6/22/2022 11:28:45 AM: MISTAKE IN PROFILE NO DOMINANT MEN. ONLY SLAVES AND SUBMISSIVES WILL GET A RESPONSE

6/19/2022 8:18:16 PM: Why do people that could be a near perfect match seem to do everything possible not to make it happen? Also, Why are only 6 questions so difficult to answer? Dont they realize this relationship hopefully is for life?

6/18/2022 7:52:43 PM: What Has Made Me Who I Am So many on these sites but who are they really? Who am I? Many don’t care as they are searching for casual meetings but I am not. I am looking for my Slave...my Submissive…my ending. And though I may play or meet many frogs to find my end I prefer they know about my past and present here. No its impossible to write everything and a few I will share along the way but here goes.   In late 2019 I was going to retire to Ecuador so I sold my car, started the visa process and I was suppose to leave in May 2020. But the virus closed down the border. Everything came to a halt.  I had sold off over half my possessions and had to start over again and re-sign my lease. I have always been very active. I have traveled extensively and mountain biked all across the US. I did yoga and taught hip hop street style dance in Korea with the kids are my school. I have always been the picture of health. In fact I have not had the flu in 30 years so I feel blessed as I never got vaccinated for the flu. I am also not vaccinated for Covid19 as of yet. Being quarantined and living alone I have not felt the need as I have everything delivered plus also I am not feeling comfortable with the idea of a vaccine with so little study. Though I am not religious I do believe in God and believe somehow this is the beginning of what is to come in the BOOK OF REVELATION. The world has either gone crazy or this virus simply brought out how crazy people were all along. I believe it was the latter 😝. Still I have always rarely took any kind of medication much less irin. I have always suffered it through. While in South Korea I started having back pain. I was working constantly over a computer as an English Teacher. I had grown up in the Deaf Community and around fighting and alcoholics so I had very few role models. My brother and I raised ourselves so when I become an adult made poor choices and trusted the wrong people.  I had facial deformities that got worse as I got older, kids made fun of me for that and my hand-me-downs and adults made it clear I was not Miss America. I was by then a single mom a few days before my 22 birthday from a rape at a party and was trying to find my way as my parents and family were over 100 miles away and very destructive role models. I wanted more. So at 23 years of age I started the long process of surgeries.  All during a period in time where this field of surgery was in its infancy and  while raising a child as a single mom with no child support. Fast forward to 2007 while in Asia all this would come back to haunt me as I believe my back pains that went way after doing yoga but progressed and was later diagnosed as a mild case of cervical dystonia was the result of all my surgeries. I had had my final surgery in 2003 at Baylor Medical in Dallas Texas. Of all my surgeries it was the hardest to recover from. I was also getting older as we all are and going to Korea I forgot to balance my life between work and play. So I suffered my decision. I had also been in a traumatic accident in my 20s. A few weeks after my first surgery. A friend of mine that was my ride home from a club ran off with her boyfriend leaving me stranded at 2am. Her friend who I barely knew offered me a ride back to my car.  I would soon regret that decision. After I rejected his advances he sexually assaulted me and said he was going to teach me a lesson. He veered up a dirt mountain road. I panicked, jumped from the car and the car ran over me. I jumped up and ran to the nearest house who called the police. They took me to the hospital where I was so bloodied they thought I would die…fast forward the court did nothing to him saying I had no case as he did nothing physically to to me and he lied about the rest. That was the typical courts in West Virginia. The impact from the jump crushed my right cheek bone and ruined my 1st facial surgery. So fast forward that may have played a factor in my dystonia. In 2016 I had been saving for extensive dental work including dental implants (no I am not toothless)😋 But in 2017 to 2019 I had to go on leave from my job as my neck spasms slowly progressed. My job required a yearly DOT Certificate and I could no longer pass the physical due to the lack of range of motion in my neck . I was unable to work. I have a pension from retiring at 47 from my previous job plus I tutored American Sign Language but it was the hardest struggle of my life. I also gained weight mostly around the middle but I still looked good in my clothes. I finally took my SS so now I am doing Ok but had it continued I could’ve ended up homeless. I also have free healthcare for life from my retirement job of 22 years and will get Medicare this month. I have decided to restart my ASL Business strictly online starting in March 2022. I still have all my material from my classes and with some tweeking going online should be easy. With all the online learning and ASL being an excepted high school and foreign language credit in most schools it seems like a good plan. If not I will be fine as I am a survivor. I have a yoga and dance studio in my house and have slowly started my yoga again. I have issues with balance with difficult yoga poses sometimes so we will see. I am also looking at rowing machines as they are low impact but great for the whole body. I want the HYDROW ROWER but it is really expensive along with a required monthly membership so I may start out with the Concept2 RowErg. Both are expensive. I really want the HYDROW but needing a new laptop for my business I must make wise decisions. I also like to pay cash to stay out of debt. Many keep secrets or they only tell bits and pieces of who they were or are now..but if someone truly doesn't know you flaws and all how can they truly accept you. We are all flawed and a product of our past. I grew up in a really bad home so I have learned everything the hard way. I am a flawed human being. So as my life continues searching this has been some of my life up till now. If that scares people off then I am grateful as I have simply dodged another of the many bullets I have encountered and will continue to do so in the future.  

6/18/2022 7:24:46 PM: UPDATE TO MY PROFILE ANSWER ALL NUMBERED QUESTIONS TO GET A RESPONSE I am looking for a life partner, so I am not here to chit chat. I have been on here before and all there seems to be are month long chit chatters that have no life. I don't want to be your friend as I am here for one purpose only. If you don't meet my criteria please don't waste time. Also read my journal   FOR THE LOVE OF EVERYTHING HOLY, READ CAREFULLY AND ANSWER ALL PLUS PHOTOS IN ONE MESSAGE BEFORE CONTACTING ME AS YOUR INABILITY TO UPLOAD PHOTOS WHEN I HAVE NEVER HAD AN ISSUE IS NOT MY PROBLEM. MY COMMENTS AND QUESTIONS BELOW ARE BASED ON MY EXPERIENCES HERE SO FAR. IF ANYTHING IS LEFT OUT I WILL NOT RESPOND   1. ARE YOU FINANCIALLY SECURE AND HAVE YOUR OWN HEALTH BENEFITS ETC. AND WILL YOU BE ABLE TO SUPPORT US? WHAT DEBTS DO YOU HAVE AND OBLIGATIONS? DO YOU OWN YOUR OWN HOME? ARE YOU HELPING ANY GROWN CHILDREN,EX-WIVES OR OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS? ANYTHING THAT COULD AFFECT US?   NO I DONT NEED A SUGAR DADDY AS I HAVE DONE WELL ALL MY LIFE, HAVE MY OWN HEALTH BENEFITS ETC. BUT LETS BE CLEAR... I WILL NOT BE YOUR SUGAR MOMMY EITHER   2. DO YOU HAVE ANY KIND OF CRIMINAL RECORD?   YOU MUST HAVE NO CRIMINAL RECORD, LIVE IN AND OWN YOUR OWN HOME AND WILL NEED TO PROVE IT BEFORE WE MEET ALONG WITH A DRIVERS LICENSE. I SAY THIS BECAUSE RENTING IS UNSTABLE AND I WANT A LIFE PARTNER THAT IS IN A STABLE SITUATION   3. HOW OLD ARE YOU?   I WANT SOMEONE 55 OR OLDER, SO NO YOU WILL NOT BE AN EXCEPTION.   4. I MUST SEE A RECENT, VERY CLEAR FACE AND BODY PICTURE CLOSE UP WITH NO SUNGLASSES IN YOUR MESSAGE TO ME AND NOT ON YOUR PROFILE AS THOSE MAY NOT BE RECENT.   IF YOU CANNOT SHOW YOUR FACE AND A FULL BODY PHOTO IN YOUR MESSAGE TO ME IN THE ORIGINAL MESSAGE I WILL NOT RESPOND AS I WILL NOT USE EMAILS OR TEXTS OR RESPOND ASKING YOU FOR THEM   5. WHAT EXACTLY ARE YOU LOOKING FOR AND EXPECT FROM A RELATIONSHIP WITH ME?   PLEASE DON'T SEND ME ANYTHING ABOUT YOUR PAST OR A BUNCH OF FANTASIE BECAUSE IF YOU NEED TO JERK OF DO IT SOMEWHERE ELSE. IF YOU DONT SAY EXACTLY WHAT YOU ARE LOOKING FOR AND WHAT YOU HAVE TO OFFER ME IN YOUR MESSAGE, YOU WONT GET A RESPONSE AS I SIMPLY DONT HAVE TIME TO CHIT CHAT OR BE YOUR FRIEND AS I HAVE ENOUGH OF THOSE   WHILE TALKING TO YOU, I WILL CONTINUE TO TALK AND CONSIDER OTHERS UNTIL WE MAKE A COMMITMENT BY MOVING IN TOGETHER AS I DONT LIVE ON PROMISES. I WILL ALSO NOT RUSH TO MARRY UNTIL I AM SURE   6. DO YOU HAVE THE MEANS AND ABILITY TO BRING ME TO YOU TO SEE WHERE WE WILL LIVE? AGAIN ONLY AFTER YOU VERIFY WHO YOU ARE   IF YOU ARE IN VIRGINIA WE MUST MEET WITHIN 2 WEEKS AND OUT OF STATE WITHIN A MONTH OR I WILL MOVE ON BECAUSE HOW DO YOU EXPECT US TO WORK IF ITS THAT HARD TO EVEN MEET IN THAT TIME FRAME. IF THERE ARE THINGS GOING ON IN YOUR LIFE TO PREVENT THAT YOU NEED TO GET YOUR LIFE IN ORDER FIRST BEFORE CONTACTING ME MUCH LESS ANYONE ELSE.  AFTER WE MEET IF WE DO NOT MOVE FORWARD SEEING EACH OTHER AND MAKING SOLID PLANS I WILL CONTINUE SEEING OTHERS AS I DO NOT LIVE ON PROMISES.    MOST ON THESE SITES SEEM TO EITHER BE DESPERATE, UNSTABLE, HAVE A CRIMINAL RECORD, FINANCIAL ISSUES,   ARE LIVING IN AN ONLINE FANTASY WORLD, HIDING THINGS THAT COULD AFFECT A RELATIONSHIP LIKE MONEY AND OTHER ISSUES AND I DONT GET IT AS IT WOULD ALL COME OUT EVENTUALLY.   ALSO WHO I FUCKED BEFORE YOU IS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS UNLESS I DECIDE TO TELL YOU AS THAT SEEMS TO BE A QUESTION I GET ALOT.   JUST DECIDING YOU WANT A RELATIONSHIP WITH ME BASED ON MY PHOTOS AND NOT MY MIND,WRITINGS, WALL AND HERE IS A RED FLAG SO READ MY DAM PROFILE, WALL AND WRITING FIRST TO SEE IF WE MAY BE A MATCH.   ALL NEGATIVE COMMENTS WILL BE IGNORED AS THEY SAY ALL ABOUT YOU AND NOTHING ABOUT ME  EXPERIENCE SO FAR... There is seriously something wrong with people on these sites that they cannot do the simplest of things such as go down a dam list and answer each question completely and honestly as all these things will come out in the end. How the hell do any of you get through a job interview as they ask for similar criteria? Do you send that also in bits and pieces?  If they ask for CLEAR photos of your face and body why are you either omitting them or wearing sunglasses? Would they hire you? As a submissive would you be able to even follow directions? Even if we are lucky enough to get everything then you ghost??? Jesus    

6/17/2022 6:34:09 PM: If you have obligations to children and/or an ex spouse why hide it. The people on these sites seem to leave these things out and it is like pulling teeth to find out all their dirty laundry. Why??? Don't they realize it will all come out eventually???