AUG IS ALMOST HERE IM SO EXCITED ILL GET TO PLAY SO MUCH MORE  HAV TO THROW A FUKPARTY ON 2ND OR 22ND HAVNT MADE UP MY MIND YET

U HAV PERMISSION TO COPY N PASTE THIS

iv been fuckin like a champ thats y i havnt been on here lately, i no longer need 24-7 but do want a regular  slave that does all my cleaning so i dont lift a finger and still does all things im interested in just not on 24-7 basis.

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i am a fan of tone loc but if u watch the video they say they dont know what it is but b4 he is walked off stage my man look like he had a stroke, but that could b all the medical  things i know to look for , if he is clean that my friend was a stroke

i was talking to my brother today and i had let it slip that i had given my bf  a ring, just to say he was taken. i never thought much about it but my brother was furious with me. girls dont giv jewlry to guys  men giv women the jewelry. my bf has given me jewelry b4 but not THEE ring yet and i got tired of waiting. i didnt get down on a knee or anything, just sized his ring finger without him knowing-that was hard. and left the box open for him to see it when he got dressed, he came to me with it and was like stunned, ummm thanx, i was in the shower when he was holding it up  and i just nodded n pointed to the wedding finger n told him to wear it.  when i got out of the shower it was on the finger, and he too was like u know the guy is supposed to ask right.  i told him to save up n get thee ring n stop bullshitting.  but u already know its coming. i just smiled n said ill act surprised . his doesnt hav diamonds just a platinum band. boy was my brother steamed at me,

bf has been grovelling in repent  all this time. im starting to feel sorry for him, saw actual crocodile tears

mg got me flowers cooked dinner  rubbd my feet and mooned over me LOVED it

today i screwed for like 5 hrs and im not sleepy but i feel like scarfing a whole pot of spicy pasta

http://laist.com/2013/03/08/did_you_leave_1m_worth_of_marijuana.

sob, y cant stuff like this happen in my vicinity the pic of the bud looks like amazing quality, 1 million dollars worth, i dont care about the cash it would all b consummed by me  n friends  om a weeklong binge

m.g and my bf r mad at me , but i already know im forgiven

bf popped up on me unexpectedly as a surprise, sat him own  made sum coffee  and cooked him a snack, texted m.g to come over i had extra  and he comes over about 45 minutes later.  only thing i could  drug was the juice sadly not the food like i had planned.  i sat there trying notto grin evilly watching cartoons and eating. we were talking about getting together for something and they were  trying to steer the conversation away fro m me doing anything else on the 9th. hhow i wouldnt hav to lift a finger.  it wasnt long before  my bfs head was  nodding and he got up and sat on the couch with his feet up.  m. g followed behind  but sat on the floor infront of the couch and i sat down on my recliner watching them and scarfing chips b4 they were both out.  i waited a few minutes doing the classic nudge with a foot or face smack to b sure.  bf moaned a bit but he has a high tolerance so i knew i had to get him tied first. yea thats right, now im not littl but my bf is 6 foot3 200 lbs of muscle  and not easy to drag, which i had to do by the legs  and having a grip on his jeans  took about 15 minutes to get him into the bedroom and his clothes off and tied.  i tied rope  around the knees and then the ankles so he couldnt spread his legs  and then his hands behind him.  i went and got m. g  and did the same with him.  im not strong but i can manage in a pinch  then stretched out to giv my back a rest. i then dragged a chair and a tub of pure petroleum jelly which i put infront of there faces for when they woke up.  turnd on the tv and watched my show until i heard the  sound of  someone coming around.  of course it was my bf. he was looking around and his eyes were fixed on the jar then up up to my  face.

g.g told u didnt he

dont blame him i always knew

y didnt u say

i giv chances
 and i needed a day to think if i wanted to or not but i dont like secrets

does it help if i say sorry

u can say it

SORRY

this is still going to happen

m.g  moves, wakes up and is looking at the jar

starts making weird noises and shaking his head

no no no this cant b happening

u can cry if u want to

took the duct tape off the tabl and covered his mouth his ass now in the air he was trembling  i could feel it while i was smearing pet.jelly  all over my hands squishing it in my fingers listening to m. g beg and i made sure he had a sweet view. i went around behind my bf and started to finger his ass, he got hard, and i slowly worked my fingers in, he was  moaning loudly and almost shrieked out when i made the final push to  the wrist. he even knocked his head on the floor  and when i looked around to his face i did see tears.  i vented about secrets and lies.  how i hated sneaking around,  all while i worked it deeper into my bf who was making animal noises now.  m. g was   basically wide eyed and hysterical

forgiv me i wont try anything like this again

too late already.

i almost got to the elbow but bf passed out, so i pulled my hand out and admired the gape it left.

yea hes gonna feel that tomorrow

please please please

he was freaking out and i was only standing near him washing my hands b4 i got a new coat of jelly on hand.

if i dont u will never learn

he was taking deep hyperventilating breathes as he resigned himself to his own fate. i put the tape on him

he moaned sweetly to the fingering  but was so tense i had to work my hand in took a while. his head shook and im sure he was foaming at the mouth with his eyes rolled up.  his whole body shook

my bf came around and was watching i did see a boner on him  even as i was doing this to m.g  who eventually passed out. 

i left them lying on the floor ass up  with huge gape holes.  while they were tied up i  put back on my movie

http://www.1channel.ch/external.?title=Lincoln&url=aHR0cDovL3NoYXJlc2l4LmNvbS8zc3kybXZlb3RheW8=&domain=c2hhcmVzaXguY29t&loggedin=1    u can thank me for that link too its what i was watching that day only picked it cuz it was extremely long and if u watch it think my b.f and g.g were tied up the entire play of it.  i rolled a blunt by the time  blk soldiers were talking to the president and sat there smoking and blowing smoke in there faces. every time they moaned or tried to catch my attention i shhhed them harshly and kept smoking. its a good movie.

http://www.1channel.ch/external.?title=Blood-C+The+Last+Dark&url=aHR0cDovL3NoYXJlc2l4LmNvbS94NDV2OWNzcWJjaWQ=&domain=c2hhcmVzaXguY29t&loggedin=1

how can i watch soap operas like my mom when  series plus a movie is out  this is the type stuff i watch at any given moment of any given day  this is one of the darker ones and the movie isnt anywhere as crazy as the series.  as a review i give it a 7 out of ten  only cuz i know the character i was expecting her to eventually bite someones face off.  but it ran pretty mellow.  if this type shows  also one piece evangelion, cowboybebob, etc etc this list goes into infinite IF U CAN SIT THROU THIS U CAN CHILL WITH ME

i want u to lik n suk on my clit while he fucks my pussy

my bf called and we had this wild conversaion. i was trying to get him to confess of course but he just changed topics on me.  ....oh im gonna get him good...... well the conversation went on about ow he loved me. and how my thinking really turned him on.. so i was like what r u going on about now.

he says i think so outside of the box it has him jerking off everytime he goes to the bathroom he said i treat men like the way men treat women  and how i talk to them or dismiss them when im not interested  and he knows how patient i am  but he loves to provoke me cuz he is waiting for the rare explosion of violent emotion i get once in a blue moon. 

he gets pissed at me for little things, like im a fan of anime and seriously watch series n movies.  aka one piece iv sen every  epiisode n movie and buounce aroound like a kid when a new one comes out.  or fairytail and sum darker ones. once i was watching  a movie and he comes over o fuck me so yea i fuck him but my face is watching my show.  hwe bangs me and tries to distract me kept turning my face to his eyes but i was totally watching my show like into it.   he got pissed  but he didnt stop either. he likes to take it out on my pussi and i let him.  it even makes me push him more myself.down to rape fantasies

oh yea  what i hav planned for m.g and my bf is im gonna eat the breakfast but i m gonna cook them up sum eggs and swap out mine cuz itll b too cold by then and dose them withthere own drugs, -special k plus i hav sum magic mushrroms i hav stored out of my special stash fll use it in ingrediants cooked ito there omlets i make for them sum mornings.   once 'lost' im gonna enjoy fisting them as punishment. i hav  baby oil n petroleum jelly, i dont mean elbow fist i mean up to shoulder  and brutally. they will feel it for weeks if not for the month.  it will make them think tewice on plotting against me. and for the entire time after ill smile sweetly at them  and  never mention it again. m. g will def b put in his place but my bf i luv to see what he will dream up next time. he always needs lessons taught to him

so yea he jerks off thinking about my potential.

m.g is in my bed rite now  nite all

http://www.vidxden.com/f7kuibv464s4

AS GOOD A STORY AS THIS IS OF SIGNE I SEE MYSELF in the villainess dagmar i wouldv been her in a past life

where the hell did my beer go?

g.g didnt last long, he came over  and  sat on my floor  next to my bed in tears, i didnt even get to say hello he was talking so fast. told me everything.   it was like a purge or a confession could almost see the weight of it lift off of him as he talked.  he begged for forgiveness. i patted my lap and he pulled down his pants and practicaly threw himself across my lap where i gave him such a hard spanking his butt turned red n my hand was stinging.  but i couldnt keep it up for lonh cuz i had started to laugh and i finally told him i heard iit all from the start.  =and u didnt say anything

-i wanted to see if u would go throu with it or not

- i did good rite

he was so relieved and was beaming like a uncertain 5 year old getting praise.

-what about the others.

-ill get them for their plotting,

-they wanted to drug u without u knowing. m.g was gonna put it in ur breakfast and was gonna make me distract u so u wouldnt know

-do u know where he keeps it?

- in a backback in his trunk

-can u get sum of it for me?

-ill try

G.G IS GOING TO SPILL THE BEANS .... HE WANTS TO  TALK TO ME TONITE. WONT SAY Y  JUST SAID IT OVER THE PHONE

iv given g.g n m.g loads of time to come clean and they r still hush about there plotting. and they wonder y im paranoid and conspiracy theorist as i am. g.g  is on the verge of some mental breakdown and when i think he is going to cav m.g shows up with weed gifts to satiate me. i know g.g  senses i know  he has been mousy and jumpy as i giv him my steady glare.  m.g is more into it. and he is bent on keeping g.g silent. but even he too seems caught off guard and stutters  when directly  in my sights. they r braver together and they know it

as wild and crazy as i seem, as dom or sub as i can play i am a creature of pleasure not pain

ONCE WHEN I WAS YOUNG   the 4 of us, brother and cousins went out on the ocean in open water on a boat  no land in sight, and me being about 12  had no clue how to swim , got knocked in  and sank like a stone. truly terrified  and  was the first and only time i thought i was going to die. if u dont know i can tell u  ur lungs burn with water in it. feels like on fire  and the bubbles is another thing i remember focusing on.  i was saved of course by my cousin  and felt like i threw up the ocean and  damn str8 i hugged the hell out of the boat til i was back on land again.  it took a year b4 i would get back in a pool  and even longer til i got out of the shallow end, and the only way i did that was to join the y and learn to swim.  i hav an awe for the ocean ,  tho i dont think i could stomach being back out in open water  i am torn  just like in every day life to go play in it, surfing is on my bucket list.  but i really remember those damn bubbles  and  that crazy darkness i watched chasing mavericks the other day and it hit me what he said. fear is healthy  panic is death.  i remember i didnt panic not really not until it really started to hurt. i dont think im a person of panic. but then iv never seen a shark in my face either

im feeling kinda nostalgic today, there is a reason why i am discreet. one is my family name.  it is important but we r not rich or anything tho u could say in a way  my last name is well known enough to b on money on an island of which name u wont get to know until im sure ur invested in 24/7 ltr. it is also y i wont giv it up even if im married, u will take my name instead.  in this  my generation , we r 4,  myself the oldest, my younger brother and  2 close cousins. i AM THE BLACK SHEEP  for not being married and my lover is  white and a con.  my brother married a white woman but lives apart from the family now seperate from us. my female cousin too has married a white guy and he is accepted only cuz he is an engineer. right now my male cousin is the golden child for marrying a blk woman  and  has a male son  now just born  and being fawned over. 

there is a saying about master and dog in my family. i used to think i waz the master and my family was the dog and i get to make them do what i want.  but in the end i felt i was the dog   having to bend to the masters will or b punished at ther whim. it is only now that i realize i am neither. i am the ball in hand of the family, tossed too and fro  always moving and rolling  the object desired by the dog   worshipped and sought after, the object used for control as well. if i am to b the ball  then i will find the dog  to worship and adore me  and use that dog against my masters.  my time is still shrinking. aug is coming closer  where is my new dog

military guy (m.g) stopped by to visit me  and g.g was  here with me already  who fell asleep on my floor at the time while i was watching -chasing mavericks on my tv.  nothing sexual  some chitchat smoked sum bud til i was  dizzy and  cut myself off cuz i clearly had enuff and stepped outside for sum air  while the guys were lounging in my room and yes my aunt had my kids so i wasnt being a bad momma.  walked around to my bedroom window throu the yard to  peek inside. dont know what made me do that  but i just did it on instinct.  the phone rang( i hav a general rule noone else answers my phone  no matter what) cuz my mom  calls me unexpectedly and other nosy family members. but the machine caught it and they heard my bf calling me. m.g answered it which already made me grate my teeth  but g.g had warned him

good boy

  so there i am leaning against the wall  smoking a cig them oblivious im there and i hear them begin plotting

yes plotting

against g.g  who tried to b the voice of reason and that  it was all a bad idea.

my bf gets a day off basically march 9th and has made 'arrangements' to get sum face time with me and  the guys know how much -in luv i am with him and they  want to 'meet' him  the plot unfolds

first m.g has access to drugs  and a car so hes gonna pick my bf up while g.g   slips in my window  and pleases me  while i smoke bud. not they r planning this to happen mad early in the morning and usually if kids rnt around ill sleep in until 10 am unless i smoke bud -4:20  they plan on using this against me.  they plan on getting me wasted  and  u should of heard m.g  getting excited as he was talking to my bf practically started jacking off while he was talking.  they want me out of it and as a fucktoy for the three of them even g.g  who was pleading and begging with them  had a 'moment of silence'

they were planning  kidnap, rape type scene or  drugged up gangbang

g.g was moaning ND WHIMPERING AND CRYING AND SAYING HE DIDNT WANT TO SEE ME LIKE THAT AT ALL, HE LIKED ME ON TOP.   the conversation halted   for a few seconds then m.g snickered or giggled and my bf did too . yes ur right we love her on top  but sometimes im dying  to take her too  one day  all day  would b hot. -that was from my bf they even had time set for like 9am to like 6pm, like when normal people r at work

i couldnt see but im pretty sure m.g cum on himself by then.

i chucked my cig and walked around to the front   and made a point to come throu the door loudly like tripped over the threshold  and pet the dog before going back in the room. g.g was really wide eyed like a deer caught in lights and m.g  just hands me sum beef jerky and popcorn told me he paused the movie so i didnt miss anything.  i sat there seething throu the rest of the movie as they really buttered me up and fawnd over me.  i gav g.g lots of  opportunitiesd to spill the beans.

he kept quiet the entire nite

MY GOD THEY R REALLY GONNA DO IT.

g.g grew sum balls

now  i hav to figure my role do i let them hav there way or stay sober enuff to turn the tables on them when they think i should b passed out

cuz they even plan on banging me even if i pass out or not

I WAS BORN 6 YRS AFTER BRUCE LEES DEATH AND i HAV  ALWAYS WANTED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED BETWEEN  MASTER WONG JACK MAN AND HIM IN THE FIGHT TO HAV THE RITE TO TEACH.  THE LUCKY BASTARDS THAT GOT TO SEE THAT MATCH I WILL ALWAYS ENVY. SOMEONE MADE BRUCE LEE WINDED N TIRED EVEN THO HE WON. BRILLIANT , ALMOST MADE ME WANT TO WORKOUT.

ALMOST.

http://sports.yahoo.com/blogs/mma-cagewriter/movie-bruce-lee-most-legendary-fight-works-022135673--mma.html

HE WAS MY FIRST ASIAN CRUSH AND HE  NEVER LIVED IN MY TIME, THERE IS NO REAL MASTER AROUND LIKE HIM NOW

CLOUD ATLAS   equals meh nothing special

but now i got my eyes set on the host.  lets hope im not disappointed but i cant help it still looks badass for scifi  action luvstory

this is completely fake but i luv it anyway

http://video.search.yahoo.com/video/play;_ylt=A2KLqIGlpxpRHGAAq7n7w8QF;_ylu=X3oDMTBrc3VyamVwBHNlYwNzcgRzbGsDdmlkBHZ0aWQD?p=mastasia&vid=8b6339974428c6863edcb333eed7ccbd&l=&turl=http%3A%2F%2Fts2.explicit.bing.net%2Fth%3Fid%3DV.4546288206020709%26pid%3D15.1&rurl=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.videos.com%2Fplay%2F1688871-1%2Fmastasia%2Fmastasia_monica_workout.html&tit=Mastasia+Monica+Workout&c=14&sigr=12aclatpd&b=61&fr=moz35&tt=b

when  life is dark and grimm and too harsh  look up  u will see stars and experience wonder-myself

well hey these things just snap right off

mom is visiting im being a good girl rite now

g.g  has been steady coming to my windows  for a few weeks. i can tell he is starting to get conditioned to things i like or never left him even when he was gone from me.  he talks to me  about desires and needs.  not that im always listening.  there is a habit   only friends  from the shed has.  we randomly wake up at 4:20 am or pm any given time cuz as teenagers we all had to sneak to smoke and 4am was the easiest way  to huddle together and   even tho its not  something that happens always i find myself sitting up in the middle of the nite like y the f did i wake up and ill see the clok n roll over and almost every time its 420.  well it happened last nite and last nite g.g was sitting under my window  by 428 cuz he randomly woke up.iv been using him for sex only  and keeping him  tied close to me sometimes i think he likes being treated l;ike a pet or at least petted like one. he is starting to b abl to tell when im horny and can get hard now  quickly if i want him to. i  dont even hav to touch him now i can lean over and blow air on his cock and he will spring up ready.  its so great cuz he likes assumes the postion. either on my bed or the floor he will lay on his back and ill get on top  and ride him  until i want him to do me harder. he tries so hard not to cum and literally starts to cry, not bawling but like   tears creep in his eyes. one time he did cum in me and i was so pissed cuz i wasnt ready yet and i ended up   straddling him  with my pussi leaking all over his belly while i spanked his balls.  he  ended up creaming on my tits  while i was doing that  and i ended up tying him down   basically faceup with a dog collar on him and a chain tied  under my bed and him being pinned unable to pull left or rite up or down and sat on his face  ll u could hear is him slurping n sukking my pussi for n hr

watched django unchained with my roomate. there is a scene when everyone is in candiland and there is a blk girl standing behind the german in a french maid outfit , just standing there looking pretty and my roomate hops up n down shouting. i want to see u in that, u would look so hot. omg u gotta get that outfit.

mind u i hav never done anything sexual or remotely led her on to believe i was even into anything like that and here she is making a surreal comment like that and  really wholeheartedly meaning it.

i want my honeymoon to b at cannibus cup and i want to take my bf with me

i took a nap today and had a fucked up dream that i had married a white guy and he was my cuckold. not only that but  i would  drink and get stoned and  star in a porn called 'ninjagirlbbw' where i would dress up in a ninja bandana and  cover over the face and mouth and  dress   up in all this fetish gear-few times nude that my cuck hubby would videotape while wearing chastity while my bf banged me throu half of it and a few others. then sell online to horny older guys.  and that my tits grew huge with milk  and i  got drained  during all the fucking and sucking

 THE ENTIRE TIME OF THE DREAM THERE IS A TV ON WITH KUNG FU MOVIES  AND ANIME PALAYING AND IM WATCHING IT THE ENTIRE TIME

http://www.bing.com/videos/search?q=Mammoth+Breasts&view=detail&mid=687CE6EDEF1DF9A18D5B687CE6EDEF1DF9A18D5B&first=0&qpvt=Mammoth+Breasts

I DONT SPEAK SPANISH BUT i get that she stuk in bed cuz of the size of her tits.  i luv the sheer size but id luv if someone grew big with milk for me but not bedridden but damn near close

http://xxvideo.us/video/87140/monster-tits.html

 i am a fan of monster tits and want a female slave who will transform   into a tit monster  full of milk to b my personal slut ,  n cow.  i luv engorged boobs , if i hav time will do this to self too

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BEST SLAVERY WESTERN QUENTIN EVER THOUGHT UP, HAS A FEW FETISH SCENES ONLY REASON I POSTED THIS

was watching this movie while getting fukked rite throu

http://www.putlocker.com/file/C24761CD4201001D#

GROCERY GUY AND I HAD AN INTERESTING SESSION TODAY.  i hav kept him from sex for a few weeks  and today he got the chance to fuck me. i mean i cut him loose and he fucked me for two hours at a hard and fast pace. completely surprised me at how intense he was,  driving  pounding ended up with all his sweat dripping on me.  at some point i was sure he went into a type of trance cuz when i thought he was going to cum he dug deep and  pounded me harder  til i couldnt even say anything anymore just let him ride me i felt him cum twice  but his hardon didnt go down and he started  talking really low trancelike was like looking through me not at me but i could tell he was talking to me. i wondered if he was having  flashbacks  i caught some of it

-u r a goddess of lust  and sloth i worship  ur pussi my dark queen. u tame me

make me crazy,  accept me my goddess  instigator of chaos mistress  of my heart. princess of intoxication my empress of temptation i offer u my seed take my humbl offering

- there was alot more but i couldnt catch it he said it clear prcise quick. and when his balls were empty he   rested his head on my breast and kept t whispering thank u thank u in a hushed   almost teary voice.  then he  stretched out on my floor under the window(rainy day today) and waited in his collar while i watched tvfor me to get horny again or need something for him to do. if he wasnt in his collar he was always cleaning my room  and never speaks cuz i cant hear my shows.

happy 90th birthday

we must follow our fate-stan lee

excelsior!!

one of the first old white guys i evver crushed on u comic book god

 i am such a nerd!

 i want the videogame where he is a playable character, think spiderman abilities in a suit

http://www.1channel.ch/watch-2711627-Haunters

its chopped into a 2 parter but this is one of the best hypnosis-psychic movies out there

 i even liked the handicapped bad guy as the villain

I HAV TO B THE ONLY PERSON TO HAV EVER FALLEN ASLEEP WITH A FAT DILDO IN ME!!

merry xmas

happy hannakuh

happy kwanzaa

feliz navidad

something about me

 i like to walk around morning with bed head u know when u wake up and ur hair has shape of pillow.  every bf or guy iv ever fucked with gets a kick out of how it likes to stand str8 up, best exampl, think super saiyan. <for those that watch. 

i got kind of lax on filling in my journal, i thought my kids were  a handful but it turns out i hav them trained pretty well, when my friend's kids moved in with her, iv never wanted to smak a kid so bad b4, and its making me want to smak the mom cuz of how she lets them run around. i know i know, let kids b kids, but her kids IGNORE her  when she talks to them and she fills them full of sugar.  i dont mean to rant and  im a heavy girl but i keep my kids healthy, aty least they eat veggies  she stuffs her kids faces full of pizza chips, and iv never seen someone other than my bf consume so much soda, once my kid tried to  MIMIC her kids behavior and i almost lost it, i was like i dont care who the---- is here u still follow MY rules Im the mommy  U listen to ur mommy , u dont say no to me, ever.

i dont tolerate it, and i get a riled up feeling when i hear it.   so i guess my dominance does leak over to my vanilla mommy side  i think i  scared  the mom a little bit she went to visit her aunt for a few days.  so i wonder if shes laying down the law on her kids, cuz if she is staying im gonna hav to train her kids myself, and i know alot of  moms want to b like, u dont tell me how to raise my kids its rude.......... but if ur kid is going to climb my bookshelf and  smash oranges into my nice carpet u got a nother thing coming, my kids   like to clean up when they r done and kick back and watch a movie... not this screaming nightmare. her baby that doesnt like anyone runs to me with his fat little chubby self wanting to b picked up and mooned over

but lets see how long this lasts or if they cant handle it or me.  basically i gave her a bill to pay and if its not paid they pak up n go. but thats not til the first

it goes to show planning  just  never goes how u want. i wanted a sub roomate  but this weekend a friend of mine howed up -  a girl i used to hang out with  in high school,  asked to crash at my place with her baby til she gets on her feet. unfortunately she is one of the ones i had to hide my fun around.  its not so bad, she cleans up like a maid but without the uniform.  cooked dinner last nite- pretty good  and smokes me out- even better.  but no chance of sexual relations at all- so i am kind of torn at this turn of events.  but hopefully she can b sitter when i want a day out,  anyway until she gets a job cuz she will  b paying rent.  so now everyone knows what i was doing yesterday was  basically getting the extra room ready for her and baby.

my kid was injured  yrs ago  while i was at work -shes fine- and this sandy hook thing hits kinda close to home i couldnt imagine going to work and getting a phone call that my kid wasnt there anymore,  that loss is too heavy a burden and i wouldnt wish it on my worst enemy.  i luv those teachers that protected those babies by locking themselves into wherever they could, i  probably wouldv done the same

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obama is officially my favorite president of all time

something about me

big fan of christopher walken  anything he is in i will watch

most favorite video of all time for me with him is weapon of choice by fatboy slim

dancing in a hotel lobby totally remember first time i saw it i was  smoking out of a bong   thinking this is amazing seeing him dance across the screen, then he nosedives off the   second floor balcony and flys all over the place b4 sitting down like nothing had ever happened.  i think at that moment i could say his dance  was the best way to describe how i feel on day to day life, with sporatic moments of wheeeeee!

i luvd this santa movie

y? best thinking outside the box original santa fairytale

hints of brainwashing and  slavery

this movie put a smile on my face

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im my underage yrs i was lucky enuff to  hav a set of brothers i would fuck . i wasnt even  scared of being busted by the other brother,  it started out as stringing  one along then the other , then one day i told the youngest brother,  and he wouldnt talk to me for like a week. i thought i screwed up,  i told the other  and he said the youngest told him but he already knew. i asked if they would both forgiv me,  and he thought about it for a while.   they did eventually.  we didnt screw at all either one for about a month (outside of my shed friends)  i was invited to their house one day when there mom was at work to smoke out and watch i think  8 head in a duffel bag at the time or half baked.   after smoking an ounce between us   i was ready to go, but they stopped me.  J for the older brother M for the younger.   J basically told me he still ilked me and M said  he would still  b m friend if he could get the benefits too. i was  sitting there wondering what is it that i say or do to get these guys to  b this way around me. i knew i was unnaturally laid back everyone told me so, and didnt hav a hateful bone in my body.

 i ended up fucking the oldest brother with the youngest watching and jerking.  never did dp but hav had  one cock in my mouth while the other fucked my  mouth, and not the way that u would think.  youngest brothers bed was pushed up to the wall  against a window. oldest would sumtimes look out on his knees - watching for his moms car.  while i would b blowing him from a lay down position on my back with his dik in my mouth and his elbows on the window and his brother would b fucking my pussi  hard   his head would sumtimes rest on his brothers back or    b   held in a  tite hug from me. we did this type thing for  about 8 months  then we got busted by there dad, and i was banned from the house.  they would both shower me with gifts,  it was awesum. ill never get a set of brothers again i know it .

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ok kanye west showed up in concert in skirt and leggings.   at least he can pull it off no matter how weird the fashion is  its abl to walk down the street without  too much chaos tho its not the first time either he has done it.  this is like try number 3 or 4.  the man has balls i giv him that, do what u want screw the rest i can  empathize

love in moderation can fertilize the heart

love in excess can prick u

persona 4

i like women too  but havnt had a gf in years.  had a laos gf  lets call her gwen-nowhere close it had like 6 lletters in it.   she had long blk hair, skinny bean pole only chik i went with that didnt hav big tits.   she was always trying to kiss me,  she confused the hell out of me. barely spoke english like  she spoke 30 whole english words to me.  always sat in my lap with her arm around me, smoked weed like a champ and i hav thrown her over my shoulder or  given her piggyback rides when she was out.  she was a flasher  and luvd me  abusing her clit  til it stuk up like a minidik. she luvd to b fisted shes prob bak in her lil village now

something about me

i admit it im a closet trekkie

 iv seen every episode but  not to extent of knowing ep numbers or wearing the outfits thou one day id luv the red n blk jumpsuit but now thats a real fantasy

same with stargate all of them  including movies

i play videogames, i hate first person shooters i like walking behind the character not just view of gun, tho i do see the appeal. i kinda miss solid snake in metal gear solid

but  can enjoy a good mario game too  -final fantasy forever

i can b a nerd sometimes, and go goo goo over tech and can  clueless over it too sometimes

i still have never twittered, and had a laugh that the pope beat me to it.

i hate heights like ladders and climbing things like trees- fell off a roof once -dont ask

and if im up high enuff i get vertigo as in spinning or the ground looks like its bouncing up n down so cant judge  distance,  but like a insane person i want to try skydiving one day

mandela sik with lung infection but responding to treatment,  just said a prayer couldnt hurt

i hate cops but i giv proper respect to military, i wouldv been navy if i hadnt failed a drug test or been overweight by like 30 lbs.  prob stuk on a sub doing codework. -its what i passed on test go figure.  but  out there in the battlefield getting shot at id  return altered and i know it, i respect the peace i hav here in america and alot of people dont say it  so here is my littl head bob in ur favor. i luv the uniform  u guys hav rockin bodies , id luv  to get my hands on one of u to control personally by the way but thats just  greedy i think on my part.  plus id luv u to wear the outfit to bed and the tags  giv me a workout plz

im having a boring day  parked on my couch with  a beer now after kids r put to bed.  nothing on tv about to watch sum bootleg mayb u will get lucky if i find a decent copy of something ill post it for u,  but i warn u i hav  strange movie tastes

there was a yr after high school graduation when i moved out to live with friends.  i met a drug dealer who sold pot and ended up living with him.    met through mutual friends whatnot. but i did spend an entire year  without missing a day  stoned.    we fucked but it wasnt a dom or sub relationship.  today i found out i hav been hypnotized by him and it is still in effect  since 1998 . its nothing like a word or anything. more like i can smell a certain shade of green. yea, thats rite 'smell' a color. he was very popular and grew sum potent dank that was like two shades of green with white hairs on it.  was best in state at time once i sat  on his couch and when he goes watch this and threw a bud at the wall and it stuck and he counted to 6 b4 it fell on the ground. stikky  . the place we were in  reeked of it and he kept windows and eveything shut. i would smoke from a grqaavity i made myself and  only  two or three hits sent me facedown for a while til i got used to it.  if we were out n about u couldnt really  open a bag without filling the room u were in with the smell of it.  kinda hard to sneek to smoke. once i smoked and thought i aired out enuff to travel in public-wrong! i  got on the bus and u know  that paranoid feeling u get when u think everyone is looking at u. except it really happened it wasnt a dream.  freaky when everyone heads turn simultaneously at once to look at u.  makes u freeze like a deer in headlights.  i ended up smoking on rooftops or out in middle of nowhere, and places u would think jeez im gonna get raped if i stik around.  even then wasted  i was respected and left alone. iv been told-cuz i dont remember- that i hav a look i get. even now  when im unabl to talk  or walk  if someone is doing something i dislike i have a -evil eye or death gaze it would freak out alot of new people if they didnt know me. sum would stop what they r doing  especially younger ones.  i asked a friend about it and they were like do u know when ur mom is in the store  when ur a kid and ur being bad  and she cant scream at u but she gives u a look only u know ur in troubl or gonna get it as soon as u go out the door - u hav a very intense look like that.  especially when ur wasted.  well anyway back to  drug dealer bf at the time.  we fucked constantly and once i found out he was keeping me stoned against my will.  i usually need time to  recover b4 i smoke again.  after about  a month or two i was really in a fog couldnt think  move, talk anything , once i woke up and he was  straddling my chest his mouth over my mouth and nose blowing smoke air in me cpr style.  i was so pissed off.  the air in there imagine all u can smell is weed, its great but imagine never geting real fresh air. i would b in his place for  weeks at a time, never chained or tied but immobile. once i crawled to the door and  was only able to  get just outside the door.  by the time he got out the bathroom i could feel myself getting pulled acrss the floor and  woke up in a bathtub full of rosewater,  -he liked me in the tub for some reason. i would  hav roses  and flowers in it and  bath beads n all kinds of things he would fix up and he would sit on the toilet, smoking and watching me. would even drag tv or laptop in it, he would  sit there n make sure i didnt slide down n drown or see if i was awake enuff.  i would wake up to being fucked alot.

  but the daily smoking the constant plants and smoke

that  dank smell. 

i saw the exact color yesterday and i smelled that dank smell again.  i thought there was bud somewhere but no, it was just the color. 

but i remember being a fucking  doll for this guy. he had a trunk full of clothes he would dress me up in. i never dressed myself. i would wake up like wtf am i wearing. i woke up as a schoolgirl, a  cop already handcuffed- i kikked his ass for that. girlscout, secratary, teacher,  and  he liked me in tights not pantyhose tights. but i did like the kimono he put me in once.  but after a year passed he got too popular and police started to drive around closer so he packed his stuff up and we split apart, i think he moved to trinidad with  seeds,  i almost forgot about  that year til i saw that fucking color today!!!!

listen up! i know sum of u guys out there hav this crazy thing to b a pay piggie, financially owned. cool cool good for u. but im no prostitute, wasnt raised as one and putting cash in my hand to play is a HUGE turn off for me.  and it has happened a few times, its not me i hate that shit.  show sum class, if u want to do stuff like that,  dont put cash  in my hand or panties like im a stripper or a hooker. all ull get is the   money down ur throat along with the moneyclip to choke on.  get me gifts,  i like that and i wont bat an eyelash at a new tv or   living room set.   jewelry  clothes, shoes, that stuff i like.  cash like im a whore puts  all hellfury that makes me want to destroy u men to the core.  now once ur owned, i dont mind controlling the  bank account, ur life, ur diet, whatever. i luv rules n restrictions. i luv giving training. its cuz i like it not cuz im ur bitch for the nite.  next guy to do it  will not b smiling when he leaves

i got chewed out by my bf today. for one he said i hesitated when he proposed.  but that was a whole other argument cuz i was hungover and second  cuz i put my foot down on me wanting a cuckold,  because he didnt get his way he    got aggressiv in a fuck session.  the only thing that surprised me is he was so into it he made me call him  daddy. which he never does. it was a first time and he was real mean at it too like he had me by the hair  and really had me pinned down and he was telling me to say thank u daddy, tell daddy u luv him,  say yes daddy.  fuck daddys big dick!  he kept slapping me with his dick too and shoved his dick deepthrote style and wouldnt let me up for air. cum  came out of my nose.  he is getting better with lasting longer but im not gonna tell him that itll make him cocky  and i like him under my thumb but i do like  when he gets like this too.  god he fucked me so hard  and  spanked me too . no matter how contradicting his emotions and mine r, we luv this! he knows it and i know it too

the final curtain is the exact moment someone gives up-k

had interesting nite, had my window cracked a littl last nite while watching tv and i was happily into two or three hours of drinking light rum, plucking marichiano cherries  and pouring dr pepper when grocery guy cums in my dark room throu the window. i wasnt pretending to b asleep the tv was on and i was lounging stretched out with the glass still in my hand.  i was slightly annoyed cuz kids were in other room but they were sleeping  along with the dog who made a sound cuz he knew something was up but i wasnt making any  weird sounds so he fell back asleep.  he drops his pants  and  leans  onto the bed jerking off and touching me.  he would touch his dik to me  every so often or rub it a little and i could feel the wetness leaking off of him. i was wearing a blk  slip style nightie that  reached  my knees and i could feel him lifting it up using light touches like he was freaking out on spooking me.  he didnt penetrate me just   barely humping on me driving himself to frustration and a boner.  i felt his toungu touch my clit and the furious movement of him shaking the bed with him jerking off.  then he was full on making out and eating my pussi. then hes up on his knees  and i feel  stiky splash of his cum across   my pussy   across my tits   to my kneck. he mustv  been desperate to get off.'lik it off' first words of the whole evening

he did and while he was licking me  the phone rings and i recognise  my bf's number that he calls from.so i answer and talk to him while grocery guy is sucking on my tits and licking his cum off of me.he mustv heard something in my voice cuz he asked me if i was being fucked rite then. i explained to him about what had just happened  and he begged me to fuck on the phone for him.  but to giv grocery guy the phone when i was getting fucked.    i did   and  he did me doggystyle taking directions from my bf who was hiding his hardon in public or basically holding his dick . g. g  kept telling him how my pussi felt and how hot n like honey i felt.  til he couldnt talk anymore   and i could feel him filling me up.  i get the phone back  with g.g face in my pussi now i start talking to my bf again.  he had to go.

i woke up with a hangover and hungry kids and grocery guy sleeping on my floor by the window his   dik still hanging out  so i throw a towel over him and go make breakfast when i get phonecall from my bf. now he wants to get married. proposed over the phone  in hangover mode making breakfast with halfnaked man in my bedroom.  i always wanted a cuckold husband i told him. he wanted to  marry  on paper, so he is bound to me without my family knowing. secretly married. then  show up with a different guy i wear the ring with telling them i eloped. so i could still get what i want. im skeptical. i still want it my way

i like being the big blk cherry on  top of the whipped cream

im queen of the world!

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iknew it was coming but how  messed up is it  now u can grow ur own not steal it from the x dealer   trying to hit up for the cash backfird bigtime  grow ur own b a gardner

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i like this video cuz of how extreme the lady went to modify boobs with milk.

very hot

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AMEN

privacy is an illussion

iv been having sum really great fuck sessions. one guy had me cum so much he fucked me hard but nice and slow and he kept sucking- making out with my tits, he mustv had viagra running throu him cuz he  kept steady fucking me and cumming in me every few hrs. mmmm left me most satisfied and full of his cum

something about me

i like the stories behind a scar 

find tatoos attractiv

i like getting to know u

happy turkey day. i cooked the bird and didnt kill anyone. kids r stuffed, cleaned up and even built a bed while the turky was cooking. mixed mojitos for my mom while she watched cooking programs and holiday specials. my friend lets call him grocery guy gave me a gift, token of his affection. i hav had my bedroom set the same  since i was about 24 years old to now, a white set  with matching dresser. he bought me a nice mahogany set with dresser, and then he watched me put it together, and prob fantasized about jerking off seeing me do something like build  BED that i would eventually b fucking in sooner or later. then after every1 left i drink a few-stronger- mojitos and watch anime-tenchi muyo war on geminar  masterbating and drinking. how is this the life of an adult i still  feel like im 18 , well nite  gonna play sum more

AAAAH i cant sleep im too horny i need a slave eating my pussi til i fall asleep

 i just visited my bf  where he is held. got a visit , we walked around chitchatting and  everywhere we  tried to find a second to  b alone there was peopl, then we found a sweet spot in his prison cafeteria-alone and gave him a sweet bj up against the vending machine b4 we got interruppted by another inmate-who pretended to see nothing.then he cums in my mouth pulls me up to him and makes out with me  still with his cum in my mouth. we wouldv been in so much troubl if a guard caught us instead of inmate.  kinda obvious kuz my hair was all fukkd too,  waas standing in the back from him holding my head with His hands had to fix that in reflection of vending machine. going bak next week, gonna wear a short dress

the guy from the grocery store -friend from  while ago that has been leaving me  messages of him cumming on the phone, drops by my place today, then  he starts beating off like crazy , in my doorway! yea i had to pull him in and shove him in my room b4 any1 saw.  he was so happy i pulled him in, he  thought i would slam door on him.  of course kids were in living room watching movie thank god.  so now i hav a masterbating  guy in my  room on his knees at the foot of my bed. i asked him about his gf,  he said he asked her to domme him but it backfired on him. then she asked him about me and that made it worse. see   fucking someone from 16yo-27yo kind of freaked her out . i told him he prob made it sound like i was a gf or something, he says he tried to explain the friends with benefits too and that didnt work, so she left him, today.mind u jerking off the entire time we r talking. he was whispering and trying not to attract attention of my kids. my dog was sitting outside my room too.if he got loud even a littl i reached out and gav his nuts a really hard hit.he said as soon as she was gone he ran over to my house. -literally  jogged over  he beggd

beggd for me to b his domm again.he cant do 247 but whenever he cums around, he is a littl bit of a painslut  if i giv a littl pleasure he  will do almost anything.he jizzed on my floor and licked all up off my tile floor at the foot of my bed, and i ended up petting him like a dog as he leaned against my leg, head to my knee and my fingers in his hair, should hav seen how satisfied n relievd he looked.

BEER SEX TV =HAPPY GIRL

CUCKOLD  BEER SEX TV =EVEN HAPPIER GIRL

CUCKOLD BEER SEX TV BUD=HEAVEN

iv been having sex alot lately and so far dropped 5 lbs,  now bf is egging me to lose more. i luv being bbw  but i get the healthy living-tell u the truth its probably water weight i sweated out in our heavy fucking. ill b damned if i workout to sum dvd while he sits back drinking a beer just to get a view of my ass jiggl

im luving a badass show called misfits

they make violence entertaining and everyone has an accent to me,

slept wrong now iv got a stiff back today

my bf had the nerv to call me boring

really

after every slutty naughty dirty thing iv done and dreamed up i get labeld boring

he is having  dreams of tying me down too and getting me helpless so he can act out his rape fantasies  i can sense that much

boring

if he knew how much that word riled me he wouldnt hav said it

of course in vanilla settings i do watch alot of  tv and drink beer and luv videogames-assassins creed 3 coming out  gotta hav

but boring!!!!

me

bullshit

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check out the link abov  bootleg dvd quality of a movie called savages

i luv the male male female relationship that was in this   and who doesnt luv a good kidnap scene, mmm i luv the mentality of this movie its one of my favorite gems

 reason number 1 why i dont giv out my number often

guy i gave my number to from the grocery store - if u read my journal u know who.  has filled up my  answering machine  of himself jerking off  and cumming. i mean like hours of  tape!!!   i was fast fowarding after about hr n half of it.   and incoherently  sum of it made sense but alot of it was ranting. the man is conflicted,

when i was with him made me feel like i was watching a worm squirming around and i luv that flinch someone gets when they dont know what to expect.i wonder if he is going to keep his gf or not. mind u , no interference from me. but he is so squirmy

I like to make points throu  experience. got into sum huge nothing debate about hunger and working  and concentration. where   one friend was telling me he could find a job and do it hungry and still concentrate no matter what he was doing. it ended in a private bet where  my friend was  by my side for about 4 days, no food just water.  i kept him in my room literally and  chained him   next to my bed and he slept on the floor  by my bed like a dog.  he didnt hav sex either but i was wearing cute things to bed and   gav him sweet pussiviews. on the fifth day while he was out looking for work i  pulled out the grill and spent an hr grilling  choice steak and had meat marinated  in  sweet sauce and garlic sauce. i remember him sitting in my room next to my bed   pulled  at the full length   drooling n hungry as soon as he saw me he was smiling and  ready to eat.  i luvd seeing his eyes lite up after a few bites, good enuff to know he wasnt going to stop once he started.  i remember unzipping his pants as he ate the meat and was  really digging into the second shoving  handfuls of mashed potatoes into his face  and when i was sucking him  i could feel his hesitation,  he wanted to stop and enjoy it more but his hunger  prevented him and his distress was brilliannt. he was still shoving food in him while i was riding his dick facing him. he couldnt stop licking me and smearing me with things like mashed potatoes,  he was like butter or honey. his leg even shook like a dog,  he would cum  and lay there chewing and looking at me.  he found a job a month later  and never mentioned hunger again but cant think of bbq the same either. he still gets hardons at the smell of steak getting grilled..... ok mayb not fullblown hardon but he does twitch.

i think he is in town for thanksgiving he should b in my neighborhood around now

i hav experienced the kidnap from giving  and being kidnapped.  got really good at throwing  someone in a trunk under a minute with 2 people.  i hav been drugged against my will and  with.i hate needles,  once fucked a emt( one of my friends from the shack trained to b one) he trained and  practiced giving me a central line and doping me on one of those gurney things in his garage, while he was dressed up in uniform or in a doc coat.   he pretty much loved me paralyzed or near unconcious as his fetish and he would fuck me like crazy. i admit he even used the straps on it  on me, i never knew what he did when i passed out all the way  but i always woke up sore unable to walk almost but smelling like roses, he would wash my body down   lotion me up with lavender or vanilla lotion  and i would b wearing my clothes again i would find out later that he shaved my legs or my pussy.  sometimes with lather and a razor or with nair and he would b offering me a beer when i come to  but a few times he did fuck up or almost od me. i woke up in a tub of ice once very pissed cuz he gave me too much by accident. like he missed my vein alot, ouch!  and when he finally got the line in  taped to my arm, or wrist cuz he had to practice putting line in back of hands too if u cant find vein. then they hav that  thing u stik the needl into so its not rite to ur arm. if he pushed it too fast on sum medicine it hurt going in like  burning or others would feel cold like ice running throu ur veins.  but that first week my arms were  marked up and i looked like a junkie played pincushion with me and had to wear long sleeves and found it to b too much of a hassle,  as soon as he passed no matter how lovely the high and drugs were i basically told him we were done. when he couldnt fuck me  paralyzed and his medical fetish  wasnt being satisfied we drifted apart. i think he would scare the fuck out of sum peopl if he tried this with anyone else.  it  feels like ur beginning a torture film for real and ur passing out when u dont want to and hes holding something and getting closer n closer, u feel something ,  black out......

or u will   b awake  but cant talk or move even a finger  for hrs.

iv been throu my share of crazy peopl,  psycho stalkers which i dont mind so much on occasion as long as it doesnt go too far. like harming my pets or something maddenning that would make me hate u forever.

its so crazy that we can crawl into each others heads after u know someone for many years. i like longterm because of that effect something 1 or 2 yrs doesnt happen. manipulation isnt enuff for me. i like the hypnotized effect or the brainwashed effect. i luv the mental purge i get from being wasted. i luv the complete submission  and reduced to  raw sensation, unable to speak only able to make sounds.  primal. animalistic. i hav warped my bf and i see it now.  i took him molded him to what i wanted and as i evolv in my perversions  he bends with me,  i push n push and  in the end i broke him  mentally. he doesnt think for himself but i giv him the illusion that he does, if he sat and thought about it he would prob fig it out but he loves it,  being led by the balls.  as we talked today he was out of eyeshot of me and  i was  not sober and he was feeding me information  when he just stopped talking and described exactly what i was doing  at that second and moment that i had to pause and gasp . -fuk u know me so well-   even told me my expression on my face. i want to mold u like this  try different things  more focus help me make it sharper.i dont want months or a yr. i want long term  i want to get under ur skin not cyber.

i climbed on his face, after he  fucked me i  sat on his face and made him lik me and it was getting me worked up so i was rubbing on his face and i could tell he was loving it.  sucking on my clit and my pussi making me so wet.  he had to fuck me again.  it was a nice hard fuck and i luv feeling that heavy cumshot that  felt so raw, he likkd that up 2  made me feel like rubber and then he made me cum 2 more times

i am completely wasted rite now in  perfect mode for a fucking, i need to use a guy as a fuck me rite now kind of toy. mmm i want to  completely use him for his dick i am so horny rite now ill probably masterbate myself to sleep

ok how can i b so sexually frustrated rite now! my bull of a bf   with his beautiful big dik has turned into a minute man.   hav u ever seen american pie where he kept cumming b4 he  even fuks his new gf. we had a similar  kind of thing happen.  i could just scream rite now.  now i gotta figure out how to bring his tolerance back he has been locked up for too long.  and goes into sensation overload. i mite hav to make him wear condoms, he never has with me b4 but  10 minutes isnt going to cut it. is it even possible to cuck a bull with another bull mayb a switch cuck if he is hung too

 as i was cleaning out my pipe  and watching sword art online- pretty awesum anime  suckerd me in, i was thinking about when was it the first time i ever really even thought about owning or wanting a person.  and it dawns on me

i mustv been like 12 or 13  when all the kids were watching batman, and wanting to b batman or robin or one of the bad guys,

and i remember thinking i was totally wanting an alfred. like i really really wanted a alfred. i remember telling my mom and she was very alarmed and explained to me all about the sins of owning a person.  and i remember telling her very matter of fact that he wasnt owned, he was loyal and devoted.  and she told me very matter of factly only rich people get what they want, so unless i becum a millionaire giv up on wanting a butler slash maid.

i had to bite my toung in mentioning that again but the feeling never went away

iv checked out sum profiles on here

everyone says they want the intellectual, the serious minded

even tho i am a bbw i like the lean , fit types

they motivate me if nothing else

as for brains

i dont mind the intellectual types, now i dont hav a phd in anything or masters, im a college dropout but doesnt mean im stupid either, 

 i can still hold a decent conversation and in a family of engineers and r.ns lawyers and doctors its not like i had a choice but to learn alongside most of them so  i dont hav a certificate saying i mastered anything but can follow along as long as it doesnt come down to numbers and minute details.

put math infront of me and its greek so let u know now

as for languages,  i know enuff to   stumbl my way throu sum spanish the proper textbook kind for reading not the  mixed mess spoken-  and can identify othrs if u speak it 

but i will honestly say yes intelligence is sexy but  so is  a hot airhead guy or meathead. i admit it i like those types too. as long as u can hold a job i dont care if u dont know politics , math, geography, just know who the president is and vote.

i actually like the guy who compensates for having a small dick if hes buff. armcandy.

but hey u dont hav to g fit to get to know me either  if u can get along with me in any of my interests we can fit.

 im a sucker for scifi, toons, games, sex,  and if u can play along  as the good son  for my family  all is gold and all ur wishes will cum tru, literally

just saw the new universal soldier 2012 movie. badass, lungren and van dam, has sum trippy hypnosis moments

just as bloody as the last but i hav to say its the bewst 1 made so far,

iv got such a crush on dolf rite now id fuk that man silly

something about me

i hav a sweet tooth

i luv extremely spicy food

still searching for my cuckold to b husband, time is running out i am on fixd time b4 my family chooses a husband for me, my time to pik my own grows shorter as in months

in house as roomate  must wear chastity

b very domesticatd, cleaning alot of cleaning

restricted speech

restricted  from interaction with others

locked in frequently, must earn  small freedoms, like going for a walk or shopping

meals fed in room

i will hold all keys

my bf got work release program so he is out of prison as of tonite but stuck someplace where they hav a curfew, nearby me so i get to visit him when i want,

he has  to spend daytime looking for work

but hav to wait for furlough's  so we can hav time alone  to fuck, i was  giggling on the phone with him cuz he had surprised me with the news , i hadnt heard from him in like 3 weeks and thought he was upset with me  but he was just planning on getting closer to fuck.

i couldnt help it i get that big 10 inc cock a whole year sooner than i thought and i could tell he was smiling on the phone too.  still asking me when i get my cuckold roomate and when he gets his  roomate   that would b slave to me also.

now im doubling down if i cant find someone here i might hav to abandon fakes on this site and look elsewhere, clock is ticking.............

my bf  will b in need of a roomate in 10 months exactly

my friends and i used to go out into the woods together,

i wouldnt say i was outdoorsy or live off the land type  but  do like relaxing in nature if i can get away with it.

now if it starts to rain and  its too cold  ill sleep in the car thank u or go home.  ive seen the results of  making a makeshift fort  and treehouse out in the middle of nowhere can b cool and cookingout with firewood.  i had become a regular at things like this

 never really had fear of bears or animals until  a really nice day  was just hanging out drinking beer  smoking a blunt talking  when a rather large fucking wildcat, dont know what kind didnt really stik around to see, walked into our  campsite and started eating our saussages and hamburger while we all backed up very slowly  and got into the car  and slept overnite and didnt get back out until we were sure it was gone

took alot of courage too cuz we were sure it was hiding watching us also and we stayed smoking inside of the car   egging whoever would b the idiot to go out and get the other baggie that was sitting  beside a tree near sum bushes

the bud i was smoking at the time had been in my hand if i hadnt had that we would hav had nothing at all to smoke but the other guy  dropped his  nice and full while mine was down to skin and bones by now

my redheaded friend  hysterically ran for it and scrambled back for the car  screaming  did u see it did u see it

 and of course we didnt  and drove off back to civilization,  forgetting about our camping gear

thats the story of my last day camping

something about me

i hate blood

when i marry my cuckold or slave he will lose his last name and take my last name

something about me

i luv plants  tho i tend to kill alot of them by accident  we all know the one i luv but illegal to hav

my second one i luv but is probably illegal to own is the poppy plant dunno not sure flower is pretty but we all know we can get stikky  treat from it also

 if i had to pick a plant i luv and knew i could hav it wouldnt b anything as generic as a rose

i luv hybrid pitcher plants, i know its unusual  but c'mon it eats bugs and cums in crazy colors like purple red. iv tried to grow sum but they die all the time when i try

 but i gotta keep trying

my family calls them little monsters from little shop of horrors   sure venus fly traps can do the same but  what other plant do u know can take out a little frog if it wanted it

exampl:

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something about me

i like pools over the ocean

just thinking about whats under the sand from fleas to worms  and whatever else gives me the creeps and  out in the ocean ....dont get me started.  lakes n rivers- people die from amoebas to the brain that swim in throu ur ear do i need to continue

i can swim i wont sink like a rock or anything  but chlorine is my friend and i wont kick a fish  if im trying to swim-done it!

iv only been on a regular littl boat or speedboat  and also hav been stranded  off the coast of jamaica for about a day  without food or water with  a group so that also mite hav something to do with why i hate the ocean with no land in site, was calm didnt panic but find it hard to get back on those little boats again

still havnt been on a cruise

i hate bugs but like lizards

hate spiders  had bad experience where one fell in my hair  big ass banana spidder

i hate heights - still havnt been in my attic
 livd here for like  over 20 yrs

i hate cats,

i had one once named her vicious kept bringing me dead things  and one day i had to bury a very large and dead crane i think was endangered but couldnt say cuz i dont know birds.  i know its out of luv but  still nasty

i luv dogs and not the purse carrying kinds i mean  big like pitbulls, sheperds, dobermans,  and large mutts.

my favorite color is purple on the deep dark side

something about me

i read beowoulf  when i was 14 still my favorite story of all time,

i luv stories, fables, and fairytales. things that happened  that r true stories

not the classic disney stuff more like the old legends  passed down from word of mouth,  like cinderella story her name was  really sapsorrow

i idolized jim henson  and still like sum of his work and a fan of his son now.

shakespeare, poe, and alot of unknowns

i am a sci fi junkie

something about me,

i know almost nothing about wines and try sum when i can  i find i dont really like dry wine and every merlot i taste is awful.  i think i like the sweet or more fruity flavor ones,  even dry champagn i find nasty.

i hate to admit it but i grew up on beer and like  alot of them   no budweiser or heineken either i like my beer high end, if it has to b cheap just look for alcohol content to b over 6 %  had a fav cheap one out in vegas called camo  they dont sell it here bummer and i like   independent or homemade brewers too. u havnt had beer til u had watermelon beer

 as my roomate   in the vanilla sense u would hav endless chores, mindless repetition.  scolding,   minor sleep deprivation,  cut off fffrom social life, no friends  or family  enter my house without strict permission. ur whole world reduced to the inside of my house and ur job. of which i would hav ur schedule to as well. no cell unless u work and if i call u answer ALWAYS or ur freedom is reduced even more as in locked in ur room restricted of speech let out only for toilet. my house likes to collect dust  even when its clean so u will b contantly dusting and wiping.

i am a trekkie but not hardcore, iv prob seen every episode of all of them but dont know them by numbers.    fav captain , tossup between janeway and picard.  totally jealous of london rite now. u guys hav the convention  and saw all captains together on stage, im green with envy

the friend i bumped into at the grocery store left a message on my voicemail

i really think i got into his head just seeing me again cuz all it was was him jerking off   and telling me how much he missed it,

he kept saying i can fucking feel ur pussi on me,

i want u to fuckin bite me , ill b ur bitch again

ill do anything u say,  he cums then hes like bawling like a baby on the message about his gf and how hes conflicted and doesnt know what hes doing.-clik

dunnno what to do with that information just yet. i dont cheat, my bf knows everything i do

i dont promote it or cheat with married guys,  but if he dumps her thats diff

but i wont tell him to either

but there is a seed in his mind and its growing

something about me

 well no std

im sane and safe,

drugs was past tense

with exception of bud maybe once a month now if im lukky.

responsibl and carefree when i can

something about me,

i like things neat and clean

but if im not careful i can b a packrat

 and if i am messy im still sterile, if u walked into my room it would b full of clothes or an unmade bed and movies and toys  just not exactly where they should b but ur not gonna find anything like  a  plate under my bed

just stuff.

i really hate things like  food and week old pizza still in a room  drives me nuts , my brother used to do it now hes gott a gf and off on his own.

good thing too cuz i think he has an idea of what im into tho no words about it ever exchanged between us

TO THINK I KEPT A SECRET FROM HIM AND MY FAMILY FOR SO LONG IS JUST AMAZING TO ME

my friends were his friends too that he would play football with  but then who iss going to say i banged ur sister while u were sleeping in ur room out in the garage. he knew i was a stoner but nothing anywhere close to the kink i was into

AND MY FAMILY IS CLUELESS ABOUT  THE STONER BIT ALTOGETHER

something about me

i like manicures and pedicures

body massages with scented oils and scented lotions

i put some of my pictures back up, but hav to find new pictures i like to show examples of what i like.

i was just kicking back today thinking about  how i would play, i was more active  back around high school and my early 20s, and there were a group of neighborhood kids that grew up around me mustv been about 20 to 30 of us.  but more like 15 in my inner circle and as all things go it turnd out all rite for sum not so great for others.  as u saw earlier one went to prison,  my bf latr on.  coupl had  bad time with drugs, but except for 3 out of 15 i call it a happy ending, it couldv been worse.

i had a white guy who had a crush on me in my early 20s that i would humiliate pretty badly and sometimes in public and sadistically . teased him to a hardon left him wanting and jerking and   gotten him naked and begging me and exposed him to our other friends.  and did it frequently not 1 time

i wonder sometimes  if it was because they knew me or if it was a  mob mentality cuz we did  meet at my place freq and went from there. there was no clear leader  but thinking bak on it  u could tell who was the submissives, and i think there were alot of switches.  i was the only black female as well, they were all white or hispanic, or foreign.  that kind of shaped what i liked as well.

  i mean we used to lock ourselves in a windowless shack, get wasted on everything that didnt hav to do with needles.  weed, shrooms, x, things i ate and had no idea what the fuck it was at the time. it would get so hot and smoky in there  we would strip , play trance,  sum would put on a light show with glowy things, talk chitchat tho most of it was incoherent.  and as we got older we would down right orgy fuck in there. 

as we got older we got jobs,  but kept in contact with each other until we just couldnt anymore. i didnt hav female friends so was very much a tomboy and considered one of the guys, if there was a girl it was one of the guys that brought her, at the time we played i had no idea about domination or submission and i liked being on top. i would queen alot,  sucked alot of cock, fuck,  and out rite watch. i hav had a few of there gf's throw themselvs at me,  strip and dance for me.  saw my fair share of fights, 

passed out once and woke up in miami  with a white guy i had no idea what his name was and turned out i lost a whole day so it was like the day after the party so even i or we would like to know how the fuck did that happen.

got an earful from my mom 

yes i fucked the guy i woke up with, there was like noone else we knew except eeach other slightly from a party. he was convinced we were kidnapped and dumped. 

the guys i play with that i tell u about are from this group. so not really random strangers i fuck but  our playtime hav gotten less and less frequent im seeing them like every 6 months now instead of every month or every other month. sum hav to travel from ny or california, one from mexico.  military, business guys now. married and cant get out to play.  im a mommy now and hav hard time getting free time myself.  but damn i miss playing like that.  it would get hardcore at times.

 tell u the truth i hav never been on a proper date  cuz iv never been wanting for cock. i met my bf  at a party  similar to  scarface. aka cocaine party where i got dragged with a bunch of friends

didnt even realize the house i was partying in was his.  after about a few months of hanging out together, movies, smoking,  we just ended up really fucking our brains out one nite. but thats another tale.

collarme took down my pictures, i mean took them all off i know i had sum cartoons that were not mine but y take down my facepics, oh well

my cuz hasnt calld me about this surrogacy thing but my mom still says its on so i dont know what to think.  its like out of my hands

i hav a neighbor that i grew up next to for many years,  lady that knew my grandmother and knows my mom.  shes married and i was friends with her son.   fellow smoking partner i never fucked just cuz he had a creepy vibe to him. turns out he is a pedophile, if u ever watched to catch a predator he was one of those guys that got busted on  one of those stings going to a 14 yo girls house and it was really cops and the media there.  he just got out of prison but im  keeping a little distance from him cuz i hav girls.  growing up id always tell him check for i.d but he actually went out hunting for it instead of sticking behind with me and getiing wasted like we should of that day. he spent 4 yrs in prison and now he has a ankl monitor and about to go to court for hitting his dad  which is battery of an elder so that means he mite get more prison time.  i liked him as a buddy but its not worth the friendship. his mom has been  trying to get in good with me so not every friend he has ever had abandons him and i hav been letting her. she is submissiv i can see it in her. she hides the fact that she interacts with me from her family. her husband and her son, i dont even buy groceries anymore she buys all food for me and delivers it to me including beer and toilet tissue to toothpaste. im not sure how i feel about it yet. that im screwing with my x best friends moms mind.

this world has nothing worth noting,

but we have plenty of love on our hands,

those who have faith,

will act on behalf of their unwavering love,if i could challenge fate,

i would act on all of my feelings

-broken blade

this world has nothing worth noting,

but we have plenty of love on our hands,

those who have faith,

will act on behalf of their unwavering love,if i could challenge fate,

i would act on all of my feelings

-broken blade

im the type of person that doesnt remember dreams  iv had or just plain dont dream. but i had a dream that was vivid and clear as day. it was not drug induced tho it wouldv been cool or explained it if it had been.

 i open my eyes in a place that seems open  and is the color of fire, there is a sound i dont quite understand yet at that point. then there is a being infront of me  stationary not moving  giant as all hell full of eyes, but on its face is only a mouth and a nose and like strands of hair is a limb holding an eye that moved like wings  but not in the fashion u r accustomed to.  they rotated in a circular pattern. i didnt hav any fear  looking at this creature.  i just assumed it was a pretty cool dream  i was having and id wake up soon. then the eyes were looking at me

u dont belong here

um, r u god?

no god is above me

r u an angel?

angels r below me

am i going to die?

death is standing very close to u but does not touch u

it was only then i realized i couldnt turn my head to look around- very freaky sensation and that freaky sound i couldnt pinpoint was alot of flapping wings like a bunch of birds caught somewhere flapping around.

what r u?

u do not belong here ur body is open to a spirit or demon taking it

WHAT?

and then i wake up

fukkin hell

somethin about me:

sure i luv dvds, blu ray and all that jazz but i hav a sweet spot for my old school vhs, and still hav my collection

i quit smoking cigarettes but my mouth waters when i see one

i hav zero willpower exception of above

with sex, food or television

fav anime rite now  one piece

i hate to work out, a workout video needs to b made featuring sex  for weight loss then i would b motivated

i ran into a buddy of mine today while i was out shopping. he was dressed all suited up. he is a little bit younger than me and he was walking with his gf. when he spotted me his face turned all red  and he  sent her off for sum errand and came over to me while i was standing in line.  i told him he cleaned up nice but we both knew that he used to luv it when we used to get wasted  and he used to beg me to burn him with cigarettes and bite him when we fucked.  i didnt say a word  but it was fun to see the instant submission  the moment he layd eyes on me  it was funny cuz when the gf came back he told her he needed something else so she went off again  and his face kept getting redder and redder.and i could tell what he was thinking, cuz all the memorries hit me too the minute i saw him and my grin was just getting wider n wider . and he was starting to beg jesus dont do that. i got a gf now i cant get sucked into this again.  and i was all, sucked into what im just shopping. he gave me his phone number and told his gf i was his best friend from high school he hasnt seen in a while. she was clueless but i think she figured something was up  cuz he seemed to b having a mini panic attack  before  i left i spotted him outside of his car smoking cigarettes standing there looking at me

looking for a little part time weekend job but reallly not looking that hard,  but i gotta bring home 150 bux a week  to pay for sum bills it will kill what littl free time i hav tho. sorry guys

this had to b  one of my harshest experiences with drugs :when i was 18 i went out with a bunch of friends after midnite to harvest shrooms. aside from a friend getting shot full of roocksalt and another hitting an electric fence with his face  i came out unharmed, went back to one guys house to recoup and make shroomjuice  a.k.a gutrot-basically koolaid shrooms sugar in a blender and had an experience very similar to  a movie out there called branded. becuz it was blended we had no idea how much we really ingested but lets say we had  bags n bags of the mushrooms so it hit us pretty hard.   despite one friend thinking he was a smurf which i get cuz his visuals probably made him blue , i thought  people were glowing and shadows were popping in and out of walls  and had a  consistant feeling of someone standing rite behind me,  we tried to watch a movie  i think it was fear and loathing in las vegas but i just couldnt do it it looked like the tv was bleeding and it lasted way too long.  i had to walk home and that in itself was a chore a ten minute walk turned into a two hour personal journey tha made me feel like i wqas out in the amazon jungle thank god noone could see me cuz it was like 3 am in the morning and i just wanted to get under the covers, i think at some point in the night  i had gotten violent  with my buddies- probably around the time the tv was bleeding  and got into a fist fight cuz the next morning i found out i had a black eye. and had to lie to my mom about where i got it. i remember it like yesterday and it only came up becuz the entire time i was watching this movie branded i was having vivid flashbacks  that was too trippy and i hadnt even smoked anything.  just had to get that off my chest. i havnt had shrooms in years, but i see why people dont like flashbacks.

i like obama but not becuz when he was younger he was a stoner and used to hotbox  a car with his buddies and smoke bud til it was  foggy with smoke and when they ran out he would  take 'roofhits'   by sucking the air into their lungs  when they were all out,.....

i luv his policies and his ideas, and i think he did a good job on the debate.  the stoner bit just gave him cool points thats all,

this rox, now if only i could get a prescription

say for "crippling depression" or sumthin along those lines

im too sad cuz i dont hav a cuckold  boohoo

http://news.yahoo.com/blogs/sideshow/police-return-stolen-marijuana-maine-man-162333011.html

shame about the mold  rip marijuana batch

iv gotten tribute b4,  jewelry is 1

 but im allergic to fake jewelry so i find out pretty quik  if u tried to cheat me cuz i break out in a rash within 30 minutes and in  ten minutes im itchy

money sure

sex toys

and  weed

 i like lingerie   and being surprised with gifts and things

iv noticed i say shut up alot. i like peace and quiet unless tv is on. somtimes voices grate on me, and i do alot of polite nodding.   i mite even get into speech restrictions if my slave lived with me. odd thing is i talk alot. go figure

omg i am sooo booored

i know i dont seem like it but here is a touch of class

http://www.putlocker.com/file/C0B8863FF3DCCC0F

 a taste of shakespeare modern day version of tempest

hey i can hav a littl culture bet u like it just a littl bit

at its base a  mom with a slave

 nice shock today

was  relaxing nothing to do both kids  4 and 6 playing on the floor  making a racket

put on lord of the rings just cuz i hav it and like it

and boom after  commercials i realize by the time the wizard is riding into the shire  the room is quiet and they r glued to the story

it almost brought a freakin tear im so proud

one good memory can last a lifetime

im known as the candy house

and i giv the best sweets

full bars  str8 chocolate

im the evil one that makes ur kids stay awake all nite

looking for my lite

if u hav the balls to get past cujo

and i hav a tradition of filling up the kids bag 

one kid with the best costume

or the loner kid  that gets shoved to the back and thinks im all out

i save the best for that kid

is it mean that i put the candy rite outside my door and put my dog on the inside behind the door

he waits not making a sound every holloween  for someone to get past the gate,  walk up the path and put there hand in the bowl before barking his head off like an insane demon foaming at the mouth and he knows he does well when he is rewarded with  screams of pure frite.

i want to put a leash and collar on someone this holloween

he who wants the rose must respect the thorns

a contagious kind of madness

get over yourself

i never use a webcam or a mic cuz my house is full of peopl and kids

get used to typing with me or flat out meet me one day  but dont get pissy cuz i dont own 1

i never ask to look at urs, just send a pic if its honest it works, bullshit is bullshit

i look exactly like my picture even wear the same glasses but  i own contacts too and sport diff hairdos. i want real not cyber

my fate is to get married and pretty soon

my destiny is a cuckold husband slavee to b my forever bitch

sumthing about me...........

i cant dance at all and i hav a terribl singing voice doesnt mean i wont try

i like all music except country with the only exception being johnny cash. 

it would have to b pretty terribl for me to hate it.

http://www.rightthisminute.com/video/halloween-mermaid-makeup-tutorial

  i luv this look  where is my slutty diva or slave that will dress up for me whenever i want  and take the painstaking time and effort to do these kinds of looks for me

if my eyes roll up in pleasure u hit the sweet spot

goodbye octoberfest, bye i luv u

goodbye octoberfest, bye i luv u

http://shine.yahoo.com/beauty/real-life-anime-girl-anastasiya-shpagina-8217-bizarre-172400323.html, i luv  role  play with women, like modern day dress up, luv to see a girl go through this ritual just for me. where can i find a white slave girl to b my doll and toy? i would luv to see something like this weekly, id luv a woman roomate that has my slutty mindset but wants to play with a woman

i am in luv with futanari and futanaria porn

flowers bloom looking towards the sky,they cant leave the ground but they long for the boundless freedom of the sky- the princess and the pilot

any female slave in my area want to b my roomate n toy, lezzies welcum

im starting to miss fucking big dix

my life can b easily described throu movies

 minus the shootouts

and murder

someone said this to me

u are sweet  n kind and  seem very nice always have a smile on ur face but sometimes even when u smile  u seem scary. u def think outside the box, and when ur looking at me i sometimes think something else. it has to b my imagination

its saturday nite , im hella drunk rite now.  perfect ttime to queen someone

a heavy body clouds the mind, then u succumb to sin.

my aunt told me this like i would lose weight, the saying actually put a wicked smile on my face

all is peaceful n quiet.  bored out of my skull.  sober and filling my days watching scifi and porn- great combo by the way.   the only blip this week was my dog killing a stray cat in the yard, shook it and broke its neck.  had to clean it up b4 any1 saw especially kids. got mad at him, bad dog!  even still i cant stay mad at him he was protecting the homestead

i watched sum sounding porn, very interesting............

i do hav a fantasy i would luv to pull on my bf when he gets back. i would luv to  get my hands on sum viagra or cialis. mind u he does not need it but id luv to crush a pill  and mix it into his food or drink without him knowing, basically drug him.  would luv him getting hard without being provoked and him not knowing y and driving him nuts with lust.  mayb during his football game  or whatever sport he is keen on watching.  wear littl outfits  to distract until he cant take it

i like those dildos u strap to ur face

i want to destroy someones ass with my fist!

laugh and the world laughs with u weep and u weep alone -oldboy

if u watch the link please giv me feedbak on what u think did it affect u like it did me

i normally dont do this but this movie  had such an impact on me i had to bootleg it

http://www.putlocker.com/file/18VCHR9O6PR4KO4  use this link to one of the best most bizzare fetish type movie-in korean so subtitled.  extreme cageing, hypnosis, blackmail, dehumanization. its not what u think has a freakish plot twist too so prepare urself for literally anything.

i was horny all day long

did u miss me?

some of my finest hours have been spent on my back veranda,smoking hemp and observing as far as my eye can see-thomas jefferson 1781

hmmm something about me ........... i dislike all seafood. but ill feed it to my kids if they ask for it but it makes me gag.i luv most of my veggies, not so much on the eggplant or squash, im sure there are more that i have not heard but would try it. what can  i say i like meat.

brevity is the soul of wit-hamlet/shakespeare

a wolf can eat a sheep but ten wolves can eat a lion

IF U CANT BITE THE DOG DONT SHOW UR TEETH

i want my partner to eat my pussy even when i watch tv or read a book.

r.i.p neil armstrong  who  was cool for me as a kid, r.i.p the count from sesame street  u will surely b missed,-he was my favorite with that evil laugh mwahaahaa

i am having the mother of all freakouts, i spent all nite drunk and watching scifi and probably will do the same tonite. i think until the time comes ill b spending my free time wasted as in seeing  ill hav to b pure as a snowflake for 9 months.  not even a drop of wine. i need a 420 friend rite now  and a sub to eat my pussi  my regular sub from this site i usually hang out with and play with is working all time and taking care of his mom. y cant life b easier

its crazy how my family  just tells me what im doing cuz im so respectful,  they tell me and i do it   they ask and i dont say no. today i just got a really crazy request and im kinda torn but  figure i can spin this in my favor.  a cousin of mine cant hav babies and she wants 1  and seeing as how i can still carry babies even tho my tubes r tied iv been recruited.   as inconvenient as it is to waddle around in a pregnant body  next year i would get my  wish of lactating again. it means ill b under constant watch of what i eat and excersize-uhhh i sweat just thinking about it. but when its over shell hav a baby she always wanted and id hav the milk i want. what a thing to pop on a person out of the blue

even tho god has given people a predetermined fate, people can change their own destinyi

there is a storm coming

i really luv lactation play. after second kid my bf would literally drain me during sex would b orgasmic and made me cum several times.  i dont know what it is, makes my nipples really sensitiv  felt full n heavy and always horny.  so animal like  when engorged n ready. would literally grab him and drag him off somewhere when i was in need.  was so awesum  but i found out he didnt even like breastmilk so i stopped  he just like the state of mind it put me in.  so  i want to induce and start all over again

i dont like cats, i did hav 1 when i was younger like 12  a big orange tabby that was female. i named her vicious cuz from the first few months i had her she would bring home dead things. yuk. i had to keep burying birds.  at least 2 to 3 times a week.  finally she brought home a freaking crane or egress or something those big white birds with long legs, my dad told me it was cuz she luvd me, but what a nuisance after burying the crane i had to giv her away. for a yr or two she ran away from her new owner and kept coming home  til one day she just stopped.  just thinking out loud today. my dog is so much more loveabl. my sweet blk labpit

words of a strong man makes quotes words of a weak man makes excuses

honey traps more flies than vinegar

my family is trying to marry me off, i need to find a cuckold so i can keep playing. def domesticated and into chastity no sissys if ur into marriage mindset dont b over 44 as im 33

i didnt always play sane or safe. once upon a time i used to b sub to bf even tho he let me hav sex with other guys in the beginning he used to still b very jealous. this happened b4 i was pregnant  or had kids  and really put me into confusion for a few months on exactly how i wanted to play because it pretty much ended my submission or killed that side of me.u know when u hav sex with someone and by the end of it ur tired   drag urself home for a shower and then bed,  well i made it home open the door and was greeted by a very jealous bf at the door.  for sum it can b scary  and yes  our play used to sometimes border on rape or real force.  but it kind of went past that this time. he was talking to me in a really calm voice  telling me he could smell a man on me.  really ripping my clothes off including my panties.   i was used to being held down and fucked  but this time he was fucking me  with one hand on my throte and my other hand pinning one hand down only leaving 1 free. he is a guy all muscle not chub and being already tired couldnt really put up a fite. but i could tell even then i was  getting in his head  cuz as intense as it was with him staring in my eyes like that  i wasnt showing fear or panicking. i was just as calm as he was if not more  he wanted doe eyed and docile and   even tho i couldnt speak and barely gasp i think rage  was  beeming back at him and weak as i was i was hittting his soft spots, dug my nails into him   drew blood on the arm pinning me down.  he didnt let me go til he had cum  and we both lay there  just glaring at each other. after about an hour or so   i came around long enuff to kick his ass b4 collapsing to fall asleep when i woke up i for work i had a very nasty bruise on my throte and he had bruises on his entire arm and ribcage.  we had  agreed that wasnt going to happen again and it was hard to play like that and get away with it in real life vanilla society. cuz we both workd in same place and every1 was like what the fuk happend. we had to come up with an total. bs story about  fighting in a bar togehter, we used to gambl and drink alot in vegas at the casinos and off the strip seedy dives too.   he luvd the pwer of it but i didnt like  being exhausted like that .  and i banned him from sex for a long time

i was just thinking about this today so im putting it down in my journal cuz its stuk on replay in my head. i would play videogames with a friend of mine that went of to the army.   he would curse all the time , i know alot of people dont think anything about cursing but with kids in earshot i dont tolerate it, and i warned him if it happened  id throw him out. -ive known him about 10 yrs. mayb longer than iv known my bf.  i was having fun and he kept doing it, and i could feel this nerve getting thinner n thinner as he kept doing it and i kept saying dude stop.   the last time he said  motherfucker really loud and my youngest heard i reacted without thinking and had already felt the sting in my hand before i had realized i had done it. he had his hand over his mouth in shock or surprise  but i had popped him in the mouth. not a punch more like a heavy backhanded open handed slap. i didnt say sorry more like a i told u and kept playing, and he did too. has never cursed in the house since. i wonder when he will get back or if hes around orlando somewhere. i never thought of this as a discipline  mayb cuz i was spanked as a child it didnt seem like anything  and the fact that he didnt retaliate or even  bat an eyelashh at it , he never mentions it  nor do i but today i kept thinking about it

i cant help it i luv interacial, i luv big dix, if ur small ill tease  but wont turn away but itll only frustrate me and lead me bak to a bigger dik to fuk.  i would fuk a big blk dik if guy was older than me and let me call him daddy. big as in 8 and up.

i think a guy is cute or hot when he struggles

i want to try absinthe as original recipe as it can get. 

one of my favorite movies is BLACK SNAKE MOAN girl with a chain on in the house through most of the movie, great idea

heaven and earth are not humane.they regard all things as straw toys.therefore the wise man is not humane, he regards all people as straw toys -tao te ching

one of my shows called EUREKA got cancelled. im bummed out, i need sex

someone asked y wont he eat the meat. well once i was away when he was younger and someone broke in and threw a steak at him full of drugs or poison and he ate it and got really sik, -got my tv stolen and a leather recliner who the fuk steals a recliner and a small fridge. but it took him a month to get rite and he will not eat anything unless i giv it to him and tell him eat. i hav to giv it i hav to say it. or he will just look at it or  whoever gav it to him. my family says if i ever died or got sik my dog would probably die too or if anything happened to kids

i hav toyd with the idea of training a sub guy like i did with my dog. not allowed on the couch, kitchen offlimits, make a sound when he has to go to the bathroom. no talking he will put his head on my feet and look at me for affection if he thinks hes ignored for too long.  the only time my dog makes noise is if there is someone coming, stranger at door and he will go stand by the front door and stare at it and wait for me to see who it is too

i guess im overprotectiv mommy i hav a labpitbull dog named marly that sleeps on the floor in my kids room and he comes get me if there is any problems. trained him myself  when bf got him for me  he used to eat my shoes til i popped him in the nose.  i feel for the unlucky bastard that tries anything. when my oldest kid got injured and is in wheelchair he got depressed for a few months cuz he couldnt run and play like he used to and had to b careful around her. ever since then hes gotten a littl more vicious to outsiders. he bit my bf once when he was yelling at me and getting in my face. he actually prefers me over him. if u try to giv him meat or a toy to win him over he wont even look at it, he actually will freeze and stare at u for trying to bribe him and foam at the mouth cuz he thinks ur trying to get over on him. u hav to walk bakwards slowly. if im beside him ur safe  but he has a glare that frightens everyone.  i luv him hes my baby boy and i wuvimso

i need a slave

yea that is a chainsaw to my throat  and it was on and running,  once upon a time i was drunk stoned and oblivious of fear, all b4 i had kids. i am much toned down now and a saner person now.  the guy in photo is long gone now but the stories we could tell.

ok i posted all my pics so dont bother asking me for more they r all rite here. i even put up one of my bf everyone kept thinking he was a blk guy hes not. just a hung wht guy russian bakground.  so u see im chubby but i pull it off well 42dd without lactation but knows size is way bigger with milk.  blk n wht pik i was at least 180 lbs o chain is most recent  and im at 220 lbs in those shots and still now . 

bf told me once i had conditioned him slash brainwashed him without my ever thinking about it. i used to walk around topless b4 i had kids indoors and if the doorbell rang id put on this vest, nothing really sexy all blk  with a gold design on the back and a singl zipper o n the front. i would walk around in this  alot and i guess when i got too hot id unzip it   not really take it off  but he would get a nice view of my bust  if it got chilly id zip it up.  after a while he said he started to get hard every time he would just hear the zipper.  i did notice once he wouldnt let me take it off just   would unzip it and suck on my nipples or  take my panties off but not this vest.  when i did he would hang it up in his room and sometimes it would disappear alltogether (now i know y) i still hav the vest and  i still walk around in it but gotta wear bottoms so kids dont get an eyeful. things change when u got kids cant b nude anymore

420 challenged rite now i wish i was wasted cant sleep its like 4 am

i had a perfectly ordinary day but there is that nagging feeling sumthin is missing

hmm something about me. im not much for football but hav been 'bred' to b a giants fan  thanx mom n dad and if they r winning i find myself gravitating towards the tv go figure.  when i was young i was taken to a rangers game and they won stanley cup bak in '94 yes age of w.g  and had stars in my eyes since then what person under 18 wouldnt fall for a ticker tape parade in nyc at that time. its one game i can sit through from start to finish now im old enuff to drink beer cant get any more perfect than that.

if ur too openminded ur brains will fall out

accents are hot, they make me smile. all of them, irish or scottish brogue, russian, hell  bostonian or british cardiff/pikey, new york, southern drawl. dont fake it i just luv em.

ok im pretty open minded but i doubt im gonna b fukking a grandpa type.i do luv submissiv men  but i dont want to b the one to blame for a heart attack. now sum older guys look younger so everyone is different so if ur 50 but look like ur in ur 40s i mite think different. but i do hav a slight hesitation to play with someone older than my mom and dad

mom is name for god on all childs lips

bak is bak to normal now

my daily life i guess i seem mousy, i even listen to my parents well into my 30's, and luv the alpha male types in my vanilla world but want something else behind closed doors. i luv manly men, my favorite types to brainwash. but if u saw me morning noon and night u would think i was two diff peopl. totally diff attitude when im not sobr either

my friend is coming ovr tonite to visit. house is full for olympics but  gonna park in his van in my driveway. he thinks we r gonna hav regular old fashioned sex. im gonna pay him back with a strapon i got as a gift. he will b feeling it for a few days like my bak

my kids broke my ps3-pout but hav backup ps2 and enjoying sum final fantasy play-smile while they watch disney. they r totally grounded  for a day

i do like seeing men in thongs, not much for sissy stuff i do luv to see them suk but u dont hav to dress like a bitch i luv manly men but gotta admit the thong is hot

a cornered mouse will bite the cat

was watching k drama and was totally intrigued by a form of rope torture i never saw or thought of. rope made of leather soaked in water for days, then tied a man and woman up and left in the sun until they spoke and as sun dried rope got tighter and tighter. it was genius

feeling much better

now would b perfect time  to b 420 fan. if u dont knoww what that means cant explain

i hav learned i hate pain when it is my own. i want to lash out just cuz it hurts and iv turned into a superbitch since hurting my bak

was having sex with a friend of mine from out of town i hadnt seen in a while late night after kids were sleeping was in domme mode and getting kind of rough  when  i pulled a muscl in my back, add insult to injury he took advantage of my helplessness and had his way with me so out of commission for a few weeks or until i can walk around without wincing in pain. dont think he got away with it like hes walking around now, i will get my revenge when i can walk past my couch, then bed then chair. i cant wait til im bak on my feet