BlueEyes24

I updated my profile a bit more, mostly just little tweaks. 

I did want to make a note while I was thinking on it. I have been wondering about something.   I label myself switch because I can be dominant, and in fact have been, but I can also submit to someone else. 

But...my submission comes with conditions, and I'm thinking maybe this is odd because I don't see a lot of people talk about it.  For example, in order for me to submit to someone I feel that it must be earned. I'm of the mind that I'm not just going to give my submission because someone demands it.  In fact, I pretty much ignore those people, laugh at them even.  

Another thing is that I resist, A LOT. I fight like a pissed off demon cat.  But it's because I like the struggle.  I feel like someone that doesn't want to wrestle me and make me give in doesn't really wanna be dominant over me.  This may not be how it really is, but someone who wants me to just obey mindlessly might as well be asking me to pretend I'm a dead body IMO. 

I feel like the dom/mes that just want a mindless "yes bot" don't want to bother respecting me or treating me like a person. And that's ok, there's someone out there somewhere that's ok with that notion. I'm not her. 

I know it doesn't really matter. I know it's just about preferences and whatnot. It's just that sometimes it really bugs me that I have so much trouble with strictly dominant people. 

Haven't been here in a LONG time. But, I I update some pictures and my location. I moved. 

"Remember that I love you"


My heart goes out to all of you, every single one.
The dogs, the cats, the snakes, the birds, and 
Every living thing.  It breaks my heart to see you
Abandoned and alone, wishing that you could

Just go home. I shed a tear for each of you
That I cannot save, and though I know that
Many of you cannot comprehend my compassion
I love you anyway. If I could personally

Save you all from the cruelty and
Callous reality of world that 
Has left you with no hope 
And no home, I would spend 

The rest of my life 
Dedicated to saving 
As many as I could. 

To those of you I could not
Cannot, will not, and did not 
Save, remember that I loved you
Even when no one else did. 

  Just in case my profile update didn't state it clearly enough, I DO have a boyfriend. Yes, as I have stated he is NOT into anything especially kinky(meaning he IS a vanilla person). 

This does not apply to almost everyone on the site, because you read my profile entirely and understand it, however, for those of you who may be confused or perhaps hopeful, allow me to clarify.

I am not interested in becoming someone's new slave/sub/mistress(as in extramarital). 

Me talking about anything CM related makes my boyfriend very uncomfortable and makes him worry about me. So, I try to ameliorate this by assuring him that I am not soliciting other men for anything other than platonic interactions.

So please, Gentleman/guys/other male figures, do us both a favor if you're looking for a romantic relationship/in person playmate, and look elsewhere. 

Thanks everyone for bearing with me on this one. 

On a random note, it occurs to me that some dommes/doms scare me. 

I don't perceive anything but a potential threat. Maybe it's just me. 

I don't view them all that way, I have talked to a few that have been very respectful of me and I admire them all the more for it. 

 As I wander this site and see who has viewed me recently, it just makes me more curious. I notice a lot more people look at me than say hi, but I know I do the same thing too.  It's flattering that anyone notices at all. 

Good news, everyone! I'm still here. Not as titillating as you'd hoped, I know. I'm still wandering about don't worry.