And the winner is...

My ass. So I have been shaving my crack for over a year now, but the other day, I realized that I had a lot of hair on my ass cheeks. I'm a redhead and the hair really is not very visible, but I knew it was there. So my next area that I decided I was going to keep shaved on a regular basis are my ass cheeks. I shave the entire ass now from the taint and crack which I have always previously done to the hips and lower back. I wax my lower back so I just found that fine line and ran to it.

I had a lot of hair on my first shave and I really felt a difference. Because I wear thongs, it was really noticeable when I sat down on something cold and when I took a shower. I really felt cooler in the pool as well. It's amazing how much hair really does keep your body warmer and how different it feels when you remove it. I really enjoy removing new sections on hair. Eventually I will run out :/

While browsing through some porn sites and getting my fix, I came across the term Grower not shower. Now I've known of the this term for a very long, but it wasn't until recently that I actually appreciate that fact that I am just that.

A grower when referenced to the make cock it a male who has a small penis when not hard, but after he gets a boner, the average cock gets about 2-3 times the flaccid size when erect. Some can be 5-6 times the flaccid size. This is me. 

A shower typically will only grow an inch or two longer when erect, but will keeps it's general size when not hard. This makes for very sexy looks when sporting boxer or tight jeans and you have a nice bulge.

When I am not aroused in any way, I can be only 1.5 -2 inches long. Sometimes more, sometimes even less. I have measures myself at just over an inch one time. Usually this is while sitting in the nude watching a movie that has now arousal in it at all. Now when I get fully excited and turned on, I am just over 7 inches. It's great to give the proper pleasure at the right time.

Being into the type of kink that I am, I appreciate being a grower. I like cross-dressing and being able to tuck it or just being easy to hide it away and I enjoy small penis humiliation (even though I think I might be a little above average). Typically doesn't last long since I enjoy humiliation, i get hard and goodbye small penis, but it's fun. Being a grower works well in a chastity. I can put it on fairly easy but once I get a boner, i can really test the strength of a chastity which is why I like my metal ones better.

I have a "bigger" appreciation for being a grower as I think you can do a lot more with it when you're into kinks that require a small penis, but kinks that also require a larger one. You can like cross-dressing even if your a shower anyway. I saw a very arousing video where a hotwife was having sex with another man while her husband watched. The husband had a very decent sized dick but the bull was larger. In comparison, he had a small dick and he enjoyed being cuckolded and humiliated.

So I found this interesting and thought I'd share this thought.

I love tormenting myself. I have been in chastity for 3 days now. Not real long but my arousal has been building up fast. It doesn't help that I just spent the last 3 hours listening to women cumming on soundcloud.com. It's addicting and almost every audio I listened to was a woman reaching an orgasm in different ways. My pants are soaked. I think I am going to put a drip cup under me later and listen to some more.....then you know what.

I have been playing with my chastity device  a  lot lately. I have the lopnger 5 inch metal cheepo, but I am now thinking I want the shorter more restrictive chastity. The longer chastity gets in the way when sitting most of the time anyway and having something smaller will help with that.

OK, please believe me that I understand why women like financial domination. If I could pull it off, I would. Are there really that many subs out there paying for attention? I have been in the lifestyle for over 10 year and I still do not pay. But I have been on a search lately for a fun and dominating female and unless you are willing to hand over your wallet, i'm not sure that's happening. Where are those Dom's that just love dominating a man because it cruel and fun and they get their rocks off doing it? Yes, after a strong relationship grows and we have a connection which is where a good D\s relationship goes, gifts are easy to come by, but just to get the service???

So, I still have not had sex. I did however masturbate. Several times with her and a couple without her. I'm healing up just fine and doing well. My balls are a little achy but nothing I cant handle. No pain meds; it really wasn't painful nor was the after effects. It hurt, but not painful enough to take a strong med.

So am I considered to be castrated? My balls are still there but i am sterile. I like to think so. Maybe I should just refer to it as being neutered. 

Well, I did the snip-snip this weekend. No more kids for me. The process really was not bad and not very painful. Just a little bee sting feeling in the sack when you get your numbing shot and then after that, nothing. I have been dealing with a little discomfort over the weekend but nothing major. This procedure is quite tolerable. 

Is it wrong that I was ready to deal with whatever pain this was going to bring because I like pain; especial inflicted upon my genitals? To my surprise there wasn't much at all. So guys, if you've been thinking of doing it and pulling the plugs, it's not bad at all.

My wife and I have already taken advantage of my recovery time and I have pleased her sexually with my hands and mouth without any release myself. I really enjoyed that. I constantly repeated that she was not allowed to touch me but that this was all about her pleasure. Very fun. I am supported to go at least 5 days without an orgasm to allow for healing. I have to follow doc's orders :)

Anyway, that's why I wanted to post this because if you have questions or wanted to hear it from someone on hear about the procedure then I am here to tell you. Feel free to ask or just take it from me.

How I secretly do things like a woman.

There are several things you can do in every day life even in public to feel, look and act like a woman. Below is a list of things I do.

1: I wear lip balm on a daily basis. This keeps my delicate lips soft and protected; sometimes a little on the glossy side.

2: I eat well to stay physically healthy which also helps maintain my body shape.

3: I work out several times a week. When I work out, I focus on moves meant for women. Workouts to shape the legs, butt and hips particularly. Workouts that focuses on the core body to give me an hourglass shape; and I run.

4: I keep my nails semi long. Even when I trim them, I still have a little hang over for a sexy white tip.

5: I take care of my nails. I use the 4-7 stage nail conditioner to buff and shine my nails several times a week. You get a healthy shine without just putting on nail polish.

6: I keep my bikini line shaved. Some may shave their entire pelvis. The point is to keep it shaved every other day to maintain a smooth and sexy look.

7: I wear thongs daily. Not necessarily women's thongs. There are men's thongs. I found the style I like and I have been wearing them every day for over ten years. I do have the occasional day I wear silky women's thongs, but keeping that profile daily is a necessity to feeling sexy under your clothing.

8: Sit to pee. Not every time, but as much as possible. I even squat sometimes when peeing outdoors.

9: Use a luffa and or other skin smoother. I use a luffa on my skin and a callus shaver on my feet a few times a week to maintain smooth skin and soft feet.

10: Use lotion. I put lotion on my hands daily. In the winter, but not specific to, I use it on my legs and arms after showers.

I am missing a lot of my previous posts. What happened to them?

I like drinking the Naked brand Smoothies. Typically I drink them for lunch. Today for lunch I picked up a salad and took a look at the Naked drinks. I think they came out with a new flavor recently that I decided to try today. "Protein zone" Now, let me tell you why I bought it. I looks like Semen. My corrupt mind wanted to enjoy it as if I were drinking cum. It has Bananas, Orange, Apples, Pineapple and coconut, Soy and potassium. I thought it would taste a little better than it does. It's very grainy and sticks the inside of the mouth.......Hey, I said I bought it to pretend i was actually swallowing cum. Not one of their better drinks; no wonder it was on sale. I am finishing it up but would not buy it again solely on it's taste. Just thought all the other perverts out there would enjoy my story.

Miley Cyrus is my new Idol!

Still Looking for an exercise trainer for get my body and appetite into shape. any takers?

Trainer wanted:

I am looking for a physical trainer. I gained a few pounds over the winter and some love handles and I want to get rid of them. I was a nice flat stomach and some curves going the other way on my sides. I nice firm but and and about 15 pounds lighter.

Having a personal trainer that I would check in with a couple times a week and to have someone ridicule me and tell me what to eat for lunch, what experiences to do and how long I should run would be great. We can also fit in some fun like a certain day I am allowed to masturbate and how I should do it things like that ;). Please let me know if you're interested.