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i just took my first shower in the new apartment. i shaved (everywhere.. lol) and moisturized and generally made myself feel and look like a brand new person. i was with my ex for seven years, and it will be an adjustment. But, she was abusive. Mentally and physically. The worst part is, i allowed it.

 i refused to hit a girl back, i always forgave her when she apologized, and was generally too nice and too loving towards someone who had not earned that from me. Hitting me is only okay if i have allowed it. Mistress can smack me around any old time She wants, but i will love it!

i also know that the moment i say "no," is the moment it stops. It may be the moment our association of that nature ends, but She would never hit someone in anger. It takes a level headed and calm person to be dominant. 
So now i can devote all of my free time to my Mistress. it's going to be a fun ride!

-daniella

Wow... just wow.

i was invited in, shown a place to put down my things, then i was sent to Her bedroom to change clothes. 

i stripped down to a pair of lacy red panties, the cockring She requires, and a small pair of black high heels. i checked myself out in the mirror while waiting for Her to come in. It seemed like an eternity!

When She entered, and looked at me, i got immediately rock hard. Her eyes on me made me feel nervous and scared and excited. Mistress complimented me quite a bit, and told me how beautiful HER ass looked in those panties.

That's when She decided to start playing with me. YUM! She warmed me up with several toys, She teased me with Her touch, and teased me with Her body. i was even allowed to suck on Her glorious breasts for a while. And then, once she had me worked up to the point of screaming, She handed me a broom and dustpan. 

She watched, and we chatted as i swept Her floors in my heels and panties. There was a casual comfortableness to the way She spoke to me. Her demeanor said, "This is normal. This is okay. We're having fun." And, we SO were.

i was then taken to the kitchen, and shown a sink of dirty dishes. Mistress made me slip off the panties to stand naked in front of the sink. She was constantly switching between chit chat and touching me as i worked. 

A couple of times, Mistress tricked me! She made me feel completely relaxed and at ease... then when i accidentally said, "yeah." instead of, "yes, Mistress." i had to stick my ass out for Her and get paddled. She swatted and swatted... HARD. i'm a tough dude, real macho, super pain tolerance, badass warrior..... 

She spanked me on the bare tushie until i cried. Not much, She wasn't angry... i think She just liked hearing me whimper. 

It did something inside of me. All the times i have ever played, i was looking for exactly this. Not just some kink between two consenting adults at a play party... but, action and consequence. i was being trained. Trust me, i love spankings, but i will not forget the correct way to address Her again. i may like for Her to make me cry, but i like most making Her smile and feel pleased with me.

i have never felt sexier than i did yesterday. i have never been treated so much like i was wanted. Mistress made it perfectly clear that she liked looking at me, liked touching me, and LOVED torturing me.

i'm now officially addicted to Her.

i have been up all day, thinking about what i will do with Her today. i'm very excited, hard as a rock, and slightly scared. i'm scared of not being what She wants, i am scared of the pain, a bit also. i'm as nervous as a virgin on prom night. 

i found a pair of heels to wear for Her. They match the panties i was ordered to wear. Even though this pair was my favorite, i am still wearing them only because She commands it. i LOVE that! 

i will journal again when She has finished with me. :)

-daniella

i was just informed of a new rule. Since girls have to sit down to urinate, and i have a girl's name and wear panties, i am now to always sit down to pee.

i am going to be tattooed today. It's going to be my biggest piece of artwork so far. The needles are going to be scraping along my bones. It's going to hurt! i'll be wearing Mistress's cock ring and a pair of panties under my clothing. The tattoo artist is a very hot woman, also, so this should be fun! lol

Teasing myself each morning and night for Her pleasure is starting to become an actual torture. The constant erection is getting harder and harder to deal with. (no, pun intended.) i sometimes moan for no reason, and i cannot sit still at all! i cannot wait until allowing me to cum will please Her. i promise to scream "Thank You Mistress!" in the sluttiest of fashions...

*whimpering again

-daniella

i forgot to mention something...

She is a total HOTTIE. Wow! The entire time, i was staring at the beautiful freckles on Her shoulders and cleavage and thinking to myself.. "does SHE really think i am cute?" i was all shuddery like a teenager

OH MY GOD!!

That went well. We ate lunch. We spoke. i was told what my rules would be, and what my position would be. This was just an interview, but i think it went well. i think She was pleased with me, and my eagerness to serve Her. i hope, in time, that i can prove just how much i do want to serve Her.

Mistress did give me a taste of what i have to look forward to. She knows how to swing a paddle! i only received a few swats over my pants, but the backside which is now Hers is still warm and slightly pink. (Yes, i stood in my bathroom and looked for a while.)

After She smacked me a few times, She put me on a small stool to sit at Her feet while She gave me Her rules. that was my FAVORITE part. i sat on my small stool and watched Her smile. i was able to see that She was in a good mood. i could tell that She enjoyed spanking my firm, round, backside.

Correction: HER backside.

Mistress then gave me some panties to wear for Her. Lacy, red, totally girl. Also, a g string which is almost entirely invisible. 

i left the radio off for the entire ride home. The silence allowed me to fully experience the warmth across HER backside. i rotated between moaning and whimpering, squirming all the while.

She is smart, funny, imaginative, clear, direct, strict, kind, generous, and fully Dominant. She commands, and i will obey. 

i'm in a very good mood, but am still somewhat confused about all of my feelings. i was given a free night, so i plan to have some fun with my friends. Will i tell them? Can i? Should i? i need someone to talk to about all of this, i think. 

Anyways, super pumped!

Oh, and Mistress has decided that i should be called by a girl's name now, something frilly to match the panties She orders me to wear. i will therefore be signing off from now on as..

-daniella

i just got an email making me aware than someone is actually reading this. Mistress should be terribly pleased to know that Others get to hear all about Her demented tortures.

i spent time at a friend's house tonight. All the while being sent devious texts by Mistress. My friend, who just happens to be an attractive young woman, found out all about what was going on. i had to ask her to borrow some thumbtacks. 

Two thumbtacks are now taped to my skin, sharp side down. One on my nipple, and one just under the curve of my ass. 

Correction: HER nipple. HER ass.

i just made my bed for the night wearing these devices. They felt like nothing... at first. Just like that princess who could not sleep atop that pea, the tacks begin to niggle at one after a bit. 

Please do not take this as a complaint. HER cock is rock hard and throbbing (still)

off to dream about Mistress now, if i can ever stop squirming.

The rubber band around Her cock and balls is not as much fun as it sounds. Especially when Her cock can't stop being so hard. 

i feel like i am a teenage boy again. i'm trying to hide my erection, and everything i see is somehow sexual to me. i am trying to watch television, and shampoo commercials were making Her cock jump up and down.

i just went shopping for torture implements for Mistress to use on me. She spoke to me on the phone for a while before i went inside the store. She forced me to have a huge giant erection when i went inside. Then She hung up, and went about Her day.

i was shopping in the office supply section of a certain chain store. Some college aged girls wearing their OSU regalia were shopping as well. i saw one of them look at me, then nudge her friend and point at my crotch. i glanced down, seeing that my arousal from earlier was still evident, and they giggled and went down the aisle. i nearly died!

i do not know how i will make it through tomorrow's task. i'm already being tortured in just the most perfect way. i look forward to squirming while trying to sleep tonight.

What is there to say? What can i say? i'm nervous and excited. Frightened, and smiling constantly. i cannot wait to see where this new road takes me. 

i doubt i will be able to sleep much tonight. i'm already VERY uncomfortable.. lol