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It's been awhile since I've been online because of the surgery I had to have. The recovery time for a double full knee replacement was a bit longer then I thought it would be. It's ok things will be better when Master gets back from Florida.

I thought I had made friends online here but was mistaken. From having fun to thinking we had a lot in common to misunderstandings to nothing. I've learned a valuable lesson from all this. When you meet new people and think your making new friends forget it. It just never works out. The only one I can trust is my Master and I'll always leave things to Him as it should be. I know He wanted to find someone or a couple that I could have fun with while He was gone but it just didn't work out.

I will still chat with others but never get to close. My Master is my only true friend on here and will always make the plans as to what goes on and with whom. I know that's the way it should be anyway but Master has always wanted me to let Him know what I'd like. If I sound a bit bitter I am. Never trust anyone other then your Master. I'll miss Him while He's gone but that's ok as we always make up for it when He gets back. Last year was a bit rough for the both of us but I know it will be better this year. Things are getting back to normal.  

Another extraordinary evening with Master .... I was put in a chair ... blindfolded and then I could hear foot steps but there was more then just Masters foot steps. Then someone touched me .... but not Master ... He was across the room ... I was allowed to touch ... to explore another .... Master allowed me the pleasure of a strange cock .... oh how lucky can one cock slut be ... I'm not sure as to how I have become so lucky to have a Master that treats me so well. I spent the most wonderful evening with Master and another person .. he has an awesome cock and tasted soooooooooo very good. We played for the longest time then after he had left Master and I has our session. I could have gone on for hours I didn't want it to stop. Some times I'm not sure whats wrong with me ... the more I get the more I want ... when I start I just don't want to stop I could go on for hours ... Master is so very good to me. I can't wait  till our next session. Thank you Sir Your the best ...

Well I have to be one of the luckiest slaves in the world. I had a wonderful session with my Master the other night. He always makes our sessions exciting and different each and every time. I was a good girl so I got the flogger ... oh how I love it. Then I got to please my Master in a way that just drives him crazy. I love it when he tells me that I'm such a good cock slut. I love taking him over the edge and when he explodes it is the most ultimate experience for me. Then he allows me to visit our new friends .... I did have a most exciting time and I even got to do a fisting. I loved doing it. I hope to enjoy them some more in the future. I know Master is going away for a bit but I'll spend more time with him when he gets back. I can't wait. I need a good long session with Master ... I'm so lucky to have him in my life. Thank you Sir for all you do for me.

Well I met with Master tonight for just a short time but for me it's like being with Him for hours as I appreciate all the time I get with him. To be able to service Him is all I care about. He makes my body crave more of Him each time we are together. I just can't get enough. But when I'm with Him I make every minute count. I'm hoping to get to spend some time with the new friends I've met as they are very exciting to be with. Life is funny and we never know where it will take us next. Lets hope to erotic places I like them the best. Be well everyone. 

Well Easter went well I nice quiet family dinner. Now I'm just going to rest and read a book. Other then that it's back to work on Monday. I hope everyone had a good Easter weekend. Be well all 

Life is so funny sometimes just when you think things are going well .... bang life gives you a kick of reality. I'm just taking a brake from being at the hospital where my sister in-law lies. I'm praying for a positive out come. I just needed a brake from all the drama with family. I'm sure no matter what the out come is things will get better. Sorry for the negative note but I just needed to vent and here is as good as anyplace to do it. I know anyone who reads my journals would understand. 

The more I chat to my new friends the better things look for the future. I know my Master tells me He has a lot of things that we will be doing together. I always enjoy out sessions because I never know that's coming next. With having new friends in our circle now it's going to be even better. The summer brings new things and when winter comes I won't be so lonely when Master goes away. The more I think of the things to come the more excited I get. I like to read others journals from time to time and find it very interesting. Some times I even send a message to say how I enjoyed them. I hope others get a chance to read mine once in awhile and enjoy mine. I love chatting to new people and making new friends in the lifestyle. 

I know the new friends that Master and I spent some time with are so much fun. I've been told that she and I are a lot alike in so many ways but so different in others. I can say I don't have many friends in this lifestyle and it's nice to have someone with whom I can relate to. Be well my friends and never forget to have fun. Life is to short not to. 

Master sent me a message today and it was just what I needed. He always knows what I need and when I need it. But then that's why He's my Master because He knows me inside and out. Thank you Sir for the warm hug that will stay with me all day. Now I just wait for Your return to do all kinds of things to my body, mind, soul and spirit. They all belong to You Sir I give of them freely. Be well all 

It's a bad day today ... I haven't felt like this in a very long time. Things don't always work out the way you want them to and I understand that. With the lack of sleep and stress knocking at my door I just want to roll up into a ball. No one to hold on to no one to vent to ... I hate this day. The only good thing about it is that I know it will pass. Just feelings bent out of shape. Tomorrow is another day and with it will come the sun and the good feelings again.  Be well my friends it only get better from here 

I'd love to do an audio entry but must discuss this with Master first. He will let me know if it's a good idea or not. I do wish people would read profiles before they make comments to people. I was always taught that if you didn't have anything nice to say to someone don't say anything. How true that is so people please try and treat others as you want to be treated with the respect they deserve. Be well all 

Master set up an awesome afternoon for me.  I had never experienced anything like it but I so want to do it again and again. I can't wait for His return in April. I know there is going to be so much more for us to do together ... also we have new friends to have fun with. Thank you to the others that were with us. I hope to see more of you soon.

To the only person who understands me:

Life can be so sweet, please come take me into your world of terror and darkness, make me do things I've never done before…. let me feel your flogger till I cry out for mercy ... you stop … only to find another torture ... you play mind games with me till I beg you to let me explode in a climax I've never felt before or will again

You touch me tenderly but my body jumps as it's not use to the tenderness your exposing it to now ... you give me a false hope that you will let me go so long as i play your game but it goes on for hours until the darkness overcomes me and I fall deep into the abyss .... I wake in a fog with your whispers in my ear.... be still my sweet we are just beginning....

Take me to the edge of the cliff where therein lies my destiny.. No other can make that trip but me for it only holds the dark side of my mind.. I feel the cold edge of the steel held to my throat as someone whispers in my ear ... come to me my sweet give yourself over and ride the wave of passion that only pleasure and pain can deliver to one’s soul ... I feel the touch of his hands on me ... I know the fear he instills in me yet I want more.... it's like a drug that you can never get enough of ... he is the only one who can control my body, mind and soul to do as he wishes .. This is what sub-stains me ... keeps me alive

I have had a wonderful two days with Master. I saw Him wed  before my work then wed after I finished work. Then I saw Him thur before work again. I would have loved to see Him again after work but I didn't get in till just after 3am. Thats ok I'll see Him again soon. What fun we had .... it was amazing. But then Master is always amazing. I so love to tease Him as I know He loves it. I wrote something for Master and might put it up on here for others to read. Well it's off to bed for me soon. mmmmmmmmmmm I'll have sweet dreams of Master tonight. I just might have to masturbate before I go to sleep. I know I'll have to make myself cum at least 4 or 5 times before I can relax enough to go to sleep.

I wait for His return. As the time grows near the fire in my sole grows stronger. The animal with in longs to be released. He is always in my mind and my dreams. I gave myself to Him freely. My mind,body,sole and spirit are His to do as He pleases with. I respect His time away from me and cherish His time with me. He helps me to grow with each passing breath I take. He is the drug I need to exist. His seed sustains and nourishes me. With out Him my world is nothing. He always gives me what I need. I am thankful I have my Master. 

I went to see my Master last night and what a night it was. He used me and abused me the way I love it. We had a great session as it might be our last for awhile. Master will be going away for the winter soon. I shall miss Him but He has given me permission to do some things. I will be visiting with a switch while He is gone. I shall report to Him all that I do. But then I always do that anyway. 

I shall miss Him but I'm sure I'll keep busy till His return. 

Master has been away for a couple of weeks and is home soon. I so look forward to seeing Him again and for our next session. He is so good to me and lets me go online to watch others. I am allowed to connect with others and show them my tits and tease them to watch them cum. 

Master one day wants me to suck on more then one cock at a time. He wants to see how many I could handle. I'm not sure if that will ever happen but it does sound like fun. Master is always coming up with new things to do. I love the way he pushes my limits and allows me to play with others if I want to. 

I just tell Him all about it. He has full access to my account and can read or answer anyone if He wants to. I get very worked up just thinking of His return. I need a good session as it has been awhile. 

I back now after my surgery and was with Master a few weeks ago and this time He had another Dom join us. They used me as they saw fit. I pleased my Master and made him proud of me. I also pleased the other Dom. This was the first time that I had two Dom's use me at one time. I have to admit that it was such an experience and such a turn on for me. I was riding that high for weeks. All I could think about was how things turned out. I'd love to do it again some time with Master. My Master is so good to me and is always doing new things. I never know what He has in store for me next but that is what keeps things so exciting. I love pleasing my Master and that is what I live for. I am His pain/cock slut. I will always do as Master wants for He owns my body, mind, soul and spirit. 

there have been so many changes in my life and new things are always just around the corner ... well I have been punished for the first time by Master and I really don't ever want it to happen again ... it brought tears to my eyes ... I have learned my lesson and hope to never have to be punished again ... I need to make some more changes to my profile again and this time I do hope that it pleases Master ... this is not why I was punished but I want to make sure that I get it right to please Him .. this is what I live for.. I just want to make sure Master is happy with all I do 

I was with my Master last night and as always it was great. He wants me to look for another female to be with. He thinks it would be good for me. Last night was such a surprise as he had someone else watching us on live cam. I never know what Master with come up with next and He is always pushing my limits. I know there was one time I would never have allowed my picture taken let alone do a live session having someone watching. It was so exciting and what a turn on. My nipples are still very tender from last night as is my ass. 

I am not able to be with my MASTER tonight as I was hoping to ... I'm not sure as to when HE will be back but I do look forward to seeing HIM then and to make up for lost time ... I remember the last time I was with HIM and how good it felt .... I can't wait till HE returns and we have another session. I hope that it lasts all night long .... I know that my bottom will feel the affects for days .... MASTER is very good at what HE does and I can't thank HIM enough for it. 

I hope to see my MASTER soon. I miss HIM so much. I think I will lay down for awhile and relive one of my sessions with HIM. That always gets me through another day. 

Last night was just wonderful as I got to connect online with my MASTER. I have chatted with HIM before but this time I got to see HIM as HE had HIS cam on. HE had a surprise for me this time. I got to meet HIS Lady for the first time. She is so beautiful and she was so kind to me. I felt honor and privilege to meet her. 

It was like my Master was here with me and I so enjoyed it. Can't wait for HIS return. 

I miss MASTER so much right now but I know I will see HIM soon and my body will get all the attention it requires ... 

I need to feel the softness of HIS touch when I first look into HIS eyes and HE caresses my body with HIS hands. The soft touch soon finds my nipples and they become firm and as they firm up so does my MASTER'S touch. I know that the nipple clamps will then come out and get put on. It will send a jolt through my body as they get put on. 

Oh my how the memories come flooding back of MASTER blindfolding me and setting me down in a chair .... restraining me so I can not move .... binding my breasts so tight I thought they would explode ....  then using the TENS on them ... (wow what a feeling that was) after some time in the chair we went to the bedroom ... 

wow how much I need to touch myself right now ... to just close my eyes and think of HIM as I masturbate ... oh SIR I need to cum .... may I cum SIR .... please  

As I lay on my bed this afternoon to rest memories of my MASTER flood my head. This is just one of many that I have.

I lay on my back and MASTER puts a cool cream between my legs. It slowly runs down my pussy over my clit sending a shutter down my spine.

MASTER lays on top of me my legs tight together. HIS cock is between my legs slowly pumping in and out of my pussy over my clit. My body always responds to MASTER in a way that always pleases HIM. MASTER looked deep into my eyes and said “DO YOU TRUST ME” and I said yes SIR with my life.

HE then puts his one hand over my mouth and tells me “YOU MUST CUM WHEN I TELL YOU AND NOT BEFORE” … I nod my head yes. HE then looks deep into my eyes takes HIS other hand and plugs my nose. I can no longer breathe. HE holds it for a second then says to me “NOW … I WANT YOU TO CUM NOW” and I knew that until I did I would not breathe. It did not take long for me to cum but the best part of it all was when HE removed his hands and held my arms out straight it was like a bomb went off inside of me and the dam burst.

 As he lay on top of me cock between my legs holding me tight the wave of my multiple climaxes exploded over HIS cock. It was one of the best orgasms I have ever had. I didn’t think it was ever going to stop.  I love it when he holds me down like that with my arms out. I could not control how many times I exploded but MASTER could HE knew what it would do to me and HE loved it.

I so love to please my MASTER and as long as I am a good girl I shall get what I love and need. 

The time draws near and my MASTER shall be departing for awhile. I shall miss HIM but I wish HIM well while he is away. I'm not sure as to when HE will return but my memories shall give me comfort while HE is gone. I shall chat with my friends to keep myself occupied till HIS return and follow any orders HE leaves with me. I do hope to keep in contact with MASTER somehow while HE is gone. Maybe on here or emails. I know it will work out somehow. 

Well I keep doing new and wondrous things with SIR. Each time we get together it is always something different. I didn't know that HE could keep me so excited just by thinking of the things HE does to me. It will never be dull that is for sure. 

My MASTER tells me to come over anytime day or night and this works out for me just fine. I know that I am to tell HIM if there is something I want to try and I think that I will. I have always wanted to try some knife play, hot wax and I know that in time I will want to try other things. 

MASTER is so good to me and I do know how he will punish me if I step out of line. I don't ever want to do that. I will always be HIS good pain slut doing what HE asks of me. When MASTERS hands are on my throat I feel the power that lies with in HIM. The power to control and I give it all to HIM

Life is full of surprises and so is my MASTER. I will cherish every moment I get to spend with HIM as time goes on. HE has shown me new things with the promise of more to come. As long as I am a good girl I shall get rewarded but if I cross that line I will feel the wrath of what my MASTERS hands will bring me.

I have truly surprised myself as I really didn't think I was such a pain slut. I knew that I liked it hard but didn't know just how hard. MASTER will push my limits as all good MASTERS do. I know that he will get me to do things I never thought that I would ever do. I trust him with my life as I know that HE will always treat me well. 

I am looking forward to all the new things that await me. I love pleasing my new MASTER and would do anything that he asks of me. Till we meet again my memories will keep me warm. 

Today was the first time I was with SIR. It had been such a long time without a Dom that I almost forgot how wonderful it can be. I stood in front of SIR and looked into HIS eyes I knew that this was going to be an experience I would not soon forget.  As HIS hands touched my body I felt the power that would soon control my soul. I gave myself over to HIM to do with as HE saw fit.

After SIR put the collar around my neck and the restrains around my wrists HE led me to another room. HE kissed me gently and then instructed me to lay face down on the bed. I could feel the tingling in every part of my body as SIR tied me down.

With a blindfold over my eyes the first thing I felt was soft and gentle. But very soon after there was the sting of what felt like a crop and paddle up and down my body, the flogger as it connected with my back bringing me to one orgasm after another and things that made me gush over and over till I thought there was nothing left.

But to my surprise I just kept cumming. I have become my MASTERS pain slut and HE will push my limits to where ever HE wants me to go. As time is short and we never know what tomorrow will bring us I will look forward to our next session and to experiencing what lies ahead.  

It has been some time since I've put anything down here but I had to write something now. I've met a new Dom and he is so very nice. We will be spending some time together to get to know one another better. He seems like everything I've been looking for and then some. I hope our time together will go well. I know life is short and so we must enjoy what time we do have. 

It's been some time since I've been online. I do hope that those I have chatted with in the past will drop me a line to let me know how things are going. I miss being here and have missed this lifestyle. I'm hoping to find the one I'm looking for I'm sure He is out there somewhere. To all my friends ..... be well