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In one of my simplest fantasies, Mistress and I meet in our usual hotel room (paid for by me, of course). I get there first and get ready according to Mistress' expectations.  I am clean, shaved, and scented to Mistress' specifications. Then I await her by kneeling on the floor.

She arrives half an hour late, as is her prerogative.  She doesn't bother to say anything. She takes off her clothes (I am not allowed to turn my head to watch) gets a glass of the wine I have provided, then relaxes on the bed. Maybe she turns on the tv or flips open a magazine.

After a while, she snaps her fingers and points to her pussy. I climb on the bed and begin gently licking her pussy the way she likes. She continues to relax, watching tv, sipping her wine, whatever she wants to do.

Eventually she starts breathing harder and moans a little. She pulls my head in harder, which I know means to start licking harder. She has a wonderful orgasm.

After she comes down I continue to gently lick her pussy and inner legs the way she has taught me. Maybe we go through the cycle a few more times, whatever she wants.

After she's satisfied she kicks me to the side and goes into the bathroom to take a shower. She enjoys a long relaxing shower. Then she dries off, gets dressed and leaves.

She never bothered to say a word to me or care about what I wanted. She satisfied herself and that's all that matters.

I guess I'm repeating myself. I just can't bring myself to believe my heart's desire is really out there: a Mistress who wants to use me for her own pleasure and satisfaction and not give a damn about what I want.

Lot's of things turn me on (which I'll describe in my journal later) but being controlled is my fantasy. I want to serve a self-centered Mistress.  As your personal sex toy I'm basically just a dildo, and you don't worry about what your dildo wants.

So as I describe my fantasies, please don't think of them as demands. Mistress makes demands, not her sex toy. Think of them as ideas to use as you please.

Let's get the limits out of the way.

Time limits: I do not want a 24/7 relationship. I am not looking for a lifelong relationship. Bottom line is I want to be with someone for whom it's a game to be played every week or two.  Email and phone calls can happen in between if Mistress wants, or not if she doesn't.

I do not want an outside or vanilla relationship. A private D/s relationship is the only way we know each other.  What happens in our play sessions stays in our play sessions.

We would need to meet a few times in public to test the waters. We don't have to "get to know each other" but we need to get a sense if we're compatible.  Other than that, no part of our games are public. No public humiliation or going out in drag or anything like that.

No poop or pee games.

No permanent scars or cuts.

I'm open to other women being involved, but we'd need to meet somewhere just like you and I would need to meet.

Forced-bi is an intense fantasy of mine, but it will probably stay a fantasy. Maybe a long way down the road when a lot of trust has developed and clear limits have been set it could happen., but really it's probably not going to happen.

No surprises. No attempts to change the limits during a session, e.g. "there's a man outside and if you want to cum then agree to let him in". Of course limits can be changed between sessions.

No pictures or videos, not even for private viewing. No fingerprinting or other such identifications.

No professionals. I want to serve someone who chooses me.