daisyjordan

All these people, looking for that "real" or "true" person, I wonder if they ever stop to really see others, to look beyond what is and see what could be, what is hidden underneath the cover they wear for what their reality. To really explore and appreciate what that person holds inside the inner core of their soul. Maybe then they would find that real true person, if such a person exists. 

I had a little chat with a lady this afternoon. While I do try to remain respectful when chatting, she offered a few suggestions. The first being that I lower case myself. I understand a bit of humility for submissives but at what cost? Am I any less due to my status as an s-type? It was just a chat, in a private window. Getting to know each other. I do feel basic rules of chat would apply. I understand in a room full of people using her name after every sentence or if we had an understanding. That it was a private chat, I would think she knew I was talking to her. That I should talk to her, in upper case? It does boggle my senses of grammar to write things like, i find You very pretty Ms. X, it just feels wrong. I may not have a masters in English but I do have a love of the written word, done properly. I am not nor do I feel I should dumb down my conversation to show respect to someone. I am as smart as any other. Yes, I have been known to text idk, or some other bit but when chatting I write as I would to anyone. I mean no disrespect.. I refuse to dumb myself down when not even Sir asks me to do that. He knows that just because I have written a proper sentence while chatting and did not capitalize every pronoun that pertained to him, I mean the utmost respect. And while we are at it…if I did utilize that rule, just because I put something in capitals does not mean it is respectful, I mean, I could say Sir A**wipe or Miss Pain in my Neck and prob get an awful beating, yet it is in capitals so should not be in trouble if that is the only ruling, am I not correct?

Please don’t take this as being disrespectful though, please. I have the utmost respect for you d-types, I just feel you would want me at my best, an intelligent girl. I am more than capable of stroking your egos in other, more pleasing, ways.

This does not always seem real. I am exploring my submission as a way to find the inner me, to better myself, not only for my Master, but for my life in general. I want to find others out there like me, those that enjoy the exploration, that are doing it to find the best person they can be, not just after a "sugar daddy" who will buy them things. Things don't bring us happiness in this world, people do. The people I have surrounded myself are far too valuable to dismiss as just a wallet, esp in these times.  

I am not normally as negative as this will read. I just have read way, way too many profiles of "so called" domme that demand "tribute" for their services. I don't understand. I am a good sub and could ask for things from my playmates for my services, but find the experience and friendships gained are worth more, that to ask for cash or things would be a bit too much. I can't say I don't like getting gifts, who doesn't but I want them to come from the person out of want, respect or care for me, not some bull shyte about I am that good and deserve it. I am a grown woman. I can  work for what I need. If for whatever reason I can't afford it, I do without or save up. It makes the item worth more in my eyes that I have earned it, only then do I truly "deserve" what I have. 

That being said please have a good day. : )

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