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Life is quite the journey isn't it? If lived well, it compares a little bit to cliff jumping. You have to be very brave to take that first leap and you have to have faith that even if there are a few bumps on the way that it will all work out in the end. The key is to avoid as many bumps as possible. Don't avoid them all though. Those bumps keep us humble and each one teaches us a new lesson that allows us to grow in mind, body and spirit. Here's hoping that life is providing plenty of adventures and the bumps aren't bruising you too badly. After all, a few bruises remind us that we're alive and thriving.
The bumps have taught me alot about myself and what I think I need in a Master and from a relationship. My life situation is complicated. However, I am human and want to have my needs met as well as share my submissive nature and caring disposition with a Master. My current choices probably prevent me from receiving all that I want from a partner but I'll share my wish list anyway.
I will not have sex with you until time has passed and we have talked and talked and talked. I won't have sex with you the first time we meet in person and probably not the second. I will want to kneel at your feet, suck your cock and be fucked by you but I won't. Why? Because I need the relationship to be built first and for it to be exclusive, committed and monogamous before I can open up completely, both mentally and physically. Another reason is because we live in an age where sex can kill us. I will want to know about your past sexual history and you are free to ask about mine. I will want to know you are disease free, just as I am. Kind of a mood killer, huh? Yeah. Sure is but we have to be practical somewhere along the way. Besides, I want my Master to be healthy and around for a very long time to see my green eyes looking up at him, smiling and begging for more.
The mental control of a Master/slave relationship is what melts me to a pile of goo. I need to feel your control. Not micromanaged, mind you, but a firm hand, expectations and requirements set by you that reinforce my place in our relationship. It reminds me that I am desired, cared for and loved. The deeper the submission is felt, the greater my devotion and service to you. It's a win-win situation for both of us.
I'm interested in someone who is a good fit in the bdsm world but also in the vanilla world. I am drawn to men who are intelligent and confident in their own skin. I gravitate toward men who are successful in their vanilla lives and who have quality relationships with friends and family. My Master will most likely be one who also has an insatiable appetite for learning and a need to explore and experience new things. He will feed off my submission just as I will feed off his dominant personality.
Hmmm. There was alot more I wanted to say here but I find myself getting bogged down as I type. If you want to know more, please email me and ask. I hope you are enjoying your journey as much as I am. I'll end by including a quote from a Dom friend of mine that helps me through the doubtful days.
"At times you may feel like giving up because of the players and wannabes. Just remember this--it took me 6 years to find my girl, so the next time you are ready to give up, when you have crawled into a cold bed after a long nights search, and your head is spinning from all the obvious lies and not so obvious ones, close your eyes and try to picture the man you wish to serve. Not the impossibly chiseled beefcake, but a real man, who is beautifully human and looking back at you with stern yet loving eyes. Picture him lying in his own lonely bed, and kneel before him in your mind. Watch as he curls himself around a pillow, right where you should be. If you listen carefully, you can hear him sigh loudly…a plaintive release of strength and courage. He is tired of being strong and alone, and ready to offer his protective embrace to a loving, devoted woman. Listen again, and you may even hear him shed a tear…faint whispering sob that sings the song of his longing and lament. He will fall asleep this way, dreaming of you. And just like you, he will begin his tomorrow without you, aching for the slave that will make him whole. He is depending on someone to find him, and he will never give up looking. And you, dear slave to be, shouldn't either." --Sir J.
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