CarnalDominant

Closing my account in a few hours after I have had lunch.  The reality is that not one of my friends on this website has been around in over a month.  I doubt a few days will give them enough time to respond.

I'm closing this account in a few days.  Been a huge waste of my time since it was made.

Forget about that girl I was talking about in a few posts down.  She absolutely has no desire to stay with me seeing as she just sent me a nasty little message.  All that, "I love you!  Can't wait to get married."  All bullshit!  I'm tired of wasting my time when all I get is disrespect...

Going to bed.  I wish all a good night.

Life is good!  I bet you can't guess what happened to Me this weekend.

If ever there was a time to sit and consider the years gone by, now would be the time...after I get some sleep.  Goodnight everyone.

I haven't made up my mind yet if I am going to keep this profile active or cancel it.  Been one of those weeks, and seeing it is only short of halfway over...

I have only two words for everyone after their introduction, and they are...bagel bites!

I hope everyone in the USA had a wonderful 4th yesterday. Mine was okay; filled with family time, fireworks, text from a few friends wishing me a great 4th, and drinking. By now I should be asleep, maybe soon I will. Take care everyone.

Thanks to Netflix I am getting reacquainted with old tv shows that I used to watch so long ago.  One being The Dick Van Dyke Show.  It is true that the show is older than I am, but thanks to independent television stations back in the 80s I was able to see most if not all of the episodes.  The only thing I can disagree with is the couple sleeping in separate beds.  Other than that, I still laugh at it and it's jokes.

I had no idea that I could view this website through the use of a Nintendo 3DS. Kind of makes Me very ashamed of My mobile phone, which web browser can only view facebook.

Another reason My profile is temporarily down is that I am waiting (and losing patience doing so) to hear back from someone I was talking to for the past 3 years.  She disappeared 4 to 5 months ago and seems a friend of hers has contacted Me to inform Me that she still loves Me and all the messages that was sent to Me before her disappearance was a lie.  It bothers Me that it was her friend who contacted Me and not her.  It bothers Me more that I gave her My contact information (phone number, etc.) and still haven't heard back from her.  She has a very short amount of time to get back with Me before I decide to forget everything that the two of us meant to one another and move completely on.  She has to make the move now.  I have waited way too long enough as it is.  I am still looking and will do so until I hear from her.  I don't hear from her soon, I no longer care.  My heart and emotions were played with, and she needs to set it straight...not her friend.

My life...depressing for the moment.  Something happened, and I am not sure what to make of it.  I am hopeful though that things will get better, and wishing that they get back to the way that they used to be.  I was happier then...

Had a pretty eventful weekend.  Played some WoW, watched a movie in 3D, spent some time with My father, found a Jazz musician that I know released a new cd this year...and I bought it.  For the record, I love all types of music...except Opera and anything that sounds like someone took an accordion and started hitting people over the head with it.  Polka would be one of those types...and I come from a family of polka lovers.  Now I am not against the use of accordions.  I have listened to some wonderful Italian music that used the accordion in a wonderful and even romantic way.  Jazz is that type of music that I can mellow out with and forget those moments that make Me unlike Myself.  And Boney James is a wonderful musician.

Wow!  Every time I keep logging in CM tells Me that someone has been looking at My profile, and when I check to see who it is...nothing new comes up.  Obviously someone, whomever they are, is hiding their account.  Could it be the ghost of My ex?  (figure of speech)  Or just someone who is shy about this stuff?  Whomever you are, it would be nice for you to at least identify yourself by message.  For now I am going to go play World of Warcraft.  I made a promise to a friend on there that I would be geared up to do arenas with him by this weekend, and I generally keep My promises.

Not going to cancel My account just yet.  I have decided to ride it out and see if something worthwhile happens to show interest in Me for a change.  Sadly, the last time that happened she got scared and disappeared.  All I ask is that you please read My profile, know that I am serious and interested in someone just as serious, age is only so important (yes I like to have a young play toy, but I will consider someone more My age), TPE and sexual use is a must (although sexual use won't be the main focus it should be expected and welcomed), must be female and be intelligent enough to know what you are seeking and where I fit into the fray, be aware of your limits (even someone who is new to this lifestyle should understand her most extreme hard limits and what they are), and also be fully capable of realizing that this is a position for 24/7 real life and possible life long only.  Relocation is fine, and helping you to relocate is also possible...however, I have been burned in the past so I know something is fishy if you jump at the chance to ask for money to relocate to Me without knowing anything about Me.  Something like this takes time...and you should be willing to make more of an effort than just offering yourself and your body to someone.

May close this account down by this weekend.  Every twist and turn I take here always seems to lead to a dead end.  If you were real and serious, you know how to reach Me.  If you were not, please don't bother Me again...numbers can be changed.

About to head to work, but I must add this.  I find it very humorous when you offer someone the type of life that they claim to want with all the humiliation and degradation that goes with it...only to get blocked.  I think that either this person was a fake, or they wasn't looking for that level of humiliation.  Anyone care to know who this person was so you don't waste your time with messaging them as I did?

Been very busy with work these past few months.  This past week had Me where I can rarely visit this site.  Honestly, it doesn't look like it is going to get any better anytime soon.  Seriously though, I do look forward to the money that this overtime will bring.  I do have plans...we will see how it turns out.

As for My joke on Ben Franklin...it will happen, just not yet.  Hahaha, actually, I am running out of ideas so I chose to stretch them out.

For My next joke, does anyone have any objections to Me poking fun at Ben Franklin?

Thanks to animal behavior studies and psychological profiling, I have unlocked the mystery that many have wondered but only I would dare go...THE FIRST MATING RITUAL OF TARZAN AND JANE!

Jane's thoughts:  "I have been sitting here naked for hours and all he has done is picked at my hair."

Tarzan's frantic thoughts: "There's no fleas!  There's no fleas!  How is this possible?!"

I know I am late with the joke.  Of course since I have been late with it, I have not heard anyone complain.  Good news though, I got to talk to that wonderful young lady again Tuesday morning.  I really enjoy it and hope things continue to work as well as they have so far.

I did have some trouble with the heat today, luckily, no heat stroke.  My body temperature though went through the roof to the point that the 108 breeze that blew in the dock actually felt like it was 70.

Without further ado, I bring to you, My joke on the next journal post:

Been a long hard day at work...and totally beat.  I miss one person in particular from this site.  I hope to see her again soon.

And for anyone interested, the Tarzan joke will be posted on here tomorrow...not sure if I can do it in the morning or not.  We will see how it unfolds.

Going to post another joke sometime this week.  This one is already made and was created a few months ago during a thunderstorm.  It is actually about Tarzan.  Anyone remember him?

It saddens Me how quickly some are ready to bail on people that they claim that they are interested in.  I shared something with someone about a recent issue that occurred to Me and of course, I took care of it this past Friday.  It is done and over with...behind Me now.  I felt the need to share that with this person, and she logged off Yahoo and this morning sent Me a message saying goodbye.

I have ways of seeing if a female is ready for this.  If you can't face the past, you can never embrace a future.  You also have to be able to recognize the past for what it is...gone.

I'm a bit of a video game nerd...well, maybe not a nerd, but I do enjoy video games.  In a similar and slightly related story, while at work today I seen a gray fox walk up not but 5 feet in front of Me.  In the back of My mind I heard this, "Gray Fox!  Colonel, that ninja's Gray Fox!"

Anyone have any idea where that is from?

There was this young clueless boy named Johnny.  One day while Johnny was in his homeroom class he noticed one of the pretty girls in school looking at him with wild yet adoring eyes.  He walked up to her and asked her out to which she burst out with the answer, "Yes!"  Johnny never seen someone so excited before.

Johnny's friend walked up to him, "Dude...you do know that girl is the school slut, right?"

Johnny replied, "Huh?"

The night of the date finally arrived and Johnny was so happy that he was able to take a girl out on a date for the first time in his newly restored 1969 Chevy Camaro.  The only thing in it that wasn't original was the stereo system and DVD player.

Halfway through the date Johnny kept noticing her pulling her panties down.  In a fit of rage Johnny cried out, "You are the worst date ever!  How many times do I have to tell you that you can't take a shit in my car!"

I want to share with the community of CM My lighter comedic side.  Whenever one comes to Me, I will share a joke with you on My journals.  Let Me know if you like it or not.  I use humor to get Me through these hot summer days...otherwise I would be at everyone's throats.

One thing that frustrates Me here is how some on this website block someone without giving them a reason.  I have already been blocked by at least 3 people in the past few days after just My opening message...or end up with some messages I send getting deleted as unread.  Why is it too much to ask to turn Me down respectfully?  And how do you know it is in your best interest to turn Me down if you don't know anything about Me?  Listen, unless you just don't feel attracted to someone like Me, get to know Me first.  If by then you don't feel that we are compatible, respectfully tell Me so and the last thing you will hear from Me is a parting message wishing you luck.  I am a Man of honor, and you have My word that is what will happen.

Profile has been updated.  For some reason I am not happy with it...we will see.

Hahaha, this seems a bit impossible but it happened and I am not sure for what reason.  I tried to send someone a message "for the first time" only to find that this person has Me on block.  This person does not know Me, never received a message from Me before, and has never had any prior contact or attempted contact from Me...yet she has Me blocked.  Her loss.

Could the person who wrote, "It is better to have loved and lost, than to never loved at all" please kindly remove this knife from My chest?!?!

I am never going to be the same again.

Wish I had someone to spend the holidays with other than family.

What?  I can now type journal entries again?  How odd.  Well, I suppose I will be doing that as soon as I can figure out what direction life is taking me.  For now, I have been in a complete state of depression caused by confusion, uncertainty, and other variables.  Luckily, hope has not left me yet or I would not be here this day.  Until I have a better grip on this situation that has me feeling like I do, I feel it would be best to take up a hobby.