bibear4bdsm

I've been really tempted to go to a bath house or gay resort. I'm really turned on by the idea of being somewhere where everyone is there for sex and looking for partners. Does any one now of any really good ones?

Sorry that I haven't written in a while. I need to think of some new scenarios, but I also need some one to act them out with.

My first homosexual urges/arrousals occured when I thought I was in trouble or being lectured to by a coach or male teacher. I didn't fully realize this about myself or that i was bisexual until an experience with a professor opened my eyes. Before this I had always convinced my self I was just nervous and that I wasn't really aroused, but this time I couldn't deny the truth.  I had been called into my advisors office after a night class with him.  I don't know why but I was extremely nervous .  As he started talking to me and asking questions I realized I wasn't in trouble or anything but  I started to get a little "wood.'' This made me even more nervous luckily I had a portfolio with me that blocked his view. I kept getting harder and harder and more and more aroused. I was so hot and bothered that I began to sweat. At one point it began to throb and I thought I was going to come right in front of him. Luckliy we finished and I was able to get downstairs and into a rest room before anything happened.  I went into a stall, undid my pants, and sat down, and tried to calm down.  Seconds later through the crack of the stall I saw my advisor walk in and any headway I made in calming down disappeared. I got harder and more aroused than I had ever been before, I felt like the room was cranked over a 100 degrees and I felt like I was on fire.  When i heard him unzip his pants and begin urinating I alsmost lost it. I had passed the point of no return and knew I was going to come but I was able to hold it off untill he left the restroom and I heard him go through the second door and into the stairwell. Then I lost it and came the hardest I have ever came in my life. It seemed like I came forever and eventually I could here someone moaning. It took a minute before I realized I was then one moaning and I began to come all over again. Evenvually I calmed down but  I was in a haze the rest of the night as I made my way back to my dorm room and jacked off all over my self until I passed out. I woke up the next morning to my sheets and I cover in dried cum. I had never woken up so happy. I don't know how many time over the next week or so I found myself fantasizing about him and needing to relieve myself quite often. It was a week or two before I had realized that I had only been fantasizing oly about him and just how hot and bothered I was.  I would find out a week or so later, at the end of the year, that this professor was leaving the program to take on another job.  I wish i would have had the guts to make a move that last week of classes.

I have never had anal and would like my first time to be in a bound and forced situation. Any one of my fantasies wuld be a great way to "break me in."

One of the earliest sexual fantasies that I remember was being rerstrained by a male/female couple and used. At the time i wasn't sure what had occured in the dream, it wasn't like I was being raped necessarily but it wasn't like I was consenting either. 

I seem to be having a lot of fantasies about being with multiple men at a time lately. I haven't had too many fantasies like that in the past, but since writing the other fantasies in this journal when ever I fantasize about men I'm fantasizing about at least two men at a time.

Here is another force fantasy of mine. I kind of have a thing for forced play.

??I had been staying in the city during my round of interviews and I was glad to finally be headed home. It was late at night and I was travelling through a part of the state I wasn't familiar with when out of nowhere red and blue lights. I had no idea if I had been spedding but knowing me I probably had been. The officer came to my window and asked for my liscence and registration, you know the drill. He was gone for a while, but when he came back he had me step out of my vehicle and place my hands on the hood and spread my legs. He frisked me thoroughly, well alot more thoroughly than you ever saw them on tv. I asked him what the problem was, but he never responded, he simply handcuffed me and led me to the back of his squad car. His partner was out of the squad car and both doors are open I continue asking what i am being arrested for but still I recieve no answer.I am thrown face first into the back seat of the squad carbut before I cna roll over or sit up I am pinned down by the other officer. A seconds and alot of expletives later I realize whts happening as my belt and pants are unfastened. I struggle as my shoes and pants are pulled off, "better stop resisting arrest there young man" says the cop. "What the F$#@" I scream at them, "Your raping me you %^&." "No" the officer pinning me down said "We caught you turning tricks and if you struggle were going to add resisting arrest, assult on an officer, and I'm sure we can find some drugs back at the station to plant on you too." I was literally in a state of shock and my legs began to quiver as I felt his hairy legs slide between mine. "We'll drop the charges but only if you play nice" said the the officer pinning me down. "Doesn't mean we won't be keeping some evidence around if you decide to talk though" said the officer that was behind me as he thrust his cock into my ass. They took turns for the next hour or so I just went limp physically and mentally after awhile and wasn't sure of anything that was going on except for the occasional flash from a camera. They eventually had their fill, got out of the car and got dressed. They ordered me out of the car and to get dressed as they got back in the front of their squad car. "If we're ever over your way will be sure to stop in for some fun, a good #$%^ like you we'll have to keep track of," they said as they drove off.  I drove slowly all the way home.

This is a scenario I thought would be great to use, but its not something I would do with just anyone or with out alot of trust and experience with a dom first.

I am used by a man or two men (a Dom couple I guess).  Against my will, I am kept outside in a barn/stable shackled at the wrists and ankles, and collared.  All of the restraints are metal, inescapable, connected with chains, and the collar is chained to the floor or wall. I can lie down somewhat comfortably, but I can't get up much past my hands and knees. When my users/tormentors come I beg and struggle against them, so they place a bench underneath me that they fasten me to so I can't struggle.  I am used orally and anally, and they make sure to come on me instead of in me. When they are done they remove the gag and bench and urinate on me. I am left to lie in the dirt covered in cum and piss until they return. This happens a couple of times during the day and night and I am left to sleep like this for the night.  I am awoken the next morning by having a bucket of cold water thrown on me.  My chain is untethered from the barn/stable and I am led outside where I am chained again. This time I'm chained where I am standing up, my hands chained high above my head and my feet where they can move only an inch or two in any direction. I am sprayed down with cold water from a hose and then lathered up with a lot of soap.  I am given an enema and my teeth are brushed.  Next, they place a nozzle on the hose so that the water comes out with enough force that it stings as they clean the lather off of me. They make sure to give extra time to sensitive areas for added insult. After I'm clean, my hand and feet shackles are left on but unchained from their current location, and my collar's chain is chained down with enough slack that I can stand up and lean against something. I am given a lot of water, a very small bit of food, and allowed the chance to relieve myself without having to do it where I was laying. I beg then to let me go and they refuse, strip down, and order me to pleasure them. When I refuse I am led back to the barn/stable and process is started over.