Boymatt918

I would just like to have a boy or sub TOP that I can do with what I please but its cool if others think this is impossible cuz I dont care!! I mean boy matt wants some slap and tickel of his own now and then

let me know what you think! I would really like to hear from the subs on this and non of that things your sir taught you I want your honest truth and feelings ok boys

Ok so its been a while!! So this boy has been pondering about a lot of shit lately!!

So would it be bad if I the boy (me) to have a few boys of his own?? I mean I would love to come home from work and have boys of my own! I mean in maybe a couple of ways I am a dom bottom lol but

I still want to be a boy!

Ok so I have been talking to this Sir. And we were just e-mailing each other. I would send him a e-mail every day asking how he is doing and such! But today he asked if I wanted to talk! I said yes and he called me! we had a great conversation! we talked about lots of shit like our family and all that shit and many, many other things. Just getting too know each other! It felt so good just getting back into the groove of looking for a great Sir!

I feel so up lifted!

Ok so me and my Ex Sir have not talked in like oh over a year! And he sends me a friends request on FB and I put off adding him! Becouse he broke my boy heart when we parted!

Anyway! so yeah the friend request! I ut it off for so long becouse I still love him and It would just kinda kill me agin and agin and agin everyday I get on FB!! so my best friend said just add him so I did! then! I get a e-mail from him I mean right after I add him! he says "how are you" I said good and told him what I have been doing and stuff! he says its good to know your alive! lol I say its good to be alive! then he says "WE" got our room at IML "WE" can't wait to get some new toys! Now that just killed me!!!!! I fell like I should be the one takeing care of you Sir and I love you so much Sir !

I feel  so hurt agin I'm crying now I loved, respected and worshied him and still miss that love!

but I know he did me wrong and I shouldn't want that but he was a love a Sir I will always remember and love but its kinda bad!

Tonight I was outside my parents place! In the country out in western Oklahoma! It was Beautiful!! all the stars! I was in love! like the first time you found pleasure in "What ever KINK turns your Pleasure bulbe on" ! It was that oMg kinda love feeling! I mean when I looked at those Stars!! I Was There!! a boy in heaven lol! Any way is it crazy to think and dream like that! I mean can I think, hope, Dream that my DREAM Sir is out there looking at the same bright night sky? And then the dream gets a little more kinky lol! I got a woody outside the barn just lookin up and dreamin!

                                                                       boys wil be boys !

ok so here it is in a nut shell! I'm watching this show right! and I'm like this is crazy!!!

It has a guy and him and his man are moveing in togeather! I'm like aw how sweet! then he says hun most relationships fall apart after they move in togeather! I'm like I can't remember a relationship that we didn''t moving in togeather! Crazy I know!! I want a man where we date and live in difrent places I mean like diffrent houses not long distance! but I need to become a big boy and do my own thing!! crazy but true!! I'm still a lonley boy :(

Ok today I was talking to a very good friend of mine. When the subject came up about my first and only Sir/Master/boyfriend! (he interduced me to this lifestyle) And he thought that the Sir/boy relationship was like he said what to do I did it. He treated me like I wasn't there ignered me and brought other boys home and bought them things and really didn't care about me as much as them! but yet I worshiped the quick sand he walked on!

I loved him took care of him di everything for him and whatever he said to do I did I wore my collar with pride! I love him still even though I think he is a ass! I am a boy I have feelings and as I understand it a boy has rights! All I want in life is to have a Sir/Dom/boyfriend cares for me as much as I care for him and one who loves me as much as I love him someone who would die for me as I would do the same for him! lol ok now I'm makeing it into a fairy tail! but yeah why not!