Today I write as an effort to learn from my mistakes, to write down the details and highlight to both you and myself where I went wrong, why and how.
It must have been in July that I was first requested by my Daddy, that when I send a picture of my cunt, I must ensure to open it up so he can see deep inside it. There are numerous reasons as to why this is his preference, the main being that he wants to see as deep inside my dirty little hole as he can. My assumption for this is because it is the root of my sluttiness. I am a dirty little cunt, so when he receives a picture of my cunt, he wants to see right inside it, to the depth of my sluttiness. Another reason would be because I become embarrassed when I am opened up. Without deterring too much from my task I am somewhat uncomfortable whilst writing all about it. My reasons for embarrassment include that I have not had to see my cunt looking like that previously and I feel very exposed and vulnerable.
My homework yesterday, for being a little tease was to send Daddy a 20 second video of myself riding the big toy which is fatter than my fist. I have only had it inside me twice, and both times Daddy was shoving it inside my cunt. My cunt has never really been stretched until I met my Daddy. I have only ever had cock, fingers and toys (sometimes 2 smaller size toys) inside me. When Daddy does open my cunt up with his hand or the toy my body relishes in pain, sometimes it is so severe it shoots through to my toes. Yesterday after I was requested to enforce this pain upon myself, I asked my Daddy if I could please wait and if I could save that task for when he would be with me due to my fear of the task. As the gentleman that he is, he permitted this and informed me that he will film it in person as I ride or fuck myself with that toy in front of him.
To thank him for this, I was requested to MMS him a picture of my filthy cunt. Unfortunately, I selfishly sent a picture that was aesthetically appeasing to me and not to my Master. It was at this point that my punishment was given to me – I was to clamp my tits and cunt and take pictures of both every 2 minutes and send to him and write 2 pages of lines stating:
“I must take pictures so Daddy can see deep inside my cunt and nice and close for him.”
I completed my task, but incorrectly. There were 2 pictures I sent of my cunt with the clamps on where I had not either opened up, or opened up enough for my Master. I did not do this as a deliberate disregard for instructions. I understand now, that it was a very kind thing for Daddy for compromise and allow me to pass on the video he requested. I can also see now, that by not sending the picture properly and then not learning from my mistakes my Daddy took great offence because he had done a very kind thing for me and my actions were not a reflection of his goodwill.
In all of this, I believe I have learnt that when my Master shows kind heart I must appreciate it and show him this.
Sir, I am very sorry for acting the way I did. It is not until writing this now I truly can appreciate what you did for me and how very very badly I failed in thanking you for that. I am very disappointed that it has taken this task for me to be able to see and highlight my errors and how I offended you. Thank you for teaching me Daddy and being very patient. xxx
