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About bobbliestut2
Preparations for Mistress
I have already been through lazer hair removal and through that process been removing the hair from my lower legs upper legs, buttocks, cock and balls, belly, chest, back and face and neck. Removal is a first step to responding to my powerful need to become woman enough to have a lesbian relationship with a natural woman or TV who will among other options make it possible for her to fuck me with a dildo.
I need to start now to take female hormones, probably obtained from Centurions, triple strength mammary for about six months or more (3 pills a day, each pill containing 300 mg if raw mammary concentrate). That will give me the beginnings of female breasts at the cost of drastically reducing my penis size. The penis reduction must occur or I cannot be the woman I want to become.
I need to have my ears pierced (both ears with one pierce, I think) so that I can buy and wear dangling earrings.
To punish my penis regularly, which I hope Mistress wants, I will be wearing a new ultra deluxe locking penis restraint of that is pink patent leather. It has three locks so I cannot remove it. It has a 3 ½ inch long shiny pick patent sheath which wraps the penis and is pulled tight by the chain. It includes a locking strap that locks behind my balls. One lock is used to lock the chain at the end so I cannot get an erection. The other two lock two locking straps around my balls. The sheath has two D rings for attaching whatever so that that Mistress can lead me around by my cock. Once it is on and locked, I plan to send the keys to Mistress.
The penis restraint has been on order for nearly a week now. I will only remove it when Mistress wants. I am impatient to receive it.
Throughout this transformation process, I will let my hair grow long (well below shoulder length) and plan to dye it red. I need to learn to brush my hair one hundred strokes every day or it will just be a male version of long hair. In general, I will wear it braided once it is long enough as I like little girl ideas for me.
Next, my fantasy is that I will take a trip to Thailand where they will through surgery provide me with significant breasts, appropriate for the size of my shoulders. I fantasize that I will get new breasts to go with my already hormone enhanced breasts.
After healing I will return to the US to be fucked in a lesbian relationship with a natural woman or TV. When I can do this, I will need a dominant female who is prepared to deal successfully with my needs as they are hers as well. This will be a long term 24/7 relationship, although much of the time it will be plain vanilla.
However quite frequently, I will serve wake her by gently massaging her feet. When she is awake and ready I will kiss her deep within her anus wriggling my tongue, receive her morning slaps across the face, draw her bath, and serve her breakfast in bed. And she will teach me how to walk as a woman with a book on my head, sway in high heels, and to exercise as a woman to keep fit.
On each occasion we have a scene, I will have to:
n Do an enema to clean out my anus and pee as my shit cannot be part of her dominance.
n Get out the materials that I use for my cross dressing. For the record, these now include the fact that I must shave, the wig I normally wear (blond or red hair), the necklaces to hide my obviously male throat, the falsies I wear, the gaff to hide my penis, the nylons I wears, and the high heeled shoes. Working hard to wear 6” heels, although I am now quite comfortable in 4 in heels.
n I continue to have lazer hair removal. They are now working on my back, my chest, my belly, my upper legs and my lower legs. The lazer hair removal people will not work on my crotch, as they say that the hair there is too blond for it to work. I have chosen not to do my arms, my armpits, my arms, and my face to save money,
n I need to put on makeup nearly every day for practice. I stare by plucking my eyebrows again. Cover the face with foundation. Eye makeup next. False eyelashes (I have real difficulty with these), then eyebrow colors (I use blue and pink), and then to eyelashes. Then to pink highlights on the cheeks. Finally red lipstick.
n Red and blue finger and toenail polish. My toes are always polished so that is just a matter of touchup. I have to wait after that for the polish to dry.
n Dress as a submissive woman. I think either my blue or pink dress and matching 4 inch heels. I will wear my boa to disguise my shoulders.
n We go out to dinner, Mistress dressed perhaps as a man.
n When we have returned, outer clothing will come off. Mistress will, I hope, sit on my face so that she can see my eyes. And the fear in them as I know what is coming in the scene after dinner.. I will lick deep inside her anus so I can taste her shit. My face will be directly at her anus. She will meet my eyes, and say that “here it comes” and shit in my mouth. My tongue in her anus will encourage the shit to come. She will tell me to “keep it all in your mouth or else.” I am certainly afraid of the “or else” and so I do. I also have a deep need to have her shit in my mouth.
n Mistress will continue to meet my eyes has she sits on my face and tell me to chew and swallow her shit. I hope I will not be sick but I will have to control it and chew and swallow it as she happily watches my eyes.
n Mistress will have the whip (cat of nine tails) or the paddle to punish me: spank my balls and cock. I hope regularly. I will cry when she punishes me.
n Then Mistress will tell me that I need to be ready for her pee, directly into my mouth. She will say that this step is to wash the shit down. Again, she tells me again I need to “keep it all in your mouth or else.” I am certainly afraid of the “or else” and so I do again, again as she happily watches the fear and need in my eyes.
n Mistress will want to fuck me in the anus. Sometimes I will be on my knees in front of her. More frequently I will be on my back. I will have taken a Viagra so I have a need for there to be an erection which will be painful given the penis restraint. She will also be able directly to squeeze my balls adding to the pain. I will be begging my body not to have an erection. I will be crying. But still in need for her.
n As Mistress fucks me, I will certainly be wearing a blindfold or a head mask, as I perhaps do not have the right to see her when she fucks me. My legs over her shoulders. I will be wearing a corset which will reduce my waist to 24 inches. I will be crying again and fully needy.
n When Mistress has come, of course I will lick it up. If I have been very very good, as a reward she may allow me to eat her pussy for an extended period until she comes again and again. Oh, such joy.
n Then I will put on my maids outfit and answer the door where I will be inspected and humiliated. Other Mistresses will come to visit. Mistress will receive complements on how far I have come. I will serve drinks to them on my knees with the whip in my mouth so that I can be immediately punished for any error or just to add to my misery. I need this.
n I will serve Mistress, her follow Mistresses. and her girl friend dinner on my knees. We will order in as I have no special skills as a cook. After dinner I will serve drinks and do dishes. If I am lucky I will get a drink of the pee of any or all the Mistresses directly in my mouth. I will be so happy.
n To amuse Mistresses, I will be prepared as both a woman and a horse (reins, blinders, hands and arms tied behind my back) to pull a cart in which Mistress will ride. She will if she likes use a whip to punish me. I need this humiliation.
n After dinner and after dinner drinks, I will be tied up on our bed dressed as a woman with my buttocks exposed in the air over pillows and whipped with a cat of nine tails.
n I will be walked (crawl) naked as a dog on a choking leash by Mistress who is dressed in sexy clothes and have her punish me with a riding crop if I do not crawl to her satisfaction. She will take me outside on my hands and knees.
n Before the end of the day, I will be permitted dressed as a woman on my knees to kiss and lick Mistress’s the heel of her 6 inch high heels
n Then I will be allowed to bath and sleep naked at Mistress’s feet, while she enjoys herself sexually with her girl friend.
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