dacassie

every word out of the mouth of gregv is a untrue. he is 49 not 23 and also is in another country rather than the state of california

tomorrow is my birthday. i really need a spanking lol

anyone want to explain to me the laziness behind uploading ones pictures sideways? how hard is it to rotate them to the correct position? this is my latest pet peeve. grrr

sometimes i only open a full profile to be able to read it with a larger font. if i dont message you maybe i am too shy, have seen some way we would not make a good match, or just cannot come up with the right words.

would someone please go out and feed the goats and chickens so they shut up so i can sleep. otherwise we might be having goat kabobs for dinner (and yes we are vegetarian in this house but some exceptions must be made!)

ugh and now the horses across the way have started in.

i miss portland/vancouver

so its now 530 in the morning and i just had an adventure lol.

my guy came over around 10 last night and we watched some bsg and talked but then around 130 he said he needed to call it an early night and went home.  around 3 i got a call from him asking me to come over for a surprise so i went.

he had arranged a 3 some for us with a 60 year old guy. it was interesting though not who i would have chosen. lots of oral but nothing else except the guy kissed me so much it was like a shop vac lol. also i have mustache burn on my nose and upper lip.

next time i get to choose.

my birthday is next week and ill be 42. wasnt it just 6 months ago i was 21?

it is always interesting to see how childishly grown men sometimes behave on here. i stated my opinion and perspective on some behavior that was directed at me and indicated it was not something i was into. the man then proceeded to the name calling phase. are we in third grade here?

for some reason i cant respond to messages. ill keep trying though

i am feeling thankful for all the guys and girls on here that desire more than cookie cutter relationships with barbie dolls. barbie dolls are lovely as long as they have personality but sometimes when one gets by on looks alone one does not take the time to develop a personality. i like real people no matter their shape or size. if i decline talking with you then most likely it is because there is something you have written that i am not comfortable with rather than something physical.

involved in an exclusive real life relationship with sweet eric my collared sub but enjoying looking around and chatting. i can flirt as i choose but am very picky who it is with

one of my high school loves just perved me here. some guys you never get over.

it is hard to say "Irish wrist watch" 5 times fast. just wanted you to know that

any time my heart is heavy i reach for my go to song "make me strong" by sami yusuf.  it soothes my soul. so thankful to my best friend Khaled for bringing samis music into my life.

between that and texting with good friends i will make it through today.

ive done ok this week even with mums birthday being last thursday and tomorrow being the day she passed on. well i was ok til my 17yo son told me a friend he has had since he was 12 committed suicide. its odd how fast you can go from treading water to feeling like you are drowning in emotion.

this song is for cutie and all those others that feel helpless. dont give up.

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PLEASE DO NOT TELL ME ANYTHING ABOUT THE 50TH SPECIAL!!

NO DR WHO SPOILERS PLEASE. I AM ABOUT 2 SEASONS BEHIND!!

geeks make me giddy lol. spoke to a very wonderful one ive had an eye on for years this morning. cant wait to talk again

it is so cold my car wont start this morning. 27 right now. ugh

had an interesting thought today about the "hating" on young "doms". ok yes young doms dont tend to have much experience yet and have lots to learn but the exact same thing can be said about young submissives and slaves yet people line up to gobble up those.

 i am not saying either is right or wrong it is just something i have been thinking about.

holy heck its 15 degrees out this morning. no wonder im freezing

the official concert is over and now its a huge fun jam session. my house is so crazy  lol

so this guy is playing live in my living room right now.

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not quite as cool as green jelly playing my living room last winter but at least we dont expect anyone to get arrested this time.

so 2 of the 3 bands playing the house show in my living room have arriived and are sleeping on the couches and in the guest room.

first band on starts in less than 12 hours. no sleep for me tonight.

has to go better than when green jelly played my living room last december.

i quite enjoy edward lear. much more than edward scissorhands or edward cullen.

cages terrify me. i wonder if exposure therapy would help

this site needs a nerd/geek centered chat room

its funny when someone declines going on cam when i already have and then says im the fake one.

on a brighter note i found a new sparkling drink that tastes like grape zots

why is the default song in my head "the fox"?

every time i see a gas mask i really want to message and say "are you my mommy" if you get it chances are we would hit it off.

i wish i had access to one of temple grandins squeeze machines right now

for everyone who wanted to know what im like when my bipolar is not under control today is that day. please dont push buttons unless you really feel the need to ruin a friendship.

the circles are winning today and the only person who understands doesnt even know who i am

chances are if you address me as bitch you will receive a polite message declining further contact.

im going to take a moment to rant. 

this is to the females on here requiring "tribute" get a job! i am so tired of guys on here having to worry that every woman is out for their money because of you selfish wenches. if you have no skills then work in porn. at least then the guys will get what they pay for.

yes some guys want to be dominated financially and i am ok with that but to place demands all over your profile is just silly and makes you look whorish. then  to complain when one gives you a gift is worse. did your mother teach you no manners?

ok rant over.

i never like to start christmas before thanksgiving but broke out the cute christmas socks tonight. the season for wearing them is too short and darned if im gonna wear thanksgiving turkey socks lol

i am content in my life. i have room for friends but not for whiners who see my need to actually have a life as a rejection of them-self. yes i have things to do and if i have to excuse myself from a phone call i am not rejecting you i am just busy. dont be an asshat about it.

no court on the land would convict me if i killed my roommate right now for honking a bike horn for 5 minutes straight to make the dogs bark. im still sick with this darn cold and every noise hurts my head. ugh.!!

its funny how writing a journal entry about castration brings the weirdos out of the woodwork

ok this is an odd thought but after talking to one who wants to be castrated i can actually see the beauty in it. i am not saying it is for everyone but the devotion it requires is staggering and for one to command that type of devotion would be something my mind cannot fathom

i find the modesty of hijab to be a beautiful and freeing concept

digging into my sad day toolbox for something to up my mood. not even listening to Sami yusuf is helping so far. any suggestions?

i am feeling discouraged today. gonna have to take my rescue meds. sometimes having bipolar can really suck

IF YOU MUST SEND ME A PICTURE OF YOUR PENIS PLEASE USE HOT GLUE TO ATTACH GOOGLY EYES BEFORE TAKING THE PICTURE. ALL PENISES WITHOUT GOOGLY EYES WILL RECEIVE BACK A FOLDER OF PICS LABELED "MY HUGE BREASTS" BUT THE PICTURES WILL ACTUALLY BE OF WRINKLY OLD GRANDPA PENISES!!

gonna take a nap and dream of belonging to someone who wants to get me the amazing kitty ears lol. that is 99% a joke but i really am gonna nap. my ear hurts.

i meant to go to sleep earlier but so happy i didnt. i met an awesome new friend! its a girl! plus was reunited with another old girl friend. *does a silly happy dance*

three letter words do not need to be shortened down to one letter. if you do not have the time to write out a full 9 letters to say "how are you" then chances are your life is too fast paced for me to be part of it.

tigers make me smile. especially special purring tigers.

if i had to choose between anime and submission i would be a very sad girl. if you decide you are interested in me please know i fully embrace my geek side lol.

picked up a nasty little cold. its ruined my plans for tonight. now im curled up with a box of tissue, a bottle of hand sanitizer, and some old george and gracie clips on youtube. a merry heart does good like a medicine my mum used to say

its cold here now. wish i had either a slave boy or a big fluffy dog to keep my feet warm lol

totally had no idea this was the weekend for the time change. sometimes not having a set work schedule messes one up lol

so today i noticed a submissive male whose profile really caught my eye. i rarely like submissive males but i think i will make an exception, hopefully he wants to chat.

the drunken  roommate orgy in the room above mine would not be nearly so bad if one of my roommates was not also my baby brother! ewww on so many levels lol. i am hearing extra voices/moans. so thankful the walk of shame will go right past my door in the morning. NOT!!!

the roommates are now home and way drunk. they brought noisy guests too. arent i lucky?

i got told i am cold as ice

i wonder why certain entries wont post

so today another dear friend gets married. i wish you well Joshua. about darn time you married her but in my head you and me and fax will always have our horrid lil ghatroom on gcn and kytansfires room too. love you Sir

ugh now its even worse lol. in trying to distract myself my brain started singing the fox song by ylvis

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woke up with a stupid nightmare and i had not even watched anything scary. nights like these are when a girl really needs a daddy,

is it all in my head or are there more BBW lovers on this site than ever before? i am amazed how many local ones ive spoken to in the last few days. some in my own town but one very special one just a few hours away. who knows what happens next.

i just now realized all the Dominants i once thought of as old when i first visited this site were only a few years older than i am now. ugh

ok just a bit of information about me... if you message me and start asking sexual questions chances are we wont be talking very long. yes D/s has plenty to do with sex but it is more about mind and attitude. i can just about promise that if sex (including any questions about my kitty and whether its shaved or not ) come before taking the time to get to know me some. well chances are the conversation will grind to a halt.

i took a very long time off of here. the better part of a year i believe. maybe i finally learned my lesson

sorry to all who sent me messages i missed cause they went to bulk mail. i have now adjusted my filters

WHY I WAS NOT HEARTBROKEN WHEN TOLD THE MEET WAS OFF:

1) it is much better to realize that if sex is all you seem to have in common that a real relationship is unlikely.

2) if someone expects sex on the first meet then chances are there wont be a second meet.

3) even a sub should value themselves enough not to participate in high risk behaviors because  aids and other std's are still very much alive and well and can still kill a person.

4) im happier alone than with the wrong person

SOMEDAY THE RIGHT MAN WILL COME ALONG AND I WILL BE PROUD TO CALL HIM DADDY AND HE WILL BE PROUD I AM HIS GIRL.

i have a new vice. i discovered whipped cream vodka. one shot in a tall glass with soda tastes like heaven. wont do this often but for a rare treat its lovely.

was doing a favor for somebody and driving them to the next town over which is about 80 miles away. everything was fine until i blew my engine. no good deed goes unpunished.

a rant ive seen on so many profiles but now it is on mine. learn the difference between dominate and dominant. using the wrong one makes one look stupid. if you are a dominant you might like to dominate people. argh and grrrr !!! rant over

the only One whose collar ive worn was married today. im happy for him for sure but its still a bittersweet moment for me.

congrats angorafax!! im happy for you

the holidays are over thank goodness. now i can go back to reality

found that i am much more comfortable on bbw sites. there is a chat zone for bbws that i go on a lot. use my real first name and pornflakes for the last lol

after a many month break i have returned