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I really hate these "Tell me about yourself" boxes. I mean really, all I would be able to do is tell you how I perceive myself. That does not mean these characteristics are how you will see me. *sigh* I suppose I will try though.
Putting the lifestyle aside for a moment... Let's pretend if you were to just meet me and we were to become vanilla friends first. I am somewhat shy upon meeting people. I do have some social anxiety. I don't like large crowds at first and I will follow familiar faces around while I observe the people around me. When I feel comfortable enough I will slowly approach the other people. Once I am comfortable enough I am a pretty outgoing person.
I love to make people laugh. I enjoy making jokes and telling stories. I am snarky and occasionally loud. I enjoy teasing and taunting other people in a playful way. I am that weird girl that is far more open with people than she should be. But that does not always mean I let everyone in. Just because I talk to you does not mean I am interested in having sex or being in a relationship with you. I have to get to know a person. Since this is an online site, I get to know you by our conversations. However I prefer getting to know someone in real life more. I take words with a grain of salt. Actions and mannerisms are what speak loudest to me. You can tell me all day long how you are a nice and mature person, but when stressful situations arise and you lash out at others or you always talk negative about other people or you always have to be right about your opinions.... then you're not really a nice person. I tend to observe people's actions far more than I should. But in turn, this means that I observe their mannerisms too. Their little quirks. Things that are unique to them that no one else really notices.
I enjoy playing video games (God of War, Fable, Arkham series, Assassin's Creed, Skyrim, WoW). I enjoy horror, action, and comedy movies. My favorites are Snatch, Doomsday, Dark Knight, Thor... actually just all the Avengers, Xmen series, Memento, In Bruges.... Actually the list could go on and on. I do also enjoy Disney movies. I don't care that I am 28 years old, I enjoy watching the art.
Speaking of art, I am an artist. I am enrolled full time in college for my BFA in digital art and design with an emphasis in photography. I graduate this winter. What I would really like to do (since I'm off by one semester), is work during the next spring and build my portfolio. Then in May apply to different colleges for my MFA. My education is very important to me. It is time consuming, but that is because I expect the best of myself. I also work part time as a graphic design assistant. Oh and I am currently the President of the Kappa Pi International Honors Art Fraternity on our campus (fun fact, did you know that social sororities and fraternities are segregated by gender but academic fraternities are not).
What else..... I love cooking and reading (Neil Gaiman is my favorite). I enjoy crafting, especially jewelry.
Okay, now onto the lifestyle part of me.I have been in the lifestyle for 7 years. I have been active (for the most part) in the community for 4 years. Yes, I am still learning. I believe that no matter what you do, you should always continue to learn.
This being said, that does not mean I am naive and must want to be trained. Just because I am a female submissive, this does not mean I want you to Dominate me. It disgusts me when Dominants message me and after a few messages they begin to speak to me as if I am their sub. Talk to me like the person I am. I call you Sir or Miss or Ma'am out of respect, not because I think you're my Dom/me.
I am a submissive, but I identify most with a pet (untamed young fox) or a little. Like any animal, you don't expect it to suddenly obey all your commands. I'm sorry, but I just can't do that. I know how to behave, but my trust needs to be built with you. The best way to win me over is to let me get to know you slowly. Start off simply and then build up my trust as we continue. Otherwise I'm likely to disappear. I don't like feeling trapped. Don't force me to do things. I submit freely, but do not treat me like I am a slave. Submissives and slaves are two different things. Pets and submissives are different too.
I don't wear the fur suits. But I do like a collar and leash. I like being petted, or having my head and back scratched. I like being held. I like being told that I am a good girl. I like treats. Really, treat me like you would a pet. Training a pet does not mean you have to be mean to it and force it to obey. You can train animals by tricking them. For example, when I had to give my parents my cat they began to feed it a spoonful of wet cat food as a treat every night when they had dinner. Now if someone makes food around 6pm-9pm at night he thinks he is supposed to get a treat and will begin meowing for it. He doesn't realize it, but my parents trained him to behave this way.
I am open to trying anything once. If you don't try it, how do you know you like it? My favorite kinks are (no particular order): sensory play, cream pies, pet play, shibari, being made to cum over and over (i love clit stimulation & i cum easily, and I am a gusher), nipple torture, & knife play (light scratch cutting on my back omg best thing).
I dislike when people ask me what am I looking for. I do not have a cookie cutter idea in mind. I can tell you generally what I hope to find one day.
I ultimately would like to find a long term relationship that is in the lifestyle. I want someone that is my other half. I don't want a 24/7 kink relationship, but it is nice to be walking downtown and you firmly grip the back of my neck. I really have to click with the person. I don't jump head first into a relationship and hope for the best. I am willing to talk to anyone on here and become friends. If something develops then great. But please don't think that because we have a conversation that I have entered into some type of agreement with you. BDSM is not just about having kinky sex or someone controlling me. For me, it is a relationship. And I have to take it slow to really let people in.
Oh and one last thing, I am a pansexual. Not a bisexual. But this site does not give me the option to list that. If you do not know what a pansexual is, that means I am attracted to all genders. Male and female, also men that identify as women, women that identify as men, transsexuals, etc. I really like androgyny.... Feminine looking men especially. I am selectively open to couples too.
Anyway, if you made it to here then I am impressed. *hands you a gold sticker*
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