BlackTigerDragon

Let's do this pro thing.

Since I'm getting the same messages over and over I thought I would clear this whole clusterfuck up by writing up a clear list of all my fees.

I've never gone 'pro' before. I've never even charged money for anything. So please bare with as I have no clue what the flying fuck to charge. So I'm just charging what seems fair for my time that you will be wasting.

• Posting a link to my profile you apparently can't find ... free

• Holding your hand when you still can't fucking find my profile through the link ... $3 to a charity

• Posting a link to my FAQ ... free

• Holding your hand when you still can't fucking find my FAQ through the link or through the link on my profile which you still can't fucking find through another link I gave you ... $5 to a charity

• Any contact details (includes ALL social networks) ... Anything off my MightyApe wishlist

• Any of my Hard Limits (That also includes ASKING for them once you have been told what they are) ... two things from my MightyApe whishlist, and then my refusal of said H-A-R-D L-I-M-I-T-S

• If you are looking for a sub ... anything off my MightyApe wishlist and $5 to charity. Unless...

• You can find where on my profile it says I'm a sub ... FREE

• You are a special snowflake ... $10 to charity

• For more that 'just friends', (which I have clearly stated more than once is out of the question) ... anything off my MightyApe wishlist and and $5 to charity

• To bludge the entire Invalids Benefit off someone else ... Everything off my MightyApe wishlist

• You are a very special kind of special snowflake that wants any of these for free for no fucking reason ... Everything off my Mighty Ape Wishlist and $50 to charity

So I myself (and probably everyone on this site who isn't lower than a monkey) am painfully bored of answering the same boring questions over and over and over. So here is my new FAQ list, which is better than the last one I wrote. And no, I won't be answering these questions on this site ever again. So if you can't read its your own fucking fault :)

How are you?

Fine.

Translation: If this is where your vocabulary ends I am already bored, that's how I really am.

What are you into/tell me more about yourself?

Firstly, I'll just leave this here. Here you go:

http://www.collarme.com/personals/v/1060509/details.htm

I know! OMG wow! Amazing isn't it? I can just dump a pile of shit about myself right onto the webpage on that link!

It's called a Profile.

PROFILE.

PROH-FA-EL.

Give it a go, try saying it yourself. Amazing right?

What a world we live in!

And also:

Painting
Music
Movies
Drawing
Comics
Anime
Pink Floyd
Showtunes
Writing
Reading
Chocolate
Game of Thrones
Hunger Games
Lord of the Rings
Crafts
Knitting
Crochet
Computer Games
PlayStation 2
Christianity
God and Jesus
Cats
Animals
Feminism
Disabilities
Rights
Mental Illness
Autism
Food
TV shows
Battlestar Galactica
Farscape
Buffy
Led Zepplin
Gardening

And that's only a few that I could come up with just then.

Pick one. Or more than one, up to you.

What are your kinks?

I have one kink that turns me on so much that it makes me orgasm: Not being the life support system for a kink or fetish. Lol jk.

But seriously though.

I'll just leave this here again:

http://www.collarme.com/personals/v/1060509/details.htm

But even so, there might be a few kinks I haven't put up there because I am NEW and haven't tried anything yet. Once I have more experience I might put more up.

And there may be a few that you will only know about if you meet a few requirements. The first one being knowing what my first name is. And I only give my first name to those I've met in person.

I'll just let you figure that one out by yourself.

Name/email/messenger/skype/email/home address (seriously???)

As above, you will only get my real name if I know you in person.

If this question is asked in your first - third message the answer is no.

If this question is on the end of the boring 'Hello how are you' script the answer is no.

Lets play a game shall we? It's one of those story things you get when your learning maths.

If I have an email address, who's email address is it? That's right, it's mine.

If I have a messenger/skype, who's messenger/skype is it? Yup, right again! Mine!

Ok, here's a really hard one, are you ready for it? Here it comes:

If all these are mine then who decides when, how and who to give it to? I'm not going to hold your hand with that one. Unless you answer this one right, the answer to your question will again be no.

And as for demanding phone and physical address.

...

Is this your first time on the internet?

Will you if I mention fuck all of what I will offer you in return?

Here you go again:

http://www.collarme.com/personals/v/1060509/details.htm

Please let me know if I have suggested anywhere on this link that I am A sub, let alone your sub. One of my greatest talents is my extreamly high reading comprehension and I am STILL having trouble finding it.

Oh what's that? There's no mention of 'sub' there? All you can find is info suggesting I could possibly be a DOMINANT? Please bare with I'm new here, but is it the job of the dom to take orders from someone claiming to be a sub? Is that what doming is?

And your not even offering MONEY??? Even a sub type would at least demand money if your offering fuck all else.

And that's it for now.

Again: I WILL NOT answer these questions ever again on this site. This page will be on my profile and I will dump the link into a reply of any of these questions. If it's still too fucking hard for you to find this link, then it's your own damned fault.

My First List of Rules

 

Hello! I am a complete beginner in the lifestyle. I still haven't found what I want yet. I don't even know what I want. My kink list is small because I have no idea what I'm into.

I thought it would help writing up a list of rules a potential submissive must follow.

These rules reflect my Needs as I don't even know my wants yet.

Some of these rules apply not only to subs or kinky people, but everyone in my life. Some of these things you should be doing for everyone in your own life anyway, but it always appalls me that these rules would be news to some so called 'people'.

 

So for future reference, my list of rules and shit:

 

#1 If you are on this site, read my profile.

Unless you have read my profile you are not my friend/in a relationship/'serving' me in any way. Your so called 'friend' request will be rejected. And I am very bored of answering the same question over and over.
Also, unless you are on my list of 'friends' here or I have actually met you in real life, there is no yahoo/msn/skype/whatever.

 

#2 Want something 'obedient'? Get a puppy :)

Yehnah I'm not a child or a dog. Unless you are my boss or my cat or God or something, I am looking for equality in friends and relationships. And a sub expecting 'obedience' from a DOMINANT? Are you drunk? If you expect obedience from a dominant, then you are not a sub and any d/s relationship between us would be completely illogical. I prefer to have my own mind and think for myself. All humans deserve to have their own mind.

 

#3 When I tell you to STFU, you will STFU

I require silence at least once a day. Denying me this causes headaches and in severe cases any sound from you will make me vomit. STFU.

When I tell you to STFU, just do it. Nothing else. Do it.

When I am speaking you will SHUT. THE. FLYING. FUCK. UP.

If you ask me a question then keep farting on AS I AM ANSWERING SAID QUESTION then it is your fault if you suddenly 'don't know the answer' to the question you just asked. It is your fault when you fail due to lack of information because you wouldn't STFU when I was giving you said information THAT YOU FUCKING ASKED FOR! It is your fault if all our conversations go in circles because you just wont STFU. If this continues then I myself will STFU and exit the conversation since you obviously just want to talk to yourself. See? I may be a dominant but I like to give subs what they want :) . Do you like that in a dominant?

However, I do leave room for negotiation on this one.
If that is too hard for your tiny little brain, then you will be 100% mute during your relationship with me. Not just to me either. You will be mute for everyone. Kink life, vanilla life. Everyone. If anyone asks you will write them a note explaining to them why you should be entitled to disrespect and ignore any ones request that you STFU. If they agree with you, then you may speak to them. :)
Which leads me to:

 

#4 SHOOOOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUTTIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNGG!!

Hard Limit!

FOR FLYING FUCKS SAKE FUCKING HELL!

I

AM

NOT

FUCKING

DEAF!

Unless you are outside or you have blood pissing everywhere: Read #2. Otherwise it really WILL make me vomit.

And the negotiation is the same. 100% mute if that is apparently 'waaa baawwww too hard!'. Only this time if you are asked about it, you may talk to them from now on, but everything you say to them will be shouted DIRECTLY into their ear, I mean you will need to physically go up to them and right in there ear. For everything you say, no matter what it is. THIS IS WHAT IT IS LIKE FOR ME.

 

#5 When I tell you to Fuck off you will Fuck Off

Read #2 and #3. Same issues. This of course is expected by everyone on earth of everyone on earth. If this is also 'too hard' for you, then you shouldn't be out in public without supervision. And don't call yourself a sub, you are certainly not one.

 

#6 I NEED SPACE I NEED SPACE I NEED SPACE I NEED SPACE SPACE SPACE SPACE SPACE SPACE!!!!

Read #2 #3 and #4. This is probably the most important one. I formatted the title like that because the 'I know how to respect another persons space' lie is honestly the biggest fucking porkie I've ever heard!!!

About every day I NEED NEED NEED time to recover. Recovering is bumming around on the computer, art, reading, listening to music. Just generally being at home! Unless you are doing these also, or doing them with me your order is to STFU and Fuck Off. I give this order to vanilla people also and yes, it's still an order for them too!

Vanilla or not, disobeying this order is a Hard Limit AND a Dealbreaker. This is usually the cause of vomiting in response to sound.

 

#7 My workspaces are to be respected

Kind of relates to #5

I have my art workspaces and my computer where the magic happens. If you wish to use a computer you will of course have your own. Did you add anything to my savings account over the year I was saving up for it while using a 5year old laptop that could only run 2 programs and ran Broadband as Dialup? If you did, you may use my computer :) But seriously though, this is my workspace and if you have your own you will of course use your own. I don't see why you should be entitled to my workspace when you have your own. If you wish to be, then I expect a three page essay explaining your logic.

As for my art spaces, I am the only one that organizes and cleans them. I've had shit stolen and disappeared. I've had shit randomly turn up after literally DECADES in completely and utterly random places that had been searched and searched and searched and emptied numerous times over the decades. What did these items have in common? I did not move them there, I didn't even fucking see them when they suddenly disappeared.

The products of my workspaces are literally my ONLY hope for a career. Disrespect my workspace and you set me up for a lifetime of failure. How submissive of you.

 

#8 Don't infantalize me

Again, I'm not a pet or a child.

And infantalizing a dominant is just fucking retarded. Read my previous journal entry for more on this.

I have been infaltalized and patronized my entire life. And it is fucking old and boring. I am not a 'girl' or a 'babe' or any of that bullshit. Hard Limit. You will refer to me by my given name or screen name until further notice.

I have worked hard to be treated like the 24 year old adult I am. Yet I am still treated like an infant. A submissive is the last fucking place I want to get it from!

 

#9 We will go at MY pace, not yours/if I say I can't do something, Fuck Off

As a disabled woman I walk and move at a certain pace. I am stiff with many limitations. Pretending I'm not disabled just because you are not is revolting and a Hard Limit.

If you suddenly disappear down the road leaving me behind I will turn to the opposite direction and walk home, which is the only thing I will risk an asthma attack for.

I will not accept abelism from my own sub.

 

#10 Lying to my face about myself is a Hard Limit

This includes:

Lying to my face about my own disabilities

Lying to my face about what I do/don't do

Lying to my face about something you have just SEEN me do/not do

Lying to my face about what I like/don't like (seriously??)

ect

I suppose all of these would be dealbreakers

 

#11 The cat was here first

My little friend is a good cat. She tries to make friends with everyone new. Likes lots of pats and attention. If she hates you then I will seriously question everything about you. There is literally no-one I can think of that she hates save for my ex-flatmate who is the very reason I have most of these rules. If the cat hates you, it says a lot.

The cat will not be separated from me unless it is an extreme situation. She will come with me if I ever move to another city and I would require a safe place for her to live. Of course we would have to be careful moving countries if that ever happens, she's a fucking cat after all. If this happens, it will need to be PERMANENT. If I leave the country with her, we cannot return. Returning would mean months in a box which is fairly abusive to this kind of cat. If the cat leaves the country and we need to return for some reason, we are fucked. If you are really desperate for us to relocate overseas DO NOT fuck us over!

I will not leave this cat just to move somewhere.

I will not leave this cat just because someone simply 'doesn't like' something

I will not leave this cat for any other pathetic reason.

 

#12 You will provide for yourself

As I said I am disabled which of course means Invalids benefit! Yaaaaaay! This benefit is to support ONE single person with a disability: MYSELF. I will not buy you food. I will not buy you clothes. I will not pay your rent. It is up to you to get these. Having a job is very good. If you need to you can also be on the benefit. Or you could simply dole bludge which is fine though you will probably be doing it single.

If you still 'need' me to pay for your shit out of my own Invalids benefit you will first be required to send a letter to WINZ or the government or something explaining why you should be entitled to someone elses benefit that pays that one single person just enough to eat two small meals a day. If WINZ agrees and permits you to do this then you can go ahead and starve a 24 year old disabled woman with no job :)

WINZ has never been on my case for being on the benefit, so why the fuck should you?

And owing money to a disabled person with no job is disgusting. Hard Limit. Dealbreaker.

 

#13 My routine will be respected

I don't really have much of a routine myself. I struggle to take care of myself just on my own.

If I have no dishes and no benchtop space, no clean clothes ect, then my week is too much of a clusterfuck and I will straight out cancel things. I don't do clusterfucks. I don't do being denied time to even fucking EAT! I am appalled by how often this is expected of me by other people and I don't even have a fucking job I just sit at home all day! How the fuck does that even happen?!

 

# 14 Not too much worry in housework

I do all my own housework at the moment. If I ever get a sub I would still do my fair share of the housework. We would both do chores around the house. Keeping it simple lol. This is not something I can decide now in a First List of Rules. It would be up to both of us to decide on the housework within our relationship.

Of course, being a dominant I'm obviously not a free maid, I don't expect myself to be and neither should you. Especially if you're a sub for fucks sake.

 

#15 Appearance

Probably the only nice rule. I have no rules on whether or not you should wear makeup. I have no rules on if you should wear pants or a skirt. My only rule is that you are fabulous. I probably won't tell you what to wear, just look good. Take care of yourself! Friend, family member, sub, partner, just do it! This rule is all about you, dude!

 

#16 I don't do gender boxes

I'm into boys stuff and girls stuff and it makes no logical sense for anyone to just pick one side. I'm a dominant, I don't do 'domme' or whatever the fuck it is these days. Why do dominant women need to be in a separate category? Can they not be the same kind of dominant as males? Are they just separated because of different parts? Sub and slave ect are not separated. So therefore I am a Dom. I'm not going to use flower patterned ropes just because I have tits or whatever. I will just be me and will do what I'm interested in.

I don't do these boxes in vanilla either. You can call me feminist if you like. Most of their ideas make perfect sense to me.

But don't put me in a fucking category.

 

Conclusion

This is all I have so far. I'm still trying to figure stuff out. This is to help me figure out what I want and don't want and it has been an amazing process!

First a disclaimer: I have absolutely no kink experience whatsoever. I've been on this site a few years, but its never gone any further than that. Never been to an event. I've never even come out of the kink closet. Ever. Which is probably why I'm so confused. Is this normal? Is this like...what femdom is supposed to be? I fucking hope not.

Lets make up a scenario here.
Say you're a single sub looking for a dominant girl. Or maybe you already have a dominant girl. So you do nice things for her, you call her 'babe' and 'hon' ect. So nothing wrong here right? Why did I even make this post? Problem solved. End of post.

Ummm NO IT FUCKING ISN'T! Are you drunk or high or something? Let's look at that again:

"Say you're a single sub looking for a dominant girl."

"So you do nice things for her, you call her 'babe' and 'hon'."

HOLY FUCKING HELL, so you want to be tied up, beaten, whipped, have sex with or whatever it is you sub things do BY A MINOR???? Isn't that just a tad absolutely disgusting and something like oh gee I don't know COMPLETELY ILLEGAL?

Again, are you drunk or high?

Seriously, if this is the case: get off this site. Total TOU violation for all the wrong reasons.

And for all those who apparently isn't looking for a minor dominant:

If you want an 'adult' so badly, why didn't you say so? Why did you lie that you were looking for a 'girl' or a 'babe'? As far as dominant women are concerned you are looking for a child. Calling us 'girl' or 'babe' or any other patronizing bullshit tells us you have no idea what the flying fuck 'dominant'

dominant

DOMINANT

D-O-M-I-N-A-N-T

even means. I highly recommend doing a shitload of research before calling the fucking DOMINANT you're apparently trying to attract a 'girl'.

Google infantilizing woman while you're at it. Vanilla woman already get enough of this bullshit. Sub women probably get it. But I still haven figured out, why the flying fuck are DOMINANT women getting it? This is giving me a headache.

Some women infantilize them selves because its their thing, some people like the look ect. Ok. But when you expect and force an entire gender (literally HALF the human population!!!) to be into the same thing, to live up to that standard, to be treated that way you are a disgusting lower species, no wonder you're still single.

Some people have age-play and stuff like that as a kink. Sweet as I guess, as long as its SSAC or other stuff like that I've read on this site. But when you force it on everyone that doesn't have it on their list of kinks or even listed it as a HARD LIMIT you are a disgusting lower species and need to get off this site and fuck off.

And I'm still trying to figure out, are there actually any dominant women out there who are into being treated younger than their sub? Even to the point of them pretending you're a child? Is that your kink does turn you on at all? Can the two actually go together, can you make it work? Please leave a comment below if you do because I've never heard of that ever. I know some dominant women would probably hate it. But I really want to know.

For me personally, my kink ect:

I am 24-years-old. I do not accept 'girl' 'babe' 'hon' ect from anyone on the site, expesially not from so called 'subs' no matter what their age is. I won't dominate you as a 'girl' or 'babe', it completely defeats the entire purpose of my dominance!

As a woman I don't accept it either.

As a disabled woman I get it TWICE as bad. I have been infantileized by EVERYONE I have ever met. And all my disabilities are invisible and mild! So I can't imagine what it must be like for those with more severe diagnosis.

Oh, and don't infantalize disabled people either.

I am a 24-year-old woman. I finished school. I have a Certificate in Arts and Media. I write novels. I write blogs. I live alone with my cat and fish. I buy my own groceries. I read books. I play guitar. I sing. I am capable of feeding myself. I am capable of everything in the bathroom by myself. I started this account all by myself. I have my own debt card. A bit of asthma, stiff limbs and a pair of tits DOES NOT disregard all of that and magically turn me into a child. Fuck off.

Calling me 'girl' turns me off so much my genitals disappear!

Another shittastic fantasy/story type thing. Same genre/warnings as the last one. This one is short and like the last one I don't expect it to be terribly good.

The orc bought his new little gnome pet home for the first time. He removed her clothes and bound her so that she was completely immobilized and exposed. He only needed a tiny bit of string. Her tiny pussy and ass were in full view. He prodded her slit and explored it for a moment. She whined in response. He pressed his thick finger against her entrance.

“No please!” she screamed.

He prodded the entrance a few times before the hole gave way to his finger. He slid into her warm cunt, causing her to whimper and squirm. It was tight around his thick orc fingers. He stabbed in and out until she was soaking wet. She continued to whine, tugging at her restraints. Once he could feel her tight cunt throbbing he removed his finger. He prodded her tiny anus. By now she was still bawling from the finger fuck. He pressed in hard. She screamed and arched her back as he finger raped her ass. Once he had fingered her a few times he slid another finger into her cunt. He watched as both holes hungrily swallowed his fingers.

She began to quiver all over. He stopped for a moment.

He mounted her then and released his massive green cock from his pants. She screamed in response. He plunged his cock deep into her ridiculously tight cunt, her screaming making it even harder. He slid out. Then jammed it back into her warm insides once more. He slowly fucked her deeper and deeper until her stomach bulged. Her pussy sucked tightly on his cock as he jackhammered her into submission. She writhed as he came inside her.

He left her on the bed, still in the same position, her pussy lips spread wide to show everyone her sex, ready for him to play with her later.

This is just something I slapped together. Literally the first erotica that has ever left my computer. Based on my WoW character (name changed).
Be warned this is a rape fantasy. I don't blame you if you hate those. I usually hate them too. I even hate this one in a way.

Rayn woke in an tent, tied to a post. There was a number centaur savages had gathered in the tent. She recoiled as one approached with a dagger. As he approached her she closed her eyes and waited for the kill. Instead he began removing her chest-plate, cutting the straps loose. The cold air hit her massive tits as they were exposed. He played with them for a moment as the centaurs made comments. Then he moved on to her leggings, cutting them away also. He lifted up her tabard, exposing her pussy to the other centaurs. A pair of centaurs forced her legs apart.

“There is nothing lovelier than a Tauren cunt.” said the chief, “My men and I will enjoy using it.”

A centaur slid a finger into her slit, probing her entrance a little. Rayn moaned and demanded they stop. The centaur spread her labia with his fingers as another finger slowly entered her vagina, just bobbing at the entrance. Then the finger slid all the way in, ignoring her protests. They made sure her pussy was in full view so that all could see the mighty Rayn being fingered.

“Don't pretend, Rayn.” said the chief, “You are enjoying this. Look how wet you are! That pussy will be ready to use in no time!”

Rayn quivered as the finger stabbed her cunt. The fingering slowed down and stopped, then the centaur slowly pulled out.

They untied her and lay her down on a low table. They bound her arm to it, then spread her legs as wide as they would go and bound them, fully exposing her cunt and ass. She whimpered as a centaur stood over her, his massive erection pointing directly at her. The tip of his cock pressed against her entrance. She let out a long grunt as he penetrated her slowly. She felt her insides expanding to take the huge cock as it slowly slid inside her. It made a wet sound as he slid out. She cried as he rammed it back in again. Then again. And again. She sobbed as she was fucked by a centaur. The other centaurs watched hungrily as the tauren warrior was raped before them.

“Please! Stop!” she begged.

“You should be honored to carry our seed, Rayn.” said the chief.

She felt something tingle inside her belly. Her body acted on its own and she bucked her hips into the centaurs cock. The huge member continued pounding her cunt hard.

The centaur grunted and a warm wetness filled her belly. She wailed as the centaur came inside her. He slowed down and slowly pulled out.
“I hope you have room in there for all my men and myself, Rayn.” said the chief.
They repositioned her on her belly this time and lifted her tail to give them access to the little star that was her ass.

“No please! Not there!” she pleaded.

But her pleas were ignored as another centaur stood over her. She felt the tip of his cock against her ass hole. She whined as he bobbed against her tight ring. He pressed into her hard. She shrieked when her ass finally gave in and snapped over his cock. This centaur didn't bother easing her into it. He grabbed one of her horns and pounded her ass faster than the previous centaur. All she could do was lie there as the centaur fucked her ass, splitting her open.

Something pressed against her pussy entrance. It had already slid halfway into her cunt before she realized it was the hilt of an axe. The centaur continued fucking her ass as she was diddled by the axe hilt. She continued to cry and beg for them to stop. The second centaur came in her ass and pulled out.
The next five centaurs did very much the same thing. Some played with her tits as she was fucked, some filled holes that weren't being fucked with their fingers or various objects.

They stopped for a moment, letting her aroused body quiver for a bit. Then they untied her from the table. A centaur lay down on his back and they positioned her cunt over his cock. Another stood over her and pressed his cock into her ass, shoving her down on top of the other, plunging the first centaurs cock deep inside her. The centaur on top pounded her ass hard, grinding her pelvis into the one below. Her belly bulged with both the oversize cocks inside her. She felt them rubbing against each other. She groaned as they both filled her holes. Her body bucked again and she began fucking them herself. She cried as her own body betrayed her. She was then filled with their seed.
She was laid down on the table again and the chief finally approached, his erection dwarfed the other centaurs. They all pinned her down and spread her legs wide.

She begged him to stop once more. Fingers spread her labia to expose her entrance as the chief stood over her. She watched as the huge cock lowered into her cunt. She felt it prod her entrance. A par of hands fondled her tits and a finger explored her anus. She panted as the chief bore down on her, spreading her cunt as wide as it would go. He plunged his cock inside her and thrust it as hard as he could, making her squeal and writhe. His pelvis slapped against her ass as her well used cunt sucked tightly on his cock. Her entire cunt throbbed and twitched as if it were trying to swallow the cock, hungry for more fucking. She quivered and writhed, grinding her hips into the centaurs belly.

“I thought you said you wanted me to stop, Rayn.” the chief laughed, pounding her faster and faster.

Rayn just continued to wail as the chief enjoyed her soft cunt.

Then he suddenly pulled out.

And rammed himself into her ass.

She screamed as he fucked her ass harder than before and he laughed at her struggle. Fingers stabbed her pussy again, which was now opening and closing, begging for her chiefs cock again. Her tits bounced as her entire body vibrated with every hard thrust. When he had had enough of her as he returned to her cunt, slamming his cock hard against her cervix. He started to moan.
There was a sudden explosion of hot liquid inside her cervix.

When the centaurs were done they left her on the floor, her well used holes covered in their seed.

So I've never had a relationship before so I think I may have missed the memo but...

Is there a reason that people advertising for a 'relationship' need to give you an epic list of their exact eye colour, hair colour and length, skin colour, exact weight and height, length and quantity of fingers and toes but then absolutely fuck all about their personality or even interests?

 

I've never been in a relationship before so I need to know before I get into one just to be safe: Is it like a blood transfusion or something? Is there some magical compatibility/incompatibility between colours? Will someone with blue eyes suddenly die of cancer or something if they touch someone with blonde hair? Will someone with darker skin get some kind of disease from someone with green eyes? How does it work?

 

Is there a difference between a dating site and the first chapter of a shitty fanfiction???

 

So you have brown eyes and dark hair. ...and? What am I going to do with brown eyes and dark hair? That's a decoration. And I'm an artist so if I need a decoration I can just make one myself.

 

Sorry, I'm new. When I first came here I thought this was a fetish site, not a car sales yard.

 

You know what has a list of colours and measurements? A PRODUCT!
So if you come to me with just a list of colours and measurements, you should not be surprised if I just chuck money at you then put you on a shelf because that's all you can do with decorations. Buy them and then just look at them.
I would expect a prostitute to have a list of colours and measurements. People PAY for those colours and measurements.

 

But I have no interest in investing in prostitutes or products or decorations. Because I could get a lifelong, loving relationship with good conversation and an awesome future. Maybe we could live in a nice house, perhaps a nice hobby farm. We could raise pets or children. I would be happy. What can I do with colours and measurements alone? Sell it or add it to one of my artworks. Either way, the only happiness I will ever get out of you is from the money I get when I dump you onto someone else.

I don't know how long I've been on this site. A couple of years I think? And I've had fantasies for longer.

So far I have done absolutely nothing. I have no experience at all. I don't even know ANYONE in RL that even knows how to spell BDSM or kink! I haven't gone to any munches or anything because I've seen literally all the information on the kink scene in my area (all one single yahoo group of it) and it looks pretty pathetic and hardly worth it. And I've heard its fairly male biased, so as a woman I don't see how that would help me any further.

I found heaps of information here and on other kink sites, but haven't found much else of what I would like. I think I can also find what I'm looking for in non-kinky places so I'm trying those too.

At 22 and still a virgin, I think I would like to start looking now lol.

So these are my goals this year.
Work on my art and craft. Maybe get enough to sell. Get out there and find a job just for money. Keep my eye out for potential mates.

Right now, I do not want to tie myself to Nilson. I would like to keep my options open if I need to bugger off to Wellington or something (which would probably be better for me than culturephobic, catch-22 employment options Nilson)

So yeh.

I don't know what I want to do in regards to kink this year. Should I post some pictures or write some stories? Or something?

I'm having some fantasies and urges. Though something is telling me that these fanasies and urges may be a tad too much for me O.o I'm wondering if it's a little too early for a virgin to have urges like this? Lol. I would try them with a future partner. This guy will have to love me a LOT to put up with some of the crazy shit I do, and that's just the vannilla stuff!

I think I should end this journal now. I would like to post interesting stuff on so lots of people can read it. But I'm afraid I know nothing about BDSM :( So no hope of ever being in Kinky&Popular, which I don't mind. The photos and videos are meh. But then if I saw a cock I would probably be more interested in that section.

And this is the end of this journal. I hope I didn't bore you too much.