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About billhanock
***UPDATE: i am thrilled to report that i am property of Mistress Latina, and therefore i am not seeking a Domme. Mistress Latina is a wonderful Mistress who is caring but assertive, and strict but very fair. She means everything to me.***
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i stood there gingerly rubbing my balls, trying to get the skin on my balls some exposure to air and to loosen up some up the skin that was pinched. It hurt like crazy, but i knew that Mistress wasn't done with me yet and i had better try to get my balls ready for whatever came next. Slowly the pain dissipated to the point where i could touch most of the skin, although i still avoided touching some parts as the blood was just starting to return to some areas. Even though i maybe wasn't 100% ready to resume, i knew that our time together was rare and precious so i wrote Mistress back and told her that i am ready to resume, and thanked her for the break and mercy shown.
She paused for a minute while she contemplated what to do next with me. Again Mistress asked me what items i had with me, and i retyped a few of the items off what we have created and called our 'play menu'. She then decided to ask me to carry out some chariot races for Her. This was something we had tried briefly before, but some technical problems prevented it from being well viewable for Mistress. Tonight we had no such problem, and in fact since i had wireless internet, this meant she could 'come along for the ride'.
So i dropped to my hands and knees and tied a rope around my balls, which were still smarting from the pain from the pins. Nonetheless, i tied my balls tightly together, and ran the other end of the rope to the base of the desk chair. i left only a couple feet of space between my balls and the chair base, just enough for my legs to crawl with. i gave each end a little tug (including a little one on my balls) to ensure the knots were tied sufficiently tight. Once confident they were, i messaged Mistress to see if she wanted the cam to stay on the desk so she could watch my progress from afar, or if she wanted the cam to come along which simulates as if she were sitting there. Mistress elected to come along, which i was hoping for, as it was always a fantasy for me to pull Mistress by my balls.
After adjusting the camera to ensure that Mistress could see what she wanted (namely my balls being pulled tightly), we were ready. And with that, Mistress messaged 'Ready, Set, go!'. . .
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i began adding the pins to my balls, figuring that there was more room and flexibility to put pins there than on my cock which was quite hard with excitement, challenge and tension of the scene. i managed to add another 7-8 to the 16 that already existed. At this point i realized that the remaining 8-9 pins would likely fit fine on my cock, so i slowly started at the base of my cock and worked my way to the top. The pins all fit on the underside where there was more skin to grab on to. Fending off the building pain, i managed to fit all 32 pins!
As i typed back to Mistress confirming that i had met her command, i glanced up at the mirror and couldn't believe what i was looking at. There was this male slut, labelled as such on his chest, with 32 colorful pins painfully hanging off his cock and balls. All this at the request of a woman hundreds of miles away. It was moments like this that truly remind me of my submissive nature, my submission to Mistress, and Her obvious power over me. i also felt a sense of accomplishment, making a new record for both of us.
With the pain at fever pitch i shifted my weight on my feet uncontrollably. i could feel the pain of each pin, particularly the new pins. Without knowing what Mistress had in store for me next, i started wondering how much, if any, punishment i had served of my penalty. Would we double or nothing again? If so, that would mean i'd be using all of my 50+ pins and still wouldn't have enough. Would she make me jog in place, forcing the pins to bounce, pull and tug at my sensitive skin? Or would she simply make me stand there with all pins in place while i contemplate my punishment and the inactions that led to it?
Mistress, clearly please by stating 'wow slut, quite the site'. Before i could respond, she continued 'send me a pic now slut'. i happily obliged, making sure my labelled chest and all the pins where in frame. i took 3 pictures and sent her the one that turned out best. Upon receiving it, she expressed her pleasure with what she saw. After sending the pic, i stood there hoping that by taking the picture signified that she was satisfied with the outcome of the pins and that she may now let me remove them. Thankfully, i was right and she allowed me to remove them.
After they were all removed, i looked down at the skin on my cock and balls and saw several 'bite marks', mostly from the new pins. There were extremely sore to the touch, and the skin stayed 'crimped' for several minutes after removing the pins. i asked Mistress for a few minutes to recover, and she fairly obliged but not without providing a warning.
"Yes you may briefly rest slut, as You will need it for whats next". . .
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Mistress then stated that it was time for double or nothing. My heart rate increased the second i read those words. The last time we were on cam, this meant that instead of adding one pin if i was wrong on a quiz question, i would have to add two. And if i got the question right, i simply maintained the number of painful pins and didn't get to remove any. However this time, it was much different as i would soon find out.
Mistress asked me a question that i did have a clue of what the actual answer was. i guessed, but Mistress quickly indicated that i was wrong. She further typed 'You know what that means slut?'. i thought i did so i replied 'Yes Mistress, that means add 4 clips'. This is when i found out how grave the problem was. Mistress stated 'Its double or nothing slut'. Equal parts concerned and confused, i nervously asked 'You mean Mistress, to double the number of pins i already have on?'
'Yes slut' she coldy responded. The math was obvious, i was soon going to have 32 pins on my cock and balls, that is assuming i could even handle that. Already concerned about how painful the 16 were already, i wasn't confident at all that i could manage an additional 16. However knowing the errors that i have made in the past few months, and knowing how disappointed Mistress was in me, i looked at this as a challenge. A way that would allow me to push myself and hopefully work off some punishment that i deserved and earned by my inactions.
And with that, i started counting out 16 more pins, placing them beside my laptop before putting them on. . .
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The questions started off nice and easy. They were mostly about Mistress birthday/age, appearance, some of favorite foods, etc. i answered them quickly and with confidence. Because i didn't have any pins on my to start, the questions i answered correctly didn't do much good in terms of the game since i didn't have any pins to remove. But on the bright side, at least i didn't have to add any pins! They started to get more difficult, as the questions turned towards her sexual preferences, and some other specifics about her life. It didn't take too long to work my way up to having 16 pins on my cock and balls.
i quickly found that the new pins were quite a bit stronger than the old ones. The old ones had a flat section at there tip, although with some teeth - much like the end of regular pliers. The new ones didn't have this flattened section, but instead just two 'teeth' that seemed to take all the pressure in a much smaller surface. Clearly this resulted in much more pain, and while i certainly deserved the additional pain, it was bordering on too much. While the old pins still produce a lot of pain, when i have several clipped on to me it feels like one big area of pain that grows with every pin added. With the new ones, i can feel every single pins on its own, and feels much more like several individual needles.
With a mixture of new and old pins on, 16 in total, i was really starting to feel the pain. i started thinking about when i previously had 26 pins on my cock and balls before, and couldn't believe i still had another 10 pins to add just to match our previous record. i started to doubt i could make it? Would Mistress push me past that? If so, how far? Perhaps i shouldn't have told her that i had over 50 pins with me this trip, what if She wanted me to use them all?
And then things stepped up a notch. Quite a few actually. . .
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Given my lack of journal entries after our last session, i knew that i had a big price to pay in terms of punishment. In fact, Mistress had tasked me with outlining a process for determining a reasonable punishment. i created such a process, in fact a formula to determine such a punishment. This formula ended up churning out quite an intimidating list of punishment possibilities, all of which were deserved.
And while i certainly wasn't looking forward to the pain that was inevitably on the way, i was in an odd way looking forward to 'paying off my debt' to Mistress as i truly did feel quite guilty. Clearly my actions would never be forgotten, but i was hoping that accepting a severe punishment would be the first step in putting my disrespect in the past.
i had everything you could possibly imagine for punishment within reach. This included several long lengths of rope, dozens of clothespins, a bucket full of ice, a tube of icy hot, a wax candle as well as 2 belts. i had no idea what Mistress would feel like this night, and my mind reeled at what may end of happening. In what now seems like tradition, Mistress started the quiz game. Because of the situation and high stakes for punishment, every answer i got wrong meant 2 pins added to my cock or balls, and every answer i got right meant i could remove only one. Last time we played this game, i was adding 3 at a time so i was grateful that it wasn't worst. However Mistress stated that these were the rules 'for now', which removed any complacency that i was feeling and restored my focus and concern.
i should also mention that the last time we scened together, i ended up with 26 pins on my cock and balls, a new record. It would've likely been more, however i only had 26 pins with me at that time and i vowed to Mistress that the next time i would bring many more. So in fact i did, purchasing another 24 pack. i couldn't find the exact same ones i bought before, so i bought the closest ones possible, hoping that they were the same in terms of pain tolerance.
Boy was i wrong. . .
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At the risk of interrupting my recap of our previous session, i must take this opportunity to apologize to Mistress. As is clearly the case, i have once again been negligent about writing journal entries for Mistress. While things have been extremely busy at work with a promotion, that is no excuse for my inactions. Mistress is a very fair woman, and i could have (and should have) taken some small amounts of time over the past several weeks to write some journal entries.
Once i started writing my previous journal entry, it reminded my of a few things. Most importantly, i was taken over with a great sense of shame and disappointment in myself for taking so long to write to her. i feel quite selfish as i write this, especially given the time and effort that Mistress has put into my training over the months/years, and for me to not write any entries for such a time certainly shows a sincere lack of respect. One that must be rectified or i may risk losing Mistress. The other mental reminder was how much i enjoyed our sessions together, and how much i enjoyed writing about them. While the sessions can lead to significant pain, they are quite fulfilling mentally as i carry out the tasks as requested by Mistress. Writing about them simply brings these memories and feelings back to the top of my mind.
So with my increased awareness and fondness, it makes me feel extremely bad about my poor behaviour. i hope to renew my commitment to You, and demonstrate this in the near future. i am eager to regain Your trust and respect, and should this mean a significant and severe punishment i will humbly oblige and accept it, knowing that You are fair and deserve better than what i've given You.
With my deepest sympathy and regret, i sincerely apologize Mistress. Love always,
bill
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Well it has been much longer than i ever wanted, but i finally decided to take the time needed to update my journal for Mistress. It was long overdue and i fully realize that i likely have upset Mistress again, however i firmly believe this is something that i must do. i also relish the chance to brag about another wonderful session on cam for Mistress!
As luck would have it, i happened to be travelling while it was Mistress's birthday! That meant i could focus purely on Mistress, and not have to worry about any pesky interruption from my brother or his wife. i would finally be all hers again. Knowing her birthday by playing the quiz game so often, i came prepared for a bit of a surprise. Just before Mistress and i finally connected online and turned on my webcam, i took a big red bow that i had purchased for this occasion, and tied it to my cock. There i stood, naked before her with the red bow front and center when i turned on the webcam. i think Mistress was quite impressed!
As much as i may have impressed Mistress, i shortly there after upset her. i yet again opened my big mouth and spoke out of turn which of course displeased Mistress. She then sentenced me to 10 hard belt strokes on my ass. i promptly carried these out and with good force, as i certainly didn't want to further upset Mistress so early in the evening (or at all!).
Mistress then decided to once again 'label' me, and tasked me with writing her name on my chest and stomach. Last time i used washable markers which may it easy to clean off, although i noticed that the ink started to bleed a bit and rub off quite easily when i started to sweat, even just slightly. And when Mistress is pushing my limits like she often does, i do find myself getting quite warm! So in an attempt to please Mistress, i brought whiteboard markers instead. This way they were a little more permanent than the washable ones, but could still be scrubbed off somewhat easily so that it wouldn't show through any light coloured shirts, etc.
i soon put that theory to a test. i took my markers and naked body to the bathroom to write on myself using the mirror. However doing that ended up with me writing the letters backwards for Mistress, which displeased her. So she instructed me to correct this, and therefore i had to wipe off the ink which wasn't that easy to do. It only took 5 minutes or so, but that was using really hot water and scrubbing quite hard. But Mistress deserves perfection, and therefore felt compelled to fix it. i eventually got it right by using the display from the webcam, although somehow i still ended up with the S's backwards.
Luckily for me, Mistress allowed me to continue like that, although that ended up meaning more time to punish me.
And that did happen in spades, including a new record for us both. . .
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Thankfully, the next 'first' for Mistress and i wasn't anything painful. By this point, my cock and balls had been pinched (pins), burnt (Icy Hot), and tenderized (chariot pulls, hanging a water jug). Mistress had her entertainment, and had once again reminded me of Her power over me. But there was one more thing she wanted my to do.
As if to wind down the evening (it was now about 2am for Mistress), we were chatting about what had transpired that evening, and how Mistress owned my cock and balls. This gave Mistress an incredible idea! i was already labelled across my chest, but Mistress now wanted my cock labeled as hers. She instructed me to grab a marker and write her name across my the length of my hard cock. This was different. It wasn't that she wanted me to write Mistress, or her collarme profile name on my cock. She wanted me to write her real name (which i won't share here for obvious reasons).
i gladly obliged, and grabbed a marker of her choice (dark blue) and wrote her name starting at the top working downwards. It was awkward writing this all in reverse so that it would display correctly for her, but in the end it was worth it. Mistress instructed me to take a picture of it and send it to her, which of course i did. It was quite the sight! i looked at myself in the mirror, and although i was exhausted i was quite proud of what i saw. i still have the picture and refer to it quite often, as it reminds me of Mistress herself, my position under her, and that wonderful evening.
Soon after we both went to bed. i only hope Mistress felt as warm and satisfied as i did.
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t was something that neither one of us had done before, and after talking about it afterwards, we're not sure if we'll do it again! In preparation for my trip, i had purchased some 'Icy Hot', as i had read about that as a CBT method online. Mistress liked the idea, or at least wanted to give it a try. So off to the grocery store i went. . .
Once Mistress had her fun with the clothespins and chariot pulls, she ordered my to spread some Icy Hot all over my balls. Despite the reading i had done, i really had no idea how much to apply so i put what i thought was a reasonable size amount on my hand. The 'drop' of the creme was probably around the size of a cherry, some might say even the size of a testicle! i began applying the creme to my balls, and quickly got the idea that i had poured too much. It wasn't because of the pain, as that hadn't set in yet. But once i had covered my balls, i still had a fair amount in my hand and fingers, which i had to wipe off on a towel nearby.
Initially, the creme felt quite cool, it seemed like the moving air around my balls was quite cool. This lasted no more than a minute before the pain started to set in. It started off as a bit of a sting or burn, and would continually gain in intensity over the next few minutes. Then it hit me hard. i shifted uncomfortably as the cream continued to burn away, my body shifting side to side. Obviously this didn't help relieve the pain, but part of normal human reaction. It got to the point where i was shifting uncontrollably and dramatically, so much so that Mistress had to ask what i was doing.
i explained to her how painful it was, and being the fair Mistress She is She allowed me to go wipe it off. After thanking her for Her mercy, i ran to the bathroom trying to wipe it off. i tried using dry towels, wet towels, water directly, but nothing seemed to work. Despite not being bound in any way, i felt extremely helpless to the pain. i came back to the webcam after a few minutes in the bathroom. Concerned, Mistress asked me how i was. The pain was still very much evident, but it seemed to have peeked. i still shifted uncomfortably for several minutes after, and Mistress did other things while i recovered.
Slowly, the pain subsided after awhile. It was one of the most, if not the most painful things i've ever encountered.
And the pain ended tust in time for Mistress and i to have another 'first'. . .
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After a few trips around the room, Mistress graciously allowed me to take the ropes and pins off. We then played our favorite game of the 'Quiz', where Mistress would ask me questions about her scene or sexual preferences, and i would be punished if i didn't know the answer. Perhaps being too cocky, or maybe too willing to prove to Mistress how well i knew her, i challenged her into making it double or nothing. i thought doing this might be fun, with limited risk being that i've learned most of the answers already. Mistress, perhaps senses my over confidence changed it to triple or nothing, and i simply didn't know what to say. i looked over to my pile of close to 30 pins and remember thinking that for the first time ever, i'd be using all of them eventually. And i sure did. Despite getting several questions right, i ended up with around 28 pins over my cock and balls. The pain was immense, it felt like thousands of knived coming in from all over. Mistress remarked at one point of me being her little pin cushion, and that is exactly what i was to her. Thankfully, i ran out of pins and to this day i wonder how long the game would've gone on if i had more pins.
Eventually, Mistress allowed me to remove all the pins. There were red marks all over, and it almost looked like i had some sort of disease! After giving me a few minutes break to recover, we went on to the next game which was chariot pulls. The rope around my balls came back out, as Mistress instructed me to tightly tie my balls to the chair in my room. Since it was on wheels, Mistress had me add some weight to it. i attached the other end of the rope to the base of the chair, and then spent the next several minutes pulling the chair back and forth across the room. At one point, Mistress ended up timing me. Unfortunately, the internet connection wasn't great and it was hard for her to judge when i got back to the start line. i think she was going to force me into beating the previous time, and if i didn't, who knows what would have happened.
The pain was quite intense, and my feet often bumped the chair which ended up pulling my balls extra hard. To Mistress this seemed to be very amusing, despite the bad connection. As i was crawling around, i was picturing Mistress riding in the chair whipping my ass as if i were her horse pulling her chariot using my balls. i originally wanted to have my laptop on the chair to simulate this, but i sadly didn't have wifi and therefore the laptop had to stay plugged in and immobile. This however gave Mistress a great view of how large of a room i hard, and how fast or slow i went around the room.
Eventually, Mistress had her amusement and allowed my to untie myself from her chariot (her chair that is!). As painful as that all was, i had no idea the most painful part of the evening was next. . .
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As referred to in the previous journal entry, my last webcam session with Mistress was many things: fun, engaging, painful, educational, etc. Most importantly of all, it was the most submissive i think i've ever felt. In writing this, it occurred to me that so much happened during this sessions that it'll be impossible to write about it all at once, so i will break things down into a few journal entries. And it begins. . .
Once we both signed in, we exchanged pleasantries for a little while. It seemed like Mistress was busy with other people or things at first, so i made sure i had all our 'toys' ready for whatever was about to happen. This list of toys included LOTS of rope, a bucket full of ice, my belt, a candle, some washable markers, etc. The first thing Mistress had me do was to write 'Mistresses Cock', with an arrow pointing down to my groin. i hadn't done anything like this before, and i was very surprised with how submissive it made me feel. i had seen pictures online of subs who were 'labelled', and this made me feel like them. It seemed to make things a bit more formal.
Once i was appropriately labelled, Mistress asked me for the list of toys that i had available. i almost got the sense she didn't know where to start! But since my balls were already tied as per our routine, she made me hang the jug from my balls with a foot of slack or so. Its not just the weight of the just that makes this painful, but also the fact that it ends up bouncing off my legs and knees, which makes it feel like glancing blows directly to my balls. Mistress ordered me to walk around the room several times, which made the jug bounce around like a ping pong ball, yanking on my balls with every step. Fortunately for Mistress and unfortunately for me, my room was quite spacious which gave me lots of room to walk around.
Mistress then had me add some clothespins to my cock. There were around a dozen or so, which was quite a bit for my erect cock. There was very little loose skin, so the pins barely hung on! Then Mistress made me walk around the room some more. This caused all sorts of problems as not only did i have a jug yanking on my balls every step, but there were several pins now dangling from my cock which swayed with each step i took as well. It was then when i had the most submissive moment. My clothes closet had full length mirror doors. As i walked passed this, i saw myself and situation in full view. There i was, completely naked, hands behind my back, my body and cock labelled in clear red lettering, pins all over my cock, and a water jug dangling from my balls. It was quite a sight. It all started hitting my mind at once, how i did all these things to myself without hesitation, just as Mistress ordered. i followed her instructions blindy without question, and now i was seeing the result of these instructions in plain view.
There was certainly an element of humiliation involved, which likely added to the submissive nature that i felt. And that feeling of absolute submissiveness was simply amazing!
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It is with great regret that i write this journal entry. As You may have noticed, i haven't been updating my journal lately, and the 'reason' behind this is that i have been involved in a vanilla relationship recently. It has since ended, which has forced me into thinking back through my life before the relationship, including the people i was in contact with.
With great shame, i have not been respectful to my Mistress. Upon meeting my new girlfriend, i stopped going online and chatting with Mistress. At the time, i thought this was the 'right thing' to do - that is, not be in contact with two women at the same time. While there is some legitimacy to that, the fact is that i should have taken even a few minutes to explain to Mistress that i was in a relationship and explain why i wouldn't be online much, if at all.
Looking back, what i think bothers me most is that Mistress has always been very fair to me, and yet i didn't do such a simple step to show her some courtesy. Maybe subconsciously i was afraid of what Mistress may have said or how she would've reacted, but i should have been mentally strong enough to push through any fear i may have had. Making matters worse, my silence came shortly after one of the, in fact THE best cam session we've ever had. i will write about this session next, as it truly was remarkable.
Upon logging into collarme for the first time in months today, i see a message from her a few weeks ago. At first glance i was thrilled that she reached out to me, but then my heart sank as realized that she reached out to me despite my negligence. It re-enforced the fact that she must've enjoyed our relationship enough to reach out to me, and i abused the privilege of our relationship.
i'm not sure what the future holds for Mistress and i as i know i have done something seriously wrong. At this time, i only hope that Mistress knows how ashamed i feel by my actions.
With sincere & deep regret,
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i had quite the interesting night last night!? i was fortunate enough to meet up with Mistress on webcam last night.? She wasn't online as early as we had hoped to be, but we had a great time when she was online!
First, Mistress had me take a marker and write 'Mistress cock' with an arrow pointing down to my cock.? It was somewhat humiliating for me to do this, however it was appropriate and very true - my cock and balls are all hers.? There was also a sense of belonging now that i was appropriately labeled.
Next, Mistress had me take 20 clothespins and attach them to my cock and balls.? This was obvisouly quite painful, however Mistress did not want to here me complain.? In fact, once i had the pins attached, Mistress began quizzing me, forcing me to add a pin every time i got an answer wrong.? She would on occasion ask me to run in place, forcing the pins to jump all around, tugging on the sensitive skin all over.? It was very painful, and made me realize how important it was for me to know the answers to Mistress's questions.
Things got worse once Mistres's phone rang.? Mistress's friend had called right when we were in the middle of quizing me with the pins attached.? Mistress became occupied by the phone while i stood still in pain.? It was quite the scene.? Mistress talked freely on the phone, likely comfortable relaxing on a couch somewhere.? Meanwhile, i was standing there with over 20 pins squeezing my skin.? Each minute seemed like an eternity, and i had no idea if Mistress even remembered that i existed.
Finally Mistress released me and i was permitted to remove the pins.? She was occupied on the phone for the rest of the evening, but we still have a couple nights to play!
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So here i sit in my hotel room.? Alone.? Quiet.? Empty.? That is, besides all the toys i brought with me, and the fact that Mistress is on Yahoo right now.? i know that at any minute i may receive a command to do something, anything.? It may be just a harmful quiz, or it could be something much more. . .
i typed up a recap of some of the games that we've discussed in the past and sent it to Mistress a week or so ago.? Was this a mistake?? i included some fairly painful games on there, perhaps i should've left those off and hoped that Mistress would forget?? But what if she didn't, and then that angered her even more so?
Making my mind even more panicked, is that i am off to a store soon to add to my collection of toys.? Some i know what they could be used for, others have been requested by Mistress directly, with no other information.? There is a unlimited number of things that could be done with these toys.? That is exciting nerve wracking at the same time.? And why did i bring so many ropes?? i must have over 50 feet of rope, perhaps i should've just taken a much more modest amount to limit the number of things Mistress could do.
Perhaps worst of all, i don't even know what my own feelings are.? Excited?? Nervous?? Scared?? Proud?? i'm sure its part of all of those, but i'm not sure in what order.
Time will tell which feeling i should be feeling most. . .
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i helplessly struggled at my restraints, not because i thought i could get out but because of pure instincts. Obviously it was no use, i was Mistress's for the taking, literally.
i could fell Mistress climb over top of me as if i were some nuisance in her way. With all the movement and the blindfold on, i couldn't at all tell what Mistress was doing and where she was going. Was she going to straddle me and take in the dildo with her on top? Perhaps she'd lower herself down over my face and once again use the dildo still strapped to my head?
It took awhile to figure out what she was doing, but it suddenly hit me. i could feel her feet in and around my neck area, which at first i thought was a bit strange until i remembered a question that She asked me when we were playing the quiz game one night. She was going to fuck me in Her favorite position. . .
i could feel her weight on my waist, while she played with the dildo. My cock and balls were now tied downwards and to the rail at the foot of the bed. It was quite clear that Mistress wanted my pathetic cock out of the way, so that she could focus on the more impressive dildo that Mistress obviously prefers.
Slowly, Mistress began lowering herself onto my waist, allowing the dildo to protrude inside of her. i could sense Her leaning back with Her arms back on either side of my thighs with her feet pressing down on my chest. Slowly, Mistress moved all the way down, taking the full length inside her. She repeated this slow harmonic motion several times without changing the pace one bit.
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The blindfold made its way back over my eyes as Mistress pulled it back into place. She started to walk away before i heard her stop, and walk back towards the bed that contained Her helpless victim. She put her hands on my face and gently pulled the blindfold back over my forehead while snickering "You're going to want to see this slut". Mistress then walked away again, toward her dresser that contained Her toys.
After rummaging around for a few seconds, Mistress returned holding something behind her back. Without revealing the object to me, Mistress climbed on top of the bed and over my helpless body before straddling my chest while facing my feet. She held what ever the object was and with her facing the other way i could not see the object itself, only her arms moving around seemingly making adjustments to the device. Mistress slapped the right side of my body/ass as she encouraged me to lift up that side of my body. i could feel Her push something like a belt underneath my body as she slapped the other side of my body, forcing me to lift that side now instead. Sure enough, Mistress had fastened something around my lower waist, which she was now tightening or adjusting it.
Mistress began to dismount me, although She remained on the bed and turned towards me. As she rose up to her knees and turned around, i caught a glimpse of what it was. Attached to my waist was another rubber dildo, this one even larger than the last one. It protruded straight out of my body and was only inches away from my own cock.
"You didn't think that I'd ever put your filthy and worthless cock inside myself did You slave?" Mistress stated as she flicked my cock as if it were some insect on her table. Perhaps thats exactly what it was to her.
And back on went the blindfold. . . |
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Mistress laid there for a substantial period of time, catching her breath and letting the cool air run across her sweaty body. i took great pride in hearing Mistress's sighs of relief and pleasure. my back and neck were quite sore, as were my knees from all the rocking back and forth. Yet the pain was secondary to the success of providing Mistress such pleasure.
After basking in the after glow for a few minutes, Mistress began to sit up on the bed. Mistress reached over and slowly ran her fingers through my hair, as if to reward me for a job well done. i gently pushed my head into her hands like a dog who is desperate for attention from his owner.
But Mistress pulled my head closer to her and the bed, and whispered in my ear "Well slave, do You have any energy left? Would you like to join me on the bed?" Still blindfolded, i nodded my head enthusiastically. Did she really mean it? It'd be a dream come true to come up on the bed with Mistress. She reached in behind me and unlocked the handcuffs from my balls.
"Stand up slut, and sit at the edge of the bed". Relieved to be disconnected from my balls, i slowly stood up onto my feet. Wobbly, i made my way and sat down on the edge of the bed where Mistress guided me. i heard her get up and walk around the room a bit, rummaging through drawers again. Soon after she came back to the bed and i felt her sit beside me. In a swift motion, she unlocked the handcuffs, but quickly put new and separate cuffs on my arms. Within seconds, she had them tied to each of the bedposts, pulling me back onto the bed roughly.
Mistress stood on the floor next to the bed and kicked my legs, urging me to lift them onto the bed. i did so quickly, as i could tell Mistress was rested and ready for more play, although i wasn't yet sure how. With expert precision, Mistress soon had my legs fastend to opposite bed posts. There i lay, naked, bound, helpless, blindfolded, and still wearing the rubber cock on my face.
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Likewise, Mistress had lost herself in pleasure and could think of nothing else. At this point i don't think She even remembered that there was a human being attached to the dildo, She was purely focused on taking all the pleasure out of the situation as she could. And rightfully so.
Her moans began to turn into full out gasps as Mistress wrapped her legs around my head. She crossed Her legs at her ankles and pulled me more fully inside her and at a much more constant rate. Her hands ran through my hair and occasional clamped down on a chunk of my dark locks, giving Her even more control over the placement and rhythm of each thrust.
My neck and knees began to quiver as exhaustion started to set in. However i dare not make any notion of complacency with Mistress getting close to climax. She layed back onto the bed from Her upright position as she too began to tire. Amazingly Her legs and hands maintained their grip on my head as they continued to pace the action without any slow down. Instead, the rate began to increase as Mistress kept getting closer to orgasm. Knowing that Mistress's satisfaction of me as a slave depended heavily on this act of slavery, i dug deep and began to assert my own energy and strength into the rhythm, which provided instead verbal gratification from Mistress.
Even though i was blindfolded, i shut my eyes and beared down as i knew it was only a few long, complete thrusts before Mistress climaxed. Before i knew it, Mistress tightened her legs around me and held me close inside Her as her body quivered in absolute pleasure. A long, quiet, and exhausted moan came out of Mistress's mouth as the quivering slowed down and her grip on me started to subside.
Mission accomplished. Or so i thought. . . |
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Mistress led me closer to the bed, pulling me by my new appendage. She sat down on the edge of the bed and brought me between her legs. i felt clumsy inching closer to the bed, as i could barely move forward little steps at a time having my hands bound to my balls.
Mistress started pulling her skirt down when She stopped and glanced back at me. "Oh i almost forgot slut, you have no business seeing what's underneath this skirt". And with that, Mistress pulled the blindfold back over my eyes as i let out a very disappointed gasp. As i adjusted to life without vision again as i could hear clothes rustling around. Sure enough, i could hear Mistress's skirt land on the floor and i instantly felt her warmth against my body.
i felt her hands run through my hair to the back of my head. Mistress began pulling me in towards her and i knew my work was just beginning. She carefully guided me into place, and nearly stopped before starting to slide into her. Slowly, She began pulling me deeper inside of her, each thrust going slightly deeper than the last. The thrusts were quite slow and gentle, and each one produced a soft groan from Mistress. My cock was throbbing hard as it fought against my bounds balls in an attempt to rise up. My knees pressed hard into the ground as my weight transferred back and forth as Mistress dictated the pace.
Now fully inside Her, Mistress's moans weren't so soft any more. She began increasing the pace and the intensity of each thrust, and was beginning to become almost rough. i suddenly felt the power of submission come over me. The feeling of being completely helpless and used by Mistress, simply an object that existed for Her pleasure. i felt even more submissive as i realized that she wasn't even using me for her pleasure, but a piece of plastic that was strapped to my head. Obviously Mistress felt that a piece of rubber could deliver Her more pleasure than i could, which was a terribly humbling moment.
i let my body relax and move in unison with Mistress hands. Slowly, i could feel myself completely turn my body over to her into an almost unconscious state. . . |
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It was quickly becoming clear what Mistress's plan was. i felt foolish to think that i was somehow going to be sexually satisfied tonight, and instead i was going to be used like the object that i am. Mistress noticed the obvious disappointment in my face and only offered a sarcastic chuckle in return.
"That's right slut, i much prefer this rubber cock than your pathetic excuse for one." Mistress stated harshly as she began to stroke the length of the cock with her hand. This obviously got me quick aroused watching this unfold inches before my eyes, as i could only dream what that would feel like on my 'pathetic real one'. i moaned in both delight and torture as i struggled against the handcuffs keeping my bound. My struggles only give me a harsh reminder of my predicament, in that my hands were bound to my very own balls, and any attempt to touch Mistress meant stretching my balls even more so.
As Mistress continued running her hand the full length of the shaft, i instinctively started rocking my whole body, especially my head, back and forth, pushing the rubber cock protruding from my face into Mistress's hands as if it were my own. "That's it slave, get used to that motion. You'll be doing that motion a lot tonight". . . |
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After unclipping me from the hooks in the ceiling and floor, Mistress quickly handcuffed my arms behind my back. "We wouldn't want you to get to excited and touch Me inappropriately now would we slut?" Mistress taunted as she restrained me. "Now lean over slut" she quipped harshly. i felt her behind me reaching between my legs and grabbing my balls and pull them back towards her. While i was trying to figure out what she was doing i felt something else slip around my balls. Before i knew what happened Mistress spanked me hard on the ass. i took a couple quick steps forward before realizing what she did - bind my cuffed hands to my balls. "Lets go slave, hurry before i change my mind about this".
Obviously i quickly walked as fast as i could, although it was extremely uncomfortable with my balls pulled so far back. Mistress would spank my ass hard whenever i had to turn a corner, and sometimes just for fun. Soon, we arrived at the door to Mistress room. She leaned over and whispered in my ear "Are You ready slave?". i nodded enthusiastically and Mistress slowly opened to door. She spanked me again and i lunged into her room where i saw the first sign that things may not be what i had hoped or dreamed of. In the center of the bed, there was a king size four post bed.
Judging by the size of the pillars on the bed, they were build for strength, not style. Mistress reached under my bound arms and tugged my balls to the ground, forcing me down on my knees. She stepped squarely behind me, and nudged me forward a bit so that i was close to the side of the bed. In one smooth and swift move, Mistress once again slipped the blindfold on me and fastened the back of it tightly. i breathed a sigh of disappointed which led Mistress to quipp "Quit whining slave, you're just lucky to be here". Of course, she was right.
i heard Mistress walk over to her dresser and rifle through her drawers a bit. The sound of matches being lit perked up my attention as i heard Mistress walk around the room, pause, walk to another part of the room and pause again. She slowly walked behind me again and began fastening a gag of some sort. i tried to wimper through the gag, but that just prompted Mistress to pull back and make it tighter. She let go of my head and i suddenly felt the surprising weight of the gag. The weight of the gag pulled my head forward and down, and i knew that there was something protruding from the front of it.
Mistress pulled the blindfold up temporarily, allowing me to see my new surroundings. The first thing i noticed was the candles lit in various locations around the room, which explain the sounds i heard just minutes ago. Then when trying to focus, it became clear what was attached to my gag. Protruding from the front of the gag was about a 8 to 10 inch cock, with a snickering Mistress standing behind it. . . |
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11 cock spanks Mistress. . .
12 cock spanks Mistress. . .
13 cock spanks Mistress. . .
14 cock spanks Mistress. . .
15 cock spanks Mistress. . .
16 cock spanks Mistress. . .
17 cock spanks Mistress. . .
18 cock spanks Mistress. . .
19 cock spanks Mistress. . .
20 cock spanks Mistress. . .
"Had enough yet slut?" Mistress asked coyly. i have experienced 20 cock spanks before, but tonight was a different situation all together. Obviously Mistress was making a point about me not making my cock spanks hard enough when i deliver them to myself, and i now knew the difference between my cock spanks and hers. Not only were they harder and more precise, but being blindfolded seemed to increase the intensity two fold as well.
Suddenly Mistress ripped the blindfold off my head. As my eyes adjusted and gained focus around the candle lit room, i saw Mistress standing there with my own leather belt folded in her hands. It was my own belt that she used on me. She must have pulled it out of my jeans shortly after i stripped down before our session. "You see slave, this is the same device you use when giving yourself cock spanks. So next time i hope you give them with that intensity. " Feeling quite defeated, i responded with a shameful "Yes Mistress, i know what You expect now. i am very sorry for falling short in the past".
"Good slave, and remember: just because you are giving yourself the punishment, it shouldn't change how hard the spanks are. I am watching you all the time, and i always will give you the appropriate punishment, even if its months later. i never forget".
i had certainly learned my lesson, and Mistress was right. Short changing my self-administered punishments helps in the short run, but Mistress will certainly notice and make me pay in the long term, so i'd be best off administering the correct punishment right the first time, no matter how painful that might be.
i stood there thinking about the punishment and how hard my cock hurt. it felt like as if someone just dropped boiling water on it. i looked down at my pathetic manhood and noticed how red it was, and i wondered how long it would take for the pain to go away. My sombre mood quickly changed when Mistress pressed herself up against me and whispered seductively in my ear "Ok slave, thats enough punishment for one night. Now how about we go up to my bed and work on some pleasure".
i stood there with a goofy deer in the headlights look on my face, like i was a teenager who saw a naked woman for the first time. i couldn't even reply i was so stunned, and Mistress just giggled and started unbuckling me from the hooks in the ceiling and floor. "I thought you'd be interested being the slut you are" Mistress said playfully.
Was this for real, was i actually about to have an intimate sexual experience with Mistress? Or was this some evil tease or trick? i would soon find out that it would be both. . . |
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My concern was quickly relieved when Mistress said "You're lucky that I've been satisfied by your journal entries lately slut, otherwise we'd be here until sunrise spanking your cock. " Just as i breathed a sigh of relief, Mistress continued "However, i do think its important that You get some practise so that next time you're on your own you know just how hard to spank your cock for me".
And with that i could hear Mistress take a couple steps back away from me, presumably so that she could wind up for the next series of cock spanks. i was right. "Now slave, i want You to count these out to me, and make sure you thank me for each and every one.". Somehow i lost my train of thought and selfishly asked "Yes Mistress, but how many spanks will i be receiving?" Within a millisecond of me finishing that sentence, a vicious spank went over my cock as it bounced off my legs and back into its erect position.
"You will count until i am done slave, no matter how long that may be, do you understand slave?". Shamefully, i responded with "Yes Mistress, i'm sorry for asking".
"You will be slave, now get ready to start counting, and make sure You remember how hard these spanks are." And with that came the spanking.
1 cock spank Mistress. . .
2 cock spank Mistress. . .
3 cock spank Mistress. . . .
4 cock spank Mistress. . .
5 cock spank Mistress. . .
6 cock spank Mistress. . .
7 cock spank Mistress. . .
8 cock spank Mistress. . .
9 cock spank Mistress. . ..
10 cock spank Mistress. . .
Thankfully, a pause in the action. i managed to count out the spanks as per Mistresses orders, but i could feel my cock hanging out there feeling like it was on fire. Perhaps 10 was how many Mistress intended on giving me and i took a quick sigh of relief. Then she continued. . . |
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Editors note: Mistress has asked me to remove the cross from the story, as it is not one of her preferred toys. Instead, i am now bound to some hooks on the ceiling and floor, both arms and legs spread wide as possible. i am now completely exposed, front and back to my Mistress in the center of her room.
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Mistress slapped my cock and muttered a cruel 'There's more where that came from slut' as i could hear her boots click on the floor. She reached behind me and grabbed a thick leather blindfold and wasted no time in taking away my vision. Mistress knew i dreaded the blindfold, as not only does it prevent me from seeing Her and what's about to happen, but it seems to make the pain more intense as i have fewer sensations to take in.
i listened with my ears as i could hear Mistress walking around the room, doing something with all her toys. Was she gathering an arm full of toys to use on me? Or maybe just taking her time and selecting just the right one for her mood this evening? i would soon find out, as the room went silent suddenly. i held my breath as i tried to hear where Mistress was and what she was doing. And then it happened.
Suddenly i felt a something smack my cock hard, making my erect cock bounce against my left thigh and back into it's erect position. The stinging pain of a powerful stroke quickly followed as i gasped with pain. Before i could mutter a 'thank You Mistress' another crack came across my cock. i struggled against the bonds, although with all my struggling my body barely moved. Mistress had me bound tight tonight.
"Now slut, that's what a cock spank is supposed to feel like." i wondered what Mistress meant by that, although i didn't have to wait that long. "I've watched You on cam slave, and when You give me a cock spank its not near hard enough." i quickly slipped out a lame apology, saying a simple '"i'm sorry Mistress". Mistress gave me another smack across the cock, this one equally as damaging as the first.
"Slut, when i punish You it's for a good reason. You know i'm fair. So when You carry out a punishment for Me, i expect your full effort, nothing less". Clearly i have not been fulfilling Mistress's requests for punishment when on cam, which i knew spelled trouble. She wouldn't reissue all the punishments she's ever given me would she? |
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It was going to be the first time i had seen Mistress in quite a while, and i was quite looking forward to it. Mistress had made some remarks about my lack of availability for Her, so this was extra special that we were able to get together. We had also arranged a longer session than normal and She made it very clear that she would keep me as late into the night as She wants. After all, i do exist purely for Her amusement.
Mistress answered the door looking amazing. It was quite clear that she had just come out of the shower recently and was ready to do whatever She pleases with my into the night. We exchanged pleasantries briefly discussing her health, whats been keeping us busy, etc. Mistress suddenly changed her tone and cut the chatting short "Are You ready for tonight slut? It could be a late night, I'm going to make up for lost time with you slave". i instantly nodded my head, eager to start the session and devote myself to Her.
Mistress grabbed my by the balls with one hand and my belt with the other. "Good slave, now go into the dungeon room and undress completely. If You don't hurry i'm going to use this belt on You." i replied with a quick 'Yes Mistress' and i walked briskly into the dungeon room. It was always intimidating going into that room, know that all of the furniture existed to render me helplessly bound, while all the tools around the room were for my torment.
i quickly took off all my clothes and stacked them neatly in the corner. As i was folding the last item, Mistress cam in and stared blankly at me. "What has taken You so long slut? You should be eager to present Yourself to me" All i could think of was if i really took that long or if Mistress was just that fast? In any case, She didn't seem happy. i apologized as i finished putting my clothes away and quickly knelt in front of Mistress, hands behind my back. "You should never keep me waiting slave" Mistress stated as she gave me a gentle kick to the groin. "Now get up and stand against that St. Andrews cross.
i wandered over to the cross on the far side of the room, which was made out of thick pieces of wood and had several straps all over the structure. Mistress wasted no time in fastening me to the cross, placing leather restraints on my wrists and ankles, as well as my knees, elbows and torso. Once done Mistress looked me in the eye with an evil grin and chuckled. Being restrained like this, so helpless at the hands of Mistress was always quite a turn on for me, and as a result my cock stood straight out in front of me.
This didn't go unnoticed by Mistress, who then wickedly remarked "i see you're exited slut - you're nice and erect for me. That's good, that will make it a lot easier for me to do what i'm about to". . . |
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i had another great chat this evening with Mistress.? Like many of our
chats, i was asking Mistress several questions getting to know her
better.?? i began asking her questions about how she liked certain
aspects of my last story, including the 'mind games' that occurred.
More specifically, i asked about her leaving me bound and in punishment
while She went out and about running errands.? She indicated that this
has been a possibility in the past for her in r/t, and she enjoyed the
fact that i wouldn't know if She was actually gone or not.? She also
indicated that She'd be open to inviting a friend over while i was
amusing her on webcam.? When i wrote this part of the story i really
wasn't sure what Mistress would think about it as we've never really
chatted about it.? i was relieved to found out that Mistress wasn't
bothered by it, and in fact considered it a possibility.? To be honest,
i'm not sure how i would feel about performing for another woman, but
really if Mistress's wish is to share me than i would be compelled to
obey.? i am simply her toy, and if this is how She wishes to use me,
then so be it.
We also talked about some 'equestrian' type games which is something we
haven't done yet.? We traded some ideas/games that may be of interest
to Mistress to play, and we'll see if she would like to play them in
one of next sessions. We also did a run through of what toys i had in
my 'kit', and she ensured that i had all our bases covered.
This just makes me look forward to our next session even more!
P.S.? New story coming soon!
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What have i done? i'm kidding of course, and generally in a good mood. Mistress mailed me today indicating that she enjoyed my story, which of course means the world to me. i enjoy writing stories, but it means so much more when the person You are trying to entertain gives You good feedback. Mistress was busy and out of town and therefore wasn't able to read the story until very recently. The lack of feedback kept me on pins and needles as i wasn't sure if Mistress would enjoy the story while i continued adding chapters without any verification from her for the last couple chapters.
On the frightening end (in a good way), Mistress mentioned that i ended up giving her some ideas. Now i wonder with great anticipation what she meant by that? She had already indicated that she may be interested in trying Icy Hot, but i don't know what else she may have taken in her mind as a possible addition to our scenes. Perhaps she'll tie me up and leave me in my room for hours while she goes out to run errands? Maybe she liked the idea of pleasuring herself while i'm in pain?
At the risk of biting off more that i can chew, i can't wait to find out which ideas Mistress liked! |
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i had the pleasure of chatting with Mistress the other night.? As always, i purely enjoyed it and it pains me when we have to end the chat.
We chatted a little about what she has read in the story, although she was a couple chapters behind.? i was thrilled to hear that She enjoyed what she read so far, and i'm confident that the next couple chapters are even better!?
She indicated that she hasn't had the opportunity of using Icy Hot cream on a sub yet, although she seems quite open to using it in the future.? If she ends up using it on me, i may regret writing that story as i have had a little taste of how painful it would be.? However, as i indicated to Mistress, i'd be more than glad to try new things with her.? Even if it caused me a great deal of pain, it would be a good experience that we share together - doing something new, exciting and risky.? i do own a bottle of Icy Hot now, and promised Mistress i'd bring it with be next trip, or have it on hand for my next session with her.
We also got talking about some of the other wonderful possibilities that we could try next time.? They included having me locked up with only Mistress knowing the combo to the lock, which would be a very exciting situation to be in.? Very much breaking down the walls of online relationships!
As always, i can't wait to chat with Mistress again.? Sincerely,
? bill
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The silence continued. It was at that point where i began to realize how much i craved some attention from Mistress. i wanted some contact, anything. Even if it meant more physical pain, teasing, or verbal degradation, i deeply desired some form of contact from Mistress. It made me realize how truly submissive i was, where i began to want physical pain just to be in Mistress's presence. Pain however wasn't in short supply as the pain from the jug continued to mount while the creme continued to burn away. i began wondering even if Mistress released me, would the burning stop? Was there some quick relief antidote?
Finally, finally a message from Mistress: "Actually slave, i think i'm going to keep you to myself tonight". i was in most ways, relieved. Who knows what would've happened if her friend came over, Mistress could've forgotten about me altogether!
The next message gave me so many emotions i could barely process them. "I think I'm going to get my vibrator, I think I deserve some pleasure. Don't go anywhere slave. LOL"
On one hand i was quite turned on. The thought of Mistress leaning back in her chair using a vibrator to give herself pleasure gave me quite a picture to think about. However it also teased me to the max, just thinking about Mistress sitting there being so aroused, excited and completely satisfied, while i stood in her presence in sheer pain.
She returned a few minutes later, teasing me even further. "Don't you wish you were able to give me this pleasure slave? To bad you're a worthless slut!" She was right. i found myself in great pain, but realizing even more how submissive i am. Despite the pain, there isn't a another place i'd rather be.
Another period of silence happened while i shifted around a bit, trying to give my muscles a refresh from standing so rigid for so long. Not only was i starting to fall apart physically, but Mistress's taunting made me even more emotionally aroused with her messages. They were pretty brief, but every couple minutes she would simply type
"oooooooooo", which would be followed by another few minutes of silence. My cock grew at the sight of these messages, as i kept thinking of Mistress in her chair with the vibrator. A few minutes later:
"Mmmmmmmm" Mistress typed. She knew perfectly well this was driving me crazy, a unique form of punishment on its own. The jug started to sway a bit as i struggled to keep my body still. Without knowing it, i was moving my hips back and forth slightly, as if i were the one receiving the pleasure.
Luckily for me, Mistress was so deep in her pleasure she was no longer watching me and had her eyes closed tightly in pleasure. There was several minutes of silence, the longest yet, where i correctly assumed that Mistress was bringing herself to orgasm. Finally, Mistress stated "Well slut, i'm completely exhausted, perhaps i should go to bed".
Ironically, i was thinking how exhausted i was as well before Mistress wrote "Ok slave, nod if you have learned your lesson". There was no hesitation, i nodded instantly and enthusiastically. "Well then slave, please type what lesson you have learned". i was relieved to free my arms from behind my back and typed out "Thank You Mistress for the punishment. You have very clearly reminded me of the consequences of failing to write in my journal whenever i am online. You deserve more of my attention, and it is fundamentally rude to visit collarme without writing in my journal for You, even if it is a brief entry. i sincerely apologize from this offense Mistress". Mistress replied with a simple
"Hmmm" before not writing anything for a minute, making me wonder if i convinced her enough that i was truly sorry. i began to worry that she may make me stand longer, and that i was not off the hook yet.
Finally, relief came. "Ok slave, you are lucky that i want to get to bed and i can't leave you there all night, as much as you might deserve it. You may untie your balls and wash off the cream now. BUT REMEMBER: i constantly watch you, and even if i don't notify You instantly of an infraction, i always remember them and i will punish you with increasing severity next time you are on cam. Now go untie your pathetic balls, i want to get to bed"
i quickly untied my balls and rinsed off the creme as best i could, although a little sting still remained. A further reminder of my infraction.
i went to bed shortly there after, sore, tired, exhausted. i had certainly learned my lesson. |
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i was in utter dismay. i had no idea how much time passed, but i couldn't imagine starting all over again. i quickly gutted out the pain momentarily and got back into good form. At this point my balls were absolutely on fire with nothing I can do about it.
"Well slave, I guess I'm going to have to stick around and make sure you keep good form."
i could tell Mistress not happy, as i had now changed her plans. Luckily, the pain from the icy hot seemed to have peeked. That was the good news, the bad news was that the pain was still very intense from the creme and i could not get the pain out of my mind. This was going to be a long punishment. Apparently, Mistress agreed.
"on phone with my good friend" Mistress stated. "We could talk for HOURS!"
i again trembled at the thought of standing here enduring the pain for hours. i could only picture Mistress sitting by her computer, her feet raised while she reclined back, chatting away on the phone while watching me out of the corner of her eye. After that there seemed to be several minutes (maybe more?) of complete silence. i tried to focus on my form and not the pain and i managed to keep the jug mostly still. i found myself craving contact from Mistress. Something. Anything. i almost wanted her to verbally degrade me just so that i my mind could focus on something other than the pain.
Finally, a message from Mistress: "Perhaps I should invite my friend over. She may enjoy watching you stand there while you wiggle in pain. She's pretty creative too, maybe she has some good ideas on what to do with you next slut."
Was she serious? i had no idea. If she was, i wouldn't have any clue what to expect. Maybe she would be harsher than Mistress. Maybe She'd make me to more painful things. Maybe the two of them would just sit there and talk with me on the computer in the background like some decoration. She hadn't talked much about other friends, so i was completely in the dark.
Another period of silence followed. My legs and arms were starting to get sore now for standing in the position for so long, and the worst part was that i had no idea if i was almost finished or if i was just getting started. Only Mistress knows the answer to that question. . . |
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Sure enough, within ten seconds or so i found out that Mistress was indeed correct - the hard way. The cool feeling quickly turned into a slight burning sensation. Nothing awful yet, but enough to get my attention and start to worry about Mistress's comment about how bad this would get. Mistress began taunting me:
"Burning yet slave? Hold still! lol".
Her taunting certainly didn't help my mindset, particularly as the pain increased. i clenched my teeth and closed my eyes to focus on staying still. So far it's working but i had no idea how bad the pain would get. i would soon find out.
"I wonder how long I should keep you there slave" Mistress taunted again. "I have no plans for the rest of the night".
The pain was getting quite intense now, and it literally felt like my balls were on fire. i started to wince and move a little side to side due to the discomfort. The jug hanging from my balls began to sway slightly, which reminded me of the 'other pain' that was on my balls.
Another beep from the chat. i opened my eyes to read "Maybe I'll go run some errands" Mistress said. "That could take hours". My mind reeled at the thought of standing here with the rope and jug continuing to pull at my balls while the Icy Hot cream continued to burn. She wasn't serious was she?
"The funny thing is slave is that i could be gone for two hours out of my house while you stay there and suffer, or i could be sitting here watching you suffer the whole time - and you wouldn't know any different!". Of course Mistress was right. i had no way of knowing. i couldn't simply take a break when she was out of her house and quickly get back into position just before she arrived back home.
If this was the punishment i was getting for missing a journal entry, i couldn't think of what Mistress would do to me if she caught me trying to skip out on a punishment.
The creme really started to burn at an incredible intensity. i started to think that the stretched skin of my balls just opened up my pores to allow the creme to penetrate even further. i also started realizing that i have now lost all complete sense of time. Have i been here for a couple minutes, 15minutes, 30? How much longer would she make me stand here like this, and how much worse would the pain get? i started really wincing, and my body began to give into the pain. My knees began moving and my arms started becoming relaxed and came out from behind my back. As a result of all this, the jug became swinging more noticeably which not only pulled on my balls more, but worse it caught Mistress's attention.
"SLAVE! GET BACK INTO POSITION AND STOP MOVING!"
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'Put the Icy Hot beside your keyboard, we'll need that in a minute' Mistress stated.
i was purely in reactive mode, almost panic mode, carrying out whatever Mistress asked without even thinking. My mind was so nervous, curious and worried that i couldn't begin to wonder what was next.
'Now listen up slut, here's whats going to happen' said Mistress. i took a deep breath and focused on Mistresses messages while i fought off the pain from the water jug stil hanging from my balls.
'Slave, you are going to take the Icy Hot, and spread a reasonable amount all over your balls. Once your done, wipe any remaining cream from your hands onto your nipples. Then you are to stand absolutely still, legs spread wide, and your arms behind your back. You WILL NOT move until you see a message from you instructing you to rest. You are to stand there and think about your mistake.'
'Yes Mistress, i will begin applying the cream right now.' i responded with fear of the unknown.
'Remember, i will be expecting you to remain absolutely still for an unspecified time frame. If you move, i will reset the timer. Do you understand slave?'
'Yes Mistress' i replied meakly, still coming to grasps with what was going to happen.
'Good, not make sure your screen saver isn't on slut. I'd hate to see you miss my release command!' Mistress chuckled.
i'm glad she reminded me though, as it turns out that my screen saver was turned off, which would've been disastrous. Mistress could've given me permission to end the suffering and i'd be stuck there with my hands behind my back. 'Ready slave?' Mistress asked.
'Yes Mistress' i said as i took a deep breath, determined to carry out this punishment and begin working to improve my standing with Mistress.
'OK, here we go' Mistress typed, followed by the countdown. . . 3. . .2. . .1. .Go!
i took my position with my legs spread wide and tucked my hands neatly and firmly behind my back. The jug dangled from my balls swaying slightly from side to side, causing discomfort throughout my lower body. i could start to feel the Icy Hot on my balls, although it was almost a nice cooling sensation. This Icy Hot stuff isn't so bad i thought.
As if She was reading my mind, Mistress stated 'In case you're thinking that the Icy Hot is a treat and not a punishment, just wait a few minutes. You'll know it when it starts to kick in, and just when you think it won't get anymore painful. . . it will!'. |
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i had no idea what that actually meant. Perhaps she was going to have me repeatedly spank my balls with the belt until they burned? Perhaps she was going to use the candles on me in some fashion? In any case, i wasn't looking forward to finding out, but deep down inside i knew that i had to accept this punishment, whatever it was.
"How full is that milk jug slave"? Mistress asked sharply. "It is half full Mistress, as per Your usual request" i replied nervously. Did she want it fuller? panic set it again. Mistress must have noticed my apprehension as she responded "Half is fine slave. For now anyways. Now stand up and tie that jug to your balls slave, and make sure you leave no more than a foot of rope between your balls and the jug." i carried out her orders as she requested, clumsily tying the rope around the handle of the jug. After becoming confident in the knot, i gently transferred the weight of the jug to my balls. Wincing in pain, i directed the web cam down towards my balls so that Mistress could inspect what i've done.
'Now slave, tell me why i'm so upset and what You will do in the future to ensure You don't upset me again". i paused a little before giving my response, saying "i'm sorry again Mistress, i'm sorry for not making a journal entry when i signed into collarme last week. i am fully aware that i am required to make a journal entry each and every time i am on collarme, which is a very fair expectation". i continued my apology with the jug pulling my balls toward the floor "even though i am busy when i am offline, i can be thinking of what i should be putting in my journal while not online, so that when i'm online all i have to do is quickly type up my thoughts".
Mistress seemed to like this idea and said "That's a good plan slave, and i'm glad You have addressed it. However, that doesn't change the fact that you have once again broken this rule. And now it's time for your punishment to really take effect. Go get that tube of Icy Hot that i've asked you to bring". . . |
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Roasted Nuts
i arrived at my hotel and immediately booted up my laptop. This trip was a long time coming, and i was looking forward to having a hotel room to myself and not have to worry about my brother barging in on me while performing some sort of task for Mistress. i quickly signed into chat and crossed my fingers that Mistress would be there. She wasn't, but that just gave me an opportunity to get everything ready for her. She had given me a list of things to bring, most of what are the items i usually have on hand or take with me on the road: a belt, several clothespins, candles, a milk jug, and lots of rope. She also had me bring some Icy Hot cream which i wasn't sure what that was for, but i was quite curious to find out.
Based on previous experience with Mistress, i filed the jug halfway with water as that has been a commonly used weight hung & swung from my balls in previous sessions. i also recalled when Mistress had me submerge my balls in ice water, using the usual ice bucket the hotel provides. After filling it with ice from the ice machine machine, i topped it up with cold water and put it nearby my laptop so that it'd be ready should Mistress wish to use it on me.
All the ropes were spread out over the chair, which i had pushed aside as i always kneel while chatting with Mistress. The remaining items remained on the floor nearby my 'station'. There i sat in front of my laptop, surrounded by various devices on standby. It was quite a sight! But i was set.
Within minutes, Mistress showed up online and we began chatting. We made some small chat and i could tell something was bothering her as she seems upset, perhaps at me. After catching up on things, Mistress gave me the order to begin my routine and turn on the web cam. i instantly undressed myself completely, leaving my naked with the exception of my belt which i put around my neck as a pseudo collar. i took my place kneeling on the floor, turned on the webcam and placed my hands behind my back.
Instantly, Mistress said "Slave, aren't You missing something?". i immediately realized my mistake, and quickly wrote back: "i'm sorry Mistress, i will tie up my cock and balls right away". "Good slut" Mistress replied, "and make sure your balls are tied separately. And TIGHT! i am not in a good mood tonight, and you're the reason why slave." My heart sank at that statement, and made me worry about what was in store for me tonight.
'Tighter! Much Tighter' Mistress said. 'And make sure you have enough rope to hang that jug from your balls slut'
i complied and bound my balls as tighter than i have in the past, but i was nearly trembling as Mistress's 'matter of fact voice' tone was very intimidating.
'Now slave, how many times have i told you to post a journal entry every single time you are on collarme?' Mistress asked rhetorically. Now it all made sense. Mistress has always disliked when i signed into collarme without writing in my journal, and i logged in last week without ding so. i apologized, but it was too late - the offense had been committed. 'Since this is a repeat offense, the punishment will obviously have to be severe slave.' Mistress was always fair, and had every right to be upset with me tonight.
She continued: "We're going to do something different tonight slave, something I call roasted balls'. . . |
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Sometimes the most interesting chats are those that you don't expect to be!
i had the priviledge of chatting with Mistress last week, and it turned out to be more than i bargained for.? Originally, i was only going to say a quick hello to Mistress, and see how she was doing.? It was quite late and i even mentioned to Mistress that i would be online for mere minutes.? i ended up staying online for close to an hour, as the conversation was to good to bring to a close.
It started off fairly innocently, where i was fondly recalling our last chat where we discussed some of Mistress's preferences.? That ended up leading to even more discussions around her preferences in BDSM, including some very interested topics.
It would not be prudent to share those preferences themselves, but we covered many preferences such as bondage positions, spanking techniques, tools, etc.?
i enjoy these chats for several reasons.? First of all, it gives me the opportunity to get to know Mistress better, and that really is the best part.? Second, it provides us with more questions for Mistress to quiz me with during our next chat.? i know that Mistress loves that game, as do i.? And lastly, it simply allows both of us to discuss various aspects of BDSM, which to me is conversation that never gets old.
Here's looking forward to the next chat. . .
Sincerely,
bill
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i was fortunate enough to chat with Mistress last week, and while there
were mixed results at the end of the chat i knew Mistress much better.?
i pride myself on knowing and remembering the results from the 'quiz'
game that we often play, which often revolves around Mistress quizing
me with questions about her, her lifestyle, and some of her sexual
preferences (gulp!).? Mistress asked me to tell her a set of
information about her, and unfortunately i wasn't as prepared as i'd
like to be.? Very much a 'deer in the headlights' type of scenario.
? However i soldiered on, desperately wanting to please Mistress.? For
the first few questions i did exactly that, and i started to get over
confident.? However the more i thought i knew, the more i realized i
wasn't as sharp as i expect of myself, and more importantly what
Mistress expects of me.? Most of the time my answers were in the right
ballpark, however i had some details wrong or my answer wasn't
complete.? Given the length of time i've known Mistress, and how often
we've played this game it was disappointing that i couldn't retain
these details.
? Thankfully Mistress corrected me, and while i feel awful that i
didn't remember them that night, i have committed those mistakes to
memory.? Mistress has always been very fair when i make mistakes,
however i would hate to think of the disappointment that i would cause
if i made those same mistakes again. Mistress deserves better, and i
hope to give her what she deserves.? Sincerely,
bill
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On the good note, i was able to chat with Mistress tonight which was fantastic.? On the downside, she expressed her disappointment in me due to the fact that i have signed on to collarme occasionally without making a journal entry.
The deal was that if i had time to go on collarme, than i had time to write an entry.? There has only been a few times where this occurs, however Mistress expects and deserves full compliance, and i have not given her that.
Although i am very busy, i need to ensure that Mistress receives the commitment agreed upon, and that i abide by her fair and quite frankly generous rules.? i really dislike disappointing her, and i feel quite badly about my in-actions. ? i need to remember this feeling for the next time i log in, so that i ensure i create a journal entry? for her.
Mistress, please accept my apologies, and i hope You can find some way to forgive me and give me a chance to improve.? Sincerely,
bill
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Greetings, just a quick journal entry saying hello to You Mistress!
i sure wish life wasn't this busy, and there was more time to devote to You.? i very much enjoy our meetings, and miss being able to do them more often.? But please realize that i do think of You very often, daily at a minimum.
There are times where i play our quiz game in my mind to keep my knowledge of You fresh, so that i can impress You next time we chat.? i love getting questions that i have the answer to, as i know that that makes You happy which in turn fulfills my need to exist.
Until next time, love,
bill
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My first journal entry in a long time, but i felt it important to make this one.? That is because today is a special day for a very special person!
Happy Birthday to Mistress, i hope You have a wonderful year upcoming.? You deserve nothing but the best!
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Unfortunately, i was not able to chat much with Mistress last night, but am looking forward to tonight.? As promised, i bought a milk jug today, which could be used for all sorts of games when combined with a string.? Some include:
-dragging the jug around the room by the balls, like a prisoners ball and chain.
-hanging the jug off the balls for a given length of time, with a given amount filled
-fix the jugs approx 1/2 full and tie to the balls.? If punished (or get something wrong in the Q&A game for example), i then pull the jug off the table by my balls which then yanks them hard.
Knowing that Mistress likes the Q&A game, i know that it is likely that we will play this evening.? She also hinted that she may ask some of the same questions that i got wrong last time.? i am confident that i will get the answers correct, although i can't imagine what would happen if i get them wrong again!
In any case, one of the best parts of the game is that i get to know Mistress better after each and every question.? i feel it brings us closer, which is all a slave can as for.
Wish me luck!
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(This entry was for last night)
i just had a fantastic evening with Mistress last night.? We were able to meet up online and chat for quite some time.? It did not start off well as Mistress noticed that i didn't do journal entries for the previous two evenings, and after i caught up on those i was punished.?
Mistress first asked me how many spanks i thought i deserved.? After some thought, i suggested 30: 10 per incident, plus an extra 10 for a repeat offense.? Mistress sharply pointed out that the last punishment was actually 15 per incident, and therefore i felt i had no other choice but to up my estimate to 50:? 15 for each offense, plus an additional 15 for repeat offense, and an extra 5 for not remembering the last punishment.
Knowing that no cock could withstand 50 cock spanks, Mistress started with 20.? Good thing too, as they really stung!? i held strong through the first 10 or so, but they really started to build in pain after that.? i couldn't imagine what 50 would feel like!
However Mistress wasn't done there.? Mistress made me 'dunk' my bound balls in a bucket full of ice water for about a minute.? The pain was intense!? She watched on the webcam to ensure i wasn't cheating, and even made sure the ice was topped up to the brim.? After the minute was up, my balls were frozen into that shape for a few minutes!? However it was a punishment i deserved.? i might have been able to last longer than a minute if Mistress demanded it, how much longer i don't know.
We also played the Q & A game, which i know Mistress enjoyed.? i didn't start off well, as i got a few questions wrong initially.? However i rebounded with mostly right answers after that, and i may have even? impressed Mistress with my memory.
At the end of the evening, Mistress released me and let me go to bed.? i was spent, but i had a great time knowing that i entertained Mistress.
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It seems as though i have not learned my lesson, and in doing so have upset Mistress greatly.? i recently posted in my journal that i made a serious error by updating the content and not writing to Mistress that i had updated my journal.? For that Mistress gave me a fair punishment.
Despite that fair punishment, i somehow managed to neglect this protocol not once but twice.? i updated my journal since then, but did not write to Mistress to notify her of these updates.? Obviously, this has left Mistress very upset, and she has every right to be this way.?
Mistress expects much more from me, as do i.? This is not a new routine either, which makes my offense even more obscene.? While i believe i did mention to Mistress while chatting once that updated my journal, this is not the routine and i should no better.? i need to learn that Mistress expects full compliance no matter what.
There are no words that could express how bad i feel about being such a poor slave in this regard.? Mistress has indicated that i will punished for these offenses, which is to be expected.? Although i'm sure the punishment will be severe, i'm sure it will be fair as always.
Mistress, please accept my lack of protocol and poor servitude.? I humbly beg for Your forgiveness and will accept whatever punishment You deem necessary.
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Good news and bad news: the good news is that Mistress enjoyed my last chapter of the story, however i made a mistake that should not have happened.
When i did my journal entry, i did not write Mistress to inform her that i updated my journal.? Obviously this is unacceptable as Mistress should not have to waste her time checking my journal, i should be informing her when a change has been made.
As such, Mistress has demanded a 15 cock spank penalty by a wooden spoon, which of course is very fair.? Given the length of time that i've been serving Mistress, i should have known better.
i carried out the punishment tonight in front of Mistress, and the pain was a good reminder of my error.? i sincerely apologize for my mistake Mistress, and thank You for the punishment.? i appreciate Your patience with me, and for forgiving me? when i make a mistake.
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And suddenly it was game on, and i was playing for pain.? Just to make me more uncomfortable, Mistress cracked a joke: 'You better play well slave, or you balls will be the color of the checkers once were done'.? Of course there was a big part of me that knew that she really wasn't joking.
Mistress made the first move instantly, and it took me half a minute or so while i re-orientated myself to the game of checkers.? As soon as i made my move, Mistress made her next move right away.? It was as if i were playing the computer, and she was calculating all the odds.? Within 4 or 5 moves, Mistress had already captured one of my checkers, and Mistress remarked 'Well, that's 10 cock spanks. . . so far slave'.?
Given that i hadn't played checkers in years, i thought i was actually doing alright, but that was all about to change.? Somehow i didn't see it coming, but Mistress triple jumped me.? And just like that, the board was looking very red - just like the color of my face, not to mention the future color of my balls.
i tried to refocus, although Mistress kept sending threatening messages making fun of my predicament.? i was able to get one of her checkers in the next move, but Mistress countered with another double which deflated my spirits once again.? It was like one step forward, two steps back.
The game continued like this for awhile, despite my best efforts.? The taunting came frequently which i'm sure was a tactic to mess with my mind.? It was working.? i was soon corned by the army of red checkers, and i knew the painful end was near.
The final score: Mistress wins by 7.? i felt like crawling into a hole. . . .
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'Well slave, do you remember that list of tasks that I had you
compile?'? i thought about all the painful and elaborate ways that i
brainstormed and googled, which ended up in a list of tasks that i may
someday perform for Mistress.? It turns out that tonight might just be
that sometime, if i don't play my cards right.? 'In case you don't
remember, here's a recap which has been revised for this game:'
-2 minutes with your balls dunked in ice water
-1 chair pull using your balls, the full length of the hallway
-10 cock spanks
-1 drop of the milk jug (half full), tied to your balls
-10 clothespins on your balls for 5minutes
i read over that list thinking that each one presented it's own pain is
a different way, and that i had to avoid losing at all costs to keep
this pain to a minimum.? Mistress continued 'Of course, assuming i beat
You as bad as i intend, i will have plenty of points to spend.'? i
gulped at the thought of Mistress going on a 'shopping spree' at my
painful expense.? 'Perhaps i'll spread my points around, or perhaps
i'll allocate them all to one task, forcing You to make several trips
down the hallway, or repeated drops of the milk jug.'
i didn't know how to react.? Should i try to get the game started, or
stall a little in hopes of delaying the inevitable?? i suddenly started
thinking and couldn't really remember the last time i actually played
checkers, and panic started to overcome me.? How many checkers are on
the board, what is the worst case scenario?
And with that, Mistress declared 'Slave, let the games begin.? Of course, ladies first. . .'
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Part 1
Knowing that my pesky brother was going to be out of the house this
evening, i was extremely thrilled to get online tonight and chat with
Mistress.? It has been awhile since i was able to have a chat of any
length of time with Her lately, and tonight was going to be the night.?
i was prepared (so? i thought) for anything Mistress wanted me to do
tonight, and had several ropes, my belt, a bucket of ice water, a milk
just, and a set of clothespins, as Mistress had instructed me to have
all this ready.? For what i did not know. . .
As fast as my PC would boot up, i logged into messenger and was
thrilled and relieved to see Mistress already online.? i took off all
my clothes before im'ing Her as part of the routine, and once i was
naked before her i wished her a good evening.? We had some small chat
briefly, before Mistress suddenly said, 'Slave, i want to play a game
with You tonight.? Did You bring the items i've asked You to bring?'? i
nervously confirmed that i did indeed follow instructions, and she
responded with 'Good slave, we're going to play checkers tonight - but
with a twist'. . .
Whenever Mistress played a game, there was always a twist involved, and
therefore i was not surprised.? Of course, i had no idea what the twist
was, and therefore i paid keen attention to the screen.? 'Of course
slave, i am going to beat You in this game' Mistress stated matter of
factly.? i dare not argue with her, so all i responded with was 'Yes
Mistress, of course You will - You are mentally, physically and
sexually stronger than i am'.? Mistress agreed: 'You are right slave, i
am glad You are learning Your place, albeit slowly.? Now here's what's
going to happen.? After the game, we're going to count how many
checkers I have left.'? i nodded in agreement and simply wrote 'Yes
Mistress, i understand so far.'.? Then i found out the twist as
Mistress explained 'for every checker i have left on the board, i get
one punishment point'.? i waited for a response, before asking 'Yes
Mistress, but may i please ask what a punishment point is?'.
Mistress responded 'LOL slave, i thought you would want to know. . .'
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It is Thanksgiving time up here in Canada, and therefore i couldn't think of a better time to write a journal entry expressing for Mistress.
Lord knows i am not the greatest sub, as i make mistakes and live a busy life which doesn't leave me near as much time as i'd like to spend serving Mistress.? And when we do chat, i often end up making a mistake which upsets Mistress, and the rest of the session is spent punishing me for the mistake.
Yet Mistress carries on training me, displaying the patience in making me a better slave, even though i may frustrate her at times.? It can't be easy for Her to do this, and therefore i am very thankful for Her wisdom, patience, and understanding taking me in as her slave.
So with that, thank You Mistress for all that You do with me, please know that it is greatly appreciated!
And Happy Thanksgiving!
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This is a journal entry of a different type, one that i feel compelled to write for Mistress.? i was recently informed that she is suffering some pain due to a health problem, and at the same time going through some sorrow - both on a personal level, and on behalf of some friends.
There is nothing worse than seeing someone you care so deeply about go through not one but two incidents like this, and not being able to do much about it.? i would glady take on the pain that she is suffering and make it my own if it were to give her relief.
Mistress, please know that You will be in my prayers and thoughts over the next few days, hoping for a speedy recovery from the physical and emotional pain that You are under.? You are always such a fair person, and life likely seems unfair towards You right now.? However i also know that You are a strong person, one who can maintain the balance between strength and healthy grieving.
If there is anything, anything that i could do to make this even slightly more tolerable, please let me know.? Most sincerely,
bill
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First of all, i must thank Mistress for her patience and support while
myself and my family deal with our recent tragedy.? Due to the tragedy
in my family, i was unable to fulfill my obligations as her slave, and
for that i humbly apologize.? i was fortunate enough to chat with her
briefly over the course of the past couple weeks and she was
understandably disappointed yet caring and understanding.
To pick up where i last left off, i was looking into tasks that could
be performed for Mistress.? In addition to the ones already posted, i
have thought of a couple new ones which i will list below:
- Ballsicles - i must fill up a bowl full of ice cubes and water,
and lay it on the ground in front of the computer.? Using my usual
ropes, i must bind my balls separately and aware from my body.? Then,
for a length of time to be determined by Mistress, i must submerge my
balls into the ice water, all while staring at her profile.
- Chair pulling - as if pulling a chariot with my balls, i am to
tied a rope to my balls, then tie the other end to a chair.? Once done,
i must crawl back and forth down my hallway pulling the chair solely by
my balls.? This would be to simulate my carting Mistress around ona chariot.? For added pain/punishment, Mistress may make me do additional laps or add weight to the char(iot)
Of course, i'd love to hear any similar other ideas from any Mistress or subs out there!
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This was my assignment, which was actually done yesterday.? Due to a misunderstanding, i incorrectly, posted my assignment results in an email to Mistress as opposed to my journal.? So please forgive me for this error, and i will correctly place my findings below.
The assignment was to research other tasks that slave perform for their Mistress, often on a daily basis.? i had to find and report 5 such tasks, and also come up with 10 in total on my own (although i could use some or all of the first list of 5 tasks).
Here are 5 tasks that i found others to do for their Mistress's:
- The slave will eat his supper out of a bowl for his Mistress, symbolizing the dog he really is.
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slave will not make eye contact with any females, and will always look
down when running into one.? This is to remind the slave that females
are superior.
- Will masturbate, however only up to a certain
point without cumming.? This will remind me that i do not control my
own satisfaction.
- A daily predefined punishment for me, just to enough to cause pain to remind me of who he serves.
- Sleep naked, without clothing or blankets/sheets, to symbolize living in a dungeon
And below is my complete list of ten tasks that i could perform for Mistress:
- i will not make eye contact with any females, and will always look
down when running into one.? This is to remind me that females
are superior.
- i will masturbate, however only up to a certain
point without cumming.? This will remind me that i do not control my
own satisfaction.
- A daily predefined punishment for me, just to enough to cause pain to remind me of who he serves.
- i will sleep naked, without clothing or blankets/sheets, to symbolize living in Mistress's dungeon
- A daily entry into my journal, as a symbol of dedication to You.
- When alone in the house, wear something (such as a belt) around my neck to symbolize a collar from Mistress
- Wear
some sort of handcuffs (rope, string, etc) for at least 15min each day.
- Tie
my balls to the infamous milk jug, with a rope just too short to rest
on the floor while standing.? i must walk around the house with this
'anchor' for at least 5 min each day.
- Wear elastic bands or rope around my cock balls, for at least 15min WHILE IN PUBLIC (running errands, etc).
- Sit in from of Mistress profile on Collarme, naked, bound with hand behind my back for at least 5min each day.
i hope You enjoy my findings Mistress, and can't wait to find out where to go from here.? Sincerely,
bill
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Today i made another mistake, and Mistress has decided to force me to decide an appropriate punishment.
i was once again non-committal when chatting with Mistress, which is completely unacceptable.? Last time this happened, Mistress decided on 30 cock spanks, 15 with a belt, 15 with a wooden spoon.
Because it was a repeat offence, i believe 40 cock spanks (20 of each type) would be a reasonable punishment.
i hope Mistress agrees and i will accept an alternate punishment if she decides otherwise.
Thank You again Mistress for being patient with me.? i hate making these mistakes more than You could imaging.? Sincerely,
bill
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i panicked completely, this was either the right answer by a long shot,
or i was about to do my cock and balls in forever.? Which was it?? Did
Mistress even like that story?? Maybe she already has one in real
life?? Maybe i haven't earned the right to service her using such a
toy?? It was almost as if Mistress knew i was panicking, and just to
torment me even more she stated: 'I want your answer in 15 seconds
slave, otherwise I'm going to assume your answer is wrong.'? i almost
froze.? There were so many concerns going on in my head i couldn't
concentrate on any single one.? To make matters worse, Mistress began
counting down the rime remaining.
14. . .
13. . .
12. . .
How could i think this through with such pressure and high
stakes?? i had to shut my eyes and think.? Did Mistress ever mention any other gags?? If she did, which ones?
11. . .
10 seconds slave!
9. . .
i madly clicked the links searching for some clue or reason to pick one or the others.?
8. . .
7. . .
It just had to be the dildo gag didn't it?
6. . .
5. . .
And if not, which of the two other gags would i choose?
4. . .
3. . .
And with no other alternative left, and deciding to go with my gut
instinct, i typed to Mistress as she counted down 2 . . . and 1. . .
'Mistress, i select the dildo gag please'.? After checking the screen a
few times to ensure that i made it on time, i froze in anticipation for
the Mistress's next response.? To prolong the agony, Mistress typed
everything one word on a line with a few seconds in between each line.
Well
Slave,
it
looks
like
your
cock
and
balls
will
live
for
another
day. . .
You
are
correct.
And with that came great relief as my adrenaline started slowing down.?
The only problem is that the pain from the torment started settling
in.? My cock was on fire and my balls ached and were swollen.? And just
like that, Mistress seemed satisfied for what she put me through and
simple said 'Thank you slave, i had fun tonight.? Next time i won't be
as easy on you, so you had better study up. . .'
THE END
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Feeling mentally and physical worn out, i knew i had to pull it
together for this next question.? 'You may remove the jug from your
balls now slave - for now.'? 'Oh thank You Mistress' i pleaded as i
untied the string as quickly as i could to get the weight off my balls
as soon as possible.? After removing the jug successfully, my mind
began wondering what this familiar? object was.? i had no idea what
that meant, and i wasn't sure if this was a good sign or a bad sign.?
The links began coming, and i tried as best as i could to focus on the
task at hand.
'Are you ready slave?' Mistress asked.? 'Of course Mistress' i stated
confidently, trying win a few extra points with Mistress.? 'Don't get
cute with me slave' Mistress warned, proving that she knew me better
than i know myself.? The first item came and to my surprise was not a
torture device per se, it was a rubber ball gag.? The ball itself was 2
inches wide and was red in color.? The straps connected in the back,
and were made of good quality thick leather.? i had never worn a gag
like this before, nor did Mistress or i ever talk about one so i had no
idea how to react to this.? As always, Mistress had my mind going a
mile a minute.
When the second item came, the 'theme' of the question became clear -
mouth gags.? This one was a 'Pony bit gag', a bit unusual looking
device. The bit itself was a silicon cylinder which went straight
through the slaves mouth, with his/her teeth clenched on it.? Each end
of the cylinder was connected by metal rings to leather straps which
ensured that the gag stayed in the slaves mouth.? This one had a metal
key lock in the back, which made it an interesting scenario.? For that
reason, i ranked this device ahead of the other first device.
The third item was a shocking looking device, and took me back for a
few seconds after the page loaded.? Then it hit me.? This device was a
gag like the others, with a large silicone 8 inch cock protruding out
of it.? After my mind got over the sight of the device, i realized that
this was the familiar device Mistress was referring too.? In a previous
story, i had wrote about using one of these devices, to which Mistress
remarked at what an interesting proposition that was.? i knew that was
the device of choice, i had made up my mind.
Or was this a trick question?
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And with a sudden and violent yank on my balls, a shot of pain ran
through my balls and lower stomach.? It took every bit of strength in
my body to keep myself standing, and not curling up into a ball on the
ground.? i was able to keep my hands behind my back, but just barely.?
i stood there, exposed to Mistress with my legs trembling - i could
here Mistress laughing in the distance.? Of course, the just is still
hanging off my balls, rocking back and force giving added jolts of
pain.? They were like aftershocks after an earthquake.
Mistress wrote back with a 'Mmmmmmmmm, how did that feel slave?'?
Almost in shock, i responded back a very honest response 'Mistress,
that was very painful, and still is.'? Showing no mercy, Mistress
remained unmoved 'Good, i want you to stand there and let the jug hang
for a few seconds.? In the meantime, I want you to think about how
you've disappointed me.'? So i stood as still as my weakened body
could, waiting for Mistress's release.? After what seemed like an
eternity, releif finally arrived.? 'Ok slave, that's enough.? That is,
until i feel differently'.? 'Oh thank You Mistress, thank You very
much' i studdered.? 'Don't you have anything to say to me slave?'
Mistress quizzed.? 'Yes Mistress, i am very sorry for disappointing
You.? i feel awful for answering that last question so poorly.'
'Good slave.? Do you think the punishment was fair?'? After thinking
about the question and how much pain i was in, i didn't know what to
say.? However, i took a deep breath and responded back a sincere 'Well
Mistress, i think the punishment was very severe, but so was the
offence.? Overall, i do think it was fair.'? 'Good slave, because its
time for your next question.? And this one i fully expect You to get,
as there will be a familiar object.? If you get this question wrong,
you will have to fill up that milk jug. . .'
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And it began.? Mistress had become an expert in giving explicit
instructions, without letting on the eventual goal.? It drove me nuts
and i knew that was exactly what Mistress wanted to do to me.? 'Slave,
take the end of the rope that is wrapped around your balls, and unwind
it so that there is about 1 foot of free rope.? Show it to me.'?
Naturally, i did exactly as Mistress asked, albeit nervously.? 'Now i
want you to tie that free rope into a knot around your balls so that if
it is pulled upon, the rope won't unwind off your balls'.? I started
connecting the dots and became increasingly worried about what was
next.? i tied the know as Mistress asked, and by the time i looked back
at the screen Mistress had already typed a message 'Give the free rope
a couple good tugs for me, and make sure it holds slave.? If it comes
off during this exercise, i will not be happy.'? Leaning towards the
webcam, i gave the rope a couple good tugs.? The rope held fine,
although i whimpered in pain as the tugs shot pain through my balls.?
'Good, now here's what i want you to do slave. . .' Mistress
continued.? 'Take the free end of the rope, and tie it to the handle on
the milk jug.? Make sure it is tight slave.'? Although i was almost
certain i knew where this was going, i continued following Mistress's
instructions like a sheep.? 'Now comes the fun part slave.? Well, fun
for me anyways, lol'.? i could just imagine Mistress chuckling at the
predicament i found myself in.? 'Put the water jug at the edge of your
computer desk.'? Using my hands, i slid the jug right to the edge of
the computer desk.? The jug now felt like an anchor on my balls as i
leaned back towards the keyboard.? Just doing that nearly pulled the
jug off the desk.? 'Good, now slave, this is going to be very difficult
for you to do, but i want you to do it anyways, without exception.'? i
gulped and responded with a very meek 'yes Mistress, i will do as You
say'.? 'First, place your arms behind your back, and keep them there.?
Remember that I'm watching you, and any disobidience will not be
tolerated.'? i nodded in agreement, keeping my hands strictly behind my
back.? 'Widen your legs slave'.? With each leg, i moved each foot about
6 inches outward.? 'MORE SLAVE' Mistress commanded in caps.? i mustered
up another 6 inches from each leg before seeing the message i was
worried about.? 'Now, pull the jug off the desk.? But make sure you
stay standing, and your arms behind your back'.
i slowly closed my eyes, took a deep breath and inched the jug off the
desk, knowing the pain was coming.? As my eyes shut, i could just see
the jug falling towards the ground. . .
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i had no idea what Mistress meant by that, but i was extremely worried
about what i was in for.? Was it more cock spanks?? Somethiing
different?? i didn't have to wait long to find out.? 'As much as i'd
love to punish your cock further, i want to do shake things up a
little.? Make sure the rope is tied tight around your balls.'? Mistress
demanded.? Concerned but obidient, i checked the rope that was looped
around my balls.? It was still quite tight, (at least in my opinion) so
i responded to Mistress accordingly.? Mistress quickly responded
'Good.? Slave, do you have an empty jug of milk around?'.? Confused,
curious and scared, i responded with a 'Yes Mistress, i have several
empty ones in my garage.'? Chuckling, Mistress continued 'Good slave,
all i want is one plastic jug. . . for now.? Go get one, and hurry
slave, don't keep me waiting.'? Still wondering what was about to
happen, i ran to the garage in my naked and partially bound state, and
returned with a plastic gallon milk jug'.? i showed Mistress the jug on
the webcam, which met her expectations.
What happened next made me even more curious.? Mistress stated 'Go fill
it half full of water, put the lid on it, and return it to me.'? This
was only getting more concerning by the minute, but i obliged and
filled the jug half full in my bathroom.? Mistress then began her next
instructions, which would end up being a very painful punishment. . .
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i knew Mistress meant business.? It's not often she wants me on cam, so
i knew that she was in an elevated mood.? We've only cam'd together a
few times, and each time was very intense.? Lucky (or unlucky) enough,
i had my work computer today which had the webcam.? i responded back to
Mistress saying "i'm sorry Mistress, i will start up my webcam at
once.".? Mistress quickly replied 'hurry slut, i'm not happy'.? i
quickly began hooking up the cam and mic, sorting out the mess of wires
in a panic'd state of mind - wires were flung around like crazy.
i shortly had the webcam up and running, and ensured it was focused on
the things Mistress wanted to see - my soon to be beaten cock and
balls.? i ensured with Mistress that the setup was to her satisfaction,
to which she confirmed.? 'Slave, as you know, i am not happy that you
were wrong twice on such a simple question.? You should know me better
than that, and you will soon learn to pay closer attention to my
interests."? Mistress continued: 'An to start, i want 25 cock spanks
now.? And make sure they are hard ones and remember, I'll be
watching.'?? Without any further comments, i began administering the
spanks, counting them out loud as always.
One cock spank Mistress. . .
Two cock spanks Mistress. . .
Three cock spanks Mistress. . .
Four cock spanks Mistress. . .
Five cock spanks Mistress. . .
Six cock spanks Mistress. . .
Seven cock spanks Mistress. . .
Eight cock spanks Mistress. . .
Nine cock spanks Mistress. . .
Ten cock spanks Mistress. . .
After the first ten cock spanks, my cock was on fire.? The first ten
seemed incrementaly worse due my cock still being sensitive from the
last round of spanks.? It also suddenly occured to me that Mistress
said to 'start' with the 25 cock spanks, meaning more punishment of
some sort was on the way.? i tried to hide this concern and contine
with my original punishment.
eleven cock spanks Mistress. . .
Twelve cock spanks Mistress. . .
Thirteen cock spanks Mistress. . .
fourteen cock spanks Mistress. .
Fifteen cock spanks Mistress. . .
Sixteen cock spanks Mistress. . .
Seventeen cock spanks Mistress. .
Eighteen cock spanks Mistress. . .
Nineteen cock spanks Mistress. . .
Twenty cock spanks Mistress. . .
Twenty-one cock spanks Mistress. . .
Twenty two cock spanks Mistress. . .
twenty three cock spanks Mistress. . .
Twenty. . . "STOP" Mistress interupted.
Oh no i thought, what did i do now?? "Slave, the last four spanks were
too soft, don't take any shortcut!? Start over at twenty slave.? i
don't care how much your cock hurts, you must finish your
punishment.".? Thinking back, i realized that Mistress was right, and i
did start to ease off with the last few spanks.? Given how my cock
burned, i likely held back subconciously on my poor cock.? Starting
over, i clenched my teeth and finished my punishment with full effort.
Twenty cock spanks Mistress. . .
Twenty-one cock spanks Mistress. . .
Twenty two cock spanks Mistress. . .
twenty three cock spanks Mistress. . .
Twenty four cock spanks Mistress. ..
Twenty five cock spanks Mistress. . .
'That's better slave' Mistress commented.? 'How do you feel?'? Catching
my breath and trying to ignore the heat radiating from my cock.? All i
could respond with was the obvious 'my cock really hurts Mistress, but
i feel worse that i disappointed You'.?
Mistress snapped back 'Good,
but you're far from done yet. . .'
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And just like that my stomach almost turned inside out, knowing that
another punishment would come and even worse, i had disappointed
Mistress.? 'That was my last choice slave, it wasn't even in my top
two" Mistress stated flatly.? "I am very disappointed slut, and in fact
i'm going to add a new rule to the game.? Every question you get wrong,
adds 5 cock spanks to the next question.? Given that you have already
answered a question wrong in this game and this is your second question
you got wrong, you must endure 15 cock spanks for this offense.? At
this point, i wasn't even thinking about why i picked what i did, or
why Mistress didn't like it.? i knew that if i got my next guess wrong
it would be 25 spanks in total, and therefore it was crucial for me to
think ahead.
"Actually slut, i don't even want you to punish yourself yet.? I'm
going to wait and see if you are right on your next guess - if not you
will do all 25 spanks in one swoop.? You have 30 seconds to make your
next choice.? Make it a good one slave".? Trying to focus on the task
at hand, i went back to the two remaining choices.?? The CB6000 or the
7 gates of hell?? How can i choose between two such intimidating
devices?? The thought of either device simply scared me.? i don't know
if it was the pressure, the pain, or simply the confusion, but i
blurted of 'The 7 gates of hell Mistress, that is my next selection'.?
It was almost as if i was writing a multiple choice test in high school
that i simply didn't know the answer, and just guessed one to move on
to the next question.
It didn't take long for Mistress to respond, and it was clear she was
unhappy.? "YOU ARE WRONG AGAIN SLUT" she stated in all caps, which she
almost never does.? Her colorful text on her messages certainly didn't
mask her mood right now, and i could only muster up a simple 'i'm very
sorry Mistress, i'm sorry i've disappointed You and i will carry out
the punishment as deserved Mistress.
'You certainly will slut, and i want you on cam for this one.? i need to see your cock turn red.'. . .
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The next question came sooner than i expected, and turned out to be as
difficult as Mistress indicated.? Right away the links were fired my
way.
The first link was sent and instantly scared me.? The device was a
CB6000 chastity device, and it looked like it meant business.? Knowing
a little about these types of devices, i knew that this must have been
the latest and greatest version - they had worked out any loop holes of
escaping, leaving the owning Mistress completely in control.? By
reading the description, it was also improved for comfort - meaning the
unfortunate sub could be held for long periods of time, a thought that
churned my stomach.
The next item was equally worrisome, it was something called a 'seven
gates of hell chastity' device - and i found out why.? The device was
half leather, half metal.? It seemed to be a mess of metal rings and
leather straps that circled the cock and balls.? The whole device
pulled over cock and balls, with the cock sliding through the seven
rings which serve to keep the cock from getting aroused.? Much like the
first device, this device was geared for lockup, and came with all the
tools to snap a lock in place to keep the sub in line.? It sure didn't
look like a lot of fun.
The third item was the most peculiar device i'd seen, which actually
threw me for a loop.? It was called a Snake Penis Restraint, which was
a sight to behold.? It was a very simple device, but what it did to the
cock was strange and alarming.? The device consisted of two metal rings
joined together, which the cock was to snake through bending it
uncomfortably in two places.? Even the thought of getting aroused while
wearing this caused my cock to cringe in fear.? Being as bizarre and
different, painful and controlling, i knew Mistress would love this.
i enthusiastically typed my response and told Mistress that i selected
the third item.? Confidently, i awaited Mistress's response.? My
confidence was shattered when Mistress said simply: 'Slave, you
couldn't be more wrong. . .'
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'Slave, i am disappointed in you.'? My heart sank.? My cock cringed.?
My head spun.? 'You are incorrect, and therefore you will be punished.?
i hope for your sake you are not wrong for your next guess.? You must
make your next guess in the next 30 seconds'.? i was floored, and
quickly went back through the links, to help make a better decision,
although a rushed one.? After as much deliberation as one could do in
this much time with the threat of such a severe punishment, i replied
with my selection: the riding crop.? After hitting the enter key, i sat
there without moving or blinking for what seemed like an eternity.
As if to torture me even more, Mistress decided to play with my mind a
bit.? 'Slave, why did you make that selection'?? Stunned that i had to
justify my response already, before even hearing the result, i mustered
up a very nervous response of 'Well Mistress, i think that the riding
crop would be ideal for delivering punishment to my cock and/or balls.?
With it's two leather tips and the handle, i think it would be a good
mix of the pain provided by both the belt and the crop.'? Suddenly, i
seemed to convince myself that this was the device of choice, and began
questioning myself as to why i picked the crop as my first choice.
Continuing to toy with me Mistress commanded 'Before i give you the
result of your second pick, i want you to punish yourself for 10
strokes first.? And i want You to do it now slave.'? Sensing that
Mistress meant business, i immediately administrated the punishment on
myself and counted out the strokes:
One cock spank Mistress. . .
Two cock spanks Mistress. . .
Three cock spanks Mistress. . .
Four cock spanks Mistress. . .
Five cock spanks Mistress. . .
Six cock spanks Mistress. . .
Seven cock spanks Mistress. . .
Eight cock spanks Mistress. . .
Nine cock spanks Mistress. . .
Ten cock spanks Mistress. . .
i ended with a thank You to Mistress, before she finally gave me the
answer: 'Slave, it appears you got lucky on this guess'.? Before i
could feel much relief, Mistress sent another im 'But don't get to
excited slave, the next question is going to be a lot tougher. . .'
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Mistress has asked my to do an assignment for her, that is to research
and provide a summary of the differences between Ben Wa Balls or
Duotone balls.? This was a very new area for me, and i quickly found
that some of my misconceptions were false.? Originally, i believed that
Ben Wa balls were only for anal play, not vaginal play.? In fact, it
seems that the primary use is by females rather than males.? Here are
some basic descriptions:
Ben wa balls: These are usually two small and simple balls, often
hollow.? They are usually attached with some sort of string (nylon,
plastic, etc), and the balls themselves are usually made of metal.?
They provide a subtle stimulation to the vagina or anus, particularly
when the user moves around.? Interestingly, they can also be used to
strengthen the PC muscles, especially in females.? They are usually
around an inch or inch in a half in diameter.
Duotone balls: These are similar to Ben Wa balls, but seem to be newer
with 'added features'.? Instead of steel, they are usually made of of a
good quality plastic or silicone, and are hollow like ben wa balls.?
The best part of these balls are that they have a weight inside of the
balls, which produce added stimulation for the person wearing them.?
Also, because they aren't made of steel/metal, they are usually lighter
than ben wa balls.? Interestingly, some duotone balls are also
available that are battery powered, which allows the vibration to be
controlled and adjusted given added pleasure.? Duotone balls are
usually found in the same sizes as ben wa balls (1.25 - 1.5inches) in
diameter.
Overall, i believe Mistress would prefer the duotone balls.? Although
occasionally more expensive and lighter (which could be a good thing or
a bad thing), i believe Mistress would want and deserves the added
satifaction delivered by the duotone balls.? Knowing that she has an
electric vibrator, i think the duotone balls would give her a similar
but different sensation.
i hope this assignment has been informative, and there are any questions, i'd love to find out for You.
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Part 3:
i took a deep breath and stretched my arms and legs to prepare me for
whatever came next.? i ensured that i had my belt at close range, as i
had come to the realization that i would likely get at least one
question wrong.? And as soon as i was done that, Mistress was already
sending my links.? 'Slave, i will be sending you links for your first
question.? This one is going to be easy and i expect you to get it
right.'? Even though i knew expectations were high, a part of me was
excited to get going.? And then the links started coming in. . .
The first link was for a riding crop.? It was 26 inches long with a 6
inch handle.? At the end, were two painful looking leather rectangles,
which the site declared as the 'sweet spot'.? Not so sweet i thought as
i examined the device.? Thinking back to how Mistress liked to spank me
with a wooden spoon or a leather belt, i thought that this must be the
device of choice, even though i hadn't even seen the other two yet.
By the time i was done looking at the first device, Mistress had sent
me the 2nd one. ? This one was leather whip, 14 inches in length of
leather straps attached to the 6 inch handle.? The site didn't say how
many leather straps were on the whip, but there were more than i ever
wanted to feel on my cock or balls.? Knowing how much my leather belt
hurt, i could hardly imagine having to punish myself with this device
at Mistress's command.? And for that reason, i began thinking that this
might be the device that Mistress would want.? This is going to be
harder than i thought. . .
Once the 3rd link came, i knew i was in for a tough decision.? This
item was a rattan cane, 30 inches of simple but sadistic rattan wood.?
The pictures on the site showed some poor subs backside, which was
riddles with red welts from his punishments.? Given the flex of the
wood, and how thin it was, i shuddered in thinking how much it would
hurt across my cock.? i began thinking again of the wooden spoon that
Mistress liked to us on me, which gave me three ideal choices to choose
from.? How was i to decide?
'Well slave, i need your decision in one minute, starting now' Mistress
commanded.? i began questioning how easy this task was, especially
given how ideal all three devices were.? i sat there sweating my
decision, and just before my time was up, i decided to select the
rattan cane.? Perhaps just because of the sentimental reasons, but i
found it very similar to the wooden spoon Mistress first used on me.?
After notifying Mistress of my selection, i don't think i blinked for
the 30 seconds before Mistress responded.
'Well slave, is that your final answer?'? Mistress asked.? i thought
for a few seconds before responding 'Yes Mistress, that is my final
answer.'? Mistress paused before finally the validation came. . .
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Today i made a horrible mistake and Mistress gave me a stern yet fair punishment.? While attempting to chat with her this afternoon, i experienced several technical problems which left me frassled and frustrated.? During all the correspondence, i was attempting to hurry and respond quickly to the emails from Mistress to prevent her from having to wait for my responses.? In doing so, i let the frustration and panic get the better of my actions, and as a result i did not address Mistress appropriately during the exchanges.
Once we were able to chat, Mistress immediately informed me of my poor behavior. ? Given the nature of my error, and that these types of errors should not be happening by a slave who has already learned these lessons, Mistress ensured that the punishment was steep.? To begin, i was forced to kneel on the floor, with my hands behind my back and wait for Mistress to return to the chat.? Mistress did not tell me how long she'd be gone for, but instructed me to stay still for however long she deemed necessary.? While she was gone for 15min, it seemed like hours.? My knees and shoulders ached from kneeling still for such a length of time, and i was very relieved when Mistress returned to the chat and allowed me to sit.? It was very hard having the most wonderful thing in the world (chatting with Mistress) taken away from me, but the punishment was necessary.
? My punishment was not finished yet though, as i was also to perform 30 cock spanks to myself.? This time, i was told to perform 15 with my belt, and 15 with my wooden spoon.? After the first 15 with my belt, i could tell i was going to have a tough time, as my cock was already in a lot of pain.? The 15 spanks with the spoon made it incrementally worse, and in the end my cock is bright red from base to tip, and hurts to even touch it.
However, the punishment was fair overall.? Mistress always is fair.? i was reminded that in any circumstance, no matter what happens, i must always address Mistress appropriately, with respect and honor.
i would like to take this chance to apologize once again to Mistress, and to thank Her for Her continued support and discipline while i grow as a sub.? Love always,
bill
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Part 2:
Suddenly, a wave of panic hit me - what had i committed to?? What is
this game?? What would the punishment be if i fail? As i sat paralyzed
in fear, Mistress began laying out the rules as if She had been
planning this all alone.? 'Listen up sub, i'm only going to go
through the rules once.? You may ask questions if you need to, but if
you ask a question I've already answered you will be punished.? Do you
understand?'.? i responded with a meek 'Yes Mistress, You have my full
attention'.
'Good, now here is what's going to happen.? i will send You links to
some toys at an online BDSM store, there will be 3 links, each linking
to a device.? You are to examine each device carefully and think of me
and my preferences, and tell me which device you think I would like the
best.? Is that clear slave?'.? I responded with an enthusiastic 'Yes
Mistress, that is very clear', thinking that this actually sounds like
fun although i knew that there would be more to it.? Mistress continued
'Good.? If you get a question right, then you will keep track of all
the questions you got right.? At the end of the game, I will determine
if you should be able to cum, or if you have to wait further.'? I
really liked that part, and couldn't wait to get going.? However, the
bad news was about to come.? 'Of course, if you are wrong slave, you
will be punished.? If you guess wrong the first time, you will get to
guess again.? If you get it right the 2nd time, you will be punished 10
cock spanks for getting it wrong the first time.? Is that clear sub?'?
i thought to myself thinking, that is fair, i can handle that and
responded 'Yes Mistress, that is fair as always.? What happens if i am
wrong on the second guess?'? I asked.? Mistress countered with 'You
better hope you aren't wrong twice.? If you are, then that is another
10 cock spanks, 20 in total for that question.? You said you knew me
well, and therefore you will pay severely if you have lied to me.'? i
gulped at the thought of 20 cock spanks, let alone if i fail several
questions.? Before i responded, Mistress continued 'Of course, these
are just the minimums, and if you are wrong for a question that i think
is easy, i may want more for a punishment.'?
i sat in shock knowing
that the price was high for being wrong.? 'Any questions slave?? Are
You ready to begin?' Mistress asked.
i looked down at my bound cock and balls, wondering what was in store
for them.? Taking a deep breath, i typed 'Yes Mistress, i am ready to
begin'.? She quickly repsonded'Good, because i have a lot of questions for you to answer. . .'
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Part 1:
i
was so excited to finally meet up with Mistress again.? It has been so
long since our last session, and in that session i was forced to give
myself about 50 cock spanks and therefore i was eager to redeem
myself.? i could hardly contain my excitement which made it seem like
my PC take forever to boot up!? After launching Yahoo chat, i was
thrilled to see Mistress online waiting for me!? i instantly initiated
'my routine', removing my clothes and putting them neatly in the
corner.? i pushed the chair out of the way and knelt down in front of
the computer.? As a final step in the routine, i grabbed my two ropes
and bound my cock and balls.? i used the entire length of one rope to
bind up my balls, tying several loops around each ball separately, and
then using the remaining length to tie a figure eight around my balls.?
They were tied fairly tight, tight enough to cause a constant source of
pain to remind me who the balls belonged to.? Just thinking about the
chat made my cock fairly hard, and i tied my cock up as tight as i
could with the second rope.? Being a shorter rope, it still left some
of my cock exposed, almost like it was anticipating some punishing
strokes later on.
Once
we started chatting, we exchanged the usual pleasantries and i was very
happy to hear that she was feeling better after fighting an ailment.? i
made sure that Mistress knew how concerned i was, and asked her several
questions.? 'You sure ask a lot of questions slave' Mistress remarked.?
'i apologize Mistress, i just want to get to know You better, thats
all' I replied.? There was a silent pause for a few seconds before
Mistress responded: 'Do you think you know me well slave?'.? i was a
little suprised by the nature of the question and thought briefly
before responding.? 'Yes Mistress, i believe i do'.? Mistress instantly
wrote back 'You believe slave?'.? i knew Mistress hated it when i
responded with words such as believe, try, or ok - anything that was
uncertain or uncommitted and quickly corrected myself: 'i am sorry
Mistress, i meant to say that i do indeed know You quick well, sorry
for the bad response.'? All Mistress responded to that was a simple
'hmmmmmmmm'.? i sat there wondering what was going on in her head.? She
soon responded with 'Are you willing to bet on it slave?'.? That
question knocked me back as i didn't know ow to take that response.?
Hundreds of thoughts filled my head.? What kind of bet?? Did she doubt
me?? Do we have different expectations?? Knowing that i had already
told her that i did know her well, i thought i had to keep going down
this path.? And since i really did think i knew her well, maybe i'd
surprise and impress her!?
i replied with a less than confident 'Yes Mistress, i would be willing
to bet on it.'.? Making me feel even more nervous, Mistress replied
'Are you sure slave, even it it comes at the price of much pain on your
cock and balls'?? Again, it was too late to back out now, and i simply
could not disappoint Mistress again, so i replied a simple 'Yes
Mistress'.
And with that, Mistress replied 'Good, then let the games begin. . .'
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i would like to start this journal entry by thanking Mistress Latina for her patience and discipline.? i just completed a session (partially on webcam) with her where i made several mistakes which upset and disappointed my Mistress.? My first mistake was in not addressing my Mistress properly.? What made the situation even worse, i was unaware of my negligence, and therefore could not articulate my mistake when asked to by my Mistress.? The result was two sets of 10 belt spanks across my cock, which was already bound by rope (as were my balls for part of the session).
The punished was significant but very fair.? i've usually been pretty good about addressing my Mistress properly, however both my Mistress and myself have a high level of excellance expected, and therefore every mistake must be corrected to ensure that excellance is achieved.? The punishment reminded me that i must always focus on my actions toward my Mistress.? In addition, after making a mistake i must carefully retrace my actions and ensure that every possibility of mis-course has been thought through.
Mistress, i humbly apologize for the mistakes i've made, and i sincerely thank You for delivering a fair punishment.? Thank You.
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