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Female Submissive, 57, conroe, Texas
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Female Submissive, 28
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Female Switch, 27, Chilliwack
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About Cutie4yourdesire
I am new to the site, but by no means new to my deep burning desire to serve the right Dominant Woman
I am actively seeking a Domme to serve. I am also open to a switch female if you lean more towards being Dominant or at least 50/50. I have always had to be the Dominant one in my past relationships and the more I had to be Dominant the more the burning desire to submit grew. I am seeking someone to have a real ongoing relationship with, not a "buy" the hour type girl, and real life only not on here to cam. Although I am new I know what it means to serve and to be in the lifestyle. I choose to be involved in the lifestyle for the right reasons. I can honestly say that I understand what it means to be a submissive/slave, I understand that my desires are irrelevant and my true purpose is to satisfy your needs and desires, whatever they may be, with out question or hesitation. I don't have a ton of limits with the right person, the only quality I seek in a Domme/Mistress is that she not be into extreme intense physical pain (an example being branding or ball smashing)(I can handle normal amounts of pain that might be expected of a sub/slave to take such as flogging/whipping/etc.), Other than that there is not too much I am not willing to do for the pleasure of the right female. In a perfect world I would find a Mistress in tune with the mental aspects of BDSM and one who thrives on more the humiliation/mental aspects more so than pain but I am open to ALMOST anything for the right person. My motto is "there is not much I am not willing to try at least twice", haha. I know deep down that I seek to serve for the right reasons and have a lot to offer the right person. I am not going to list a bunch of my likes/dislikes as far those pertaining to BDSM, because honestly do your really care- does it really matter? After all it's really about what you desire and what pleases you and makes you happy. I am always told I look much younger than I am, which I guess it's better than the opposite...it can be annoying just the same. I am generally told in person I look no older than my early twenties. I have ink, but no piercings.
Although I an really searching for the right partner, I am very much so open to friends. If I can't find the one I am searching for on here then it would be great to find someone to attend local BDSM events with and introduce me to some people in the local scene. Anything you want to know please feel free to ask, I am pretty much an open book.
There is no pain I can experience that would be greater than that of which I already have. - Me
I have been through more situations/experiences in life that would make the average person crumble than I care to remember but I am still standing here taller than ever and all those experiences have just made me stronger.
Nothing brings me greater joy than pleasing a female. I will not let whomever takes me under their wing regret that they did.
Any institutions of individuals do not have my permission to use any part of my profile/information/pics for any reason. Doing so would be a violation of my rights. Furthermore....blah blah blah blah blah blah blah.
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So, haven't posted in the journal for awhile- and although I am almost ready to give up my search for an ongoing partner I thought I should at least share what I guess I would classify as a successful meeting through CM that occurred on New Years Eve- mainly I am hoping this might provide encouragement for those of you still looking for someone without any success...and although it was not an ongoing relationship like I am hoping to find it was still a very good experience.
I also knew going into the meeting that I shouldn't expect more than a one time meeting- the Mistress is married (husband is aware and was present in the next room) and also lives too far away for it to have been anything more than what it was anyway- but I am sure the experience is what most of the subs on here are seeking- but myself I am hoping for more.
It started off by me meeting at her hotel room. Within a couple minutes I was instructed to strip naked and to kneel at her feet as she was seated in a chair. She grabbed my face and shoved it into her dripping wet pussy. After about 15 minutes I was instructed to lye on the bed on my back where she straddled my face reverse cowgirl and instructed me to continue providing her with oral pleasure- she then moved up a bit and put her beautiful ass right in my face and I was instructed to worship her stunning asshole. After some time of doing this I was told to turn over and get on all fours where she proceeded to use a bondage kit to strap my legs and arms to the bed- I was then gagged and ravaged with multiple size strap-ons until she was done using me at which time I was instructed to get dressed and leave. I would provide her user name but haven't not obtained her permission to do so.
Anyway, that is a one hundred percent true story- so guys they are out there if you are flexible. I just wish I could find my "partner in crime". |
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So I took down my pics b/c most appear to be fake, Pro's or someone I am already in contact with but I am willing to send them to anyone I initiate contact with or someone who reaches out to me. I replaced them with some art work that I enjoy which I like better anyway. |
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Hello...is there anybody out there? Is there anyone home? Just nod if you can hear me....
Well, I am not going to complain anymore about the site until I take the time to try and contact the Domme's I happened to be interested in...until then:
The best lines I have read in anyone else's journal-
Both in the same Dommes' journal and were messages she had recieved from other members:
1) "I am in a hotel in Mentor, I would like you to Dominate me" (not word for word but something like that)
2) "Hello Mistress, do you pee in mouths?"
It's no wonder that 90% of the real Domme's on here are by the hour type women. I mean come on guy's, really- Is that the best you can do? Do you really expect to actually meet someone with stupid ass messages like that? I guarentee not one guy has met a real non cash seeking Domme like that. Step it up DUMMIES! |
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Insomnia totally sucks! What I wouldn't give for a good sleep right about now! It's a shame that I am not serving anyone right now (for the Domme) as I would get a lot accomplished for my Mistress if I had one seeing as I barely/never sleep as of lately (well it's been like that for awhile but it keeps getting worse). Then again if I ever find the ONE I am supposed to serve then perhaps I will have a little peace of mind and get some zzzzzzzzzzzz's. |
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Had a pleasent surprise in life recently that has kept me very busy over the last week and will be consuming most of my time over the next few weeks so I have not had the time I had hoped for to message the very few people on here that caught my attention...so nothing good to report yet as far as this site goes but who knows maybe once I can devote my full attention to the site and compose meaningful messages I will find the ONE I seek. My hopes and expectations for the site are still very low, but perhaps I will be in for a pleasent surprise eventually. I feel anything worth something is worth time and effort so I am not going to give up regardless. I am not as bitchy as I had been a week or so ago when posting to my journal but many of the feelings and problems I see with this site, and many like this, are still the same. |
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Gimme Gimme Gimme...Money Money Money. LMAO, but not really actually CMAO, it's a sad scene.
On a brighter note:
Sometimes what seems like surrender isn't surrender at all. It's about what's going on in our hearts. About seeing clearly the way life is and accepting it and being true to it, whatever the pain, because the pain of not being true to it is far, far greater. -- Nicholas Evans
To have someone give you control of their bodies and minds, to be entrusted with the responsibility to take care of them, to have someone willing to suffer for you, to forsake pride and dignity to please you...what other gift in this world can possibility equate to that? And more importantly, what makes you worthy to receive it? -- Anonymous |
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Hmmm....where to begin, I guess I am a bit on the crabby side due to a lack of sleep so perhaps it's best I don't write in my journal today becasue I can already tell most of what is on my mind is not positive and I generally try to stay positive and not let any negative vibes I may be feeling rub off on anyone esle. To be quite honest, I most likely will be the only one to read this so it most likely doesn't matter anyway. Admittedly I have not had the time to put the effort into contacting anyone I am really interested in yet, and prefer to wait until I can send a thoughtful response that portrays my true desire to serve and accuratly portrays what I can offer. Due to that fact I guess I shouldn't be negative yet but I guess I am letting my disappointments with similar sites to cause me to make a judgement on what this site will be like, wrong as it may be it is what it is. So I have taken more time to browse profiles and my hopes are even lower than yesterday when I started my search on here. I think perhaps I am a lesbian trapped in a mans body, lmao. I have added most of those I intend to contact to my favorite list and hope to try and make contact soon. Unfortunatly the profiles I find myself initially drawn to mainly have red flags or are searching for something different. Half are lesbians, half of the half that are left are strictly pay to play professionals and not searching for a slave for the right reason of being served, rather just to get coin, most of what remain after that have either not been on the site for months, are attached, or have some serious red flags. However a select few remain, but some of those I see are on the site 24/7 and have been members for some time. I guess technically those fall into my red flag catagory because a lot of people play games online and if you have not found what your looking for after being on the site for years, all day every day then I am skeptical that you are who you say you are and are truly looking to actually meet anyone.
And "financial Domination" or others who are looking for tribute before you even exchange an email? Really? I will touch more on that later but I gotta put it out there... are there really that many pathetic losers who are willing to do those things? I don't blame the female, rather the pathetic losers willing to do these things. I guess the sang goes something like "a fool and his money are soon departed", how true is that. Fucking pathetic. Those are the types of things that somewhat ruin the scene or dilute the pool of people in this for the right reasons.... to serve or be served for the sake of being served or serving. A good deal of what was lost in my entry was based on these types of topics.
So this entry was going to be three times as long but when I tried to save it I was told the image didn't match and I lost everything but what is above. I am on a PS3 and can't save it ahead of time, and it will only copy a certain length of text. I am completely irritated at the moment and will pick up where I left off another time. WOW that totally sucks ass.
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The very instant that I saw you, did my heart fly to Your service; there resides, To make me slave to it; and for Your sake... -- William Shakespeare
The longest journey is the journey inwards. Of him who has chosen his destiny, Who has started upon his quest for the source of his being. -- Dag Hammarskjold
For anything worth having one must pay the price; and the price is always work, patience, love, self-sacrifice--no paper currency, no promises to pay, but the gold of real service. -- John Burroughs |
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So I should totally be sleeping right now but I was trying to log into my account about two hours ago and kept getting an error telling me "invalid username/password" and it was driving me crazy. The un/pass that I was entering was correct and WAS working on my inactive iphone over wifi but not at the same time on my main browser...anyway it's finally fixed. I am irritated though because after searching through a ton of profiles there were a handful that caught my eye, but one in particular that really stood out that I wanted to message tonight. It's getting way late and I want to put effort into my message to her just in case she is real and sincere. At this point I suppose it will have to wait until tomorrow. I guess I am a bit of a skeptic anyway, meaning I am not expecting much or really anything from this site. If nothing else she sort of inspired me to start a journal on here. I decided to start a journal documenting my success/failure to find someone on here....along with some good quotes or other jibberish from time to time. It's been my experience that most sites like this your going to mainly run into fakes/flakes/spammers/pic-collectors/game-players/prostitutes. Perhaps I will be pleasently suprised and find the one diamond in the rough on here, but realistically I realize I need to attend some local kink events to actually meet someone. |
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