blue4488

after sending my daddy the picture of my cut, i told him that i would do this every day if its the only way to get him to talk to me. the next morning i messaged him and after several hours of waiting i assumed he was ignoring me. i go in my bath tub and cut from my knee to the top of my thigh with my three blade razor and took pictures. when he got them, needless to say he was very angry. he told me if i ever did this again he would stop speaking to me. ill never do it again. he told me that surrendering myself to him completely would go much further than threatening him with myself. he told me he wanted me to go to bed early because ive been very cranky and i need the rest and that i wasnt allowed to masturbate. its very very very hard for me to fall asleep with out coming first. but i did as i was told. before bed i wrote "good night daddy love you" on my chest and took pictures, then got in bed and waited for what seemed like for ever to fall asleep. about five hours later i woke up. i dont sleep well when im upset. i messaged my daddy telling him about my sleeping problem. when he got up and read them he decided it was time to milk me. when i asked him why he was being so nice to me he said it was because i need this, not because i deserve it. its things like this that make me love my daddy so much. he said that i would be punished and the fuck up would be forgiven. i cant wait for it to all be done and over with. my daddy also told me there would be new rules. rules i would not like but they are not negotiable. hes going to make me have a sister slave and im going to fucking hate it. as far as the other rules, i have no idea what they could be. im terrified these new rules are going to push me away from him, which he kind of suggested they could. i  dont want any new rules and  sure as fuck dont want a sister slave, but i need to make my daddy happy.

today i made my daddy angrier than i ever have. i told him i was stolen from him by another dom. i did this because i felt neglected. ive never felt as empty as i did today. he refused to speak to me. i felt like a stupid little girl sending him message after message of how sorry i am. i cut my thigh open and sent him a picture so he would talk to me. now hes even angrier, i knew he would be, but hes speaking to me. he made me write this as part of my punishment. 

messages like this will be completely ignored (and laughed at).

 "stupid slut, are you truly ready to live this life. I take sluts like you and destroy them. you will be broken down mentally, and turned into a worthless piece of fuckmeat. you will be humiliated and degraded for the rest of your life. you are a worthless cunt , only good for licking my ass"

using some photo you found on a modeling website....down rite fucking obnoxious.

please dont message me with stupid questions like, but not limited to,

"whats that on your chest?"

"how many tattoos/piercings do you have?"

"what color is your hair now?"

"why do you dye your hair blue?"

i get asked these questions on a daily basis and its fucking annoying.

they have nothing to do with why i'm here.