it's amazing how when your alone your mind starts to race about things that have happened in your past, what you think will happen in the future and does Master honestly think that i'm a perfect slave? it sounds kind of pathetic...i know this, but judging by my past i think i have every right to feel insecure and have a little low self esteem. My Master is very kind and loving in every way that one girl can imagine but He also has a dark side to Him that you would never want to cross, i guess that's why people in His workplace call Him sataninasuit hehe* I'd love to talk to people sometimes about the lifestyle but only with people who do it in reality..once you've had a taste of it yourself, you seperate the fakes from the ones that are genuine, but unfortunately i've come to find that online there are mostly fakes. Anyhowenough about that...Master will be home soon and i need to prepare Him a meal. i'll speak again soon maybe...bfn xx