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tears stream down heart pounds mind splits i know where this road leads i have been here before it is not a good thing doubt is the start affection adn love goes next then it is just a sybiotic need a parallel desire a friendship a cold blue fire time seeps away life goes gray cold and white is the feeling tonight wish i could feel her warmth her love her kindness wish i could be on my knees a few thousand miles away from here wish i could take the time to make her not only My Highness but the Goddess she deserves to be i am not lost i am just confused and i hurt i hope she understands when she reads this for i dont wish to remove anything i only want to give her my everything all that i am but i am not so sure that it will be enough for her that is the reason for my tears even at my best i am not good enough for her and i know i never will be

I Love You

a ball of confusion one thing no one wants to be but we are all one of these at some point in time either with our hearts or our minds or our souls if we have them or our life in rl and for some of us who want to have more and never can we are always at a loss please help i scream in the shadows of my own mind i am lost then i realize i dont mind the mist as i have been here before and yet i feel a sharp tug at my neck and i open my eyes and realize i am not alone but sometimes i want to be it would just be easier if i was able to be alone and then i know i dont want that i know what i want but i will never have it