's not sarcastic either.?

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Anyway...

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So slave was thinking, uncharacteristically. Master had made a smartass comment when slave was at her most sick about taking care of herself so that he wouldn't have to look for another slave. Of course, when he was fairly ill she made the same type of comment about looking for another Master. Or rather not wanting to have to.

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Master got (somewhat) serious and said that slave was strong enough to live without a Master now, in the off chance that this cold did kill him.

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That statement rendered slave speechless, and not only because she didn't want to have to think about living without Master.?

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She didn't really realize that she was that strong.?

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Oh, she has been realizing that she is stronger than she had first thought, but she didn't realize it was her personality. She honestly considered that it was more that she was able to react to difficulties and challenges in her life and not let them defeat her.?

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But suddenly she could see that it was not simply that. She really is a strong woman, in and of herself.?

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She is strong enough to live alone successfully. That doesn't mean she wants to, without having someone to call upon for help and advice when she needs it. But she could, if she had to. She is smart and resourceful and intuitive and creative (yes, Master, she admits it). She has a real and intense sense of herself as the powerful person that she is and....she commented to Master, who apparently didn't realize that she hadn't gotten this a long time ago....and he said "Well, yeah!"

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So she began to think......And as a result, later this weekend......She did something else.....

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slave had been compelled to crawl to him when we first met....twice....and to beg him to accept her as his slave. She could not explain the pull that drew her to him, and even now cannot explain it other than that he is simply her Master. Something in her recognized that and left her no choice other than to crawl and beg.

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Today, slave came to him once more, but from a different position. She is still drawn to him, still definitely recognizes him as her Master, as the Master that she is compelled to serve with all she is, but....today, she begged him once again....

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Today, slave begged him to accept her as his slave by choice, not by compulsion. She came to him as a strong woman, not a broken one. She proffered a?far more precious gift....the surrender of an aware, self-enslaved, freely subjugating woman.

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And again, her Master accepted her as His. Gratitude is far too mild a word to express the flood of emotions filling this slave's heart.

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Thank you, once more, my Master. Simply, and intricately, thank you.


2/22/2014 4:17:52 PM

Added a new pic. :)


2/22/2014 9:18:58 AM
slave has been sick for too long. Her mind is not clear anymore and she doesn't like that feeling. It makes her feel stupid. That's probably why she has never done illegal drugs, and why she is in no danger of getting hooked on prescription meds. Of course she has no first hand knowledge of how illegal drugs would affect her thinking processes, but she had some cough syrup with a mild narcotic in it recently. It slowed her thinking dramatically, and she felt stupid. She doesn't like that at all. slave is an intelligent woman, who has lost touch with parts of her intelligence. Circumstances, people, and her own past choices have all contributed to this situation, but the bottom line is that she often tends to latch onto any perceived weakness in herself. She is working on letting things go. She is trying to keep things in perspective - strengths as well as weaknesses. That is a difficult thing to do, for someone with a long life in which dto have developed lifelong habits of thought. slave struggled with debasement for this very reason, of course. But now that she understands more about herself, she understands that self debasement and external debasement are totally different, with different motivations and vastly different results. The interesting thing is that now that slave accepts herself and her needs, she also finds that she needs more than her own exposure and experiences allow her to express. Or maybe not...we'll see. All slave knows is that her Master holds her in high esteem, values her (partly for her intelligence), and never lets his slave forget that. He is a very unique, incredible, man. slave is grateful, glad, to be his.

2/20/2014 3:11:07 PM
slave is getting better at pleasing her Master, but she still has work to do. She really needs to work on her oral skills, and on her endurance at such. But hey, it is fun practicing! Being known as slave around others is a new and exciting experience for slave. Master had guests this week, one of whom was a very old, close friend. Friend was accepting and very cool - a good man in general. The other guest, on the other hand, was none of the above. slave has heard of others who have been faced with accusations of being abused because of the nature of the relationship they are in. But she has never faced such herself until yesterday. slave actually tried to explain the nature of the deep respect, trust, and intimacy involved in our relationship. She asked, "Don't you think it takes a lot of trust to willingly allow someone to hit you with a belt, for instance?" And, "How do you learn to trust someone?" She asked other open ended questions in an attempt to guide the person to a kernel of understanding. They would understand, but then, because they took a serious and unreasonable dislike to Master, they would suddenly start with the typical "abuse" accusations. There was even a question of whether Master would ever rape! Yes, slave was extremely angry, though she didn't show it. This was Master's guest, and slave does have manners hidden somewhere. Btw, slave has been abused. She knows what that feels like. This ain't it. Just in case someone here wondered. So slave didn't waste her energy or her breath trying to talk with the person very long. The accusations became more and more outrageous, and finally slave stopped responding at all and walked away. Well, she made some excuse so she wouldn't be rude, but she didn't listen to the craziness anymore. She finally understood what others felt when they were confronted by those who will not listen. But she also doesn't understand those who believe that it is absolutely vital that the world accept AND approve of their private choices either. It's far more simple, not to mention less stressful, to simply let things go rather than force one's views on others! What is wrong with live and let live? On a much brighter note, slave wanted to mention just how much she loves when Master fucks her ass. Ecstasy. And not the pharmaceutical kind. She is already ready to go back to him. It is as it should be.

2/15/2014 6:28:26 PM
slave is happy. Her circumstances are not what she'd like for them to be, though they aren't as bad as they could be. She is fortunate in a lot of ways, she does realize that. But she is learning about herself, trying to accept what she learns (even good things, which is always a struggle), and likes what she is learning, for the most part. What she doesn't like, she is trying to change - if possible. But in a strange twist, and it's really kind of odd, she feels less internal pressure to be perfect. One would think that it would have increased as she became more comfortable in her slave station. But she is finally able to relax in her slavery, in herself, *as* herself. It's amazing the difference she feels. She's not wording this well, but that's ok. She knows what she means anyway. She always used to say that when she learned what Master expected from her, she would bend over backwards to do it. Little did she know that the bending over backwards had to happen first! The work is still being done, of course, but the hardest part (she believes) has already been done. And she is comfortable in herself, even as she changes. That's what is so amazing to slave. She is far less inhibited, though there are still some inhibitions of course. She did say she's still working on herself! She is exploring herself, her world, with new eyes...a new perspective. She knows what it means to be happy now. And she is. Thank you, Master, for giving your slave herself. She will forever be in your debt, for how can anyone repay one's life? You have changed your slave forever, for the better, and she is indeed grateful.

2/12/2014 6:18:53 PM

slave got another piercing. :)

 

Her left labia this time, to match her right one. Actually, due to slave's ignorance (as in lack of knowledge, though she's been called ignorant when the accuser meant stupid, more times than she cares to think about - lol)....the right one had to be redone as well. So she's quite sore, sitting and walking funnily, wincing and grimacing much to Master's amusement. slave cannot fathom why he finds it such a source of amusement, but there it is. 

 

She didn't like leaving today, but it is what it is. 

 

She never imagined that she would crave serving her Master by rimming him, but she was so glad that he allowed her to feast to her heart's desire last night. She licked, tongued, kissed, sucked until her jaws and tongue were pure aching....and she was quite peaceful and sleepy when she finally had to stop. Most of her time at his ass was .... well, Master once asked slave to think about what action she associates most closely with being a slave. She said being pissed on, but she has changed her thoughts.

 

slave feels more content, most slave like, while she is rimming her Master....worshiping at his ass, giving him pleasure but also simply striving to let him know her deepest desires... her lowest state, which is her  highest glory .... 

 

She yearns to serve this man, to offer all she is for his use and pleasure. She is so grateful, so indescribably grateful, to her Master that he is showing her how to be more and more expressive of all that she thinks, feels, and craves....and that he often, so often, allows her to act upon those things. She is one very fortunate slave, simply because she belongs to RimMe. 


2/9/2014 6:24:47 PM

“You may not realize it when it happens, but a kick in the teeth may be the best thing in the world for you.” – Walt Disney

 

 

This slave sure hopes this particular kick in the teeth is the best thing in the world for her, other than Master of course.

 

But slave is also realizing that no matter the circumstances, she has choices. Master is helping her to see all her options, and to find avenues to explore which she might not have considered. 

 

”Failure is the opportunity to begin again more intelligently.”  - HENRY FORD

 

 

Another quote that describes slave to a T:

 

"Why have you not broken from the pack? You’re playing it safe. Safe ain't gonna get you shit in this world” -Stone Cold Steve Austin (WWE Superstar)

 

Master doesn't call her "prudence" for nothing.

 

On a more positive note:

 

“We dance for laughter, we dance for tears, we dance for madness, we dance for fears, we dance for hopes, we dance for screams, we are the dancers, we create the dreams.” ~Albert Einstein


slave is learning to dance once more....again, thanks to Master. He has been an incredible force in her life, without once being forceful. That is a huge statement, and slave considers herself blessed to belong to this man. She could not be who she is if it weren't for him being who he is. 

 

She is glad he discovered the need to discover himself, so that he could lead her to discovering herself. 

 

Thank you, Master. Simply thank you.


2/8/2014 2:30:00 PM

 

A quote from RimMe:

 

"A Dominant imposes, a Master seduces."

 

A Master, slave's Master, seduced her mind and now elicits so much from her that she still cannot imagine is there. 

 

She doesn't know where so much of what she is learning about herself has been. It has obviously been a part of her, though she honestly had no idea about much of it. Or maybe she should say that she didn't *want* to know about it.

 

But it was a gradual process, for the most part. Master brought her along at a pace which she could handle, but kept her moving forward. It was, as she told Master earlier today, the  most difficult thing she has ever done.

 

She will forever be grateful to this man for giving her the gift of knowing herself.

 

The words are never enough, but they are all she has. Thank you, Master. 


2/5/2014 5:34:55 PM
Change is stressful. Even good change. slave has a lot to learn.

2/1/2014 7:18:17 PM
?A coward is incapable of exhibiting love; it is the prerogative of the brave. ? - Gandhi -A reminder of Master.

1/30/2014 7:16:59 PM

How does one write about accepting one's self at one's core, after struggling against it for what seems like forever? 

 

How does one relate the meaning of such acceptance, when the very word "meaning" is bland and meaningless in comparison to the actuality of reality?

 

Finally, finally, slave can say.....I am slave.....and it is fraught with meaning and essence and is a living, breathing being inside her. It is her core, the beast within her which she always knew was there, but never wanted to admit to, to face, to acknowledge, to accept. 

 

But when she did, and she was able to force the expression her acquiescence, and to express the depth of her acquiescence, she expressed it in a way in which she has struggled for a long, long time. She did so filled with...not with fear, exactly, but with a true intellectual wondering about how anyone could honestly respect anyone who was in the position slave expressed. She could not look at her Master, and she could barely ask how he could respect her now....He simply pulled her to him and held her and told her that she was cloaked in dignity. slave simply cried and trembled and listened as he spoke  quietly to her ..... He said he was happy for slave.....she has found herself. She has come to terms with herself. She began to wonder if she ever would. 

 

She has no words to convey the emotions that are coursing through her right now, and so she will simply choose to live her life in a way that will do it in a way that words never could. But the words she will never be able to say enough, she will say often....thank you, Master, with all she is. 

 


1/26/2014 6:47:29 PM

A breakthrough for slave.....a wonderful, powerful, beautiful breakthrough for slave, and Master as well. She cannot really explain it here, but it is very positive for us both.

It already has been.

slave is learning more about her Master, and he is showing her more of him. She finally reached a place in her journey that she turned her focus outwards, towards her Master, rather than inwards on her own issues and problems to overcome and somehow deal with.

slave is learning....still, always, gratefully learning....she has become more and more fully enslaved....she is finally at a place where she is not simply *a* slave, she is not simply learning about enslavement....she has applied what she is learning, internalized it, and is focused outward now, towards her Master. She is finally ready to more completely become Master's slave specifically. She is ready to focus on his needs, to learn his preferences rather than simply beg for what she needs and hope that he wants the same thing....

He waited so long for his slave to reach this state. He saw her need to be enslaved when she didn't even want it to be seen....as she crawled to him here on collarme....begging him for his attention, his favor, his interest.  He guided her, taught her, challenged her, listened to her, comforted her, waited for her, used her, helped her, watched her, reassured her....until finally....finally she was able to offer herself for whatever use he has of her....it took so long for her to get here....but Master waited...he said that it, that slave, was worth the wait.

She isn't explaining this very well, but maybe she really doesn't need to.

slave is becoming the slave she was born to be. Master is freeing her into her enslavement....binding her to him with bonds far stronger than leather.


1/25/2014 6:33:01 PM

"Here's the thing, slave: I already know I can have as I wish, that
slave's desires are to obey and please. What interests me is not what I
may have of her, as I know I can have all. What interests me are her
self generated tokens of that dedication, sexual, intellectual,
emotional, practical, her revelation to me of those desires to serve,
without need of 'obedience' because she really knows what she must
give. All always. And express it, and express it with the grace of
gratitude. That's all." 

- RimMe

 


1/24/2014 2:55:43 PM
slave has been having trials and tribulations of internal, mental and emotional sorts for the past few days, but for now all seems well. She's not complaining, and she's quite sure Master isn't either.
She is incredibly fortunate to have this man as her Master.
It isn't so much the physical, though she is glad to be learning how to please him better, how to degrade herself more, how to be more active in her slavery. But she is learning more and more about herself, because of who he is. Self-knowledge is the only way slave can become fully enslaved....no matter how painful it might be.
And sometimes it is agonizing.
But slave is here thinking of her Master's face, and how much she enjoys seeing it. It is quite animated, expressive, unless he controls his responses which he does when he chooses to, or when he is in that focused, intense mode when he is being served by his slave.
slave rarely sees his face then! and it's almost always an accident when she does. But when she does, she's intrigued by the intensity she sees there - the focus.
Master's face is attractive, of course, but it is the expressiveness of it that his slave has found most appealing, and most gratifying to his slave.
About his face that is....

1/20/2014 6:30:19 PM
slave has been giving a lot of thought to serving and pleasing her Master lately. She knows that she has been focused inward on a lot of changes, but that has actually been quite pleasing to him. She is becoming more deeply enslaved - not by his restraints, whether physical, mental, or emotional - but by her own needs, desires, and actual self.
slave sometimes struggles with the expression of her slavery, of her desires, of her needs. She sometimes fights against them when they are couched in the terms that Master uses, but not as much lately. She's learning to become comfortable with who she is, what she is, and how her place serves not only her Master but the relationship as a whole.
The word reflected in her very nickname is one she struggled with most - debasement. Master explained that it is from the root word meaning "low". slave stopped struggling when she learned that. Why?
She stopped her struggles because she was finally able to reconcile her need for humiliation/degradation with the strength she felt while being degraded. She clearly remembers making the statement to him one day - there is strength in being low. But she didn't understand it.
And it took a while before she finally did. But when she did, she gained so much of herself....
slave believes that it is only through lowering herself, through debasing herself, that Master can be exalted. Further, he can only be as high as she is lowered. And if *he* must do it! then he has lowered himself in order to lower his slave. He cannot be uplifted by her debasement then because the debasement is not hers at all.
So slave must look for ways in which she is made low, in order for Master to be made high, to put it in simple terms. Since this must come from her, and since this is an absolutely new perspective for slave, she is struggling with the how.
Especially since slave has always been about pleasing her partner, no matter what. She's not given much thought to her own needs, desires, and their origins. She's not thought much about how to express them without simply begging, which is a part of this of course, but...
When slave reveals to Master what she feels makes her feel most like a slave, that is expressing that desire. But when she moves to kneel beside him to simply touch him as he watches tv, that is also expressing that desire. Each of those things have been difficult for slave to do, because of her ingrained passivity, which Master says is from being a sub.
slave has a lot to learn, a lot to experience, a lot to express. And she's learning. And she's experiencing. The expressing is far, far more difficult, but she is trying with all her heart to do that too.

1/17/2014 5:52:33 PM

Disappointed Master today - slave is upset with herself. She knows she'll learn, but she expected more....

 

What she learned is just how selfish she really *is* after all, and that she let circumstances outside our relationship affect her far more than she realized, and far more than she should. 

 

She learned things to watch out for...

 

It's been a heck of a week. But if it will make her a better slave, she supposes it is worth it. She just wishes she hadn't wasted precious time with her Master today. She is really upset with herself. 


12/28/2013 5:14:44 PM

Piercing is healing nicely, still fairly tender of course. It seems it may take several weeks for it to heal completely - slave will be glad when she's not shifting like a guy, she admits!

 

 


12/21/2013 4:32:10 AM

Master most definitely knows how to make his slave's Christmas special! 

 

Thank you, Master. 


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