ChefNaiIs

Yes, like everyone here I have a number of kinks. One of them is showing kindness, especially to someone who needs it.

Some guys can't handle it, since it pricks at their macho and egotistical self image.

That's ok, you'll learn to live with it.

Thanks to everyone for their concern. I'm doing fine and will be back home in the immediate future, although I do have a considerable amount of pt to look forward to. So stop worrying, seriously.

While I was idling away in the sterile underbelly of the hospital I finished a short piece I started not too long ago:

http://www.literotica.com/s/a-different-kind-of-pain

41 days ago I weighed 227.5. Today I weigh 201.5. It takes a hell of a lot more effort and pain to lose it now, but it's a pain I don't mind. I am getting new ink at 200. Eat the pain.

203 even. Slow progress, but progress still.

Thirty seven days ago I weighed 227.5. Today I weigh 203.5. It has become markedly more difficult to lose weight, but I am by no means giving up. If anything, it is making me more determined.

Tonight I put on an old pair of Levi's 501 button fly blues that I haven't been able to wear in years, and damn it felt good. I have always loved the 80's, back then what I thought were problems were in fact blessing in disguise. And there are few things that epitomize the 80's more than Levi's 501 button fly blue jeans.

Yeah it hurts, but I eat the pain.

...  The idiocy on here is too much at times. Having a 'slave registration number' is about as official as having a balloon with your name on it. If you're genuine in your pursuits to serve, you don't need some idiotic number attached to your name.

Oh, the ignorance...

Oh, how I revel in the smaller pleasures in life. I love a woman with inverted nipples. So simple, yet so exotic to me.

New publication on Literotica in the near future. As usual, what was intended to be a short work has blossomed into a novella of sorts.

Skyfall on Blu-ray and cardio tonight, going for the two hour plus run on the recumbent. If I don't fall over dead, i'm rewarding myself with a glass of Hindu Kush from Salcheto. Ok, maybe two or three glasses...

Fuck it, i'm tanking the bottle if it doesn't kill me.

I am looking for a talented sketch artist who can help me flesh out a tattoo design. I have the image and necessary details, I just lack the artistic talent to finish the project.

Thirty four days ago I weighed 227.5. Today I weigh 204.

Yeah it hurts, but I eat the pain.

Why is it that brown eyed girls are so hard to find now?

Thirty days ago I weighed 227.5 Tonight I weigh 207. Yeah it hurts, but you gotta learn to eat the pain.

Some of you people here seriously need to develop some sort of personality, you have all the depth and character of a Michael Bay movie.

Ah, vino. You're such a good escape. Sadly, though I just emptied my last bottle of Salcheto Hindu Kush. It may never be made again, but there is always hope.

Leaving for Italy in a just a few weeks, i'm counting the days...

209.5, major milestone. I've lost 18 pounds in just over three weeks, rigorous daily exercise and strict dieting. And right now i'm eating a Whataburger as my motivation to keep it up. Don't even fucking look at my cheeseburger.

If I had a nickel for every fake on here, I could 'buy the world a Coke'...

Ever have one of those days when you want to charge at the nearest living thing and kill it?

211.5 as of last night.

I'm hellbent and not stopping till I fall over dead or reach my goal. Which could very well happen in tandem, I admit.

Seventeen days ago I weighed 227.5. Today I weigh 212.5.

The phrase 'no pain no gain' definitely applies.

There are times when I am damned ashamed to be an American. Quite frankly, I don't give a damn if someone doesn't like it. I am fortunate enough to have a very solvent career and I am never out of work or lacking for something profitable to do. I make a concerted effort to help people who are looking for work find gainful employment. It's not my profession or trade, but I know what it is like to be out of work and in my time I have seen many good people live through hardships for lack of a job.

So.

When I can I like to find or make work for people who need it. Just my way of remembering what my Mother taught me, 'Love Thy Neighbor' being one of the many valuable lessons she instilled in me.

However...

I have encountered so many people who bitch and harp about not being able to find a job, who pass on an opportunity to work because it's not what they want to do or they're so full of themselves that they think that the work is below them. If you're afraid of hard work then you're pretty useless all the way around, and if you're not willing to do what it takes to survive until you can find the job you want, then you have no right to bitch about being unemployed. There is always work to be found - granted there are some pretty miserable people who you should steer clear of - that shouldn't stop you if you are genuine in your pursuit of a job.

Cowboy the fuck up, get off of your lazy ass and do what it takes to get by, persevere and survive and with time you'll find the job that you want. Otherwise quit bitching, shut the fuck up and accept your role in the world as a pimple on the ass of society.

I've been publishing on Literotica for years now, but there has always been an itch to go elsewhere - but so few other sites of the like with any real readership. Don't have the time to commit to making a site myself and keeping it up, so looks like I have some heavy research ahead of me...

Can't wait, it's almost time to start traveling til the end of the year. Escapism is awesome.

The lack of genuine people here is frustrating. I am lucky enough to have the freedom to travel, but it would make life a hell of a lot easier if all the interesting people in here weren't halfway across the country. Alabama is a D/S black hole.

Damn I can't wait to get out of the states for a while. Coffee tastes better far from home.

Goddamned insomnia

I weighed 227.5 thirteen days ago. Now I weight 216.5. I'd rather die behind the wheel than live looking out of a window thinking 'what if?'.

Damn Girl, learn how to compose a sentence. Intelligence is a turn-on. An obvious lack of it is not.

All the facial piercings are a turnoff. I don't know if I want to fuck you or put you in one corner of the garage and hang a hammer from your face.

I realize late in life just how much I have grown to enjoy having a breast and nipple sucking fixation. Ahh, the simple joys in life. Some things go unnoticed, but bloom with a little (ok a lot) of attention.

Non 'ce male. What a day.

Oh... it's the same old story, the same old song and dance, my friend. Don't send me a one word message and expect anything - technically it's not even a sentence much less a message. There's nothing there to separate you from the countless scammers with fake profiles. Also if your profile consists of one sentence extolling your commitment to your religion then the next describes your kink in graphic detail, please pass me by. I'll pass on the religion and hypocrisy, thank you.

Non mi lamento...

Some people are mischievous because they are ignorant and need a way to occupy their time.

Some people are mischievous because they are brilliant and need a way to channel their energy.

I prefer the latter, not the former.

"Libraries as fortresses protecting us from ignorance"

One of my all-time favorite quotes.

As much as I love volunteering as a stage hand, I am reminded that my knees are showing their age. It's worth it, though - seeing the girls' energy when they dance out onto the stage in front of a live audience for the first time always makes me smile. Brings back memories, good ones.

Anyone else remember Collective Soul?

Oh, babe...

   Over time I have learned that those who have no control over their personal lives are very critical of those who do, and today I find myself reminded of that. I am not very handsome or enchanting - i'll never be the life of a party or the center of attention (by choice, no less). I will never be the dashing loverboy type and I won't shower anyone senselessly with money and gifts. But... all of my bills are paid, when I want something I get it - without a struggle - my home is very nice and it is paid for, as are my vehicles. I have almost zero credit debt and I have money in investments and savings. I take very good care of those I love.

   And i'm not giving you jack shit, 'Princess'. You're such a train wreck, You act as if your shit don't stink but when you're in dire straits you limp up to me and have the gall to act as if you'd be doing me a favor by offering to spread your legs in exchange for a place to crash. My home is no one's flop house.

Also, just for future reference; your pussy looks like a gunshot wound. Give than damned thing a rest, will you? It's a vagina, not a clown car or a subway train.

I've had better. I can do better. I don't want you and I damned sure don't need you, 'Princess'.

Can't update my profile for some reason. I write quite a lot, most often things that your Mother certainly wouldn't approve of...

http://www.literotica.com/stories/memberpage.?uid=488429&page=submissions

Often reminded of my fetish for petite and small breasted women while on this site. So much eye candy, it's sometimes a sensory overload.

Forgiveness is for fools. You wrong me once and I'll turn my back to you 'til the day I die. I don't forgive.

Oh, how I find inverted nipples to be a thing of beauty...

I don't suffer from 'writer's block' in the typical sense; for me it's either absolute blackout or it's not - and I'll be damned if it ain't frustrating.

... some things here remain constant. You want to alienate someone, violate them - rape their sensibilities and just plain freak them right the fuck out? It's simple, just be nice. People here seem to have a knee-jerk reaction to common civility.

The arrogance is so thick you can cut it with a straight razor.

Just... stop. Don't ask any more. If you feel a need to be hit, to be hurt to be loved, you aren't just looking for the wrong person in me, you're looking for the wrong kind of fulfillment - it will never be more than a brief and hollow gratification you get. I'm not going to beat you or smack you around. If the worst thing you have to get over is not getting your ass whipped, consider yourself lucky.

Those of us who reside in Alabama live with the awareness that we live in a D/S wasteland, for the most part.

Don't lie to yourself when you know it's time to move on.

So sick of dealing with inconsiderate and dishonest people. This is one of those days when I could just choke the life out of someone and walk away without a single regret.

Don't approach me and expect me not to test your sensibilities...  C'mon you know better girl.

To answer the inevitable questions that come with being a member of this site:

I have the following fetishes - I have a rabid breast/nipple fixation and can play with them for prolonged periods of time. I have the same affectation for the clitoris. Many others to list, but for a woman I imagine those are the most profound.

I do not smoke and do not allow it in my home. No hard liquor or excessive drinking, ever. Period.

I will not offer nor accept any type of 'tribute' - which I believe is one of many reasons people leave this site in droves - the whole concept of offering a tribute to someone online is the ultimate in arrogance and self-worth: I refuse to participate in such idiocy. It erodes away at the legitimacy if the site and its intended purpose. It cheapens it, and badly so. If you were a 'Goddess' of any sort you wouldn't have to ask for or demand tributes, people would seek you out to offer them. So get off of your shitty throne bitch, no one is impressed.

I will not under any circumstances offer someone a 'place to crash'. My home is not a flophouse. it's quiet, well-kept and clean and it will stay that way.

" I hate this place. This zoo. This prison. This reality, whatever you want to call it, I can’t stand it any longer. It’s the smell, if there is such a thing. I feel saturated by it. I can taste your stink and every time I do, I fear that I’ve somehow been infected by it. "