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Why Endure

 Word net dictionary defines enduring as putting up with someone or something unpleasant.

     You may ask why anyone would do this. For me as a submissive I believe that it helps me to show my devotion to my Dominant. In this lifestyle there are many things that I love doing and a few things I am not into. However if I am with a Dominant and He desires me to do something that is not necessarily something I care to do, I would do it to prove to Him that I am devoted to His happiness and willing to submit my will to Him as long as it is not something that would damage me in some way. Isn’t that what a submissive is supposed to be doing anyway?

      When I say I am going to submit to the will of another I do not  submit half-heartedly. I give my will to them knowing that I have been thorough in the things that I cannot do for whatever reason and trusting that they will respect that. Other than the things I cannot do I believe that I should be open to all other things. Just because I have not done them in the past or they may not be my type of thing I should understand that as the submissive in the relationship I have admitted that His happiness should be my concern.

      So how is it that I see so many others on this site that are only concerned with what will make them happy. Isn't that topping from the bottom?  Do not misunderstand me, every relationship has to have something that benefits both parties or it will not work, all that I am saying is while there are definite limits for everyone, things that just would devastate the soul or cause physical damage, if it is possible to do without health issues keep an open mind, be willing to suffer a little for His pleasure and watch how much quicker He will be willing to give You more of what You want. You may even find that some of those things that were limits in the beginning become some of those things you enjoy the most and without opening your mind to the possibilities you will never become more than what you started out as. One of my biggest turn-ons of this lifestyle is the ability to learn and grow in ways that most would never understand.

working on a new writing for those who read my journal stay tuned....

What You Are to Me

I am a rose, you my thorns,

Forever  protecting me,

I am the sun, you my rays,

Helping me to shine and warming all my days,

I am a lake, you are my water,

Filling me with dreams, and hope for the future.

 I am a tree, you are my branches,

Helping me to stretch my limits,

You are an important part of my life.

I am a heart, you are my beat,

Pumping rhythmically to my life and moods.

You are with me, to share all that I am,

To share life, love, and happiness…

Always

Love? or Lust?

Love? or Lust?

A gentle caress or

A fist wrapped in your hair?

A kiss soft like gossamer wings or

A kiss full of fire and passion?

A love nip on the bottom lip or

Teeth buried deep in skin seeking blood?

A breathless love declaration or

Words that make you blush but turn you on?

Holding hands on a moonlit walk or

A being tied down and helpless?

How is it that just the thought of You,

Can make me want it all?

To be a lover, a lady,

And, well, not such a lady.

To be treasured as a person and respected for who and what i am

While secretly wanting all the things i know some won’t understand.

How do You make me want love and lust?

How do i choose between the two?

i lay in bed at night and wonder what part of me You want

Do You want my love, my devotion, my honor,

my soul, my passion, my fire,

Or is it just my body that calls You to me?

Failed

Time to go, "is this really goodbye?"

she asked "Does it ever get easier, leaving like this?"

As she kisses the cheek of her one time love

Thinking i cannot kiss you anymore , and i honestly loved You.

i had the hardest time resisting You

If You felt the same way how can You walk away

she is right and He knows it.

i tried to give You everything,

her tears fall freely in anger

And if i failed well then i failed

But at least i gave You something.

It's better than silence You know,

Trying to find a reason

To leave in silence would be wrong

Do You even have a reason?

A reason to end this love

Break a bond once formed strong

Resist the urges within O/our hearts

And walk from this place forever?

There is no good reason

To end something like this

Only excuses used to run and hide

From that which You can't control.

These tears i cry for You now will be my last

For they are all that is left within me for You

You will always have a place in my memory

For lessons have been taught

As You walk away this time You need to know

That it ends with this heartbreak

i will never again see You the same

And You will never again play me.

You say that i failed You

But in honesty it was not me

It was the fact that You cannot face

That which should have been, but is now gone.

Until We Meet

Unti we meet and I am wrapped in Your arms,

 My nights will be cold and lonely,

 My days will be full of longng for You,

 My heart will beat more weakly,

 Until we meet.

 My arms with ache with the emptiness,

 My mind exhausted from thoughts of You,

 Minutes will pass the way of hours,

 And hours will turn to months in a matter of moments,

 Months will feel as an eternity,

 Until we meet.

The stars in the skies cannot woo me,

 Those gleamis sparkles of life,

 Until I can gaze upon them in Your eyes.

 The food that I eat will be less fulfilling,

 Until the day I can share it with You.

 And until we meet.... 

My soul will feel incomplete,

 And my world will never be whole,

 Until that wonderful day,

 When our eyes make first contact,

 And our souls connect,

 Touching either other's body, and soul,

 As we have touched each others mind. 

Souls colliding and intertwining,

 And in that magical whirlwind...

 We will know for sure of love and peace,

 That comes from each other finally found,

 When we meet.