Countreefly

Male Dominant, 54, birmingham, Alabama

Male Dominant, 50, vancouver, Washington

Female Switch, 40, Memphis, Tennessee

I was wrong.  Why is it so hard for people to understand that masturbation is something can be done alone.  If I wanted to get myself off I wouldn't need a partner to do it.   I've realized I have difficulty telling others what I want.  I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings but I always end up being miserable.

It's almost 2018 and I may have found the perfect play partner.  He makes me want to better myself and be better to please him.  It's still early but I can hope.

Happy birthday to me!  Going to Wild Country for my birthday Wednesday (March 2).  My birthday might be in the middle of the week but that doesn't mean I can't celebrate it!

My brother was buried today.  Everyone who read my journal has been thoughtful for the most part.  Food has become the enemy in a war with my body.  I'm not sure when I will start feeling normal again.  I'm definitely not interested in playing at this time.  Even curling up into a daddy's lap and crying for an unspecified time doesn't seem to hold any excitement.  I feel like the world should be painted gray.

My family member passed away early this morning.

I'm surprised to see more than 6 months have passed since my last journal entry.  It's a new year and nothing has went the way I expected it.  One vanilla relationship has turned into a "friendship" a.k.a. I really don't want you around but I don't have the balls to say it.  A family member had a massive stroke and it has been taking up much of my life.   Finally I had the pleasure of meeting a man dressed as a cowboy.  He danced with me, played the guitar, and offered to cuddle.  I left thinking how nice it is to run into a man who respects a woman and treats her like a lady.  No, I won't probably ever run into him again, but he made me feel desired which is so important to me.    Broncos (I was wearing their jersey) won Superbowl 50.  Funny how they didn't use the roman numeral L.  Guess they didn't want people thinking it was going to be Super Bowl Losers, which although it wasn't the best game I've seen, it was pretty good. I'm setting a few goals for this year... Find a play partner. Decide on a set number of drinks at the bar and stick to it.   Clean out and organize my house or find someone to help me do it.   Be supportive of my family as we watch our family member pass away slowly. Start acting more like the lady I am and less like the wanton woman I've been behaving like at the local watering hole.   Being kinky is a terrible thing when the only men around are interested in drinking and getting high.

I'm so proud of all you judgemental fucks out there.  You trash me because I think you are an asshole and decide not to meet you.  You trash me because I'm not going to cook and clean for you.  You trash me because I don't want to drop my life, get on a plane and meet you when I've never even seen a picture of you.  You trash me because I'm not interested in helping you get your rocks off via messaging or video.   TRASH AWAY!   A REAL DOMINANT respects others.  He accepts that not every woman is interested in him. He understands the world is a dangerous place and if a submissive doesn't feel comfortable meeting him just yet he will continue to get to know her until she is ready.  He is willing to clean up his own house or pay to have someone do it.  If he can not cook he goes out to eat. He respects the submissive enough to know that her willingness to relinquish power to him is a precious gift and not something he can just demand away from her.  He understands that for some people online play is fine but others want to find a real relationship and make something meaningful and enjoyable out of it.

If you are going to send any woman a message it should be at least a full sentence.  If you are going to insult her with a single word such as "pig" then don't bother because it is only going to get you blocked, so save both people the trouble and block yourself from that person rather than being an all around asshole like LuckyJack4546 did.

The Collarspace world is getting smaller.  I've started reading profiles and blocking those that are obviously abusive.  I don't believe they know that they are abusers under the guise of Dominants.  I used to write these people and explain what they were doing was wrong but it proved futile.  So now I read profiles and block them.  Hopefully other submissives & switches on this site are smart enough to see them for what they are.

I wish dating websites would eliminate the age category.  I admit that I'm 41.  I'm proud to have lived 41 years.  Do I look 41, no, most people say I look younger.  What really gets me is when I look at face pictures on this site.  Pick a number, any number, and look at all the people who say they are 41 (for example)  some of them look very young while others look like they should be applying to retire.  Age is a number that is far over rated.

Just cleaned up my Facebook Account and eliminated people who I didn't know in person or had mutual friends in common with.  I don't need thousands of "friends" to be happy.  I'm looking to make intimate connections whether it be online or in person.  I want my "friends" to be people I regularly talk to.

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