darkrose1

Male Dominant, 55, Redmond, WA, Washington

Female Submissive, 24

Male Dominant, 54, Wichita, Kansas

*roflmao* i just read a profile that mentioned he wants his little girlie to clean his bathroom. my gods! does the poor lad not know how to clean? does he dare not sully his pretty little hands on the toilet? *falling on the floor laughing* if a master can't do what I do....then what is he good for????? *wink*

oh dear......the whole D/s thing pops up again, after months of me not even remembering such a thing exists....except in odd moments of pain and sorrow and wistful longing and dire hope. I read these profiles here and fall deeper into sorrow and horror......for D/s is not solely about pain or ownership or any of that web crap.....it goes deeper.....it moves unto bliss.....and so few even are aware of that. I ride a thin line of hope and despair.....and only one shall gently, with utmost love and respect pull me to the side I desire to be on. one day........

ahhh...I've learned today (again!) that it isn't good nor wise to make assumptions on things or on people. in that regard, I curtsy most deeply to One who will know what I refer to....and offer sincerest apologies. this little one freely admits there's always growing and maturing to do....a lifelong process. *s*

Upon a silent bed She thinks~ And mind is her will And heart is her emotion And soul is her truth And spirit her love Calling to the cool winds Lifting up her arms in greeting Come, come unto me Soothe this loneliness Ever present, ever burning That must be assuaged Such is my truth Reaching down to the granite earth Melding with the strength she finds Come, come into me Make whole this gem That shines in your darkness Glittering caresses Such is my will Moaning deeply for passion's flames Arching up to your blaze Come, come in me Burn me wholly, to fullest measure Lips pressing hard, harder Cries drawn from me Such is my truth Sighing for rushing waters Closing her eyes slowly Come, come over me Quench this thirst Ah...dear, thirst that ever lives That only one can quench Such is my love Sensation rushes in a fell sweep Of what cannot be encompassed And she clenches around herself Heart pounding, flesh craving Voice silent under its irresistible power Arms reaching blindly, helplessly for what escapes her Breathe, breathe she demands of herself Viciously, violently wrenching to control Tossed by the maelstrom The Fool laughs As he watches her struggle A smirk upon his face And masked compassion in his eyes Murmuring to her, "do not deny your nature, your Self. You did come here to Love, after all." and he's gone in a flash of laughter "damn him, damn me"? falling from a high place As thunder rumbles into gentleness Echoes enfolding her grimacing, twisting fitfully She comes into unstable rest Upon the silent bed Repeating again mind is her will heart is her emotion soul is her truth spirit her love? dr* (c) 7/26/02

a side note: if you merely seek some imagined sexual photographic gallery of me in all my "glory" that I will send you without hesitation just because you "tell" me to then I'm sorry to let you know that I have none such. *merry laugh* I will gladly give a photo or two, but honestly I don't have many photos of myself as I dislike having my photo taken. I always think they come out terribly. anyhow, so you won't see my boobs or other nether regions. *g* I figured I may as well add this tidbit before ya come trolling to me solely for pics and stop talking to me the moment I say I only have a few. *grin*

some other thoughts real quick....if I offer a picture of myself to you, I think it is only fair you offer in return. if I start telling you about myself per your request, I also think it is fair that you also tell about yourself. I'm seeing that it is going overboard to tell everything about myself while you tell me little about you. I've changed my status to sub rather than slave, which I feel is a wise thing to do until I understand the lifestyle more fully and the role I will play in it. Erring on the side of caution here after already being burnt rather seriously by another.

I've gotten very interesting and helpful responses to my previous journal entry. I do want to make it clear that what I wrote is an "ideal" and not something that would necessarily be right there from the start, but something that is evolved into over time...with much communication back and forth. To Those who have written to me, I do offer my deep thanks and appreciation. Its all a learning process....and each day I learn something new, not only about the Dominant side of things, but also about my own submissive nature. :)

in my eyes.... being a Dom is not playing messed up headgames with me that serve no purpose but to hurt me being a Dom is being a strong man, self-confident, self-aware, mature, loving being a Dom is being firm but not being a jerk, nor being cruel being a Dom is claiming me as yours...but claiming in love and caring and understanding being a Dom is actually smiling with joy because you find life joyful being a Dom is not expecting more from me than you are willing to give being a Dom is not only about words...its also about action taken being a Dom is not about SEX in my eyes.... being a sub is giving all of myself in love and honesty and depth being a sub is submitting with pride in who, what and how you are being a sub is not messing with your head or presenting a facade being a sub is soft and sensuous and hot and earthy....and ethereal being a sub is freedom to be wholly myself, respected, cherished, and loved being a sub is exploring outside the box in order to please you being a sub is not being meek or weak...its being the best I can be being a sub is not about SEX whether you agree or not.....just my thoughts. :) fairly new to the lifestyle and not looking to get screwed over, played with or lied to. that all already happened enough in the vanilla world. *lol* I'm not a ditz. I'm educated, spiritual, creative, talented, joyful, eager, sincere, honest. what you see is what you get. and what resides beneath the surface is what's more meaningful. willing to learn with a kind Master who isn't a flake or a fool and doesn't waste my efforts or my time.

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