DamselinDistress

I realized that by denying myself my womanhood and femininity, I had robbed myself of my own identity.

I think back to a time long ago, when I was a little girl--how I would delight in beautiful dresses and learning to cook and the home that I would take care of, how it would be the most wonderful place. I remember how I would fantasize about the man that would 'rescue me' (he's always been a dark knight riding into a field of flowers - finding me - this beautiful woman, innocent, sweet and lost.  He finds me, scoops me up and carries me off to HIS world, forever).

I realize that nowhere in my childhood dreams and aspirations had I longed for the lifestyle I was leading not too long ago.

Armed with my newfound knowledge, I began the slow process of de-programming myself. The road has been long and difficult at times. I had to unlearn everything I had learned about being a female. I had to endure the  reactions of my female friends when I live daily my new outlook on life (I first saw their mistakes, now I try to show by example of what it means to be a real woman). I had to totally rethink my unfavorable views on men, marriage, and the world as I KNEW it. I basically had to dismantle my whole belief system and build it back up again.

However, once I shed my "old" self, I came to the realization that for once in my adult life, I feel at peace with myself. I feel fulfilled and useful. I feel like I have a purpose in life, a purpose that is finally being shown to me. Instead of viewing my womanly body and mind as an embarrassment, I now view it as a miracle. Within me is the power to nurture, comfort, give life, and to love myself, others and the world . In my previous role, I felt pressured into denying myself these womanly traits. I sacrificed my being--my core.

Yes, I am a submissive woman, who knows the true worth of the man I submit to.  Yes, I am a slave, as I am what HE needs me to be. Yes, I am a woman, caring and giving, who wants to learn as much about everything and anything, then take what I learn and spread it to the ends of the earth.  Yes, I am a soul....without fear without doubt, I truly believe in miracles and in yes...love. 

I know this may sound too deep for the usuals at this site, but I've chosen THIS site for one reason only.  If a man is honest enough with himself to KNOW he needs to be dominant - manly in his role of life, then I want to show him through what I post, that there really ARE true women here on earth.  I ALMOST became a casualty of what men hate the most in women. 

Thanks to God and his incredible miracles, he woke me up in time before it was too late.  I would hate to die not living my true self. 

This is me....a fully competent, worthy, beautiful, strong (NOT masculine strong) and a sincere woman.