I am trying to figure out why the armbinder I bought this year for Christmas and the body binder I bought last year remain yet unused. I started e-mailing yet another - this one was on ok cupid- only to find out yet again that she is not yet divorced. I was wondering if there was anyone left who might match what I need and then I read this profile.
I am not good at being a conditional or a circumstance "submissive". I just don't relate that way. Either you are in charge at all times or we are independent of each other. We are either "in or out" - I need it black & white - & l don't deal well with vague or wishy-washy.
I am not interested in being just a girlfriend or wife. I am interested in being a slave. If I have to be a gf/wife - while functioning as a slave - that's understandable - but if that's the zenith to my role in another's life I will be miserable.
I need to be under some manual control or I just start to veer off and away. That control is how I interpret - on a core level - concern/interest/engagement. I need to have my power taken - and replaced with efficient utility and the security of being held within tight boundaries and to meet one's clearly expressed expectations.
Oh yeah - and brutal, cruel, primal sex acts of utter vile and degrading depravity is the romance I seek and for which I melt. :)
Enslavement (that being someone actually having to take the effort to enslave me) is what makes an intimate relationship work for me. Do you know how to enslave? If so, maybe we can chat.
Most masters don't seem to comprehend the importance of utilizing a methodology (perhaps more than one) for enslaving a woman or they don't know how. Please don't PM me expecting me to tell you how to enslave, if I don't really know you
Without enslavement, I'd probably prefer to remain single/dating as kinky friends. It's more than quite probable that l'll opt to do all you want, but you probably won't get compulsive obedience & "selfless" service without some form of enslavement. The difference being whether the choice is mine or yours. Just a fact of life & psyche.
the mental touching is a vibrant, living thing
Give me the guidelines...Tell me the rules...
Build me a box...And i'll live contentedly within its walls
I am giving the sub who wrote this many thanks today! It is the hope I need to carry on My search. This one is taken, but I sure hope there is someone who gets it still around for Me. |