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this one hasnt been on in a long time - her battle with cancer and for life has brought so many changes - she lives with hope and fights daily -
as to her progress in her journey - shes still lost - finding as she continues the journey of self searching she g ets more lost and more confused - i.e. how can a slave tell a Master what she feels if Hes in control of her feelings? how can a slave have an opinion if He's suppose to own everything ? if a Master says He's right and the slave has a different opinion - is it lying to agree with Him?
these are just some of the pondering that goes thru this ones mind as this one journeys farther into the human side - shes come to 1 conclusion though - that life was better and simpler when she was doormatted and not having choices to make - it ruined a good slave in her opinion ...because now i question everything and have no control over thoughts and again dont have a clue on who or what i am suppose to be --
thank You to All the Dominants and subs/slaves that have sent me well wishes those have kept me going
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