Hii!!! My name is Andy. I am a Slut -- - Pain Slut
- Cuddle Slut
- Rope Slut
- ...
I am also a kitty. ~Meow!~
I am here because I'm no longer afraid to be who I am. For many years I was locked into a relationship in which I was constantly apologizing for my true nature -- ironic, seeing as it was not a vanilla relationship which confined me, but rather that of TPE slavery...
I am submissive. I am
~not~ a slave. There is a big difference.
I have my own personality, and it's a strong one. I've been learning that it is also a very likable, magnetic one. In spite of my submissive tendencies and desires to please, I am not looking for it to be supplanted by your designs for me.
That's not to say that I have no desire to be owned. To be collared. But the ownership that
I desire looks very different than that of a TPE slave.
I want someone who sees who I am, and ~loves~ me for it. Who cherishes not only my submission but my personality in every respect. Who enjoys me so thoroughly that they want to
~own~ me.
And on my part, I want to be conquered. Engulfed. Devoured by my passion, love and desire for her and all that she is...
Some may find this idea laughable. Some may think, "Why would I ever own a submissive who is so self-centered that they think they can make demands upon me -- demands to take them as they are?"
These are not the people I am looking for.
All of that said... am I looking to be owned right now? Not precisely. If it happens, it happens -- but I am mostly satisfied where I am at.
I have many close friends and play partners who really do like me for who I am! I'd love to build one (or more) of these relationships into something more intimate... to have someone to cuddle to sleep, for instance...
But... that will come... I think...
I like to play. A lot. You'll find me at almost every play party in NYC -- SESSIONz (where I am the house pet), Avant~Garde, SUSPENSION, IMPACT, TNG Parties, STIMULATE... I try to get out whenever I can.
Also of note,
I love to cuddle!!!! I am a cuddle-slut, plain and simple. Hugs, snuggles, nuzzling, you name it :)
If you see me and you would like to get to know me, or scene with me -- don't be afraid to approach me! As a quick note, I mostly play with women. I am open to having a woman bring another man into our scene, but will not generally play with men outside of this context (yet).
Speaking of play -- I've been looking to switch a bit more lately ;). I enjoy topping, and can be quite devious once a scene starts running... I like to think of myself as a musician playing to the desires and fantasies of my instrument. To that end, I suppose I'm a bit of a "service top" in that I get off on the emotions of my bottom -- but I don't think that's a bad thing!
Similarly, if you're a bottom and looking to switch, I've been told I make a great first-time target! I have several friends who are
~entirely~ submissive, except when playing with me :p
I like ~
mannnnny~ kinds of play -- my interests covering the full spectrum of submissive / masochistic tendencies. I love to please whom I'm with, and I love to experience and explore. If it's something I've experienced, chances are I like it -- and if it's something new I'm eager to explore it!
Intimacy is my absolute ~favorite~ kink. For me, scenes are often less about specific activities and more about the kinds of emotions they instill. I like being made to feel helpless, conquered, overwhelmed... and then taken and used. Used like a slut once I'm thoroughly helpless and bound...
~shivers~ I have a high pain tolerance, and am ~quite~ the masochist! There's something almost zen-like in it for me... to acknowledge my body's desire to run from the pain, to thank that desire and let it pass, and then to absorb and appreciate the intensity of sensation unfettered. I'll also admit... I take a certain amount of pride in making it to the end of a scene -- wearing out my partner's arm before they wear out my ass... ~giggles!~
I enjoy humiliation... with a caveat. Being called a slut and treated like one, for instance -- that's a definite "yes" for me!!! However, more degradation oriented humiliation... being called "worthless" and the like... I have mixed feelings about it. It's one thing to be used like a whore, to be made to clean the bottom of someone's foot with my tongue... but I like to think that my submission is valued by my partner.
Something I have just begun to realize is I appear to have an intense sound / music / audio fetish... an aural fetish, if you will. Certain kinds of music, when I focus on the vibrations, the coalescing harmonies and dissonances as they reach their peak, can give me the sensation of a full-body orgasm...
Similarly, the sound of my partner's voice, the feeling of her breath as her mouth hovers an inch away from my ear is enough to make me melt instantly. That whole area is particularly sensitive -- my ears and neck are wonderfully useful trigger-points for me :)
As for my gender-identity -- I am embracing the concept of being gender fluid. In my day-to-day life I outwardly portray myself as a male (albeit a fairly androgynous one). However... I identify as far more feminine than masculine, and thus at play parties, fetish events, anything of the sort -- you're very likely to see me in feminine lingerie and makeup. I think I make a cute girl, and judging by the reception I've had (and the comments on my photos) many people seem to agree... ~
blushes~
Pronoun-wise, feel free to call me whatever your comfortable with. I'm used to he / him / boy / etc., but find it very sexy to be called she / her / girl / etc...
Outside of my BDSM-self, I am a musician first-and-foremost. I recently graduated from Berklee and having moved back to New York in just the past few weeks am eager to find people to play with. I'm primarily a bassit, although I play guitar, keyboards, etc. I enjoy all genre's of music, with a special focus on anything involving improvisation -- so if you would like to get together and jam, let me know!
I am also an avid gamer, with a focus on indie / experimental gameplay and seeing the medium evolve as an emotionally expressive artform. Games like
Today I Die,
Loneliness and
Braid are the kind that capture my attention. I code / design games myself a bit too.
I think that's a nice summary! If you want to know anything else about me, feel free to ask :)
- Andy
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