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Hello out there.....i believe i was submissive from birth, if that makes any sense. i always wanted to play cowboys and indians during my childhood and my role was always the one that was captured, tied up and "kept" as a hostage or slave. I felt safe and snuggly with the ropes binding me. I was bad on purpose, just to get a delicious
spanking from my Daddy. I did not undertand at that tender age, those warm tingling feelings of arousal that occured when Daddy spanked my bare butt. I knew this was not normal so i thought i was just a bad girl.
Of course i had no one to talk with about those feelings, i just felt i was different, strange. It was not until i entered collage and found a copy of" The Story Of O" that it dawned on me that there were others like me in the world. Finding out about BDSM opened up a whole new world for me, i read everything i could put my hands on about the subject. I was still not out of the closet, i chose to live a fantasy world not having the courage to actually act out on me desires.....yet.,,,,This is turning out to be quite the saga............will continue later
I am not married , i have been divorced for 11 years. I carry no baggage from the divorce, it was an amiable settlement. We married to raise our son and we both dedicated our lives to bring our son up in a normal, happy. stable home. We must have accomplished this because our son has turned out to be quiet an extrodinary young man. Our son left the nest and we both decided it would be best if we parted our ways
All during the years of our marrige i would try and talk with hubby about my feeling, my sexuality, he just did not have the capability to grasp the ideas i was tossing at him
He seemed to think i shoud just put these feeling aside and grow up, and take some prozac!!! lol i am running out of room......,much more to tellllllll
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