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"Many persons have a wrong idea of what constitutes true happiness. It is not attained through self-gratification but through fidelity to a worthy purpose."
- Helen Keller

I'm not perfect, nor do I seek perfection. However, I am comfortable with myself and the decisions that I make. I certainly hope you have the same confidence to bring to the table.

I do not believe in stereotypes, nor do I choose to represent stereotypes. While I define myself as a slave; I've learned that most immediately make judgments about me that are not only incorrect but limit their ability to interact with me.

To start, I'm not a slave because I lack the ability to hold a steady job that meets my needs. I don't lack appropriate management skills for all areas of life. I'm not lost or wandering the land, unsure of what I want.

What I am is a unique woman who actually knows exactly what she wants. I have found that service completes me, however, I am no pushover unable of standing alone. Service is not strictly limited to following orders without question. A slave brings balance to a home along with intelligence. While a Master will often set their expectations for the slaves, the burden of how to fulfill the expectations resides solely on the girl herself. Trust that I am more than capable of rising to those occasions as they are presented.

I am a bootblack, and I love it. There are definite set patterns and routines to leather care that I find amazingly relaxing and soothing, especially in times of stress. There are also enough people wearing boots that the occasional challenge will be thrown my way to liven up the task, for which I am also grateful. Should you have any questions about bootblacking, I'm always happy to assist with teaching, questions, or finding your own niche.

I am a decently skilled cook and call my kitchen another of my places of relaxation. I cook everything from simple to those meals that would often be reserved for special occasions. I do cater for weddings and small events and find it to be a wonderful outlet for creative energy.

I am a little, though it is not as often seen. I understand very well the reasoning behind my choice, and embrace the parts I need to complete myself. I can certainly be found coloring when stressed, or watching a movie when I need to forget things that are bothering me. I do have stuffed animals, one of whom sleeps with me at night.

I am a service-oriented slave. This does not mean I cannot enjoy play; it does, however, mean that it is not my primary focus. I find myself drawn to relationships centered around D/s, and most often more of a 24/7 nature. I don't take off my submission in the morning to put on clothes; I simply alter my behavior around those whom are not part of the lifestyle. I enjoy chores and tasks that are scheduled and to be repeated. I find happiness in order that I don't typically assign to my own every day habits.

I do venture out into the local community as well as meet others for coffee. I'm certainly not mean - and definitely not of the stature to be overly terrifying. Feel free to drop me a line to chat.



"
No pessimist ever discovered the secret of the stars or sailed an uncharted land, or opened a new doorway for the human spirit."
- Helen Keller



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Self-pity is our worst enemy and if we yield to it, we can never do anything good in the world."
- Helen Keller
12/3/2010 5:12:54 AM
Please respect my privacy at this time.  I do not wish to have messages telling me how wonderful you are, or how perfect you are for me. I do not seek.
10/20/2010 5:08:09 AM

Today is spirit day - a day of support to end bullying that has led to the suicide of many teens because of sexual orientation. Today, I challenge you to lead a life and fill your home with no hate. God commanded that you love others as He loved you and that He was the only one worthy of judging anyone. As you go for...ward today, make a conscious effort to build a brighter tomorrow by eliminating hate in the world.

3/6/2010 5:42:38 AM

There's a raging sea
Right in front of me
Wants to pull me in
Bring me to my knees
So let the waters rise
If You want them to
I will follow You
I will follow You
I will follow You

2/22/2010 5:50:28 PM

Happily under the consideration of my partner of 7+ months.  All offers for friendship are still welcomed.  I do love to chat with intelligent people on various subjects.

11/8/2009 10:16:13 AM
I don’t trust myself to be… enough. To deserve you. There’s nothing about me that could hold you.


9/21/2009 5:28:04 PM

"Life is a succession of lessons which must be lived to be understood."
                            -Helen Keller

No one ever understands why things hurt - or why they feel good.  There's no grand method for knowing the outcome before you take the chance.  Such is life ...

In 3 months, I've covered a lot of emotional ground. I'm not finished, I doubt I ever will be.  But I've grown ... as a granddaughter, as a daughter, as a sister, as a cousin, as a niece, as a girlfriend, as a friend, as a human. 
To everyone who has not yet lost someone they loved, I hope you're ready.  Because the effects are long lasting. The pain while not endless is enduring.  And your life is forever changed.

9/6/2009 11:29:44 AM

Fetish photo shoot prints now up for sale.  See link below for details:

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5/30/2009 6:07:58 AM
All tied up at the moment - Friends Only.
4/1/2009 9:39:24 PM
Another day - another dollar. Work was a little boring today but I luckily at least had some time between the monotony to think. And - as always - when I have time to think my thoughts drift to weird things. Today I thought about a common phrase within the lifestyle: "under consideration". I must hear the phrase 5 - 6 times a week and I've never really thought of how odd a phrase it really is. The basic meaning is of course that a new relationship is being tested before becoming Master/slave or Dominant/submissive. The odd part of the phrase though comes in comparison to our vanilla counterparts. When a vanilla couple decide to go on dates and test out a possible relationship - they're dating. However, when kinky people do the same - we're very hesitant to call it a relationship.We instead stress the fact that we're just considering the possibility - testing the waters. It's almost as though people think that denying they're in a relationship will allow them to avoid the feelings that often come along with a new relationship and would cloud their vision normally. Yet ... it doesn't. Under consideration - collared - just dating - just fucking .... it's ultimately all the same in that there are feelings and emotional attachments. But as for me ... I'm never under consideration. I'm in a relationship and we'll just have to see where that goes.
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 Age: 22
 Chicago, Illinois