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MistressLavinia
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New sub with developing tastes. i am not available 24/7 but would like to find a Domina that needs a play thing now and again. i enjoy giving up control and putting myself in Your hands. Not into heavy pain...i.e. light spanking is ok, love cbt...still learning. i am yours to mold as you see fit...i am Married...
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I have had the woman of my dreams handle me like a toy, a piece of meat. She controlled, my penis, my balls, my mind. I don't know if I will ever be the same, the craving to worship her pussy is overwhelming and I want her to take my balls in hand, for they are hers! She is beautiful, with the most wonderful cleavage and nipples...her pussy is the nectar I crave and to slip my tongue into her ass! mmm....
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It is difficult being a newbie to all of this, especially with my given situation where my time is limited. I read many of the other journals and see that most want someone that is available to them at their whim and while i certainly understand that, it just is not possible for me in my station in life. I want a partner that can work with my schedule and all of the other demands in my life, but when we get together i am completely in Her hands. i will do what i am told for that time, but then i must get back to my vanilla day to day existence...
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My first journal entry...
It has been an awakening to find that i enjoy my kinky side like i do. i don't remember ever looking at bdsm porn or fantasizing about it, but when i had an acquaintance on the internet suggest that she was curious about it, i dove in. First the research; yes gratuitous porn that drove me to mastrurbatory frenzy. What were these things that people did to each other and I definitely liked the idea of women being in charge. Soon I graduated to the need to actually be in a scene...albeit a professional one. I soon found out what cfnm meant as the most beautiful sensuous Mistress had be remove all my clothes. I then discovered the bondage portion of the show...hands and feet bound so i was totally at Her mercy. I liked that... Then some very painful nipple torture which was soothed by the nipple/pacifier put in my mouth...Then the CBT...i had inquired as to what that entailed, exactlly. Well, she showed me and i found it more than interesting that i would spread my legs wider so she could have access to do with them as she wished...
Now, very often in fact, i long for that scene again. It picques me and puts me in another space...needing to serve someone, and being a sexual doormat...
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