darkASsin

my Husband and i have never really been into labels but W/we know how W/we chose to live O/our lives. i was surprised to find that some took offense to the fact that my Husband monitors my activity when i'm online. Maybe offense is a strong word but the feeling was one of irritation at the least. He is my Husband. He takes care of me. He sees to all of my needs. He pays for the internet i use. He bought me the laptop i use. Why should He not want to protect His investment in me? Every C/couple has a personal story that no one else can know. There is a shared history and principles built up over time. So this confused me.

Contrary to what some might think, i AM allowed to make friends and chat. This includes everyone. Doms, subs, slaves, etc... It would seem that that isn't a possibility. Believe me when i say i understand Alpha Males and Their need and compulsion to possess. i understand that the profile my Husband wrote may come across as a bit harsh but is it unreasonable to think that another Dominant Male would read it and understand the stance behind it?

Anyway, i'm frustrated. i have talked to some really awesome P/people on here and enjoyed the conversation especially because my day to day life doesn't allow me to talk and ask the questions i want to ask. One the whole though, the subs aren't interested, they are on their own missions, same with the slaves. The Doms won't talk to me unless there is a possibility of my submission. i understand that my agenda does not supersede the needs and goings on of others, it would be silly and selfish of me to think so. i suppose i'm just disappointed. i haven't been here long and i've never been good at patience. 

Tomorrow is another day and i'm too stubborn to give up!!