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doobop
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*EDIT*
Profile photo clarification: The ass is mine. The handprint was made on me, not by me.
I had a matching one on the other cheek, but I couldn't capture both with my phone.
I like intelligent, liberal-minded people.
If you have something to say, please say it.
I love to talk, but safety first eh?
But any and all of it starts with conversation and connection.
I suppose my prime conversation topics would be: science fiction (books and movies), medicine and biotech, the liberal armageddon (global climate change), burners, costumes, memes, armchair psychoanalysis, sex and lolcats.
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Let me put aside my tight competence and autonomy and do those trivial wanton things I'm really good for.
I'm your private circus.
A most debauched pastime.
Remember me as a filthy secret; tell your friends in detail, but don't bother to exaggerate.
The truth is enough.
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I dress mostly in grey and black and navy and olive. i think i look sexy in jeans. I could be wrong about this. Sometimes my jeans are too baggy, but I try to avoid whiskers. I have black and grey cords too. Occasionally I splash in a teal tank top layer or go with a wine colored, blousy tee. I own skirts, and boots, but usually don't go there.
you could nominate me for what not to wear, I suppose. but I try to do what they say! look for a dark, uniform wash with a wide leg. (i realize that whiskers are for girls who need to suggest curves, so why are they in 10s? )
Those two bitches would not rest until I wore heels with every outfit. Pointy toed leopard heels. That would kill me.
Can I help it if I'm a little butch? I got long hair! :p should I help it? This weekend I cleaned the gears on my bike with a worn out pair of panties because i needed a rag... Is there anyone else out there who thinks that's hot? :3
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machines are sexy.
deisel trains, steam power, fine instruments, perfect blades.
even a nice bicycle. :) |
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eh. bored and lonely. stressed and with a stuffy nose. sucks.
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Cut loose... in the heart as well as the bed now.
and wondering what I'm ready for.
Somebody I find hot who wants to wrestle, to start with. But I suppose I come on too strong or too shallow.
Trust me, I'm neither. :p
cut loose...is actually much less painful than holding on to hope. Free fall is completely silent and I can feel myself expanding and filling the universe. what? I'm west coast now. :P
I would like to call a meeting of the green star generals! but, I'm new in town and shy :)
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Also,
some very cute people looking at my profile.
Hello Gentlemen! *waves*
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Well. I've lost all interest in craigslist. Although there were some good times, that Holden Cauldwell character kinda soured the whole idea of dating around for me.
So I'm just working, listening to my freshly divorced roomate get it on with a new friend every week, and breaking up fights between our cats :)
California is kinda chilly, but my bed is Heaven, and soon I will put the warmer on it.
I'm bored. Got to find something to join.
I like my current lab, but I may get the golden goose of biotechnology gigs a little later. I'm psyched. Anyone want to mail me a paperback?
I'll mail you one back.
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hmph.
reading craigslist ads merely makes me randy. I need a lover that won't drive me crazay....
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So, a little bit about what I am looking for?
Friends, play partners, people to go out with, chill with, mess around with, even go to events and swing with.
I've never done any swinging, I'm curious.
I am also interested in quasi-casual, regular intimacy with the right poly person or family.
The idea of a part-time lover is very appealing to me.
I've been serially monogamous so far, but that has a lot to do with a preference for oral sex without barriers.
I like no-bullshit people, smart people, laid-back people, people with a strong sense of self.
In the language of criagslist; four twenty friendly, non-smoker preferred. social drinker okay, D&D free. lol.
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jeez louise.
If a man acted so strangely towards me I'd not be so gentle. So why am I still interested? I have no idea... Oh wait, because the first part of the conversation was so promising...we have so much in common. It was like I'd known her all my life! That's so cool! But as soon as I felt like I was suddenly very VERY important...I freaked.
sorry :(
emotionalneedophobic. yeek.
I can't even figure myself out right now, what am I doing second guessing someone else? Oh right. Surviving.
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Simon Says is a highly appropriate game for this site :)
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I. Have. Moved.
I'm in San Francisco :)
sorry New Orleanians!
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depreshun.
Anhedonia? not precisely, I'm sort of staunchly refusing putting effort into finding fun or feeling better.
I'm just kind of totally pissed that the person I learned to depend on to kiss and hug this mood out of me isn't.
Pissed at who I wonder?
I swear this is PMS. Wicked.
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yeah.
I'm sad, angry and horny.
no fun.
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Hm. I am having...call girl fantasies.
I don't want money, but delicious foods and quality intoxicants as offerings sounds about right.
Sort of a free-agent sex goddess.
Can I have an intelligent, fairly fit, masculine person who is not, ya know, weirdly narcisistic?
well. Can I have one who can get over here in 4 hours or less? hmph!
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i can has cuddles? it hurts. the stress. ow. need something. need.
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I was (finally) going through the sex toys and throwing away useless bits and cleaning and so forth.
I thought I'd post what I found and what my thoughts were.
I found a collar that was not recognizably anyone's from my past.
I wanted to find someone to put it on.
I also found a spare leash and my (washable) markers. huh. washable markers never got much use here. The semi-permanence of sharpie is too tempting. It could, however, be fun for the right person.
SO,
prospective submissives to me, for our growing list of things I'd like to do to you, we have:
a) body service
b) me tying you up and taking your clothes off and drawing on you. (If you pretend not to like it; even better) While I have you there, crops and pinchy things are fun times too.
c)Come to think of it, I can occasionally get my hands on sterile 20g needles and nitrile gloves. THAT could be really cool. But I've never done it.
d) sexual service? uh, thats a whole 'nother step. Lets just start with sensation and light humiliation.
Ha! I am a total wuss :)
Luv it.
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Although I am a Dawkins/Adams athiest, I also have a spiritual side. I know my rising and moon signs, own a tarot and have had a handful of spiritual experiences. I think religion is part of our biology. I use it because it is part of our repitoire, our heritage. We can do some neat tricks with our minds, and there is always room for mystery as far as science goes. But we can do some phenominal tricks with the world around us...and the worlds inside of us as well.
So: religion, peace, meditation, psychadelics, vision quest, sun dance, (self-harm?), 'group wishing' as I always thought presbyterian church was, possession, extacy. Is this unique to humanity? Emergent Properties of a top-notch self-shaping network of sensory, memory and conciousness?
Conciousness.
We may someday describe with reasonable confidence the sequence of electro-chemical steps it takes to have a transcendant experience. Just because somebody makes an awesome colorful poster with lots of windows shapes and lines and arrows, doesn't mean it is completely solved and takes nothing away from its mystery and power. Increases it, in my eyes.
Years ago, the Baba-lovers were making sense to me when they said that all the universe, all of creation, is spinning whorls of self-assembly trying to get a good look at itself. God is still taking that deep breath and about to be saying: I Am.
If God is a babe, on the verge of making sense of its hands; if the infinite is rushing outwards with awareness, seeking its boundaries; it will never actually get there.
God is omnipotent sure, but it has no outside reference to make sense of anything.
I suppose growing up on John Varley's books has something to do with me imagining that god isn't sane. We don't think the same. We don't even relate. Anyway, the Baba lovers had me goin' with that one, but they lost me when they ranked the animals in a heirarchy of 'close to god-ness' with us at the top and snakes at the lowest. Kill a snake! It can only be reincarnated into a karmically better form and thank you for it in the long run.
er. no. sorry. If there were such a cursed organism? It'd be, variola or pseudomonas or parasitic worms or something. How bad must your karma be if you're a fucking pinworm?
-.-
But that stuff about infinite conciouness was cool. Emergent properties, Biochemistry, and the universe in my brain are plenty of awe for me. It may not be logical, but it is certianly hardwired.
This actually makes spirituality, and yoga, and excercizing for endorphins all related, all similar phenomena. Is there another self-stimulatory behavior humans (and apes, yo, and the family dog too) do for a neurological rush? um. drugs..and masturbation.
:D
Don't you think going to church with all those people, if it actually works for you, is kinda ew? I'd want a much smaller and select group to do that with.
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*sigh*
It has not been a good day for science.
Its days like this I am most curious about non-sexual age play (with myself roleplaying the dependent). It sure would be nice to have a "daddy" to tickle and hug me. Half the fun of being a sub is surrendering daily cares for the moment.
For the sake of decorum I won't get into details about the other half.
Even though there are a lot of women who are stronger or larger than myself, I've never bottomed to someone who wasn't masculine. Cute girls, however, need to be wary of my predatory side. :) I suppose that is not untypical of bi female switches; Submissive to men, dominant over other women. Not that I wouldn't try bottoming to a woman, it just hasn't hapened yet. She'd need to be pretty formidible. But then again, if I've made up my mind to be intimidated theres no holding me back.
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What am I Looking for?
Right now someone to move the furniture.
I need to get back on the weights like, yesterday.
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I thought of something I would like last night.
I would like a bath assistant. I would like someone to sit attentively and hand me things I need for the bath. I thought I might chatter amiably or maybe just ignore this servant. If I liked them I might ask them to wash my hair. Definitely I would have them scrub my back.
I did have this done once, she did a wonderful job. I had her scrub my whole body, and we chatted like friends (we were lovers). It was nice, but occasionally less efficient then if I had scrubbed myself everywhere I could reach. I could do this more often. I'd even set up and clean my bathroom, awaiting my bath-helper. It would be so weird, to set up a date for just this event. The singles scene is fast approaching, and I am quite awhirl with strange ideas. |
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