$30 is a very cheap price to enter a private parrty. especially if there is plenty of alcohol and sexy men and women. However, I saw still nervous. I paid the entrance fee and walked through the door. I checked my coat and walked over to the bar. the bartender said, "you look nervous". I am, I said. he then said, well, I have just the cure. poured me a drink while I looked around the room. there were small groups of people standing around talking. I could he sound coming from the other end of the hallway. he passed me the drink,I tippped him and took a sip. it was strong, but it was fruity, so I sipped some more. I said thanks and began to walk around the room. the sounds coming from down the hall had me curious, and the drink was already having an effect on me. my nipples were rock hard, so I slowly walked down the hall.

I wish I could find clubs like this in my area.

I can see that I am never going to meet anyone from here. I have been trying to be patient, but its been years. I dont see any point on wasting my time here. considering deleting this profile. not that anyone cares.

my work schedule is making it impossible for me to have any free time. I dont know what to do. not even masturbation is working anymore. im going crazy over hear, im about ready to pull my hair out. ugh!!!

Ive been in Maryland since Monday afternoon. It sucks being here alone. I'll be leaving Wednesday.

not starving for attention, just needing to feel appreciated. Not looking for mr.right now I prefer Mr. Right. not living beyond my means, just struggling to get by. not lost like a puppy, just fully aware of what I want and need.

You no longer communicate with me. I dnt know what to do. Should I move on? I have let you know that lack of communication leads to complications. how can we eve get close? I just dont think its going to happen.

no matter how I look at it, or how many times I think about it. I still keep coming to the same conclusion. Im ready and wont be satisfied until I get it. Its going to be hard, but I can handle it.

ive always wondered what it would be like to be beautiful.

what is the point of being emotionally attached to someone? there is none. at least not that ive found. I have friends and family, thats good enough. I no longer care about finding a emotional connection. so, please dont do me any favors.

Valentine's Day has never been a big deal to me. probably because I never had a 

valentine.

ive never had a valentine.

lately ive been wondering what its like to be bound and gang banged. however, im not sure I could handle it.

after months and months of communication, he decided to choose someone else. I have to respect his decision and try to accept the fact that he is going to be happy, but with me he couldnt be. it kinda makes me wonder. what's wrong with me?

I was called ugly a lot as a child. it wasnt really until I became an adult that I was called beautiful. ts kind of funny how some of them same people that called me ugly are now looking at me different. but im the same person. I havent changed who I am, ive gotten older and wiser, but im still that lil girl that all the pretty girls didnt want to play with. Im still that girl that played football after school. Im still that lil girl none of the guys asked out in high school. Yet, more and more men approach me everyday. so, If im so damn ugly, I just wanna know. what up wit dat?

I wanna try DP. im kind of shy, so i dont really know how to go about it.

never been turned out. there are even more things ive never done. this is the year I try them. celibacy has been a drag. i cant stand it any longer. i need cock, and lots of it.

Its funny how fake people are on the internet. they have unlimited freedom to be whoever they want. I just wish that whoever decided to use my picture on their profile would take it down.  ok, I know life isnt fair, I am not sure if I offended someone in some way. I do know that. the right thing for me to do, is to leave the site. I dont see any way around it. this person is obviously not going to take down the picture. its pointless for me to ever try and send it to someone. I reported the person and nothing was ever done. so, the choice for me is to leave. I have better things to do than answer harassing messages from guys that this mystery person promised to meet. its to dangerous. so, I wont be coming back. I have enjoyed most of my time here. even though I didnt really get to meet many of you. anyone that has my real contact information, feel free to contact me whenever.

I noticed that more people are checking me out, but not many are contacting me. I dont know what to think about that, but im not offended at all.

I think the main reason I have been nervous about meeting people is because I have been celibate for about 10months now. I am not saying everyone wants sex, but sometimes I cant control myself. and usually when im alone in a room with someone, they just cant seem to keep their hands off me. I dont know exactly what it is, but at times its very annoying.

for the first time, since i was 12, I have no real plans for New Year's Eve. how the hell did that happen?

what I really need right now is a week away from here(harrisburg). one week in which I can relax and not stress about my current situation, or worry about family drama. I NEED this right now.

I just got some news that doesnt make me smile. why is it that every time one good thing happens to me, everything else falls apart? Im not the type to give up, but sometimes I really want to.

Lately I have been having more sexual dreams about female. its nothing new, but i guess on some level, I really want to do it again. a female that is. Thinking about how I can make that happen.

why is it that the more honest I am, the less people believe what i say. I have been going through a lot in the past 4months, things have gotten bad and im not sure if can hold everything all together. things seem to be getting worse. there is one ray of light through all this darkness, but i dnt know if I can reach it.

so now ppl are stealing my photos and passing them off as them self. i dnt know if i should be angry or flattered. its a dangerous thing to do. you never really know what anyone is capable of. all i know is, i can prove who i am, can they?

I will be deleting this profile in about a week. I want to thank everyone that has tried to reach out to me.

I have been thinking about it for a while now, and I believe I am ready to try lactation.

8days until valentine's day, and still no valentine. its really sad.

I am looking forward to relocating. there are a few schools in Maryland that I hope to get into. I really have been very bored since I graduated from my former school. all I do is work now, but I miss being in the class room and studying for tests. the thing on my mid the most is, relocation, relocation, relocation

if we are going to exchange contact information, at least communicate with me. I have no problem with answering questions. but if you are not prepared to answer some in return, then you will be deleted. any real master should have no problem answering questions or communicating what they need.

I just wanted to wish everyone Happy Holidays.

I would really like if someone here would talk to me. many people here seem fake, and because i am not stupid, the try to call me fake. I honestly don't understand what the issue is. good conversation has never been an issue with me before.

call me crazy, but I am looking for one person to shars my life with, for however long that lasts.

most of the problems that I am having comes from people not reading my profile before they send me a message. If you are interested, my suggestion to you would be, READ MY ENTIRE PROFILE, PLEASE> thank you

Acting in accord with divine or moral law; free of guilt or sin.
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3slang; Genuine, Excellent.
You can look it up for yourself.

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I love it so much.