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Sitting in the dark.?
The light touch of candles.?
The cold air touching my skin.?
The light tremble of my breath.?

The quiet anxiety.?
The excitability.?
The nervous panic.?
The wait for decomposure.?

The confict within.
The fear, dread, and calm.
My body is uncertain.
My mind awaits tranquility.

There are butterfiles within,?
I am full of apprehension and suspense
Wanting the polish gone
The apperance of nonchalance erased.?

My breath trembles,?
I wait for the world around me to fade away.?
I want to flee my mind.
I await to exhaust my tears.?

I close my eyes and feel you walk by.?
My breath stops, my chest feels tight
My mind and my body begin to fight.?
I can feel the war within begin.?

You touch me lightly, teasingly
I can feel the chill.?
Your fingers play along my skin
running through my hair.?

You slowly make your way up and down,
You go all the way around,
Suddenly there is a strain,
My head is wrenched back, no pain.?

With that it begins, the tears are yet to flow,
The ropes come down, all encompassing.
They are tight, secure, unyielding.
My body eases, my mind begins to release.?

The hits are light, barely there.?
My skin pinkens, showing a little color.?
My pluse has quickened
I am ready to let it all in.

It begins to burn, I let out a sound.?
You move to the next spot my breath eases.?
I begin to move away and to
I try and be still worried about pleasing you.?

The next weapon of your choice.?
The string of leather,
So many emotions,
I will never forget, ever.?

My body is alive
Concentrate I cannot
My mind lets go
All my emotions begins to flow

The tears they fall sliently still,
I do not know when they began.?
Everytime the line of pleasure is drawn
You change your mind and move on. ?

I can feel the welts begin to rise
I know when I look my body will be a surprise.?
You stop for a moment and whisper real close,
You have two words which is your choice.?

My mind scrambles now that I am supposed to talk,
My body is confused but feels beautifully alive.?
Please, I whisper do not stop.?
Thatch all you needed and release comes again.?

I begin to dance sway a little,
The tears are flowing,
I cannot think
Just surrender.?

The the peace fills my head.?
My body is still there.?
But I am feeling the greatest pleasure,
Complete and utter calm safe forever.?

I cry out, no control.?
You tell me to let go,
Drawn within the pleasure
I feel the strike and scream, no effort.?

Suddenly it stops, the world stands still.?
Then I feel a light touch the blow of breath,
A caress, loving, I can only surrender
The ropes hold me up as I sag a little.?

Then there is a strike, a bite,
With it I moan in pleasure.?
The ropes above me are pulled tight
I stretch and try to please.?

With that it begins
The kiss of leather.?
My control is gone
The tears flow as though forever.?

My breath is fast,
My voice is loud,
I struggle to move,
Going no where.?

It feels like to much,?
I love it more.
You tell me to say stop,
In a scream it comes out.?

Everything comes to a halt,
Standing takes effort,
Control is gone completly,
The tears flow freely.?

The ropes come undone,
little by little,
You take my by the arm,
Tell me to sit, recover.

I sit and try to still my breath,
The tears are slowing,
I can feel my body glowing,
Everything is a tingle.?

You sit down beside me,
Put your arms around me,
Trying to hold me tenderly ,
Showing nothing was in anger.?

Exhausted, Exciting, the world is a lighting.?
I feel refreshed and completely unstressed.?
You get up and go out,
Giving me the privacy to get it together.?

I slowly dress, knowing its coming to a end,
The marks will not last forever,
My memories won't fade.
Out the door I go complacent as ever.