50 shades of pissed off

do not judge a book by the cover 

i am your friend 

i am your lover 

mistakes from the past 

forever they last 

depression set s in 

and your enemies win 

you look in my eye s

and what do you see

the person I am 

or what they ve made me

years of conditioning

forced upon thoughts 

no mind of my own 

its rightfully your s

you are who you are

or so they say

not what ur made into 

from day to day 

born sweet and innocent 

corrupted since then 

to live life on earth 

then be born again 

just 17

i remember a beating,

 so very well.

like a scene form a horror

a movie from hell

thrown from the door way 

right through the hall

into the living room

crashed into the wall

i fell to the floor

and rolled into a ball

then came the kicking

my head legs and chest

but that was nt all

cos now came the best

away to the kitchen 

he slowly walked

slut slag bitch whore

was how he talked

up off the floor

i quickly arose

trying to wipe 

the blood from my nose

then in the doorway

what on earth 

did i see

my stepdad

with a knife 

staring blankly at me 

with a flash of the blade 

and a glint in his eye 

i thought that i 

was going to die 

it bounced off the floor

and just missed my face

 i closed my eyes 

and thanked god 

for his grace

not a tear did i shed 

i could not cry 

dont ask the question 

i do not know 

why?

come on people 

its not funny 

we've got to save the council money  

so if your  be careful what you eat 

pulling your bin 

wont be a feat 

don't have a barbie

don't have a bash

then you want make 

quite so much trash

the less we eat

the less we drink

our bins will be lighter 

don't you think 

let your hedges over grow

and the grass don't even mow 

soon our area

will be a sight

but we must help the council

with their plight

oh cant you see

that it will be heaven

to pull out our bin s 

for collection 

at seven

soon it ll be the winter time

and for this season

i can not wait 

for with my bin 

ill learn to skate 

so inflated taxes 

we will pay 

to always let them 

have their way 

when im down 

and feeling low 

i think of a place 

that id like to go 

somewhere the sun s 

always shinning so bright 

somewhere the stars 

always twinkle at night 

i know that your there 

just waiting for me 

and one of these days 

i ll be with you, you'll see 

its a place you can hear 

birds singing all day 

of strolling through fields 

and then making hay 

a place you can run

barefoot through the sand

and walk together

always holding your hand 

the place i describe 

is all in the mind 

a place known as heaven 

that one day i ll find 

high above the pale blue sky 

where the angel s flutter by 

everybody s one true love 

is living in this land above 

i know when i get there 

how happy i ll be 

for ever able 

to sit on your knee

my head i will lay 

upon your chest 

and the feeling i ll have 

will be the best 

your heart and mine 

always beating in time 

and from that day 

with you i will stay