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Oh yeah go me! I refocused and I've lost 12lbs in 2wks!! Very excited!!!! |
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Wow haven't updated this in forever!! Well alot has happened since I last journaled.....Had some issues w/ my band back in 2009 and finally got everything worked out this time last year. Unfortunately w/ the issues I had I gained my weight back so I had to start all over. since last Nov I have lost 123lbs!!! Yes you heard me right 123lbs!! Most of this since I started working out w/ a trainer in Jan. My profile pic is not current. It was from this summer. I'm having some issues with getting an updated pic on here..... but i'm working on it. Anyways I have about 60lbs to go w/ my weightloss. I'm so close I can't stand it!! I'm loving this new me!! I've learned alot abot myself along the way!!
Well 5am comes early and I get yelled at if I don't make it to the gym...despite that I will be back in the gym after work..but hey that's how i've gotten results so i'm not complaining....I'm shutting up and saying goodnight.
perhaps i'll start journalling a lil more now....
till next time
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Well the good thing is that the insurance company finally decided to cover the fills for my lapband, and i got to have one last week. I've lost 3lbs already! YAY!!!! hopefully the time i've put in the gym will add to my weight loss and make my daddy happy. I get to see him next week. I'm so excited!!! I can't wait to get my ass spanked! well i gotta go for now. i'll try to check back in before Christmas.
Merry Christmas,
Michelle |
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I don't know where the time goes. Since i turned 31, time just seems to fly by. Where does it go? Well I finally got another way past needed fill today so hopefully I will be able to kick start my weight loss again. I think i finally got the insurance figured out. YAY!! Fortunately even though I haven't had a fill since July, i haven't gained any weight, an according to their scale managed to lose 2lbs. 2lbs is disappointing, but at least there's no weight gain!!! i'm hitting the gym again too so hopefully I can lose a few pounds before i see my daddy in 2 wks. I want to make him proud! It's been frustrating to say the least b.c i so desperately want him to be proud and happy with me. I don't want him to embarrass him.
well I have to go for now.
Michelle
p.s. anyone reading this I'm looking for more movies like the Secretary... any suggestions let me know.
thanks and Happy Holidays
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I thought i would write something since i havent in the past month. so much to do, i don't always get a chance to get on here. plus i've been sick alot this past month. i've gotta get my immune system healthy and strong. i need to be able to get back in the gym so i can tone and firm up what i'm losing. and to help my weight loss along. December 20th will be a year since i had my surgery. I haven't done as well as i thought i would considering the strong start i had, but its been tough b/c my immune system has been so long and insurance now doesn't want to cover me getting an adjustment to my band. I'm not giving up though. i'm gonna start back to the gym tomorrow. Im going to attempt to start back w/ yoga. well i gotta go for now. i will try to keep this updated more that i have been.
happy holidays! |
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Wow, I didn't realize how long it's been since I last updated my journal. Went to my first s&m club a couple of weekends ago. Paddles. didn't play, but got to see playing going on. Wasn't anything like i expected. I'm still learning to accept my body, and accept how it's changing, so i wasn't really comfortable showing skin. I'm pretty sure, i disappointed my daddy. i know he wanted to play, but i appreciate him being patient and understanding w/ me. The best part of the paddles experience was the demo before the club opened. this really cool guy demonstrated how to do pull off a very real like abduction. It was awesome!!! and his sub was pretty cool too. At one point he had her tied up in a chair, one tit exposed, pussy exposed and he stuck this huge knife in her pussy. It was awesome!! I definately enjoyed the demo, and found the club and public play interesting. I just gotta learn to be comfortable w/ me so my daddy and i can play in public. |
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I'm feeling a lil more inspired today. Inspired to say how wonderful my daddy is, and how much i appreciate him and everything he does for me!! I really appreciate being able to tell him how i feel, and how comfortable he makes me feel. He's hard, he's soft, he's tough, he's gentle and amazes me everyday! I love my daddy and love being his slave. It's comforting to be owned by him. Daddy, if you read this, I love you and thank you from the bottom of my heart for everything you do for me. I love you with all my heart!! |
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Unfortuntely the weekend has come and gone! I'm not ready for Monday! These 5day work weeks are for the birds. I think i have writer's block. I don't know what to say. Well my daddy can't say i didn't write in my journal, cuz there's something on here anyways. Maybe i'll be more inspired to write tomorrow. |
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Today i had a breakthrough. I HATE working out. I always feel better after, but i really don't like working out. Today, i got off work a lil early and went to the gym. I was walking on the treadmill when i was watching a 100 hot segment on VH1. Watching all the beautiful models on there, made me realize how bad i want to lose weight. Not just for me, but for my daddy too. I want him to think i'm beautiful like the hot models. i want to look good walking behind him, and or with him. I want to make him proud of me! So i'm motivated and ready to go. We'll see if i can't get past the plataeu i have been on. Woo hoo!! I'm ready to see the pounds melt away!!! |
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I've decided there are too many days between Monday and Friday. I wasn't too sure about setting up a profile on here, but my daddy decided that i had to. Now i'm glad that he did. I've met some cool people on here. I've gotten good tips and suggestions, and can't wait to see what else I can learn on from people on here. tips, advice, suggestions, or just want to chat, drop me a line. I can't wait to hear from you.
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I grew up in a home where the wife took care of everything for the husband except of course the mr. fix it stuff. Even in church, i was taught that the woman was to submit to her husband. I never really considered it as being a slave, but if that's what u call a slave, then i love being a slave. I love making sure my daddy is happy. I want nothing more but to make him happy. And i don't find it to be a chore to cook or clean for him. I love doing both for him. It makes me happy to make him happy. I love washing him in the shower, i love spoiling him. I love giving him massages. I know he likes to have a drink (and i don't mean alchol) so i pride myself on making sure he never has to say he's thirsty. sumtimes though i will be disobedient just so i can get a beating. not because i want to make him unhappy but so that i can make him happy cuz i know he likes to beat me and i enjoy his beatings. I love when he leaves bruises on me. When we're not together, i can look down and smile, and be happy knowing that my daddy loves me. I love my daddy and truly appreciate what he has taught me and is teaching me. |
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I was afraid the weekend was never going to get here! But Thank heavens the weekend is here! I think i'm going to try and make it to a yoga class tomorrow. I wish the class was either earlier or later in the day, it would make it so much easier to get to the class on a saturday.
i'm pretty sure i'm in for a beating when my daddy finds out i failed to go for my walk this evening. I absolutely can't wait for my beating!!
well i guess i will check check in here tomorrow.
c-ya
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